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Title: Manon Lescaut

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MANON LESCAUT

by

Abbé Prévost

I II III IV V VI VII VIII IX X XI
XII XIII

I

Why did he love her? Curious fool, be still!
Is human love the fruit of human will?
BYRON.

Just about six months before my departure for Spain, I first met the
Chevalier des Grieux. Though I rarely quitted my retreat, still the interest I
felt in my child's welfare induced me occasionally to undertake short
journeys, which, however, I took good care to abridge as much as possible.

I was one day returning from Rouen, where I had been, at her request, to
attend a cause then pending before the Parliament of Normandy, respecting
an inheritance to which I had claims derived from my maternal grandfather.
Having taken the road by Evreux, where I slept the first night, I on the
following day, about dinner-time, reached Passy, a distance of five or six
leagues. I was amazed, on entering this quiet town, to see all the inhabitants
in commotion. They were pouring from their houses in crowds, towards the
gate of a small inn, immediately before which two covered vans were

drawn up. Their horses still in harness, and reeking from fatigue and heat,
showed that the cortege had only just arrived. I stopped for a moment to
learn the cause of the tumult, but could gain little information from the
curious mob as they rushed by, heedless of my enquiries, and hastening
impatiently towards the inn in the utmost confusion. At length an archer of
the civic guard, wearing his bandolier, and carrying a carbine on his
shoulder, appeared at the gate; so, beckoning him towards me, I begged to
know the cause of the uproar. "Nothing, sir," said he, "but a dozen of the
frail sisterhood, that I and my comrades are conducting to Havre-de-Grace,
whence we are to ship them for America. There are one or two of them
pretty enough; and it is that, apparently, which attracts the curiosity of these
good people."

I should have passed on, satisfied with this explanation, if my attention
had not been arrested by the cries of an old woman, who was coming out of
the inn with her hands clasped, and exclaiming:

"A downright barbarity!—A scene to excite horror and compassion!"
"What may this mean?" I enquired. "Oh! sir; go into the house yourself,"
said the woman, "and see if it is not a sight to rend your heart!" Curiosity
made me dismount; and leaving my horse to the care of the ostler, I made
my way with some difficulty through the crowd, and did indeed behold a
scene sufficiently touching.

Among the twelve girls, who were chained together by the waist in two
rows, there was one, whose whole air and figure seemed so ill-suited to her
present condition, that under other circumstances I should not have
hesitated to pronounce her a person of high birth. Her excessive grief, and
even the wretchedness of her attire, detracted so little from her surpassing
beauty, that at first sight of her I was inspired with a mingled feeling of
respect and pity.

She tried, as well as the chain would permit her, to turn herself away, and
hide her face from the rude gaze of the spectators. There was something so
unaffected in the effort she made to escape observation, that it could but
have sprung from natural and innate modesty alone.

As the six men who escorted the unhappy train were together in the
room, I took the chief one aside and asked for information respecting this
beautiful girl. All that he could supply was of the most vague kind. "We
brought her," he said, "from the Hospital, by order of the lieutenant-general
of police. There is no reason to suppose that she was shut up there for good
conduct.

"I have questioned her often upon the road; but she persists in refusing
even to answer me. Yet, although I received no orders to make any
distinction between her and the others, I cannot help treating her differently,
for she seems to me somewhat superior to her companions. Yonder is a
young man," continued the archer, "who can tell you, better than I can, the
cause of her misfortunes. He has followed her from Paris, and has scarcely
dried his tears for a single moment. He must be either her brother or her
lover."

I turned towards the corner of the room, where this young man was
seated. He seemed buried in a profound reverie. Never did I behold a more
affecting picture of grief. He was plainly dressed; but one may discover at
the first glance a man of birth and education. As I approached him he rose,
and there was so refined and noble an expression in his eyes, in his whole
countenance, in his every movement, that I felt an involuntary impulse to
render him any service in my power. "I am unwilling to intrude upon your
sorrows," said I, taking a seat beside him, "but you will, perhaps, gratify the
desire I feel to learn something about that beautiful girl, who seems little
formed by nature for the miserable condition in which she is placed."

He answered me candidly, that he could not communicate her history
without making himself known, and that he had urgent reasons for
preserving his own incognito. "I may, however, tell you this much, for it is
no longer a secret to these wretches," he continued, pointing to the guards,
—"that I adore her with a passion so ardent and absorbing as to render me
the most unhappy of human beings. I tried every means at Paris to effect her
liberty. Petitions, artifice, force—all failed. Go where she may, I have
resolved to follow her—to the extremity of the world. I shall embark with
her and cross to America.

"But think of the brutal inhumanity of these cowardly ruffians," he
added, speaking of the guards; "they will not allow me to approach her! I
had planned an open attack upon them some leagues from Paris; having
secured, as I thought, the aid of four men, who for a considerable sum hired
me their services. The traitors, however, left me to execute my scheme
single-handed, and decamped with my money. The impossibility of success
made me of course abandon the attempt, I then implored of the guards
permission to follow in their train, promising them a recompense. The love
of money procured their consent; but as they required payment every time I
was allowed to speak to her, my purse was speedily emptied; and now that I
am utterly penniless, they are barbarous enough to repulse me brutally,
whenever I make the slightest attempt to approach her. It is but a moment
since, that venturing to do so, in spite of their threats, one of the fellows
raised the butt-end of his musket. I am now driven by their exactions to
dispose of the miserable horse that has brought me hither, and am preparing
to continue the journey on foot."

Although he seemed to recite this story tranquilly enough, I observed the
tears start to his eyes as he concluded. This adventure struck me as being
not less singular than it was affecting. "I do not press you," said I to him,
"to make me the confidant of your secrets; but if I can be of use to you in
any way, I gladly tender you my services." "Alas!" replied he, "I see not the
slightest ray of hope. I must reconcile myself to my destiny in all its rigour.
I shall go to America: there, at least, I may be free to live with her I love. I
have written to a friend, who will send me money to Havre-de-Grace. My
only difficulty is to get so far, and to supply that poor creature," added he,
as he cast a look of sorrow at his mistress, "with some few comforts upon
the way." "Well!" said I to him, "I shall relieve you from that difficulty.
Here is some money, of which I entreat your acceptance: I am only sorry
that I can be of no greater service to you."

I gave him four louis-d'ors without being perceived by the guards; for I
thought that if they knew he had this money, they might have raised the
price of their concessions. It occurred to me, even, to come to an
understanding with them, in order to secure for the young man the privilege
of conversing with his mistress, during the rest of the journey to Havre,
without hindrance. I beckoned the chief to approach, and made the

proposition to him. It seemed to abash the ruffian, in spite of his habitual
effrontery. "It is not, sir," said he, in an embarrassed tone, "that we refuse to
let him speak to the girl, but he wishes to be always near her, which puts us
to inconvenience; and it is just that we should be paid for the trouble he
occasions." "Let us see!" said I to him, "what would suffice to prevent you
from feeling the inconvenience?" He had the audacity to demand two louis.
I gave them to him on the spot. "But have a care," said I to him, "that we
have no foul play: for I shall give the young man my address, in order that
he may write to me on his arrival; and be assured that I am not without the
power to punish you." It cost me altogether six louis-d'ors.

The graceful manner and heartfelt gratitude with which the young
unknown thanked me, confirmed my notion that he was of good birth and
merited my kindness. I addressed a few words to his mistress before I left
the room. She replied to me with a modesty so gentle and so charming that I
could not help making, as I went out, a thousand reflections upon the
incomprehensible character of women.

Returned to my retreat, I remained in ignorance of the result of this
adventure; and ere two years had passed, it was completely blotted from my
recollection, when chance brought me an opportunity of learning all the
circumstances from beginning to end.

I arrived at Calais, from London, with my pupil, the Marquis of ——.
We lodged, if I remember rightly, at the "Golden Lion," where, for some
reason, we were obliged to spend the following day and night. Walking
along the streets in the afternoon, I fancied I saw the same young man
whom I had formerly met at Passy. He was miserably dressed, and much
paler than when I first saw him. He carried on his arm an old portmanteau,
having only just arrived in the town. However, there was an expression in
his countenance too amiable not to be easily recognised, and which
immediately brought his features to my recollection. "Observe that young
man," said I to the Marquis; "we must accost him."

His joy was beyond expression when, in his turn, he recognised me.

"Ah, sir!" he cried, kissing my hand, "I have then once again an
opportunity of testifying my eternal gratitude to you!" I enquired of him

whence he came. He replied, that he had just arrived, by sea, from Havre,
where he had lately landed from America. "You do not seem to be too well
off for money," said I to him; "go on to the 'Golden Lion,' where I am
lodging; I will join you in a moment."

I returned, in fact, full of impatience to learn the details of his
misfortunes, and the circumstances of his voyage to America. I gave him a
thousand welcomes, and ordered that they should supply him with
everything he wanted. He did not wait to be solicited for the history of his
life. "Sir," said he to me, "your conduct is so generous, that I should
consider it base ingratitude to maintain any reserve towards you. You shall
learn not only my misfortunes and sufferings, but my faults and most
culpable weaknesses. I am sure that, even while you blame me, you will not
refuse me your sympathy."

I should here inform the reader that I wrote down the story almost
immediately after hearing it; and he may, therefore, be assured of the
correctness and fidelity of the narrative. I use the word fidelity with
reference to the substance of reflections and sentiments, which the young
man conveyed in the most graceful language. Here, then, is his story, which
in its progress I shall not encumber with a single observation that was not
his own.

II

I loved Ophelia! forty thousand brothers
Could not, with all their quantity of love,
Make up my sum.
SHAKESPEARE.

"I was seventeen years old, and was finishing my studies at Amiens,
whither my parents, who belonged to one of the first families in Picardy,
had sent me. I led a life so studious and well regulated, that my masters
pointed to me as a model of conduct for the other scholars. Not that I made
any extraordinary efforts to acquire this reputation, but my disposition was
naturally tractable and tranquil; my inclinations led me to apply to study;
and even the natural dislike I felt for vice was placed to my credit as
positive proof of virtue. The successful progress of my studies, my birth,
and some external advantages of person, made me a general favourite with
the inhabitants of the town.

"I completed my public exercises with such general approbation, that the
bishop of the diocese, who was present, proposed to me to enter the church,
where I could not fail, he said, to acquire more distinction than in the Order
of Malta, for which my parents had destined me. I was already decorated
with the Cross, and called the Chevalier des Grieux. The vacation having
arrived, I was preparing to return to my father, who had promised to send
me soon to the Academy.

"My only regret on quitting Amiens arose from parting with a friend,
some years older than myself, to whom I had always been tenderly
attached. We had been brought up together; but from the straitened
circumstances of his family, he was intended to take orders, and was to
remain after me at Amiens to complete the requisite studies for his sacred
calling. He had a thousand good qualities. You will recognise in him the
very best during the course of my history, and above all, a zeal and fervour
of friendship which surpass the most illustrious examples of antiquity. If I
had at that time followed his advice, I should have always continued a
discreet and happy man. If I had even taken counsel from his reproaches,
when on the brink of that gulf into which my passions afterwards plunged
me, I should have been spared the melancholy wreck of both fortune and
reputation. But he was doomed to see his friendly admonitions disregarded;
nay, even at times repaid by contempt from an ungrateful wretch, who often
dared to treat his fraternal conduct as offensive and officious.

"I had fixed the day for my departure from Amiens. Alas! that I had not
fixed it one day sooner! I should then have carried to my father's house my

innocence untarnished.

"The very evening before my expected departure, as I was walking with
my friend, whose name was Tiberge, we saw the Arras diligence arrive, and
sauntered after it to the inn, at which these coaches stop. We had no other
motive than curiosity. Some worn men alighted, and immediately retired
into the inn. One remained behind: she was very young, and stood by
herself in the court, while a man of advanced age, who appeared to have
charge of her, was busy in getting her luggage from the vehicle. She struck
me as being so extremely beautiful, that I, who had never before thought of
the difference between the sexes, or looked on woman with the slightest
attention—I, whose conduct had been hitherto the theme of universal
admiration, felt myself, on the instant, deprived of my reason and self-
control. I had been always excessively timid, and easily disconcerted; but
now, instead of meeting with any impediment from this weakness, I
advanced without the slightest reserve towards her, who had thus become,
in a moment, the mistress of my heart.

"Although younger than myself, she received my civilities without
embarrassment. I asked the cause of her journey to Amiens, and whether
she had any acquaintances in the town. She ingenuously told me that she
had been sent there by her parents, to commence her novitiate for taking the
veil. Love had so quickened my perception, even in the short moment it had
been enthroned, that I saw in this announcement a death-blow to my hopes.
I spoke to her in a way that made her at once understand what was passing
in my mind; for she had more experience than myself. It was against her
consent that she was consigned to a convent, doubtless to repress that
inclination for pleasure which had already become too manifest, and which
caused, in the sequel, all her misfortunes and mine. I combated the cruel
intention of her parents with all the arguments that my new-born passion
and schoolboy eloquence could suggest. She affected neither austerity nor
reserve. She told me, after a moment's silence, that she foresaw too clearly,
what her unhappy fate must be; but that it was, apparently, the will of
Heaven, since there were no means left her to avert it. The sweetness of her
look, the air of sorrow with which she pronounced these words, or rather
perhaps the controlling destiny which led me on to ruin, allowed me not an
instant to weigh my answer. I assured her that if she would place reliance on

my honour, and on the tender interest with which she had already inspired
me, I would sacrifice my life to deliver her from the tyranny of her parents,
and to render her happy. I have since been a thousand times astonished in
reflecting upon it, to think how I could have expressed myself with so much
boldness and facility; but love could never have become a divinity, if he had
not often worked miracles.

"I made many other pressing and tender speeches; and my unknown fair
one was perfectly aware that mine was not the age for deceit. She confessed
to me that if I could see but a reasonable hope of being able to effect her
enfranchisement, she should deem herself indebted for my kindness in more
than life itself could pay. I repeated that I was ready to attempt anything in
her behalf; but, not having sufficient experience at once to imagine any
reasonable plan of serving her, I did not go beyond this general assurance,
from which indeed little good could arise either to her or to myself. Her old
guardian having by this time joined us, my hopes would have been blighted,
but that she had tact enough to make amends for my stupidity. I was
surprised, on his approaching us, to hear her call me her cousin, and say,
without being in the slightest degree disconcerted, that as she had been so
fortunate as to fall in with me at Amiens, she would not go into the convent
until the next morning, in order to have the pleasure of meeting me at
supper. Innocent as I was, I at once comprehended the meaning of this ruse;
and proposed that she should lodge for the night at the house of an
innkeeper, who, after being many years my father's coachman, had lately
established himself at Amiens, and who was sincerely attached to me.

"I conducted her there myself, at which the old Argus appeared to
grumble a little; and my friend Tiberge, who was puzzled by the whole
scene, followed, without uttering a word. He had not heard our
conversation, having walked up and down the court while I was talking of
love to my angelic mistress. As I had some doubts of his discretion, I got rid
of him, by begging that he would execute a commission for me. I had thus
the happiness, on arriving at the inn, of entertaining alone the sovereign of
my heart.

"I soon learned that I was less a child than I had before imagined. My
heart expanded to a thousand sentiments of pleasure, of which I had not

before the remotest idea. A delicious consciousness of enjoyment diffused
itself through my whole mind and soul. I sank into a kind of ecstasy, which
deprived me for a time of the power of utterance, and which found vent
only in a flood of tears.

"Manon Lescaut (this she told me was her name) seemed gratified by the
visible effect of her own charms. She appeared to me not less excited than
myself. She acknowledged that she was greatly pleased with me, and that
she should be enchanted to owe to me her freedom and future happiness.
She would insist on hearing who I was, and the knowledge only augmented
her affection; for, being herself of humble birth, she was flattered by
securing for her lover a man of family.

"After many reflections we could discover no other resource than in
flight. To effect this it would be requisite to cheat the vigilance of Manon's
guardian, who required management, although he was but a servant. We
determined, therefore, that, during the night, I should procure a post-chaise,
and return with it at break of day to the inn, before he was awake; that we
should steal away quietly, and go straight to Paris, where we might be
married on our arrival. I had about fifty crowns in my pocket, the fruit of
my little savings at school; and she had about twice as much. We imagined,
like inexperienced children, that such a sum could never be exhausted, and
we counted, with equal confidence, upon the success of our other schemes.

"After having supped, with certainly more satisfaction than I had ever
before experienced, I retired to prepare for our project. All my arrangements
were the more easy, because, for the purpose of returning on the morrow to
my father's, my luggage had been already packed. I had, therefore, no
difficulty in removing my trunk, and having a chaise prepared for five
o'clock in the morning, at which hour the gates of the town would be
opened; but I encountered an obstacle which I was little prepared for, and
which nearly upset all my plans.

"Tiberge, although only three years older than myself, was a youth of
unusually strong mind, and of the best regulated conduct. He loved me with
singular affection. The sight of so lovely a girl as Manon, my ill-disguised
impatience to conduct her to the inn, and the anxiety I betrayed to get rid of
him, had excited in his mind some suspicions of my passion. He had not

ventured to return to the inn where he had left me, for fear of my being
annoyed at his doing so; but went to wait for me at my lodgings, where,
although it was ten o'clock at night, I found him on my arrival. His presence
annoyed me, and he soon perceived the restraint which it imposed. 'I am
certain,' he said to me, without any disguise, 'that you have some plan in
contemplation which you will not confide to me; I see it by your manner.' I
answered him rather abruptly, that I was not bound to render him an
account of all my movements. 'Certainly not!' he replied; 'but you have
always, hitherto, treated me as a friend, and that appellation implies a
certain degree of confidence and candour.' He pressed me so much and so
earnestly to discover my secret, that, having never up to that moment felt
the slightest reserve towards him, I confided to him now the whole history
of my passion. He heard it with an appearance of disapprobation, which
made me tremble; and I immediately repented of my indiscretion, in telling
him of my intended elopement. He told me he was too sincerely my friend
not to oppose every obstacle in his power to such a scheme; that he would
first try all other means of turning me from such a purpose, but that if I
refused to renounce so fatal a resolution, he assuredly would inform some
persons of my intention, who would be able to defeat it. He held forth upon
the subject for a full quarter of an hour, in the most serious tone, and ended
by again threatening to inform against me, if I did not pledge him my word
that I would return to the paths of discretion and reason.

"I was in despair at having so awkwardly betrayed myself. However,
love having wonderfully sharpened my intellect during the last two or three
hours, I recollected that I had not yet told him of its being my intention to
execute my project on the following morning, and I at once determined to
deceive him by a little equivocation.

"'Tiberge,' said I to him, 'up to the present moment I thought you were
my friend; and I wished to prove it by the test of confidence. It is true, I am
in love; I have not deceived you: but with regard to my flight, that is a
project not to be undertaken without deliberation. Call for me tomorrow at
nine o'clock: you shall see my mistress, if it be possible, and then judge
whether she is not worthy of any risk or sacrifice on my part.' He left me,
with a thousand protestations of friendship.

"I employed the night in preparing for the journey, and on repairing to
the inn at early dawn, I found Manon waiting my arrival. She was at her
window, which looked upon the street, and perceiving my approach, she
came down and opened the door herself. We took our departure silently, and
without creating the least alarm. She merely brought away a small portion
of her apparel, of which I took charge. The chaise was in readiness, and we
were soon at a distance from the town.

"You will learn in the sequel what was the conduct of Tiberge when he
discovered that I had deceived him; that his zeal to serve me suffered no
diminution; and you will observe to what lengths his devotion carried him.
How ought I to grieve, when I reflect on the base ingratitude with which his
affection was always repaid!

"We made such speed on our journey that before night we reached St.
Denis. I rode alongside of the chaise, which gave us little opportunity for
conversation, except while changing horses; but when we found ourselves
so near Paris, and out of the reach of danger, we allowed ourselves time for
refreshment, not having tasted food since we quitted Amiens. Passionately
in love as I felt with Manon, she knew how to convince me that she was
equally so with me. So little did we restrain our fondness, that we had not
even patience to reserve our caresses till we were alone. The postilions and
innkeepers stared at us with wonder, and I remarked that they appeared
surprised at such uncontrollable love in children of our age.

"Our project of marriage was forgotten at St. Denis; we defrauded the
Church of her rights; and found ourselves united as man and wife without
reflecting on the consequences. It is certain that with my easy and constant
disposition, I should have been happy for my whole life, if Manon had
remained faithful to me. The more I saw of her, the more I discovered in her
new perfections. Her mind, her heart, her gentleness and beauty, formed a
chain at once so binding and so agreeable, that I could have found perfect
happiness in its enduring influence. Terrible fatality, that which has been the
source of my despair, might, under a slight change of circumstances, have
constituted my happiness. I find myself the most wretched of mankind, by
the force of that very constancy from which I might have fairly expected to

derive the most serene of human blisses, and the most perfect recompense
of love.

"We took a furnished apartment at Paris, in the Rue V——, and, as it
afterwards turned out, to my sorrow, close to the house of M. de B——, the
famous Fermier-general. Three weeks passed, during which I was so
absorbed in my passion, that I never gave a thought to my family, nor
dreamed of the distress which my father probably felt at my absence.
However, as there was yet nothing of profligacy about me, and as Manon
conducted herself with the strictest propriety, the tranquil life we led served
to restore me by degrees to a sense of duty.

"I resolved to effect, if possible, a reconciliation with my parent. My
mistress was to me so perfectly lovable, that I could not doubt her power of
captivating my father, if I could only find the means of making him
acquainted with her good conduct and merit. In a word, I relied on
obtaining his consent to our marriage, having given up all idea of
accomplishing it without his approval. I mentioned the project to Manon,
and explained to her that, besides every motive of filial love and duty, the
weightier one of necessity should also have some influence; for our
finances were sadly reduced, and I began to see the folly of thinking them,
as I once did, inexhaustible.

"Manon received the proposition with considerable coldness. However,
the difficulties she made, being apparently the suggestions of tenderness
alone, or as arising from the natural fear of losing me, if my father, after
learning our address, should refuse his assent to our union, I had not the
smallest suspicion of the cruel blow she was at the very time preparing to
inflict. As to the argument of necessity, she replied that we had still
abundant means of living for some weeks longer, and that she would then
find a resource in the kindness of some relations in the country, to whom
she should write. She tempered her opposition by caresses so tender and
impassioned, that I, who lived only for her, and who never had the slightest
misgiving as to her love, applauded at once her arguments and her
resolutions.

"To Manon I had committed the care of our finances, and the house-hold
arrangements. In a short time, I observed that our style of living was

improved, and that she had treated herself to more expensive dresses. As I
calculated that we could hardly have at this period more than fifteen or
twenty crowns remaining, I did not conceal my surprise at this mysterious
augmentation of our wealth. She begged of me, with a smile, to give myself
no trouble on that head. 'Did I not promise you,' said she, 'that I would find
resources?' I loved her too purely to experience the slightest suspicion.

"One day, having gone out in the afternoon, and told her that I should not
be at home so early as usual, I was astonished, on my return, at being
detained several minutes at the door. Our only servant was a young girl
about our own age. On her letting me in at last, I asked why she had
detained me so long? She replied in an embarrassed tone, that she did not
hear me knock. 'I only knocked once,' said I; 'so if you did not hear me, why
come to open the door at all?' This query disconcerted her so visibly, that
losing her presence of mind, she began to cry, assuring me that it was not
her fault; and that her mistress had desired her not to open the door until M.
de B—— had had time to go down by the back staircase. I was so
confounded by this information as to be utterly unable to proceed to our
apartment; and was obliged to leave the house, under the pretext of an
appointment. I desired the girl, therefore, to let her mistress know that I
should return in a few minutes, but on no account to say that she had
spoken to me of M. de B——.

"My horror was so great, that I shed tears as I went along, hardly
knowing from what feeling they flowed. I entered a coffee-house close by,
and placing myself at a table, I buried my face between my hands, as
though I would turn my eyes inward to ascertain what was passing in my
heart. Still, I dared not recall what I had heard the moment before. I strove
to look upon it as a dream; and was more than once on the point of
returning to my lodgings, determined to attach no importance to what I had
heard.

"It appeared to me so impossible that Manon could have been unfaithful,
that I feared even to wrong her by a suspicion. I adored her—that was too
certain; I had not on my part given her more proofs of my love than I had
received of hers; why then should I charge her with being less sincere and
constant than myself? What reason could she have to deceive me? Not three

hours before, she had lavished upon me the most tender caresses, and had
received mine with transport: I knew her heart as thoroughly as my own.
'No, no!' I said, 'it is not possible that Manon can have deceived me. She
well knows that I live but for her; that I adore her: upon that point I can
have no reason to be unhappy.'

"Notwithstanding these reflections, the visit of M. de B——, and his
secret departure, gave me some uneasiness. I remembered, too, the little
purchases she had lately made, which seemed beyond our present means.
This looked like the liberality of a new lover. And the confidence with
which she had foretold resources which were to me unknown? I had some
difficulty in solving these mysteries in as favourable a manner as my heart
desired.

"On the other hand, she had been hardly out of my sight since we
entered Paris. However occupied, in our walks, in all our amusements, she
was ever at my side. Heavens! even a momentary separation would have
been too painful. I could not therefore imagine how Manon could, to any
other person, have devoted a single instant.

"At last I thought I had discovered a clue to the mystery. 'M. de B——'
said I to myself, 'is a man extensively engaged in commercial affairs; and
Manon's relations have no doubt remitted her money through his house. She
has probably already received some from him, and he is come today to
bring her more. She wishes, perhaps, to derive amusement by and by, from
an agreeable surprise, by keeping me at present in the dark. She would
doubtless have at once told me all, if I had gone in as usual, instead of
coming here to distress myself: at all events, she will not conceal it from me
when I broach the subject myself.'

"I cherished this idea so willingly, that it considerably lightened my
grief. I immediately returned to my lodgings, and embraced Manon as
tenderly as ever. She received me as usual. At first I was tempted to
mention my conjectures, which I now, more than ever, looked upon as
certain; but I restrained myself in the hope that she might render it
unnecessary by informing me of all that had passed.

"Supper was served. Assuming an air of gaiety, I took my seat at table;
but by the light of the candles which were between us, I fancied I perceived
an air of melancholy about the eyes and countenance of my beloved
mistress. The very thought soon damped my gaiety. I remarked that her
looks wore an unusual expression, and although nothing could be more soft
or languishing, I was at a loss to discover whether they conveyed more of
love than of compassion. I gazed at her with equal earnestness, and she
perhaps had no less difficulty in comprehending from my countenance what
was passing in my heart. We neither spoke nor ate. At length I saw tears
starting from her beauteous eyes—perfidious tears! 'Oh heavens!' I cried,
'my dearest Manon, why allow your sorrows to afflict you to this degree
without imparting their cause to me?' She answered me only with sighs,
which increased my misery. I arose trembling from my seat: I conjured her,
with all the urgent earnestness of love, to let me know the cause of her
grief: I wept in endeavouring to soothe her sorrows: I was more dead than
alive. A barbarian would have pitied my sufferings as I stood trembling with
grief and apprehension.

"While my attention was thus confined to her, I heard people coming
upstairs. They tapped gently at the door. Manon gave me a kiss, and
escaping from my arms, quickly entered the boudoir, turning the key after
her. I imagined that, not being dressed to receive strangers, she was
unwilling to meet the persons who had knocked; I went to let them in.

"I had hardly opened the door, when I found myself seized by three men,
whom I recognised as my father's servants. They offered not the least
violence, but two of them taking me by the arms, the third examined my
pockets, and took out a small knife, the only weapon I had about me. They
begged pardon for the necessity they were under of treating me with
apparent disrespect; telling me frankly that they were acting by the orders
of my father, and that my eldest brother was in a carriage below waiting to
receive me. My feelings were so overpowered, that I allowed myself to be
led away without making either reply or resistance. I found my brother
waiting for me as they had stated. They placed me by his side, and the
coachman immediately drove, by his orders, towards St. Denis.

"My brother embraced me most affectionately, but during our ride, he
uttered not a word, so that, as I was not inclined for conversation, I had as
much leisure as I could desire to reflect upon my misfortunes."

III

That we can call these delicate creatures ours,
And not their appetites.
SHAKESPEARE.

"The whole affair was so involved in obscurity that I could not see my
way even to a reasonable conjecture. I was cruelly betrayed—that was
certain; but by whom? Tiberge first occurred to me. 'Tiberge!' said I, 'it is as
much as thy life is worth, if my suspicions turn out to be well founded.'
However, I recollected that he could not by possibility know my abode; and
therefore, he could not have furnished the information. To accuse Manon
was more than my heart was capable of. The unusual melancholy with
which she had lately seemed weighed down, her tears, the tender kiss she
gave me in parting, made it all as yet a mystery to me. I could only look
upon her recent melancholy as a presentiment of our common misfortune;
and while I was deploring the event which tore me from her, I was
credulous enough to consider her fate as much deserving of pity as my own.

"The result of my reflections was, that I had been seen and followed in
the streets of Paris by some persons of my acquaintance, who had conveyed
the information to my father. This idea comforted me. I made up my mind
to encounter some reproaches, or perhaps harsh treatment, for having
outraged the paternal authority. I resolved, however, to suffer with patience,
and to promise all that might be required of me, in order to facilitate my
speedy return to Paris, that I might restore life and happiness to my dear
Manon.

"We soon arrived at St. Denis. My brother, surprised at my long silence,
thought it the effect of fear. He assured me that I had nothing to apprehend
from my father's severity, provided I showed a disposition to return quietly
to the path of duty, and prove myself worthy of his affection. He made me
pass the night at St. Denis, merely taking the precaution of putting the three
lackeys to sleep in my room. It cost me a pang to find myself in the same
inn where I had stopped with Manon on our way from Amiens to Paris. The
innkeeper and his servants recognised me, and guessed at once the truth of
my history. I overheard them say, 'Ah! that's the handsome young
gentleman who travelled this road about a month ago, with the beautiful girl
he appeared so much in love with! How pretty she was! The poor young
things, how they caressed each other! Pity if they have been separated!' I
pretended not to hear, and kept as much out of sight as possible.

"At St. Denis my brother had a chariot waiting for us, in which we
started early the next morning, and arrived at home before night.

"He saw my father first, in order to make a favourable impression by
telling him how quietly I had allowed myself to be brought away, so that his
reception of me was less austere than I had expected. He merely rebuked
me in general terms for the offence I had committed, by absenting myself
without his permission. As for my mistress, he said I richly deserved what
had happened to me, for abandoning myself to a person utterly unknown;
that he had entertained a better opinion of my discretion; but that he hoped
this little adventure would make me wiser. I took the whole lecture only in
the sense that accorded with my own notions. I thanked my father for his
indulgence, and promised that I would in future observe a better regulated
and more obedient course of conduct. I felt that I had secured a triumph;
for, from the present aspect of affairs, there was no doubt that I should be
free to effect my escape from the house even before the night was over.

"We sat down to supper. They rallied me about my Amiens conquest, and
my flight with that paragon of fidelity. I took their jokes in good part, glad
enough at being permitted to revolve in my mind the plans I had meditated;
but some words which fell from my father made me listen with earnest
attention. He spoke of perfidy, and the not disinterested kindness he had
received at the hands of M. de B——. I was almost paralysed on hearing

the name, and begged of my father to explain himself. He turned to my
brother, to ask if he had not told me the whole story. My brother answered,
that I appeared to him so tranquil upon the road, that he did not suppose I
required this remedy to cure me of my folly. I remarked that my father was
doubtful whether he should give me the explanation or not. I entreated him
so earnestly that he satisfied me, or I should rather say tortured me, with the
following most horrible narration.

"He began by asking me whether I was really simple enough to believe
that I had been really loved by the girl. I told him confidently that I was
perfectly sure of it, and that nothing could make me for a moment doubt it.
'Ha, ha, ha!' said he, with a loud laugh; 'that is excellent! you are a pretty
dupe! Admirable idea! 'Twould be a thousand pities, my poor chevalier, to
make you a Knight of Malta, with all the requisites you possess for a patient
and accommodating husband.' He continued in the same tone to ridicule
what he was pleased to call my dullness and credulity.

"He concluded, while I maintained a profound silence, by saying that,
according to the nicest calculation he could make of the time since my
departure from Amiens, Manon must have been in love with me about
twelve days; 'for,' said he, 'I know that you left Amiens on the 28th of last
month; this is, the 29th of the present; it is eleven days since M. de B——
wrote to me; I suppose he required eight days to establish a perfect
understanding with your mistress; so that, take eight and eleven from thirty-
one days, the time between the 28th of one month and the 29th of the next,
there remains twelve, more or less!' This joke was followed by shouts of
laughter.

"I heard it all with a kind of sinking of the heart that I thought I could
not bear up against, until he finished. 'You must know then,' continued my
father, 'since you appear as yet ignorant of it, that M. de B—— has won the
affections of your idol; for he can't be serious in pretending that it is his
disinterested regard for me that has induced him to take her from you. It
would be absurd to expect such noble sentiments from a man of his
description, and one, besides, who is a perfect stranger to me. He knew that
you were my son, and in order to get rid of you, he wrote to inform me of

your abode, and of the life you led; saying, at the same time, that strong
measures would be necessary to secure you.

"He offered to procure me the means of laying hold of you; and it was by
his direction, as well as that of your mistress herself, that your brother hit
upon the moment for catching you unawares. Now, you may congratulate
yourself upon the duration of your triumph. You know how to conquer,
rapid enough; but you have yet to learn how to secure your conquests.'

"I could no longer endure these remarks, every one of which struck a
dagger to my heart. I arose from the table, and had not advanced four steps
towards the door, when I fell upon the floor, perfectly senseless. By prompt
applications they soon brought me to myself. My eyes opened only to shed
a torrent of tears, and my lips to utter the most sorrowful and heartrending
complaints. My father, who always loved me most affectionately, tried
every means to console me. I listened to him, but his words were without
effect. I threw myself at his feet, in the attitude of prayer, conjuring him to
let me return to Paris, and destroy the monster B——. 'No!' cried I; 'he has
not gained Manon's heart; he may have seduced her by charms, or by drugs;
he may have even brutally violated her. Manon loves me. Do I not know
that well? He must have terrified her with a poniard, to induce her to
abandon me.' What must he not have done to have robbed me of my angelic
mistress? Oh Heaven! Heaven! can it be possible that Manon deceived me,
or that she has ceased to love me!

"As I continued to rave about returning at once to Paris, and was
perpetually starting up with that purpose, my father clearly saw that while
the paroxysm lasted, no arguments could pacify me. He conducted me to
one of the upper rooms, and left two servants to keep constant watch over
me. I was completely bewildered. I would have given a thousand lives to be
but for one quarter of an hour in Paris. I had sense enough, however, to
know that having so openly declared my intention, they would not easily
allow me to quit my chamber. I looked at the height of the windows. Seeing
no possibility of escaping that way, I addressed the servants in the most
tranquil tone. I promised, with the most solemn vows, to make at some
future day their fortunes, if they would but consent to my escape. I
entreated them; I tried caresses, and lastly threats; but all were unavailing. I

gave myself up to despair. I resolved to die; and threw myself upon the bed,
with a firm determination to quit it only with my life. In this situation I
passed the night and the following day. I refused the nourishment that was
brought to me next morning.

"My father came to see me in the afternoon. He tried in the most
affectionate manner, to soothe my grief. He desired me so urgently to take
some refreshment, that, to gratify him, I obeyed his wishes. Several days
passed, during which I took nothing but in his presence, and at his special
request. He continued to furnish new arguments to restore me to my proper
senses, and to inspire me with merited contempt for the faithless Manon. I
certainly had lost all esteem for her: how could I esteem the most fickle and
perfidious of created beings! But her image—those exquisite features,
which were engraven on my heart's core, were still uneffaced. I understood
my own feelings: 'I may die,' said I, 'and I ought to die after so much shame
and grief; but I might suffer a thousand deaths without being able to forget
the ingrate Manon.'

"My father was surprised at my still continuing so powerfully affected.
He knew that I was imbued with the principles of honour; and not doubting
that her infidelity must make me despise her, fancied that my obstinacy
proceeded less from this particular passion, than from a general inclination
towards the sex. This idea so took possession of his mind, that, prompted
only by his affection for me, he came one day to reveal his thoughts.
'Chevalier,' said he to me, 'it has been hitherto my intention to make you
bear the Cross of Malta: I now see that your inclinations do not bend that
way. You are an admirer of beauty. I shall be able to find you a wife to your
taste. Let me candidly know how you feel upon the subject.'

"I answered that I could never again see the slightest difference amongst
women, and that after the misfortune I had experienced, I detested them all
equally. 'I will find you one,' replied my father, smiling, 'who shall resemble
Manon in beauty, but who shall be more faithful.' 'Ah! if you have any
mercy,' said I, 'you will restore my Manon to me. Be assured, my dear
father, that she has not betrayed me; she is incapable of such base and cruel
treachery. It is the perfidious B—— who deceives both her and me. If you
could form an idea of her tenderness and her sincerity—if you only knew

her, you yourself would love her!' 'You are absolutely a child,' replied my
father. 'How can you so delude yourself, after what I have told you about
her? It was she who actually delivered you up to your brother. You ought to
obliterate even her name from your memory, and take advantage, if you are
wise, of the indulgence I am showing you.'

"I very clearly perceived that my father was right. It was an involuntary
emotion that made me thus take part with the traitor. 'Alas!' replied I, after a
moment's silence, 'it is but too true that I am the unhappy victim of the
vilest perfidy. Yes,' I continued, while shedding tears of anger, 'I too clearly
perceive that I am indeed but a child. Credulity like mine was easily gulled;
but I shall be at no loss to revenge myself.' My father enquired of me my
intentions: 'I will go to Paris,' I said, 'set fire to B——'s house, and
immolate him and the perfidious Manon together.' This burst made my
father laugh, and had only the effect of causing me to be more vigilantly
watched in my cell.

"I thus passed six long months; during the first of which my mind
underwent little change. My feelings were in a state of perpetual alternation
between hate and love; between hope and despair; according as, the
tendency of each passing thought brought Manon back to my recollection.
At one time, I could see in her the most delightful of women only, and sigh
for the pleasure of beholding her once more; at another, I felt she was the
most unworthy and perfidious of mistresses, and I would on these occasions
swear never again to seek her, but for the purpose of revenge.

"I was supplied with books, which served to restore my peace of mind. I
read once again all my favourite authors; and I became acquainted with new
ones. All my former taste for study was revived. You will see of what use
this was to me in the sequel. The light I had already derived from love,
enabled me to comprehend many passages in Horace and Virgil which had
before appeared obscure. I wrote an amatory commentary upon the fourth
book of the AEneid. I intend one day to publish it, and I flatter myself it
will be popular.

"'Alas!' I used to exclaim, 'whilst employed on that work, it was for a
heart like mine the faithful Dido sighed, and sighed in vain!'

IV

Now, by the strange enchantment that surrounds thee,
There's nothing—nothing thou shalt ask in vain.
ESSEX.

"While in my confinement Tiberge came one day to see me. I was
surprised at the affectionate joy with which he saluted me. I had never,
hitherto, observed any peculiar warmth in his friendship that could lead me
to look upon it as anything more than the partiality common among boys of
the same age. He was so altered, and had grown so manly during the five or
six months since I had last seen him, that his expressive features and his
manner of addressing me inspired me with a feeling of respect. He spoke
more in the character of a mentor than a schoolfellow, lamented the
delusion into which I had fallen, congratulated me on my reformation,
which he believed was now sincere, and ended by exhorting me to profit by
my youthful error, and open my eyes to the vanity of worldly pleasures. I
looked at him with some astonishment, which he at once perceived.

"'My dear chevalier,' said he to me, 'you shall hear nothing but the strict
truth, of which I have assured myself by the most serious examination. I
had, perhaps, as strong an inclination for pleasure as you, but Heaven had at
the same time, in its mercy, blessed me with a taste for virtue. I exercised
my reason in comparing the consequences of the one with those of the
other, and the divine aid was graciously vouchsafed to my reflections. I
conceived for the world a contempt which nothing can equal. Can you
guess what it is retains me in it now,' he added, 'and that prevents me from
embracing a life of solitude? Simply the sincere friendship I bear towards
you. I know the excellent qualities of both your heart and head. There is no
good of which you may not render yourself capable. The blandishments of
pleasure have momentarily drawn you aside. What detriment to the sacred

cause of virtue! Your flight from Amiens gave me such intense sorrow, that
I have not since known a moment's happiness. You may judge of this by the
steps it induced me to take.' He then told me how, after discovering that I
had deceived him, and gone off with my mistress, he procured horses for
the purpose of pursuing me, but having the start of him by four or five
hours, he found it impossible to overtake me; that he arrived, however, at
St. Denis half an hour after I had left it; that, being very sure that I must
have stopped in Paris, he spent six weeks there in a fruitless endeavour to
discover me—visiting every place where he thought he should be likely to
meet me, and that one evening he at length recognised my mistress at the
play, where she was so gorgeously dressed, that he of course set it down to
the account of some new lover; that he had followed her equipage to her
house, and had there learned from a servant that she was entertained in this
style by M. de B——. 'I did not stop here,' continued he; 'I returned next
day to the house, to learn from her own lips what had become of you. She
turned abruptly away when she heard the mention of your name, and I was
obliged to return into the country without further information. I there
learned the particulars of your adventure, and the extreme annoyance she
had caused you; but I was unwilling to visit you until I could have
assurance of your being in a more tranquil state.'

"'You have seen Manon then!' cried I, sighing. 'Alas! you are happier
than I, who am doomed never again to behold her.' He rebuked me for this
sigh, which still showed my weakness for the perfidious girl. He flattered
me so adroitly upon the goodness of my mind and disposition, that he really
inspired me, even on this first visit, with a strong inclination to renounce, as
he had done, the pleasures of the world, and enter at once into holy orders.

"The idea was so suited to my present frame of mind, that when alone I
thought of nothing else. I remembered the words of the Bishop of Amiens,
who had given me the same advice, and thought only of the happiness
which he predicted would result from my adoption of such a course. Piety
itself took part in these suggestions. 'I shall lead a holy and a Christian life,'
said I; 'I shall divide my time between study and religion, which will allow
me no leisure for the perilous pleasures of love. I shall despise that which
men ordinarily admire; and as I am conscious that my heart will desire

nothing but what it can esteem, my cares will not be greater or more
numerous than my wants and wishes.'

"I thereupon pictured to myself in anticipation a course of life peaceful
and retired. I fancied a retreat embosomed in a wood, with a limpid stream
of running water bounding my garden; a library, comprising the most select
works; a limited circle of friends, virtuous and intellectual; a table neatly
served, but frugal and temperate. To all these agremens I added a literary
correspondence with a friend whose residence should be in Paris, who
should give me occasional information upon public affairs, less for the
gratification of my curiosity, than to afford a kind of relaxation by hearing
of and lamenting the busy follies of men. 'Shall not I be happy?' added I;
'will not my utmost wishes be thus gratified?' This project flattered my
inclinations extremely. But after all the details of this most admirable and
prudent plan, I felt that my heart still yearned for something; and that in
order to leave nothing to desire in this most enchanting retirement, one
ought to be able to share it with Manon.

"However, Tiberge continuing to pay me frequent visits in order to
strengthen me in the purpose with which he had inspired me, I took an
opportunity of opening the subject to my father. He declared that his
intention ever was to leave his children free to choose a profession, and that
in whatever manner I should dispose of myself, all he wished to reserve was
the right of aiding me with his counsel. On this occasion he gave me some
of the wisest, which tended less to divert me from my project, than to
convince me of my good father's sound judgment and discretion.

"The recommencement of the scholastic year being at hand, Tiberge and
I agreed to enter ourselves together at St. Sulpice, he to pursue his
theological studies, and I to begin mine. His merits, which were not
unknown to the bishop of the diocese, procured him the promise of a living
from that prelate before our departure.

"My father, thinking me quite cured of my passion, made no objection to
my taking final leave. We arrived at Paris. The Cross of Malta gave place to
the ecclesiastical habit, and the designation of the Abbé de Grieux was
substituted for that of chevalier. I applied so diligently to study, that in a
few months I had made extraordinary progress. I never lost a moment of the

day, and employed even part of the night. I soon acquired such a reputation,
that I was already congratulated upon the honours which I was sure of
obtaining; and, without solicitation on my part, my name was inscribed on
the list for a vacant benefice. Piety was by no means neglected, and I
entered with ardent devotion into all the exercises of religion. Tiberge was
proud of what he considered the work of his own hands, and many a time
have I seen him shed tears of delight in noticing what he styled my perfect
conversion.

"It has never been matter of wonder to me that human resolutions are
liable to change; one passion gives them birth, another may destroy them;
but when I reflect upon the sacredness of those motives that led me to St.
Sulpice, and upon the heartfelt satisfaction I enjoyed while obeying their
dictation, I shudder at the facility with which I outraged them all. If it be
true that the benign succour afforded by Heaven is at all times equal to the
strongest of man's pinions, I shall be glad to learn the nature of the
deplorable ascendancy which causes us suddenly to swerve from the path of
duty, without the power of offering the least resistance, and without even
the slightest visitation of remorse.

"I now thought myself entirely safe from the dangers of love. I fancied
that I could have preferred a single page of St. Augustine, or a quarter of an
hour of Christian meditation, to every sensual gratification, not excepting
any that I might have derived even from Manon's society. Nevertheless, one
unlucky moment plunged me again headlong into the gulf; and my ruin was
the more irreparable, because, falling at once to the same depth from
whence I had been before rescued, each of the new disorders into which I
now lapsed carried me deeper and deeper still down the profound abyss of
vice. I had passed nearly a year at Paris without hearing of Manon. It cost
me no slight effort to abstain from enquiry; but the unintermitting advice of
Tiberge, and my own reflections, secured this victory over my wishes. The
last months glided away so tranquilly, that I considered the memory of this
charming but treacherous creature about to be consigned to eternal oblivion.

"The time arrived when I was to undergo a public examination in the
class of theology: I invited several persons of consideration to honour me
with their presence on the occasion. My name was mentioned in every

quarter of Paris: it even reached the ears of her who had betrayed me. She
had some difficulty in recognising it with the prefix of Abbé; but curiosity,
or perhaps remorse for having been faithless to me (I could never after
ascertain by which of these feelings she was actuated), made her at once
take an interest in a name so like mine; and she came with several other
women to the Sorbonne, where she was present at my examination, and had
doubtless little trouble in recognising my person.

"I had not the remotest suspicion of her presence. It is well known that in
these places there are private seats for ladies, where they remain screened
by a curtain. I returned to St. Sulpice covered with honours and
congratulations. It was six in the evening. The moment I returned, a lady
was announced, who desired to speak with me. I went to meet her.
Heavens! what a surprise!

"It was Manon. It was she indeed, but more bewitching and brilliant than
I had ever beheld her. She was now in her eighteenth year. Her beauty
beggars all description. The exquisite grace of her form, the mild sweetness
of expression that animated her features, and her engaging air, made her
seem the very personification of love. The vision was something too perfect
for human beauty.

"I stood like one enchanted at beholding her. Unable to divine the object
of her visit, I waited trembling and with downcast looks until she explained
herself. At first, her embarrassment was equal to mine; but, seeing that I
was not disposed to break silence, she raised her hand to her eyes to conceal
a starting tear, and then, in a timid tone, said that she well knew she had
justly earned my abhorrence by her infidelity; but that if I had ever really
felt any love for her, there was not much kindness in allowing two long
years to pass without enquiring after her, and as little now in seeing her in
the state of mental distress in which she was, without condescending to
bestow upon her a single word. I shall not attempt to describe what my
feelings were as I listened to this reproof.

"She seated herself. I remained standing, with my face half turned aside,
for I could not muster courage to meet her look. I several times commenced
a reply without power to conclude it. At length I made an effort, and in a
tone of poignant grief exclaimed: 'Perfidious Manon! perfidious, perfidious

creature!' She had no wish, she repeated with a flood of tears, to attempt to
justify her infidelity. 'What is your wish, then?' cried I. 'I wish to die,' she
answered, 'if you will not give me back that heart, without which it is
impossible to endure life.' 'Take my life too, then, faithless girl!' I
exclaimed, in vain endeavouring to restrain my tears; 'take my life also! it is
the sole sacrifice that remains for me to make, for my heart has never
ceased to be thine.'

"I had hardly uttered these words, when she rose in a transport of joy,
and approached to embrace me. She loaded me with a thousand caresses.
She addressed me by all the endearing appellations with which love
supplies his votaries, to enable them to express the most passionate
fondness. I still answered with affected coldness; but the sudden transition
from a state of quietude, such as that I had up to this moment enjoyed, to
the agitation and tumult which were now kindled in my breast and tingled
through my veins, thrilled me with a kind of horror, and impressed me with
a vague sense that I was about to undergo some great transformation, and to
enter upon a new existence.

"We sat down close by each other. I took her hand within mine, 'Ah!
Manon,' said I, with a look of sorrow, 'I little thought that love like mine
could have been repaid with treachery! It was a poor triumph to betray a
heart of which you were the absolute mistress—whose sole happiness it was
to gratify and obey you. Tell me if among others you have found any so
affectionate and so devoted? No, no! I believe nature has cast few hearts in
the same mould as mine. Tell me at least whether you have ever thought of
me with regret! Can I have any reliance on the duration of the feeling that
has brought you back to me today? I perceive too plainly that you are
infinitely lovelier than ever: but I conjure you by all my past sufferings,
dearest Manon, to tell me—can you in future be more faithful?'

"She gave me in reply such tender assurances of her repentance, and
pledged her fidelity with such solemn protestations and vows, that I was
inexpressibly affected. 'Beauteous Manon,' said I, with rather a profane
mixture of amorous and theological expressions, 'you are too adorable for a
created being. I feel my heart transported with triumphant rapture. It is folly
to talk of liberty at St. Sulpice. Fortune and reputation are but slight

sacrifices at such a shrine! I plainly foresee it: I can read my destiny in your
bright eyes; but what abundant recompense shall I not find in your
affections for any loss I may sustain! The favours of fortune have no
influence over me: fame itself appears to me but a mockery; all my projects
of a holy life were wild absurdities: in fact, any joys but those I may hope
for at your side are fit objects of contempt. There are none that would not
vanish into worthlessness before one single glance of thine!'

"In promising her, however, a full remission of her past frailties, I
enquired how she permitted herself to be led astray by B——. She informed
me that having seen her at her window, he became passionately in love with
her; that he made his advances in the true style of a mercantile cit;—that is
to say, by giving her to understand in his letter, that his payments would be
proportioned to her favours; that she had admitted his overtures at first with
no other intention than that of getting from him such a sum as might enable
us to live without inconvenience; but that he had so bewildered her with
splendid promises, that she allowed herself to be misled by degrees. She
added, that I ought to have formed some notion of the remorse she
experienced, by her grief on the night of our separation; and assured me
that, in spite of the splendour in which he maintained her, she had never
known a moment's happiness with him, not only, she said, because he was
utterly devoid of that delicacy of sentiment and of those agreeable manners
which I possessed, but because even in the midst of the amusements which
he unceasingly procured her, she could never shake off the recollection of
my love, or her own ingratitude. She then spoke of Tiberge, and the extreme
embarrassment his visit caused her. 'A dagger's point,' she added, 'could not
have struck more terror to my heart. I turned from him, unable to sustain the
interview for a moment.'

"She continued to inform me how she had been apprised of my residence
at Paris, of the change in my condition, and of her witnessing my
examination at the Sorbonne. She told me how agitated she had been during
my intellectual conflict with the examiner; what difficulty she felt in
restraining her tears as well as her sighs, which were more than once on the
point of spurning all control, and bursting forth; that she was the last person
to leave the hall of examination, for fear of betraying her distress, and that,
following only the instinct of her own heart, and her ardent desires, she

came direct to the seminary, with the firm resolution of surrendering life
itself, if she found me cruel enough to withhold my forgiveness.

"Could any savage remain unmoved by such proofs of cordial
repentance as those I had just witnessed? For my part, I felt at the moment
that I could gladly have given up all the bishoprics in Christendom for
Manon. I asked what course she would recommend in our present
emergency. 'It is requisite,' she replied, 'at all events, to quit the seminary,
and settle in some safer place.' I consented to everything she proposed. She
got into her carriage to go and wait for me at the corner of the street. I
escaped the next moment, without attracting the porter's notice. I entered
the carriage, and we drove off to a Jew's. I there resumed my lay-dress and
sword. Manon furnished the supplies, for I was without a sou, and fearing
that I might meet with some new impediment, she would not consent to my
returning to my room at St. Sulpice for my purse. My finances were in truth
wretchedly low, and hers more than sufficiently enriched by the liberality of
M. de B—— to make her think lightly of my loss. We consulted together at
the Jew's as to the course we should now adopt.

"In order to enhance the sacrifice she had made for me of her late lover,
she determined to treat him without the least ceremony. 'I shall leave him all
his furniture,' she said; 'it belongs to him: but I shall assuredly carry off, as I
have a right to do, the jewels, and about sixty thousand francs, which I have
had from him in the last two years. I have given him no control over me,'
she added, 'so that we may remain without apprehension in Paris, taking a
convenient house, where we shall live, oh how happily together!'

"I represented to her that, although there might be no danger for her,
there was a great deal for me, who must be sooner or later infallibly
recognised, and continually exposed to a repetition of the trials I had before
endured. She gave me to understand that she could not quit Paris without
regret. I had such a dread of giving her annoyance, that there were no risks I
would not have encountered for her sake. However, we compromised
matters by resolving to take a house in some village near Paris, from
whence it would be easy for us to come into town whenever pleasure or
business required it. We fixed on Chaillot, which is at a convenient distance.

Manon at once returned to her house, and I went to wait for her at a side-
gate of the garden of the Tuileries.

"She returned an hour after, in a hired carriage, with a servant-maid, and
several trunks, which contained her dresses, and everything she had of
value.

"We were not long on our way to Chaillot. We lodged the first night at
the inn, in order to have time to find a suitable house, or at least a
commodious lodging. We found one to our taste the next morning.

"My happiness now appeared to be secured beyond the reach of fate.
Manon was everything most sweet and amiable. She was so delicate and so
unceasing in her attentions to me, that I deemed myself but too bountifully
rewarded for all my past troubles. As we had both, by this time, acquired
some experience, we discussed rationally the state of our finances. Sixty
thousand francs (the amount of our wealth) was not a sum that could be
expected to last our whole life; besides, we were neither of us much
disposed to control our expenses. Manon's chief virtue assuredly was not
economy, any more than it was mine. This was my proposition. 'Sixty
thousand francs,' said I, 'may support us for ten years. Two thousand crowns
a year will suffice, if we continue to live at Chaillot. We shall keep up
appearances, but live frugally. Our only expense will be occasionally a
carriage, and the theatres. We shall do everything in moderation. You like
the opera; we shall go twice a week, in the season. As for play, we shall
limit ourselves; so that our losses must never exceed three crowns. It is
impossible but that in the space of ten years some change must occur in my
family: my father is even now of an advanced age; he may die; in which
event I must inherit a fortune, and we shall then be above all other fears.'

"This arrangement would not have been by any means the most silly act
of my life, if we had only been prudent enough to persevere in its
execution; but our resolutions hardly lasted longer than a month. Manon's
passion was for amusement; she was the only object of mine. New
temptations to expense constantly presented themselves, and far from
regretting the money which she sometimes prodigally lavished, I was the
first to procure for her everything likely to afford her pleasure. Our
residence at Chaillot began even to appear tiresome.

"Winter was approaching, and the whole world returning to town; the
country had a deserted look. She proposed to me to take a house in Paris. I
did not approve of this; but, in order partly at least to satisfy her, I said that
we might hire furnished apartments, and that we might sleep there
whenever we were late in quitting the assembly, whither we often went; for
the inconvenience of returning so late to Chaillot was her excuse for
wishing to leave it. We had thus two dwellings, one in town and the other in
the country. This change soon threw our affairs into confusion, and led to
two adventures, which eventually caused our ruin.

"Manon had a brother in the Guards. He unfortunately lived in the very
street in which we had taken lodgings. He one day recognised his sister at
the window, and hastened over to us. He was a fellow of the rudest
manners, and without the slightest principle of honour. He entered the room
swearing in the most horrible way; and as he knew part of his sister's
history, he loaded her with abuse and reproaches.

"I had gone out the moment before, which was doubtless fortunate for
either him or me, for I was little disposed to brook an insult. I only returned
to the lodgings after he had left them. The low spirits in which I found
Manon convinced me at once that something extraordinary had occurred.
She told me of the provoking scene she had just gone through, and of the
brutal threats of her brother. I felt such indignation, that I wished to proceed
at once to avenge her, when she entreated me with tears to desist.

"While we were still talking of the adventure, the guardsman again
entered the room in which we sat, without even waiting to be announced.
Had I known him, he should not have met from me as civil a reception as he
did; but saluting us with a smile upon his countenance, he addressed
himself to Manon, and said, he was come to make excuses for his violence;
that he had supposed her to be living a life of shame and disgrace, and it
was this notion that excited his rage; but having since made enquiry from
one of our servants, he had learned such a character of me, that his only
wish was now to be on terms with us both.

"Although this admission, of having gone for information to one of my
own servants, had in it something ludicrous as well as indelicate, I
acknowledged his compliments with civility, I thought by doing so to please

Manon, and I was not deceived—she was delighted at the reconciliation.
We made him stay to dine with us.

"In a little time he became so familiar, that hearing us speak of our return
to Chaillot, he insisted on accompanying us. We were obliged to give him a
seat in our carriage. This was in fact putting him into possession, for he
soon began to feel so much pleasure in our company, that he made our
house his home, and made himself in some measure master of all that
belonged to us. He called me his brother, and, under the semblance of
fraternal freedom, he put himself on such a footing as to introduce all his
friends without ceremony into our house at Chaillot, and there entertain
them at our expense. His magnificent uniforms were procured of my tailor
and charged to me, and he even contrived to make Manon and me
responsible for all his debts. I pretended to be blind to this system of
tyranny, rather than annoy Manon, and even to take no notice of the sums of
money which from time to time he received from her. No doubt, as he
played very deep, he was honest enough to repay her a part sometimes,
when luck turned in his favour; but our finances were utterly inadequate to
supply, for any length of time, demands of such magnitude and frequency.

"I was on the point of coming to an understanding with him, in order to
put an end to the system, when an unfortunate accident saved me that
trouble, by involving us in inextricable ruin.

"One night we stopped in Paris to sleep, as it had now indeed become
our constant habit. The servant-maid who on such occasions remained alone
at Chaillot, came early the next morning to inform me that our house had
taken fire in the night, and that the flames had been extinguished with great
difficulty. I asked whether the furniture had suffered. She answered, that
there had been such confusion, owing to the multitude of strangers who
came to offer assistance, that she could hardly ascertain what damage had
been done. I was principally uneasy about our money, which had been
locked up in a little box. I went off in haste to Chaillot. Vain hope! the box
had disappeared!

"I discovered that one could love money without being a miser. This loss
afflicted me to such a degree that I was almost out of my mind. I saw at one
glance to what new calamities I should be exposed: poverty was the least of

them. I knew Manon thoroughly; I had already had abundant proof that,
although faithful and attached to me under happier circumstances, she could
not be depended upon in want: pleasure and plenty she loved too well to
sacrifice them for my sake. 'I shall lose her!' I cried; 'miserable chevalier!
you are about then to lose all that you love on earth!' This thought agitated
me to such a degree that I actually for some moments considered whether it
would not be best for me to end at once all my miseries by death. I however
preserved presence of mind enough to reflect whether I was entirely without
resource, and an idea occurred to me which quieted my despair. It would
not be impossible, I thought, to conceal our loss from Manon; and I might
perhaps discover some ways and means of supplying her, so as to ward off
the inconveniences of poverty.

"I had calculated in endeavouring to comfort myself, that twenty
thousand crowns would support us for ten years. Suppose that these ten
years had now elapsed, and that none of the events which I had looked for
in my family had occurred. What then would have been my course? I hardly
know; but whatever I should then have done, why may I not do now? How
many are there in Paris, who have neither my talents, nor the natural
advantages I possess, and who, notwithstanding, owe their support to the
exercise of their talents, such as they are?

"'Has not Providence,' I added, while reflecting on the different
conditions of life, 'arranged things wisely?' The greater number of the
powerful and the rich are fools. No one who knows anything of the world
can doubt that. How admirable is the compensating justice thereof! If
wealth brought with it talent also, the rich would be too happy, and other
men too wretched. To these latter are given personal advantages and genius,
to help them out of misery and want. Some of them share the riches of the
wealthy by administering to their pleasures, or by making them their dupes;
others afford them instruction, and endeavour to make them decent
members of society; to be sure, they do not always succeed; but that was
probably not the intention of the divine wisdom. In every case they derive a
benefit from their labours by living at the expense of their pupils; and, in
whatever point of view it is considered, the follies of the rich are a bountiful
source of revenue to the humbler classes.

"These thoughts restored me a little to my spirits and to my reason. I
determined first to consult M. Lescaut, the brother of Manon. He knew
Paris perfectly; and I had too many opportunities of learning that it was
neither from his own estates, nor from the king's pay, that he derived the
principal portion of his income. I had about thirty-three crowns left, which I
fortunately happened to have about me. I showed him my purse, and
explained to him my misfortune and my fears, and then asked him whether
I had any alternative between starvation and blowing out my brains in
despair. He coolly replied that suicide was the resource of fools. As to dying
of want, there were hundreds of men of genius who found themselves
reduced to that state when they would not employ their talents; that it was
for myself to discover what I was capable of doing, and he told me to
reckon upon his assistance and his advice in any enterprise I might
undertake.

"'Vague enough, M. Lescaut!' said I to him: 'my wants demand a more
speedy remedy; for what am I to say to Manon?' 'Apropos of Manon,'
replied he, 'what is it that annoys you about her? Cannot you always find in
her wherewithal to meet your wants, when you wish it? Such a person
ought to support us all, you and me as well as herself.' He cut short the
answer which I was about to give to such unfeeling and brutal impertinence,
by going on to say, that before night he would ensure me a thousand crowns
to divide between us, if I would only follow his advice; that he was
acquainted with a nobleman, who was so liberal in affairs of the kind, that
he was certain he would not hesitate for a moment to give the sum named
for the favours of such a girl as Manon.

"I stopped him. 'I had a better opinion of you,' said I; 'I had imagined that
your motive for bestowing your friendship upon me was very different
indeed from the one you now betray.' With the greatest effrontery he
acknowledged that he had been always of the same mind, and that his sister
having once sacrificed her virtue, though it might be to the man she most
loved, he would never have consented to a reconciliation with her, but with
the hope of deriving some advantage from her past misconduct.

"It was easy to see that we had been hitherto his dupes. Notwithstanding
the disgust with which his proposition inspired me, still, as I felt that I had

occasion for his services, I said, with apparent complacency, that we ought
only to entertain such a plan as a last resource. I begged of him to suggest
some other.

"He proposed to me to turn my youth and the good looks nature had
bestowed upon me to some account, by establishing a liaison with some
generous old dame. This was just as little to my taste, for it would
necessarily have rendered me unfaithful to Manon.

"I mentioned play as the easiest scheme, and the most suitable to my
present situation. He admitted that play certainly was a resource, but that it
was necessary to consider the point well. 'Mere play,' said he, 'with its
ordinary chances, is the certain road to ruin; and as for attempting, alone
and without an ally, to employ the little means an adroit man has for
correcting the vagaries of luck, it would be too dangerous an experiment.'
There was, he stated, a third course, which was to enter into what he called
a partnership; but he feared his confederates would consider my youth an
objection to my admittance. He, however, promised to use his influence
with them; and, what was more than I expected at his hands, he said that he
would supply me with a little money whenever I had pressing occasion for
any. The only favour I then asked of him was to say nothing to Manon of
the loss I had experienced, nor of the subject of our conversation.

"I certainly derived little comfort from my visit to Lescaut; I felt even
sorry for having confided my secret to him: not a single thing had he done
for me that I might not just as well have done for myself, without troubling
him; and I could not help dreading that he would violate his promise to
keep the secret from Manon. I had also reason to apprehend, from his late
avowals, that he might form the design of making use of her for his own
vile purposes, or at least of advising her to quit me for some happier and
more wealthy lover. This idea brought in its train a thousand reflections,
which had no other effect than to torment me, and throw me again into the
state of despair in which I had passed the morning. It occurred to me, more
than once, to write to my father; and to pretend a new reformation, in order
to obtain some pecuniary assistance from him; but I could not forget that,
notwithstanding all his natural love and affection for me, he had shut me up
for six months in a confined room for my first transgression; and I was

certain that, after the scandalous sensation caused by my flight from St.
Sulpice, he would be sure to treat me with infinitely more rigour now.

"At length, out of this chaos of fancies came an idea that all at once
restored ease to my mind, and which I was surprised at not having hit upon
sooner; this was, to go again to my friend Tiberge, in whom I might be
always sure of finding the same unfailing zeal and friendship. There is
nothing more glorious—nothing that does more honour to true virtue, than
the confidence with which one approaches a friend of tried integrity; no
apprehension, no risk of unkind repulse: if it be not always in his power to
afford the required succour, one is sure at least of meeting kindness and
compassion. The heart of the poor supplicant, which remains impenetrably
closed to the rest of the world, opens in his presence, as a flower expands
before the orb of day, from which it instinctively knows it can derive a
cheering and benign influence only.

"I consider it a blessing to have thought so apropos of Tiberge, and
resolved to take measures to find him before evening. I returned at once to
my lodgings to write him a line, and fix a convenient place for our meeting.
I requested secrecy and discretion, as the most important service he could
render me under present circumstances.

"The pleasure I derived from the prospect of seeing Tiberge dissipated
every trace of melancholy, which Manon would not have failed otherwise to
detect in my countenance. I described our misfortune at Chaillot as a trifle
which ought not to annoy her; and Paris being the spot she liked best in the
world, she was not sorry to hear me say that it would be necessary for us to
remain there entirely, until the little damage was repaired which had been
caused by the fire at Chaillot.

"In an hour I received an answer from Tiberge, who promised to be at
the appointed rendezvous. I went there punctually. I certainly felt some
shame at encountering a friend whose presence alone ought to be a reproach
to my iniquities; but I was supported by the opinion I had of the goodness
of his heart, as well as by my anxiety about Manon.

"I had begged of him to meet me in the garden of the Palais Royal. He
was there before me. He hastened towards me, the moment he saw me

approach and shook me warmly by both hands. I said that I could not help
feeling perfectly ashamed to meet him, and that I was weighed down by a
sense of my ingratitude; that the first thing I implored of him was to tell me
whether I might still consider him my friend, after having so justly incurred
the loss of his esteem and affection. He replied, in the kindest possible
manner, that it was not in the nature of things to destroy his regard for me;
that my misfortunes even, or, if he might so call them, my faults and
transgressions, had but increased the interest he felt for me; but that he must
confess his affection was not unalloyed by a sentiment of the liveliest
sorrow, such as a person may be supposed to feel at seeing a beloved object
on the brink of ruin, and beyond the reach of his assistance.

"We sat down upon a bench. 'Alas!' said I with a deep sigh, 'your
compassion must be indeed great, my dear Tiberge, if you assure me it is
equal to my sufferings. I am almost ashamed to recount them, for I confess
they have been brought on by no very creditable course of conduct: the
results, however, are so truly melancholy, that a friend even less attached
than you would be affected by the recital.'

"He then begged of me, in proof of friendship, to let him know, without
any disguise, all that had occurred to me since my departure from St.
Sulpice. I gratified him; and so far from concealing anything, or attempting
to extenuate my faults, I spoke of my passion with all the ardour with which
it still inspired me. I represented it to him as one of those especial
visitations of fate, which draw on the devoted victim to his ruin, and which
it is as impossible for virtue itself to resist, as for human wisdom to foresee.
I painted to him in the most vivid colours, my excitement, my fears, the
state of despair in which I had been two hours before I saw him, and into
which I should be again plunged, if I found my friends as relentless as fate
had been. I at length made such an impression upon poor Tiberge, that I saw
he was as much affected by compassion, as I by the recollection of my
sufferings.

"He took my hand, and exhorted me to have courage and be comforted;
but, as he seemed to consider it settled that Manon and I were to separate, I
gave him at once to understand that it was that very separation I considered
as the most intolerable of all my misfortunes; and that I was ready to endure

not only the last degree of misery, but death itself, of the cruellest kind,
rather than seek relief in a remedy worse than the whole accumulation of
my woes.

"'Explain yourself, then,' said he to me; 'what assistance can I afford you,
if you reject everything I propose?' I had not courage to tell him that it was
from his purse I wanted relief. He, however, comprehended it in the end;
and acknowledging that he believed he now understood me, he remained
for a moment in an attitude of thought, with the air of a person revolving
something in his mind. 'Do not imagine,' he presently said, 'that my
hesitation arises from any diminution of my zeal and friendship; but to what
an alternative do you now reduce me, since I must either refuse you the
assistance you ask, or violate my most sacred duty in affording it! For is it
not participating in your sin to furnish you with the means of continuing its
indulgence?'

"'However,' continued he, after a moment's thought, 'it is perhaps the
excited state into which want has thrown you, that denies you now the
liberty of choosing the proper path. Man's mind must be at rest, to know the
luxury of wisdom and virtue. I can afford to let you have some money; and
permit me, my dear chevalier, to impose but one condition; that is, that you
let me know the place of your abode, and allow me the opportunity of using
my exertions to reclaim you. I know that there is in your heart a love of
virtue, and that you have been only led astray by the violence of your
passions.'

"I, of course, agreed to everything he asked, and only begged of him to
deplore the malign destiny which rendered me callous to the counsels of so
virtuous a friend. He then took me to a banker of his acquaintance, who
gave one hundred and seventy crowns for his note of hand, which was taken
as cash. I have already said that he was not rich. His living was worth about
six thousand francs a year, but as this was the first year since his induction,
he had as yet touched none of the receipts, and it was out of the future
income that he made me this advance.

"I felt the full force of his generosity, even to such a degree as almost to
deplore the fatal passion which thus led me to break through all the
restraints of duty. Virtue had for a moment the ascendancy in my heart, and

made me sensible of my shame and degradation. But this was soon over.
For Manon I could have given up my hopes of heaven, and when I again
found myself at her side, I wondered how I could for an instant have
considered myself degraded by my passion for this enchanting girl.

"Manon was a creature of most extraordinary disposition. Never had
mortal a greater contempt for money, and yet she was haunted by perpetual
dread of wanting it. Her only desire was for pleasure and amusement. She
would never have wished to possess a sou, if pleasure could be procured
without money. She never even cared what our purse contained, provided
she could pass the day agreeably; so that, being neither fond of play nor at
all dazzled by the desire of great wealth, nothing was more easy than to
satisfy her, by daily finding out amusements suited to her moderate wishes.
But it became by habit a thing so absolutely necessary for her to have her
mind thus occupied, that, without it, it was impossible to exercise the
smallest influence over her temper or inclinations. Although she loved me
tenderly, and I was the only person, as she often declared, in whose society
she could ever find the pure enjoyments of love, yet I felt thoroughly
convinced that her attachment could not withstand certain apprehensions.
She would have preferred me, even with a moderate fortune, to the whole
world; but I had no kind of doubt that she would, on the other hand,
abandon me for some new M. de B——, when I had nothing more to offer
her than fidelity and love.

"I resolved therefore so to curtail my own individual expenses, as to be
able always to meet hers, and rather to deprive myself of a thousand
necessaries than even to limit her extravagance. The carriage made me more
uneasy than anything else, for I saw no chance of being able to maintain
either coachman or horses.

"I told M. Lescaut of my difficulties, and did not conceal from him that I
had received a thousand francs from a friend. He repeated, that if I wished
to try the chances of the gaming-table, he was not without hopes that, by
spending a few crowns in entertaining his associates, I might be, on his
recommendation, admitted into the association. With all my repugnance to
cheating, I yielded to dire necessity.

"Lescaut presented me that night as a relation of his own. He added, that
I was the more likely to succeed in my new profession, from wanting the
favours of fortune. However, to show them that I was not quite reduced to
the lowest ebb, he said it was my intention to treat them with a supper. The
offer was accepted, and I entertained them en prince. They talked a good
deal about my fashionable appearance and the apparent amiability of my
disposition; they said that the best hopes might be entertained of me,
because there was something in my countenance that bespoke the
gentleman, and no one therefore could have a suspicion of my honesty: they
voted thanks to Lescaut for having introduced so promising a novice, and
deputed one of the members to instruct me for some days in the necessary
manoeuvres.

"The principal scene of my exploits was the hotel of Transylvania, where
there was a faro table in one room, and other games of cards and dice in the
gallery. This academy was kept by the Prince of R——, who then lived at
Clagny, and most of his officers belonged to our society. Shall I mention it
to my shame? I profited quickly by my instructor's tuition. I acquired an
amazing facility in sleight of hand tricks, and learned in perfection to sauter
le coup; with the help of a pair of long ruffles, I shuffled so adroitly as to
defy the quickest observer, and I ruined several fair players. My unrivalled
skill so quickened the progress of my fortunes, that I found myself master,
in a few weeks, of very considerable sums, besides what I divided in good
faith with my companions.

"I had no longer any fear of communicating to Manon the extent of our
loss at Chaillot, and, to console her on the announcement of such disastrous
news, I took a furnished house, where we established ourselves in all the
pride of opulence and security.

"Tiberge was in the habit, at this period, of paying me frequent visits. He
was never tired of his moral lectures. Over and over again did he represent
to me the injury I was inflicting upon my conscience, my honour, and my
fortune. I received all his advice kindly, and although I had not the smallest
inclination to adopt it, I had no doubt of its sincerity, for I knew its source.
Sometimes I rallied him good-humouredly, and entreated him not to be
more tight-laced than some other priests were, and even bishops, who by no

means considered a mistress incompatible with a good and holy life.' 'Look,'
I said, 'at Manon's eyes, and tell me if there is one in the long catalogue of
sins that might not there find a plea of justification.' He bore these sallies
patiently, and carried his forbearance almost too far: but when he saw my
funds increase, and that I had not only returned him the hundred and
seventy crowns, but having hired a new house and trebled my expenses, I
had plunged deeper than ever into a life of pleasure, he changed his tone
and manner towards me. He lamented my obduracy. He warned me against
the chastisement of the Divine wrath, and predicted some of the miseries
with which indeed I was shortly afterwards visited. 'It is impossible,' he
said, 'that the money which now serves to support your debaucheries can
have been acquired honourably. You have come by it unjustly, and in the
same way shall it be taken from you. The most awful punishment Heaven
could inflict would be to allow you the undisturbed enjoyment of it. All my
advice,' he added, 'has been useless; I too plainly perceive that it will
shortly become troublesome to you. I now take my leave; you are a weak,
as well as an ungrateful friend! May your criminal enjoyments vanish as a
shadow! may your ill-gotten wealth leave you without a resource; and may
you yourself remain alone and deserted, to learn the vanity of these things,
which now divert you from better pursuits! When that time arrives, you will
find me disposed to love and to serve you; this day ends our intercourse,
and I once for all avow my horror of the life you are leading.'

"It was in my room and in Manon's presence that he delivered this
apostolical harangue. He rose to depart. I was about to detain him; but was
prevented by Manon, who said it was better to let the madman go.

"What he said, however, did not fail to make some impression upon me.
I notice these brief passages of my life when I experienced a returning
sentiment of virtue, because it was to those traces, however light, that I was
afterwards indebted for whatever of fortitude I displayed under the most
trying circumstances.

"Manon's caresses soon dissipated the annoyance this scene had caused
me. We continued to lead a life entirely devoted to pleasure and love. The
increase of our wealth only redoubled our affection. There were none
happier among all the devotees of Venus and Fortune. Heavens! why call

this a world of misery, when it can furnish a life of such rapturous
enjoyment? But alas, it is too soon over! For what ought man to sigh, could
such felicity but last for ever? Ours shared the common fate—in being of
short duration, and followed by lasting regrets.

"I had realised by play such a considerable sum of money, that I thought
of investing a portion of it. My servants were not ignorant of my good luck,
particularly my valet and Manon's own maid, before whom we often talked
without any reserve. The maid was handsome, and my valet in love with
her. They knew they had to deal with a young and inexperienced couple,
whom they fancied they could impose upon without much difficulty. They
laid a plan, and executed it with so much skill, that they reduced us to a
state from which it was never afterwards possible for us to extricate
ourselves.

"Having supped one evening at Lescaut's, it was about midnight when
we returned home. I asked for my valet, and Manon for her maid; neither
one nor the other could be found. They had not been seen in the house since
eight o'clock, and had gone out, after having some cases carried before
them, according to orders which they pretended to have received from me. I
at once foresaw a part of the truth, but my suspicions were infinitely
surpassed by what presented itself on going into my room. The lock of my
closet had been forced, and my cash as well as my best clothes were gone.
While I stood stupefied with amazement, Manon came, in the greatest
alarm, to inform me that her apartment had been rifled in the same manner.

"This blow was so perfectly astounding, so cruel, that it was with
difficulty I could refrain from tears. The dread of infecting Manon with my
despair made me assume a more contented air. I said, smiling, that I should
avenge myself upon some unhappy dupe at the hotel of Transylvania.
However, she appeared so sensibly affected, that her grief increased my
sorrow infinitely more than my attempt succeeded in supporting her spirits.
'We are destroyed!' said she, with tears in her eyes. I endeavoured, in vain,
by my entreaties and caresses, to console her. My own lamentations
betrayed my distress and despair. In fact, we were so completely ruined,
that we were bereft almost of decent covering.

"I determined to send off at once for Lescaut. He advised me to go
immediately to the lieutenant of police, and to give information also to the
Grand Provost of Paris. I went, but it was to add to my calamities only; for,
independently of my visit producing not the smallest good effect, I, by my
absence, allowed Lescaut time for discussion with his sister, during which
he did not fail to inspire her with the most horrible resolutions. He spoke to
her about M. G—— M——, an old voluptuary, who paid prodigally for his
pleasures; he so glowingly described the advantages of such a connection,
that she entered into all his plans. This discreditable arrangement was all
concluded before my return, and the execution of it only postponed till the
next morning, after Lescaut should have apprised G—— M——.

"I found him, on my return, waiting for me at my house; but Manon had
retired to her own apartment, and she had desired the footman to tell me
that, having need of repose, she hoped she should not be disturbed that
night. Lescaut left me, after offering me a few crowns which I accepted.

"It was nearly four o'clock when I retired to bed; and having revolved in
my mind various schemes for retrieving my fortunes, I fell asleep so late
that I did not awake till between eleven and twelve o'clock. I rose at once to
enquire after Manon's health; they told me that she had gone out an hour
before with her brother, who had come for her in a hired carriage. Although
there appeared something mysterious in such a proceeding, I endeavoured
to check my rising suspicions. I allowed some hours to pass, during which I
amused myself with reading. At length, being unable any longer to stifle my
uneasiness, I paced up and down the apartments. A sealed letter upon
Manon's table at last caught my eye. It was addressed to me, and in her
handwriting. I felt my blood freeze as I opened it; it was in these words:

I protest to you, dearest chevalier, that you are the idol of my heart, and that you
are the only being on earth whom I can truly love; but do you not see, my own
poor dear chevalier, that in the situation to which we are now reduced, fidelity
would be worse than madness? Do you think tenderness possibly compatible
with starvation? For my part, hunger would be sure to drive me to some fatal
end. Heaving some day a sigh for love, I should find it was my last. I adore you,
rely upon that; but leave to me, for a short while, the management of our
fortunes. God help the man who falls into my hands. My only wish is to render

my chevalier rich and happy. My brother will tell you about me; he can vouch
for my grief in yielding to the necessity of parting from you.

"I remained, after reading this, in a state which it would be difficult to
describe; for even now I know not the nature of the feelings which then
agitated me. It was one of those unique situations of which others can never
have experienced anything even approaching to similarity. It is impossible
to explain it, because other persons can have no idea of its nature; and one
can hardly even analyse it to oneself. Memory furnishes nothing that will
connect it with the past, and therefore ordinary language is inadequate to
describe it. Whatever was its nature, however, it is certain that grief, hate,
jealousy, and shame entered into its composition. Fortunate would it have
proved for me if love also had not been a component part!

"'That she loves me,' I exclaimed, 'I can believe; but could she, without
being a monster, hate me? What right can man ever have to woman's
affections which I had not to Manon's? What is left to me, after all the
sacrifices I have made for her sake? Yet she abandons me, and the
ungrateful creature thinks to screen herself from my reproaches by
professions of love! She pretends to dread starvation! God of love, what
grossness of sentiment! What an answer to the refinement of my adoration!
I had no dread of that kind; I, who have almost sought starvation for her
sake, by renouncing fortune and the comforts of my father's house! I, who
denied myself actual necessaries, in order to gratify her little whims and
caprices! She adores me, she says. If you adored me, ungrateful creature, I
well know what course you would have taken; you would never have
quitted me, at least without saying adieu. It is only I who can tell the pangs
and torments, of being separated from all one loves. I must have taken leave
of my senses, to have voluntarily brought all this misery upon myself.'

"My lamentations were interrupted by a visit I little expected; it was
from Lescaut. 'Assassin!' cried I, putting my hand upon my sword, 'where is
Manon? what have you done with her?' My agitation startled him. He
replied, that if this was the reception he was to meet, when he came to offer
me the most essential service it was in his power to render me, he should
take his leave, and never again cross my threshold. I ran to the door of the

apartment, which I shut. 'Do not imagine,' I said, turning towards him, 'that
you can once more make a dupe of me with your lies and inventions. Either
defend your life, or tell me where I can find Manon.' 'How impatient you
are!' replied he; 'that was in reality the object of my visit. I came to
announce a piece of good fortune which you little expected, and for which
you will probably feel somewhat grateful.' My curiosity was at once
excited.

"He informed me that Manon, totally unable to endure the dread of want,
and, above all, the certainty of being at once obliged to dispense with her
equipage, had begged of him to make her acquainted with M. G—— M
——, who had a character for liberality. He carefully avoided telling me
that this was the result of his own advice, and that he had prepared the way
before he introduced his sister. 'I took her there this morning,' said he, 'and
the fellow was so enchanted with her looks that he at once invited her to
accompany him to his country seat, where he is gone to pass some days. As
I plainly perceived,' said Lescaut, 'the advantage it may be to you, I took
care to let him know that she had lately experienced very considerable
losses; and I so piqued his generosity that he began by giving her four
hundred crowns. I told him that was well enough for a commencement, but
that my sister would have, for the future, many demands for money; that
she had the charge of a young brother, who had been thrown upon her hands
since the death of our parents; and that, if he wished to prove himself
worthy of her affections, he would not allow her to suffer uneasiness upon
account of this child, whom she regarded as part of herself. This speech
produced its effect, he at once promised to take a house for you and Manon,
for you must know that you are the poor little orphan. He undertook to set
you up in furniture, and to give you four hundred livres a month, which if I
calculate rightly, will amount to four thousand eight hundred per annum. He
left orders with his steward to look out for a house, and to have it in
readiness by the time he returned. You will soon, therefore, again see
Manon, who begged of me to give you a thousand tender messages, and to
assure you that she loves you more dearly than ever.'"

V

Infected with that leprosy of lust,
Which taints the hoariest years of vicious men
Making them ransack to the very last
The dregs of pleasure for their vanished joys.
BYRON.

"On sitting down to reflect upon this strange turn of fate, I found myself
so perplexed, and consequently so incapable of arriving at any rational
conclusion, that I allowed Lescaut to put repeated questions to me without
in the slightest degree attending to their purport. It was then that honour and
virtue made me feel the most poignant remorse, and that I recalled with
bitterness Amiens, my father's house, St. Sulpice, and every spot where I
had ever lived in happy innocence. By what a terrific interval was I now
separated from that blessed state! I beheld it no longer but as a dim shadow
in the distance, still attracting my regrets and desires, but without the power
of rousing me to exertion. 'By what fatality,' said I, 'have I become thus
degraded? Love is not a guilty passion! why then has it been to me the
source of profligacy and distress? Who prevented me from leading a
virtuous and tranquil life with Manon? Why did I not marry her before I
obtained any concession from her love? Would not my father, who had the
tenderest regard for me, have given his consent, if I had taken the fair and
candid course of soliciting him? Yes, my father would himself have
cherished her as one far too good to be his son's wife! I should have been
happy in the love of Manon, in the affection of my father, in the esteem of
the world, with a moderate portion of the good things of life, and above all
with the consciousness of virtue. Disastrous change! Into what an infamous
character is it here proposed that I should sink? To share—— But can I
hesitate, if Manon herself suggests it, and if I am to lose her except upon
such conditions? 'Lescaut,' said I, putting my hands to my eyes as if to shut
out such a horrifying vision, 'if your intention was to render me a service, I
give you thanks. You might perhaps have struck out a more reputable
course, but it is so settled, is it not? Let us then only think of profiting by
your labour, and fulfilling your engagements.'

"Lescaut, who had been considerably embarrassed, not only by my fury,
but by the long silence which followed it, was too happy to see me now
take a course so different from what he had anticipated. He had not a
particle of courage, of which indeed I have, in the sequel of my story,
abundant proof. 'Yes, yes,' he quickly answered, 'it is good service I have
rendered you, and you will find that we shall derive infinitely more
advantage from it than you now expect.' We consulted then as to the best
mode of preventing the suspicions which G—— M—— might entertain of
our relationship, when he found me older and of riper manhood than he
probably imagined. The only plan we could hit upon was to assume in his
presence an innocent and provincial air, and to persuade him that it was my
intention to enter the Church, and that with that view I was obliged to go
every day to the college. We also determined that I should appear as
awkward as I possibly could the first time I was admitted to the honour of
an introduction.

"He returned to town three or four days after, and at once conducted
Manon to the house which his steward had in the meantime prepared. She
immediately apprised Lescaut of her return, and he having informed me, we
went together to her new abode. The old lover had already gone out.

"In spite of the submission with which I had resigned myself to her
wishes, I could not, at our meeting, repress the compunctious visitings of
my conscience. I appeared before her grieved and dejected. The joy I felt at
seeing her once more could not altogether dispel my sorrow for her
infidelity: she, on the contrary, appeared transported with the pleasure of
seeing me. She accused me of coldness. I could not help muttering the
words perfidious and unfaithful, though they were profusely mixed with
sighs.

"At first she laughed at me for my simplicity; but when she found that I
continued to look at her with an unchanging expression of melancholy, and
that I could not bring myself to enter with alacrity into a scene so repugnant
to all my feelings, she went alone into her boudoir. I very soon followed
her, and then I found her in a flood of tears. I asked the cause of her sorrow.
'You can easily understand it,' said she; 'how can you wish me to live, if my
presence can no longer have any other effect than to give you an air of

sadness and chagrin? Not one kiss have you given me during the long hour
you have been in the house, while you have received my caresses with the
dignified indifference of a Grand Turk, receiving the forced homage of the
Sultanas of his harem.'

"'Hearken to me, Manon,' said I, embracing her; 'I cannot conceal from
you that my heart is bitterly afflicted. I do not now allude to the uneasiness
your sudden flight caused me, nor to the unkindness of quitting me without
a word of consolation, after having passed the night away from me. The
pleasure of seeing you again would more than compensate for all; but do
you imagine that I can reflect without sighs and tears upon the degrading
and unhappy life which you now wish me to lead in this house? Say nothing
of my birth, or of my feelings of honour; love like mine derives no aid from
arguments of that feeble nature; but do you imagine that I can without
emotion see my love so badly recompensed, or rather so cruelly treated, by
an ungrateful and unfeeling mistress?'

"She interrupted me. 'Stop, chevalier,' said she, 'it is useless to torture me
with reproaches, which, coming from you, always pierce my heart. I see
what annoys you. I had hoped that you would have agreed to the project
which I had devised for mending our shattered fortunes, and it was from a
feeling of delicacy to you that I began the execution of it without your
assistance; but I give it up since it does not meet your approbation.' She
added that she would now merely request a little patient forbearance during
the remainder of the day; that she had already received five hundred crowns
from the old gentleman, and that he had promised to bring her that evening
a magnificent pearl necklace with other jewels, and, in advance, half of the
yearly pension he had engaged to allow her. 'Leave me only time enough,'
said she to me, to get possession of these presents; I promise you that he
will have little to boast of from his connection with me, for in the country I
repulsed all his advances, putting him off till our return to town. It is true
that he has kissed my hand a thousand times over, and it is but just that he
should pay for even this amusement: I am sure that, considering his riches
as well as his age, five or six thousand francs is not an unreasonable price!'

"Her determination was of more value in my eyes than twenty thousand
crowns. I could feel that I was not yet bereft of every sentiment of honour,

by the satisfaction I experienced at escaping thus from infamy. But I was
born for brief joys, and miseries of long duration. Fate never rescued me
from one precipice, but to lead me to another. When I had expressed my
delight to Manon at this change in her intentions, I told her she had better
inform Lescaut of it, in order that we might take our measures in concert. At
first he murmured, but the money in hand induced him to enter into our
views. It was then determined that we should all meet at G—— M——'s
supper table, and that, for two reasons: first, for the amusement of passing
me off as a schoolboy, and brother to Manon; and secondly, to prevent the
old profligate from taking any liberties with his mistress, on the strength of
his liberal payments in advance. Lescaut and I were to retire, when he went
to the room where he expected to pass the night; and Manon, instead of
following him, promised to come out, and join us. Lescaut undertook to
have a coach waiting at the door.

"The supper hour having arrived, M. G—— M—— made his
appearance. Already Lescaut was with his sister in the supper room. The
moment the lover entered, he presented his fair one with a complete set of
pearls, necklaces, ear-rings, and bracelets, which must have cost at least a
thousand crowns. He then placed on the table before her, in louis d'or, two
thousand four hundred francs, the half of her year's allowance. He seasoned
his present with many pretty speeches in the true style of the old court.
Manon could not refuse him a few kisses: it was sealing her right to the
money which he had just handed to her. I was at the door, and waiting for
Lescaut's signal to enter the room.

"He approached to take me by the hand, while Manon was securing the
money and jewels, and leading me towards M. G—— M——, he desired
me to make my bow. I made two or three most profound ones. 'Pray excuse
him, sir,' said Lescaut, 'he is a mere child. He has not yet acquired much of
the ton of Paris; but no doubt with a little trouble we shall improve him.
You will often have the honour of seeing that gentleman, here,' said he,
turning towards me: 'take advantage of it, and endeavour to imitate so good
a model.'

"The old libertine appeared to be pleased with me. He patted me on the
cheek, saying that I was a fine boy, but that I should be on my guard in

Paris, where young men were easily debauched. Lescaut assured him that I
was naturally of so grave a character that I thought of nothing but becoming
a clergyman, and that, even as a child, my favourite amusement was
building little chapels. 'I fancy a likeness to Manon,' said the old gentleman,
putting his hand under my chin. I answered him, with the most simple air—
'Sir, the fact is, that we are very closely connected, and I love my sister as
another portion of myself.' 'Do you hear that,' said he to Lescaut; 'he is
indeed a clever boy! It is a pity he should not see something of the world.'
'Oh, sir,' I replied, 'I have seen a great deal of it at home, attending church,
and I believe I might find in Paris some greater fools than myself.' 'Listen,'
said he; 'it is positively wonderful in a boy from the country.'

"The whole conversation during supper was of the same kind. Manon,
with her usual gaiety, was several times on the point of spoiling the joke by
her bursts of laughter. I contrived, while eating, to recount his own identical
history, and to paint even the fate that awaited him. Lescaut and Manon
were in an agony of fear during my recital, especially while I was drawing
his portrait to the life: but his own vanity prevented him from recognising
it, and I did it so well that he was the first to pronounce it extremely
laughable. You will allow that I had reason for dwelling on this ridiculous
scene.

"At length it was time to retire. He hinted at the impatience of love.
Lescaut and I took our departure. G—— M—— went to his room, and
Manon, making some excuse for her absence, came to join us at the gate.
The coach, that was waiting for us a few doors off, drove up towards us,
and we were out of the street in an instant.

"Although I must confess that this proceeding appeared to me little short
of actual robbery, it was not the most dishonest one with which I thought I
had to reproach myself. I had more scruples about the money which I had
won at play. However, we derived as little advantage from one as from the
other; and Heaven sometimes ordains that the lightest fault shall meet the
severest punishment.

"M. G—— M—— was not long in finding out that he had been duped. I
am not sure whether he took any steps that night to discover us, but he had
influence enough to ensure an effectual pursuit, and we were sufficiently

imprudent to rely upon the extent of Paris and the distance between our
residence and his. Not only did he discover our abode and our
circumstances, but also who I was—the life that I had led in Paris—
Manon's former connection with B——,—the manner in which she had
deceived him: in a word, all the scandalous facts of our history. He
therefore resolved to have us apprehended, and treated less as criminals
than as vagabonds. An officer came abruptly one morning into our
bedroom, with half a dozen archers of the guard. They first took possession
of our money, or I should rather say, of G——M——'s. They made us
quickly get up, and conducted us to the door, where we found two coaches,
into one of which they forced poor Manon, without any explanation, and I
was taken in the other to St. Lazare.

"One must have experienced this kind of reverse, to understand the
despair that is caused by it. The police were savage enough to deny me the
consolation of embracing Manon, or of bidding her farewell. I remained for
a long time ignorant of her fate. It was perhaps fortunate for me that I was
kept in a state of ignorance, for had I known what she suffered, I should
have lost my senses, probably my life.

"My unhappy mistress was dragged then from my presence, and taken to
a place the very name of which fills me with horror to remember. This to be
the lot of a creature the most perfect, who must have shared the most
splendid throne on earth, if other men had only seen and felt as I did! She
was not treated harshly there, but was shut up in a narrow prison, and
obliged, in solitary confinement, to perform a certain quantity of work each
day, as a necessary condition for obtaining the most unpalatable food. I did
not learn this till a long time after, when I had myself endured some months
of rough and cruel treatment.

"My guards not having told me where it was that they had been ordered
to conduct me, it was only on my arrival at St. Lazare that I learned my
destination. I would have preferred death, at that moment, to the state into
which I believed myself about to be thrown. I had the utmost terror of this
place. My misery was increased by the guards on my entrance, examining
once more my pockets, to ascertain whether I had about me any arms or
weapons of defence.

"The governor appeared. He had been informed of my apprehension. He
saluted me with great mildness. 'Do not, my good sir,' said I to him, 'allow
me to be treated with indignity. I would suffer a hundred deaths rather than
quietly submit to degrading treatment.' 'No, no,' he replied, 'you will act
quietly and prudently, and we shall be mutually content with each other.' He
begged of me to ascend to one of the highest rooms; I followed him without
a murmur. The archers accompanied us to the door, and the governor,
entering the room, made a sign for them to depart. 'I am your prisoner, I
suppose?' said I; 'well, what do you intend to do with me?' He said, he was
delighted to see me adopt so reasonable a tone; that it would be his duty to
endeavour to inspire me with a taste for virtue and religion, and mine to
profit by his exhortations and advice: that lightly as I might be disposed to
rate his attentions to me, I should find nothing but enjoyment in my
solitude. 'Ah, enjoyment, indeed!' replied I; 'you do not know, my good sir,
the only thing on earth that could afford me enjoyment.' 'I know it,' said he,
'but I trust your inclinations will change.' His answer showed that he had
heard of my adventures, and perhaps of my name. I begged to know if such
were the fact. He told me candidly that they had informed him of every
particular.

"This blow was the severest of any I had yet experienced. I literally shed
a torrent of tears, in all the bitterness of unmixed despair; I could not
reconcile myself to the humiliation which would make me a proverb to all
my acquaintances, and the disgrace of my family. I passed a week in the
most profound dejection, without being capable of gaining any information,
or of occupying myself with anything but my own degradation. The
remembrance even of Manon added nothing to my grief; it only occurred to
me as a circumstance that had preceded my new sorrow; and the sense of
shame and confusion was at present the all-absorbing passion.

"There are few persons who have experienced the force of these special
workings of the mind. The generality of men are only sensible of five or six
passions, in the limited round of which they pass their lives, and within
which all their agitations are confined. Remove them from the influence of
love and hate, pleasure and pain, hope and fear, and they have no further
feeling. But persons of a finer cast can be affected in a thousand different
ways; it would almost seem that they had more than five senses, and that

they are accessible to ideas and sensations which far exceed the ordinary
faculties of human nature; and, conscious that they possess a capacity
which raises them above the common herd, there is nothing of which they
are more jealous. Hence springs their impatience under contempt and
ridicule; and hence it is that a sense of debasement is perhaps the most
violent of all their emotions.

"I had this melancholy advantage at St. Lazare. My grief appeared to the
governor so excessive, that, dreading the consequences, he thought he was
bound to treat me with more mildness and indulgence. He visited me two or
three times a day; he often made me take a turn with him in the garden, and
showed his interest for me in his exhortations and good advice. I listened
always attentively; and warmly expressed my sense of his kindness, from
which he derived hopes of my ultimate conversion.

"'You appear to me,' said he one day, 'of a disposition so mild and
tractable, that I cannot comprehend the excesses into which you have fallen.
Two things astonish me: one is, how, with your good qualities, you could
have ever abandoned yourself to vice; and the other, which amazes me still
more, is, how you can receive with such perfect temper my advice and
instructions, after having lived so long in a course of debauchery. If it be
sincere repentance, you present a singular example of the benign mercy of
Heaven; if it proceed from the natural goodness of your disposition, then
you certainly have that within you which warrants the hope that a protracted
residence in this place will not be required to bring you back to a regular
and respectable life.'

"I was delighted to find that he had such an opinion of me. I resolved to
strengthen it by a continuance of good conduct, convinced that it was the
surest means of abridging the term of my confinement. I begged of him to
furnish me with books. He was agreeably surprised to find that when he
requested me to say what I should prefer, I mentioned only some religious
and instructive works. I pretended to devote myself assiduously to study,
and I thus gave him convincing proof of the moral reformation he was so
anxious to bring about. It was nothing, however, but rank hypocrisy—I
blush to confess it. Instead of studying, when alone I did nothing but curse
my destiny. I lavished the bitterest execrations on my prison, and the tyrants

who detained me there. If I ceased for a moment from these lamentations, it
was only to relapse into the tormenting remembrance of my fatal and
unhappy love. Manon's absence—the mystery in which her fate was veiled
—the dread of never again beholding her; these formed the subject of my
melancholy thoughts. I fancied her in the arms of G—— M——. Far from
imagining that he could have been brute enough to subject her to the same
treatment to which I was condemned, I felt persuaded that he had only
procured my removal, in order that he might possess her in undisturbed
enjoyment.

"Oh! how miserable were the days and nights I thus passed! They
seemed to be of endless duration. My only hope of escape now, was in
hypocrisy; I scrutinised the countenance, and carefully marked every
observation that fell from the governor, in order to ascertain what he really
thought of me; and looking on him as the sole arbiter of my future fate, I
made it my study to win, if possible, his favour. I soon had the satisfaction
to find that I was firmly established in his good graces, and no longer
doubted his disposition to befriend me.

"I, one day, ventured to ask him whether my liberation depended on him.
He replied that it was not altogether in his hands, but that he had no doubt
that on his representation M. G—— M——, at whose instance the
lieutenant-general of police had ordered me to be confined, would consent
to my being set at liberty. 'May I flatter myself,' rejoined I, in the mildest
tone, 'that he will consider two months, which I have now spent in this
prison, as a sufficient atonement?' He offered to speak to him, if I wished it.
I implored him without delay to do me that favour.

"He told me two days afterwards that G—— M—— was so sensibly
affected by what he had heard, that he not only was ready to consent to my
liberation, but that he had even expressed a strong desire to become better
acquainted with me, and that he himself purposed to pay me a visit in
prison. Although his presence could not afford me much pleasure, I looked
upon it as a certain prelude to my liberation.

"He accordingly came to St. Lazare. I met him with an air more grave
and certainly less silly than I had exhibited at his house with Manon. He
spoke reasonably enough of my former bad conduct. He added, as if to

excuse his own delinquencies, that it was graciously permitted to the
weakness of man to indulge in certain pleasures, almost, indeed, prompted
by nature, but that dishonesty and such shameful practices ought to be, and
always would be, inexorably punished.

"I listened to all he said with an air of submission, which quite charmed
him. I betrayed no symptoms of annoyance even at some jokes in which he
indulged about my relationship with Manon and Lescaut, and about the
little chapels of which he supposed I must have had time to erect a great
many in St. Lazare, as I was so fond of that occupation. But he happened,
unluckily both for me and for himself, to add, that he hoped Manon had
also employed herself in the same edifying manner at the Magdalen.
Notwithstanding the thrill of horror I felt at the sound of the name, I had
still presence of mind enough to beg, in the gentlest manner, that he would
explain himself. 'Oh! yes,' he replied, 'she has been these last two months at
the Magdalen learning to be prudent, and I trust she has improved herself as
much there, as you have done at St. Lazare!'

"If an eternal imprisonment, or death itself, had been presented to my
view, I could not have restrained the excitement into which this afflicting
announcement threw me. I flung myself upon him in so violent a rage that
half my strength was exhausted by the effort. I had, however, more than
enough left to drag him to the ground, and grasp him by the throat. I should
infallibly have strangled him, if his fall, and the half-stifled cries which he
had still the power to utter, had not attracted the governor and several of the
priests to my room. They rescued him from my fury.

"I was, myself, breathless and almost impotent from rage. 'Oh God!' I
cried—'Heavenly justice! Must I survive this infamy?' I tried again to seize
the barbarian who had thus roused my indignation—they prevented me. My
despair—my cries—my tears, exceeded all belief: I raved in so incoherent a
manner that all the bystanders, who were ignorant of the cause, looked at
each other with as much dread as surprise.

"G—— M—— in the meantime adjusted his wig and cravat, and in his
anger at having been so ill-treated, ordered me to be kept under more severe
restraint than before, and to be punished in the manner usual with offenders
in St. Lazare. 'No, sir!' said the governor, 'it is not with a person of his birth

that we are in the habit of using such means of coercion; besides, he is
habitually so mild and well-conducted, that I cannot but think you must
have given provocation for such excessive violence.' This reply
disconcerted G—— M—— beyond measure and he went away, declaring
that he knew how to be revenged on the governor, as well as on me, and
everyone else who dared to thwart him.

"The Superior, having ordered some of the brotherhood to escort him out
of the prison, remained alone with me. He conjured me to tell him at once
what was the cause of the fracas.—'Oh, my good sir!' said I to him,
continuing to cry like a child, 'imagine the most horrible cruelty, figure to
yourself the most inhuman of atrocities—that is what G—— M—— has
had the cowardly baseness to perpetrate: he has pierced my heart. Never
shall I recover from this blow! I would gladly tell you the whole
circumstance,' added I, sobbing with grief; 'you are kind-hearted, and
cannot fail to pity me.'

"I gave him, as briefly as I could, a history of my long-standing and
insurmountable passion for Manon, of the flourishing condition of our
fortunes previous to the robbery committed by our servants, of the offers
which G—— M—— had made to my mistress, of the understanding they
had come to, and the manner in which it had been defeated. To be sure, I
represented things to him in as favourable a light for us as possible. 'Now
you can comprehend,' continued I, 'the source of M. G—— M——'s holy
zeal for my conversion. He has had influence enough to have me shut up
here, out of mere revenge. That I can pardon; but, my good sir, that is not
all. He has taken from me my heart's blood: he has had Manon shamefully
incarcerated in the Magdalen; and had the effrontery to announce it to me
this day with his own lips. In the Magdalen, good sir! Oh heavens! my
adorable mistress, my beloved Manon, a degraded inmate of the Hospital!
How shall I command strength of mind enough to survive this grief and
shame!'

"The good Father, seeing me in such affliction, endeavoured to console
me. He told me that he had never understood my history, as I just now
related it; he had of course known that I led a dissolute life, but he had
imagined that M. G—— M——'s interest about me was the result of his

esteem and friendship for my family; that it was in this sense he had
explained the matter to him; that what I had now told him should assuredly
produce a change in my treatment, and that he had no doubt but the accurate
detail which he should immediately transmit to the lieutenant-general of
police would bring about my liberation.

"He then enquired why I had never thought of informing my family of
what had taken place, since they had not been instrumental to my
incarceration. I satisfactorily answered this by stating my unwillingness to
cause my father pain, or to bring upon myself the humiliation of such an
exposure. In the end, he promised to go directly to the lieutenant-general of
police if it were only, said he, to be beforehand with M. G—— M——,
who went off in such a rage, and who had sufficient influence to make
himself formidable.

"I looked for the good Father's return with all the suspense of a man
expecting sentence of death. It was torture to me to think of Manon at the
Magdalen. Besides the infamy of such a prison, I knew not how she might
be treated there; and the recollection of some particulars I had formerly
heard of this horrible place, incessantly renewed my misery. Cost what it
might, I was so bent upon relieving her by some means or other, that I
should assuredly have set fire to St. Lazare, if no other mode of escape had
presented itself.

"I considered what chances would remain to me if the lieutenant-general
still kept me in confinement. I taxed my ingenuity: I scanned every
imaginable gleam of hope—I could discover nothing that gave me any
prospect of escape, and I feared that I should experience only more rigid
confinement, if I made an unsuccessful attempt. I thought of some friends
from whom I might hope for aid, but then, how was I to make them aware
of my situation? At length I fancied that I had hit upon a plan so ingenious,
as to offer a fair probability of success. I postponed the details of its
arrangement until after the Superior's return, in case of his having failed in
the object of his visit.

"He soon arrived: I did not observe upon his countenance any of those
marks of joy that indicate good news. 'I have spoken,' said he, 'to the
lieutenant-general of police, but I was too late, M. G—— M—— went

straight to him after quitting us, and so prejudiced him against you, that he
was on the point of sending me fresh instructions to subject you to closer
confinement.

"'However, when I let him know the truth of your story, he reconsidered
the matter, and, smiling at the incontinence of old G—— M——, he said it
would be necessary to keep you here for six months longer, in order to
pacify him; the less to be lamented,' he added, 'because your morals would
be sure to benefit by your residence here. He desired that I would show you
every kindness and attention, and I need not assure you that you shall have
no reason to complain of your treatment.'

"This speech of the Superior's was long enough to afford me time to
form a prudent resolution. I saw that by betraying too strong an impatience
for my liberty, I should probably be upsetting all my projects. I
acknowledged to him, that, as it was necessary to me to remain, it was an
infinite comfort to know that I possessed a place in his esteem. I then
requested, and with unaffected sincerity, a favour, which could be of no
consequence to others, and which would contribute much to my peace of
mind; it was to inform a friend of mine, a devout clergyman, who lived at
St. Sulpice, that I was at St. Lazare, and to permit me occasionally to
receive his visits.

"This was of course my friend Tiberge; not that I could hope from him
the assistance necessary for effecting my liberty; but I wished to make him
the unconscious instrument of my designs. In a word, this was my project: I
wished to write to Lescaut, and to charge him and our common friends with
the task of my deliverance. The first difficulty was to have my letter
conveyed to him: this should be Tiberge's office. However, as he knew him
to be Manon's brother, I doubted whether he would take charge of this
commission. My plan was to enclose my letter to Lescaut in another to
some respectable man of my acquaintance, begging of him to transmit the
first to its address without delay; and as it was necessary that I should have
personal communication with Lescaut, in order to arrange our proceedings,
I told him to call on me at St. Lazare, and assume the name of my eldest
brother, as if he had come to Paris expressly to see me. I postponed till our
meeting all mention of the safest and most expeditious course I intended to

suggest for our future conduct. The governor informed Tiberge of my wish
to see him. This ever-faithful friend had not so entirely lost sight of me as to
be ignorant of my present abode, and it is probable that, in his heart, he did
not regret the circumstance, from an idea that it might furnish the means of
my moral regeneration. He lost no time in paying me the desired visit."

VI

It is a strange thing to note the excess of this passion; and how it braves the
nature and value of things, by this—that the speaking in a perpetual hyperbole is
comely in nothing but in love.—BACON.

"My interview with Tiberge was of the most friendly description. I saw
that his object was to discover the present temper of my mind. I opened my
heart to him without any reserve, except as to the mere point of my
intention of escaping. 'It is not from such a friend as you,' said I, 'that I can
ever wish to dissemble my real feelings. If you flattered yourself with a
hope that you were at last about to find me grown prudent and regular in my
conduct, a libertine reclaimed by the chastisements of fortune, released
alike from the trammels of love, and the dominion that Manon wields over
me, I must in candour say, that you deceive yourself. You still behold me, as
you left me four months ago, the slave—if you will, the unhappy slave—of
a passion, from which I now hope, as fervently and as confidently as I ever
did, to derive eventually solid comfort.'

"He answered, that such an acknowledgment rendered me utterly
inexcusable; that it was no uncommon case to meet sinners who allowed
themselves to be so dazzled with the glare of vice as to prefer it openly to
the true splendour of virtue; they were at least deluded by the false image of
happiness, the poor dupes of an empty shadow; but to know and feel as I
did, that the object of my attachment was only calculated to render me
culpable and unhappy, and to continue thus voluntarily in a career of misery
and crime, involved a contradiction of ideas and of conduct little creditable
to my reason.

"'Tiberge,' replied I, 'it is easy to triumph when your arguments are
unopposed. Allow me to reason for a few moments in my turn. Can you

pretend that what you call the happiness of virtue is exempt from troubles,
and crosses, and cares? By what name will you designate the dungeon, the
rack, the inflections and tortures of tyrants? Will you say with the
Mystics[1] that the soul derives pleasure from the torments of the body?
You are not bold enough to hold such a doctrine—a paradox not to be
maintained. This happiness, then, that you prize so much, has a thousand
drawbacks, or is, more properly speaking, but a tissue of sufferings through
which one hopes to attain felicity. If by the power of imagination one can
even derive pleasure from these sufferings, hoping that they may lead to a
happy end, why, let me ask, do you deem my conduct senseless, when it is
directed by precisely the same principle? I love Manon: I wade through
sorrow and suffering in order to attain happiness with her. My path is one
indeed of difficulties, but the mere hope of reaching the desired goal makes
it easy and delightful; and I shall think myself but too bountifully repaid by
one moment of her society, for all the troubles I encounter in my course.
There appears therefore no difference between us, or, if there be any, it is
assuredly in my favour; for the bliss I hope for is near and tangible, yours is
far distant, and purely speculative. Mine is of the same kind as my
sufferings, that is to say, evident to my senses; yours is of an
incomprehensible nature, and only discernible through the dim medium of
faith.'

"Tiberge appeared shocked by my remarks. He retired two or three paces
from me, while he said, in the most serious tone, that my argument was not
only a violation of good sense, but that it was the miserable sophistry of
irreligion; 'for the comparison,' he added, 'of the pitiful reward of your
sufferings with that held out to us by the divine revelation, is the essence of
impiety and absurdity combined.'

"'I acknowledge,' said I, 'that the comparison is not a just one, but my
argument does not at all depend upon it. I was about to explain what you
consider a contradiction—the persevering in a painful pursuit; and I think I
have satisfactorily proved, that if there be any contradiction in that, we shall
be both equally obnoxious to the charge. It was in this light, only, that I
could observe no difference in our cases, and I cannot as yet perceive any.

"'You may probably answer, that the proposed end, the promised reward,
of virtue, is infinitely superior to that of love? No one disputes it, but that is
not the question—we are only discussing the relative aid they both afford in
the endurance of affliction. Judge of that by the practical effect: are there
not multitudes who abandon a life of strict virtue? how few give up the
pursuits of love!

"'Again, you will reply that if there be difficulties in the exercise of
virtue, they are by no means universal and sure; that the good man does not
necessarily meet tyrants and tortures, and that, on the contrary, a life of
virtue is perfectly compatible with repose and enjoyment. I can say with
equal truth, that love is often accompanied by content and happiness; and
what makes another distinction of infinite advantage to my argument, I may
add that love, though it often deludes, never holds out other than hopes of
bliss and joy, whilst religion exacts from her votaries mortification and
sorrow.

"'Do not be alarmed,' said I, perceiving that I had almost offended his
zealous feelings of devotion. 'I only wish to say, that there is no more
unsuccessful method of weaning man's heart from love, than by
endeavouring to decry its enjoyments, and by promising him more pleasure
from the exercise of virtue. It is an inherent principle in our nature, that our
felicity consists only in pleasure. I defy you to conceive any other notion of
it; and it requires little time to arrive at the conviction, that, of all pleasures,
those of love are immeasurably the most enchanting. A man quickly
discerns the delusion, when he hears the promise made of livelier
enjoyment, and the effect of such misrepresentation is only to make him
doubt the truth of a more solid promise.

"'Let the preacher who seeks the reformation of a sinner tell me that
virtue is indispensably necessary, but not disguise its difficulty and its
attendant denials. Say that the enjoyments of love are fleeting, if you will,
that they are rigidly forbidden, that they lead with certainty to eternal
suffering; and, what would assuredly make a deeper impression upon me
than any other argument, say that the more sweet and delectable they are,
the brighter will be the reward of Heaven for giving them up in sacrifice;

but do in the name of justice admit, that, constituted as the heart of man is,
they form here, on earth, our most perfect happiness.'

"My last sentence restored to Tiberge his good humour. He allowed that
my ideas were not altogether so unreasonable. The only point he made, was
in asking me why I did not carry my own principle into operation, by
sacrificing my passion to the hope of that remuneration of which I had
drawn so brilliant a picture. 'Oh! my dear friend,' replied I; 'that it is which
makes me conscious of my own misery and weakness: true, alas! it is
indeed my duty to act according to my argument; but have I the power of
governing my own actions? What aid will enable me to forget Manon's
charms?' 'God forgive me,' said Tiberge, 'I can almost fancy you a
Jansenist[2]. 'I know not of what sect I am,' replied I, 'nor do I indeed very
clearly see to which I ought to belong; but I cannot help feeling the truth of
this at least of their tenets.'

"One effect of our conversation was to revive my friend's pity for me in
all its force. He perceived that there was in my errors more of weakness
than of vice; and he was the more disposed in the end to give me assistance;
without which I should infallibly have perished from distress of mind.
However, I carefully concealed from him my intention of escaping from St.
Lazare. I merely begged of him to take charge of my letter; I had it ready
before he came, and I soon found an excuse for the necessity of writing. He
faithfully transmitted it, and Lescaut received before evening the one I had
enclosed for him.

"He came to see me next morning, and fortunately was admitted under
my brother's name. I was overjoyed at finding him in my room. I carefully
closed the door. 'Let us lose no time,' I said. 'First tell me about Manon, and
then advise me how I am to shake off these fetters.' He assured me that he
had not seen his sister since the day before my arrest, and that it was only
by repeated enquiries, and after much trouble, that he had at length been
able to discover her fate as well as mine; and that he had two or three times
presented himself at the Magdalen, and been refused admittance. 'Wretch!'
muttered I to myself, 'dearly shall G—— M—— pay for this!'

"'As to your escape,' continued Lescaut, 'it will not be so easy as you
imagine. Last evening, I and a couple of friends walked round this

establishment to reconnoitre it; and we agreed that, as your windows looked
into a court surrounded by buildings, as you yourself mentioned in your
letter, there would be vast difficulty in getting you out. Besides, you are on
the third story, and it would be impossible to introduce ropes or ladders
through the window. I therefore see no means from without—in the house
itself we must hit upon some scheme.'

"'No,' replied I; 'I have examined everything minutely, particularly since,
through the governor's indulgence, my confinement has been less rigorous.
I am no longer locked into my room; I have liberty to walk in the gallery;
but there is, upon every landing, a strong door kept closed night and day, so
that it is impossible that ingenuity alone, unaided by some violent efforts,
can rescue me.

"'Wait,' said I, after turning in my mind for a moment an idea that struck
me as excellent; 'could you bring me a pistol?' 'Softly,' said Lescaut to me,
'you don't think of committing murder?' I assured him that I had so little
intention of shooting anyone, that it would not be even necessary to have
the pistol loaded. 'Bring it to me tomorrow,' I added, 'and do not fail to be
exactly opposite the great entrance with two or three of your friends at
eleven tomorrow night; I think I shall be able to join you there.' He in vain
requested me to explain my plan. I told him that such an attempt as I
contemplated could only appear rational after it had succeeded. I begged of
him to shorten his visit, in order that he might with the less difficulty be
admitted next morning. He was accordingly admitted as readily as on his
first visit. He had put on so serious an air, moreover, that a stranger would
have taken him for a respectable person.

"When I found in my hand the instrument of my liberty, I no longer
doubted my success. It was certainly a strange and a bold project; but of
what was I not capable, with the motives that inspired me? I had, since I
was allowed permission to walk in the galleries, found opportunities of
observing that every night the porter brought the keys of all the doors to the
governor, and subsequently there always reigned a profound silence in the
house, which showed that the inmates had retired to rest. There was an open
communication between my room and that of the Superior. My resolution
was, if he refused quietly to surrender the keys, to force him, by fear of the

pistol, to deliver them up, and then by their help to gain the street. I
impatiently awaited the moment for executing my purpose. The porter
arrived at his usual time, that is to say, soon after nine o'clock. I allowed an
hour to elapse, in order that the priests as well as the servants might be all
asleep. I at length proceeded with my pistol and a lighted candle. I first
gave a gentle tap at the governor's door to awaken without alarming him. I
knocked a second time before he heard me; and supposing of course that it
was one of the priests who was taken ill and wanted assistance, he got out
of bed, dressed himself, and came to the door. He had, however, the
precaution to ask first who it was, and what was wanted? I was obliged to
mention my name, but I assumed a plaintive tone, to make him believe that
I was indisposed. 'Ah! it is you, my dear boy,' said he on opening the door;
'what can bring you here at this hour?' I stepped inside the door, and leading
him to the opposite side of the room, I declared to him that it was absolutely
impossible for me to remain longer at St. Lazare; that the night was the
most favourable time for going out unobserved, and that I confidently
expected, from his tried friendship, that he would consent to open the gates
for me, or entrust me with the keys to let myself out.

"This compliment to his friendship seemed to surprise him. He stood for
a few moments looking at me without making any reply. Finding that I had
no time to lose, I just begged to assure him that I had the most lively sense
of all his kindnesses, but that freedom was dearer to man than every other
consideration, especially so to me, who had been cruelly and unjustly
deprived of it; that I was resolved this night to recover it, cost what it
would, and fearing lest he might raise his voice and call for assistance, I let
him see the powerful incentive to silence which I had kept concealed in my
bosom. 'A pistol!' cried he. 'What! my son? will you take away my life in
return for the attentions I have shown you?' 'God forbid,' replied I; 'you are
too reasonable to drive me to that horrible extremity: but I am determined to
be free, and so firmly determined, that if you defeat my project, I will put
an end to your existence.' 'But, my dear son!' said he, pale and frightened,
'what have I done to you? What reason have you for taking my life?' 'No!'
replied I, impatiently, 'I have no design upon your life, if you, yourself,
wish to live; open but the doors for me, and you will find me the most
attached of friends.' I perceived the keys upon the table. I requested he

would take them in his hand and walk before me, making as little noise as
he possibly could.

"He saw the necessity of consenting. We proceeded, and as he opened
each door, he repeated, always with a sigh, 'Ah! my son, who could have
believed it?' 'No noise, good Father, no noise,' I as often answered in my
turn. At length we reached a kind of barrier, just inside the great entrance. I
already fancied myself free, and kept close behind the governor, with my
candle in one hand, and my pistol in the other.

"While he was endeavouring to open the heavy gate, one of the servants,
who slept in an adjoining room, hearing the noise of the bolts, jumped out
of bed, and peeped forth to see what was passing. The good Father
apparently thought him strong enough to overpower me. He commanded
him, most imprudently, to come to his assistance. He was a powerful
ruffian, and threw himself upon me without an instant's hesitation. There
was no time for parleying—I levelled my pistol and lodged the contents in
his breast! 'See, Father, of what mischief you have been the cause,' said I to
my guide; 'but that must not prevent us from finishing our work,' I added,
pushing him on towards the last door. He did not dare refuse to open it. I
made my exit in perfect safety, and, a few paces off, found Lescaut with
two friends waiting for me, according to his promise.

"We removed at once to a distance. Lescaut enquired whether he had not
heard the report of a pistol? 'You are to blame,' said I, 'why did you bring it
charged?' I, however, could not help thanking him for having taken this
precaution, without which I doubtless must have continued much longer at
St. Lazare. We went to pass the night at a tavern, where I made up, in some
degree, for the miserable fare which had been doled out to me for nearly
three months. I was very far, however, from tasting perfect enjoyment;
Manon's sufferings were mine. 'She must be released,' said I to my
companions: 'this was my sole object in desiring my own liberty. I rely on
your aiding me with all your ingenuity; as for myself, my life shall be
devoted to the purpose.'

"Lescaut, who was not deficient in tact, and still less in that better part of
valour called discretion, dwelt upon the necessity of acting with extreme
caution: he said that my escape from St. Lazare, and the accident that

happened on my leaving it, would assuredly create a sensation; that the
lieutenant-general of police would cause a strict search to be made for me,
and it would be difficult to evade him; in fine, that, unless disposed to
encounter something worse, perhaps, than St. Lazare, it would be requisite
for me to remain concealed for a few days, in order to give the enemy's zeal
time to cool. No doubt this was wise counsel; but, one should have been
wise oneself to have followed it. Such calculating slowness little suited my
passion. The utmost I could bring myself to promise was, that I would sleep
through the whole of the next day. He locked me in my bedroom, where I
remained patiently until night.

"I employed great part of the time in devising schemes for relieving
Manon. I felt persuaded that her prison was even more inaccessible than
mine had been. Force was out of the question. Artifice was the only
resource; but the goddess of invention herself could not have told me how
to begin. I felt the impossibility of working in the dark, and therefore
postponed the further consideration of my schemes until I could acquire
some knowledge of the internal arrangements of the Hospital, in which she
was confined.

"As soon as night restored to me my liberty, I begged of Lescaut to
accompany me. We were not long in drawing one of the porters into
conversation; he appeared a reasonable man. I passed for a stranger who
had often with admiration heard talk of the Hospital, and of the order that
reigned within it. I enquired into the most minute details; and, proceeding
from one subject to another, we at length spoke of the managers, and of
these I begged to know the names and the respective characters. He gave
me such information upon the latter point as at once suggested an idea
which flattered my hopes, and I immediately set about carrying it into
execution.

"I asked him (this being a matter essential to my plan) whether any of
the gentlemen had children. He said he could not answer me with certainty
as to all, but as for M. de T——, one of the principal directors, he knew that
he had a son old enough to be married, and who had come several times to
the Hospital with his father. This was enough for my purpose.

"I immediately put an end to our interview, and, in returning, I told
Lescaut of the plan I had formed. 'I have taken it,' said I, 'into my head, that
M. de T——, the son, who is rich and of good family, must have the same
taste for pleasure that other young men of his age generally have. He could
hardly be so bad a friend to the fair sex, nor so absurd as to refuse his
services in an affair of love. I have arranged a plan for interesting him in
favour of Manon. If he is a man of feeling and of right mind, he will give us
his assistance from generosity. If he is not to be touched by a motive of this
kind, he will at least do something for a handsome girl, if it were only with
the hope of hereafter sharing her favours. I will not defer seeing him,' added
I, 'beyond tomorrow. I really feel so elated by this project, that I derive from
it a good omen.'

"Lescaut himself allowed that the idea was not unreasonable, and that we
might fairly entertain a hope of turning it to account. I passed the night less
sorrowfully.

"Next morning I dressed as well as, in my present state of indigence, I
could possibly contrive to do; and went in a hackney coach to the residence
of M. de T——. He was surprised at receiving a visit from a perfect
stranger. I augured favourably from his countenance and the civility of his
manner. I explained my object in the most candid way; and, to excite his
feelings as much as possible, I spoke of my ardent passion and of Manon's
merit, as of two things that were unequalled, except by each other. He told
me, that although he had never seen Manon, he had heard of her; at least, if
the person I was talking of was the same who had been the mistress of old
G—— M——. I conjectured that he must have heard of the part I had acted
in that transaction, and in order to conciliate him more and more by treating
him with confidence, I told him everything that had occurred to Manon and
myself. 'You see, sir,' said I, 'that all that can interest me in life, all that can
command my affections, is in your hands. I have no reserve with you,
because I have been informed of your generous and noble character; and,
being of the same age, I trust I shall find some resemblance in our
dispositions.'

"He seemed flattered by this mark of candour and confidence. He replied
in a manner that became a man of the world, and a man of feeling also, for

they are not always synonymous terms. He told me that he appreciated my
visit as a piece of good fortune; that he considered my friendship as a
valuable acquisition, and that he would endeavour to prove himself worthy
of it, by the sincerity of his services. He could not absolutely promise to
restore Manon to my arms, because, as he said, he himself had very little
influence; but he offered to procure me the pleasure of seeing her, and to do
everything in his power to effect her release. I was the more satisfied with
this frank avowal as to his want of influence, than I should have been by an
unqualified promise of fulfilling all my wishes. I found in his moderation a
pledge of his sincerity: in a word, I no longer doubted my entire success.
The promise alone of enabling me to see Manon filled me with gratitude,
and I testified it in so earnest a manner, as to give him a favourable opinion
of my heart and disposition; we shook hands warmly, and parted sworn
friends, merely from mutual regard, and that natural feeling which prompts
a man of kind and generous sentiments to esteem another of congenial
mind.

"He, indeed, exceeded me in the proofs of his esteem; for, inferring from
my adventures, and especially my late escape from St. Lazare, that I might
be in want of money, he offered me his purse, and pressed me to accept it. I
refused, but said to him, 'You are too kind, my dear sir! If in addition to
such proofs of kindness and friendship, you enable me to see Manon again,
rely on my eternal regard and gratitude. If you succeed in restoring
altogether this dear creature to my arms, I should think myself happy in
spilling the last drop of my blood in your service.'

"Before we parted, we agreed as to the time and place for our meeting.
He was so considerate as to appoint the afternoon of the same day.

"I waited for him at a cafe, where he joined me about four o'clock, and
we went together towards the Magdalen; my knees trembled under me as I
crossed the courts. 'Ye heavenly powers!' said I, 'then I shall once more
behold the idol of my heart—the dear object of so many sighs and
lamentations! All I now ask of Providence is, to vouchsafe me strength
enough to reach her presence, and after that, to dispose as it pleaseth of my
future fate, and of my life itself. Beyond this, I have no prayer to utter.'

"M. de T—— spoke to some of the porters of the establishment, who
appeared all anxious to please him. The quarter in which Manon's room lay
was pointed out to us, and our guide carried in his hand the key of her
chamber: it was of frightful size. I asked the man who conducted us, and
whose duty it was to attend to Manon, how she passed her time? He said,
that she had a temper of the most angelic sweetness; that even he,
disagreeable as his official duties must render him, had never heard from
her a single syllable in the nature of rebuke or harshness; that her tears had
never ceased to flow during the first six weeks after her arrival, but that
latterly she seemed to bear her misfortunes with more resignation, and that
she employed herself from morning till night with her needle, excepting
some hours that she, each day, devoted to reading. I asked whether she had
been decently provided for. He assured me that at least she had never felt
the want of necessaries.

"We now approached her door. My heart beat almost audibly in my
bosom. I said to M. de T——, 'Go in alone, and prepare her for my visit; I
fear that she may be overcome by seeing me unexpectedly.' The door was
opened. I remained in the passage, and listened to the conversation. He said
that he came to bring her consolation; that he was a friend of mine, and felt
deeply interested for the happiness of us both. She asked with the tenderest
anxiety, whether he could tell her what had become of me. He promised that
she should soon see me at her feet, as affectionate and as faithful as ever.
'When?' she asked. 'This very day,' said he; 'the happy moment shall not be
long delayed; nay, this very instant even, if you wish it.' She at once
understood that I was at the door; as she was rushing towards it, I entered.
We embraced each other with that abounding and impassioned tenderness,
which an absence of many months makes so delicious to those who truly
love. Our sighs, our broken exclamations, the thousand endearing
appellations of love, exchanged in languishing rapture, astonished M. de T
——, and affected him even to tears.

"'I cannot help envying you,' said he, as he begged us to be seated; 'there
is no lot, however glorious, that I would hold as comparable to the
possession of a mistress at once so tender and impassioned.' 'Nor would I,' I
replied, 'give up her love for universal empire!'

"The remainder of an interview which had been so long and so ardently
desired by me, was of course as tender as the commencement. Poor Manon
related all her adventures, and I told her mine: we bitterly wept over each
other's story. M. de T—— consoled us by his renewed promises to exert
himself in our service. He advised us not to make this, our first interview, of
too long duration, that he might have the less difficulty in procuring us the
same enjoyment again. He at length induced us to follow his advice. Manon
especially could not reconcile herself to the separation: she made me a
hundred times resume my seat. At one time she held me by my hands, at
another by my coat. 'Alas!' she said, 'in what an abode do you leave me!
Who will answer for my ever seeing you again?' M. de T—— promised her
that he would often come and see her with me. 'As to the abode,' he said, 'it
must no longer be called the Magdalen; it is Versailles! now that it contains
a person who deserves the empire of all hearts.'

"I made the man who attended a present as I went out, in order to
quicken his zeal and attentions. This fellow had a mind less rough and
vulgar than the generality of his class. He had witnessed our interview, and
was affected by it. The interest he felt was doubtless increased by the louis
d'or I gave him. He took me aside as we went down into the courtyard. 'Sir,'
said he, 'if you will only take me into your service, or indemnify me in any
way for the loss of the situation which I fill here, I think I should not have
much difficulty in liberating the beauteous Manon.'

"I caught readily at the suggestion, and, although at the moment I was
almost in a state of destitution, I gave him promises far beyond his desires. I
considered that it would be at all times easy to recompense a man of his
description. 'Be assured, my friend,' said I to him, 'that there is nothing I
will not be ready to do for you, and that your fortune is just as certain as my
own.' I enquired what means he intended to employ. 'None other,' said he,
'than merely to open the door of her cell for her at night, and to conduct her
to the street door, where you, of course, will be to receive her.' I asked
whether there was no danger of her being recognised as she traversed the
long galleries and the courts. He admitted that there was danger, but that
nothing could be done without some slight risk.

"Although I was delighted to find him so determined, I called M. de T
——, and informed him of the project, and of the only difficulty in the way.
He thought it not so easy of execution. He allowed the possibility of
escaping thus: 'But if she be recognised,' continued he, 'if she be stopped in
the attempt, all hope will be over with her, perhaps for ever. Besides, you
would be obliged to quit Paris instantly, for you could never evade the
search that would be made for you: they would redouble their efforts as
much on your own account as hers. A single man may easily escape
detection, but in company with a handsome woman, it would be utterly
impossible to remain undiscovered.'

"However sound this reasoning, it could not, in my mind, outweigh the
immediate prospect of restoring Manon to liberty. I said as much to M. de T
——, and trusted that he would excuse my imprudence and rashness, on the
ground of love. I added that it was already my intention to quit Paris for
some neighbouring village, as I had once before done. We then settled with
the servant that he should carry his project into execution the following day,
and to render our success as certain as he could, we resolved to carry into
the prison men's clothes, in order to facilitate her escape.

"There was a difficulty to be surmounted in carrying them in, but I had
ingenuity enough to meet it. I begged of M. de T—— only to put on two
light waistcoats the next morning, and I undertook to arrange the rest.

"We returned the following day to the Hospital. I took with me linen,
stockings, etc., for Manon, and over my body-coat a surtout, which
concealed the bulk I carried in my pockets. We remained but a moment in
her room. M. de T—— left her one of his waistcoats; I gave her my short
coat, the surtout being sufficient for me. She found nothing wanting for her
complete equipment but a pair of pantaloons, which in my hurry I had
forgotten.

"The want of so necessary an article might have amused us, if the
embarrassment it caused had been of a less serious kind. I was in despair at
having our whole scheme foiled by a trifling omission of this nature.
However, I soon hit on a remedy, and determined to make my own exit
sans-culotte, leaving that portion of my dress with Manon. My surtout was

long, and I contrived by the help of a few pins to put myself in a decent
condition for passing the gate.

"The remainder of the day appeared to me of endless length. When at
last night came, we went in a coach to within a few yards of the Hospital.
We were not long waiting, when we saw Manon make her appearance with
her guide. The door of the coach being opened, they both stepped in without
delay. I opened my arms to receive my adored mistress; she trembled like
an aspen leaf. The coachman asked where he was to drive? 'To the end of
the world!' I exclaimed; 'to some place where I can never again be separated
from Manon.'

"This burst, which I could not control, was near bringing me into fresh
trouble. The coachman reflected upon what I said, and when I afterwards
told him the name of the street to which I wished him to drive, he answered
that he feared I was about to implicate him in some bad business; that he
saw plainly enough that the good-looking young man whom I called Manon
was a girl eloping from the Hospital, and that he was little disposed indeed
to ruin himself for love of me.

"Extortion was the source of this scoundrel's delicacy. We were still too
near the Hospital to make any noise. 'Silence!' said I to him, 'you shall have
a louis d'or for the job': for less than that he would have helped me to burn
the Hospital.

"We arrived at Lescaut's house. As it was late, M. de T—— left us on the
way, promising to visit us the next morning. The servant alone remained.

"I held Manon in such close embrace in my arms, that we occupied but
one place in the coach. She cried for joy, and I could feel her tears trickling
down my cheeks.

"When we were about getting out at Lescaut's, I had a new difficulty
with the coachman, which was attended with the most unfortunate results. I
repented of having promised the fellow a louis d'or, not only because it was
extravagant folly, but for another stronger reason, that it was at the moment
out of my power to pay him. I called for Lescaut, and he came down to the
door. I whispered to him the cause of my present embarrassment. Being

naturally rough, and not at all in the habit of treating hackney-coachmen
with respect, he answered that I could not be serious. 'A louis!' said he;
'twenty blows of a cane would be the right payment for that rascal!' I
entreated him not to destroy us; when he snatched my cane from my hand,
and was about to lay it on the coachman. The fellow had probably before
experienced the weight of a guardsman's arm, and instantly drove off,
crying out, that I had cheated him, and should hear of him again. I in vain
endeavoured to stop him.

"His flight caused me, of course, the greatest alarm. I had no doubt that
he would immediately give information to the police. 'You have ruined me,'
said I to Lescaut; 'I shall be no longer safe at your house; we must go hence
at once.' I gave Manon my arm, and as quickly as possible got out of the
dangerous neighbourhood. Lescaut accompanied us."

The Chevalier des Grieux having occupied more than an hour with his
story, I begged him to give himself a little rest, and meanwhile to share our
supper. He saw, by the attention we paid him, that we were amused, and
promised that we should hear something of perhaps greater interest in the
sequel. When we had finished supper, he continued in the following words.

[1] A favourite tenet of the Mystics, advocated by Madame de Guyon, and
adopted by the amiable and eloquent Fenelon, was, that the love of the Supreme
Being must be pure and disinterested; that is, exempt from all views of interest,
and all hope of reward. See the controversy between Bossuet and Fenelon.

[2] The first proposition of the Jansenists was, that there are divine precepts
which good men, notwithstanding their desire to observe them, are nevertheless
absolutely unable to obey: God not having given them such a measure of grace
as is essentially necessary to render them capable of obedience.—Mosheim's
Eccles. Hist., ii. 397.

VII

. . . How chances mock,
And changes fill the cup of alteration
With divers liquors.
SHAKESPEARE.

"How inscrutably does Providence connect events! We had hardly
proceeded for five minutes on our way, when a man, whose face I could not
see, recognised Lescaut. He had no doubt been watching for him near his
home, with the horrible intention which he now unhappily executed. 'It IS
Lescaut!' said he, snapping a pistol at his head; 'he shall sup tonight with the
angels!' He then instantly disappeared. Lescaut fell, without the least sign of
life. I pressed Manon to fly, for we could be of no use to a dead man, and I
feared being arrested by the police, who would certainly be soon upon the
spot. I turned down the first narrow street with her and the servant: she was
so overpowered by the scene she had just witnessed, that I could hardly
support her. At last, at the end of the street, I perceived a hackney-coach; we
got into it, but when the coachman asked whither he should drive, I was
scarcely able to answer him. I had no certain asylum—no confidential
friend to whom I could have recourse. I was almost destitute of money,
having but one dollar left in my purse. Fright and fatigue had so unnerved
Manon, that she was almost fainting at my side. My imagination too was
full of the murder of Lescaut, and I was not without strong apprehensions of
the patrol. What was to be done? I luckily remembered the inn at Chaillot,
where we first went to reside in that village. I hoped to be not only secure,
but to continue there for some time without being pressed for payment.
'Take us to Chaillot,' said I to the coachman. He refused to drive us so far at
that late hour for less than twelve francs. A new embarrassment! At last we
agreed for half that sum—all that my purse contained.

"I tried to console Manon as we went along, but despair was rankling in
my own heart. I should have destroyed myself a thousand times over, if I
had not felt that I held in my arms all that could attach me to life: this
reflection reconciled me. 'I possess her at least,' said I; 'she loves me! she is
mine! Vainly does Tiberge call this a mere phantom of happiness.' I could,

without feeling interest or emotion, see the whole world besides perish
around me. Why? Because I have in it no object of affection beyond her.

"This sentiment was true; however, while I so lightly esteemed the good
things of the world, I felt that there was no doing without some little portion
of them, were it only to inspire a more thorough contempt for the
remainder. Love is more powerful than wealth—more attractive than
grandeur or fame; but, alas! it cannot exist without certain artificial aids;
and there is nothing more humiliating to the feelings, of a sensitive lover,
than to find himself, by want of means, reduced to the level of the most
vulgar minds.

"It was eleven o'clock when we arrived at Chaillot. They received us at
the inn as old acquaintances, and expressed no sort of surprise at seeing
Manon in male attire, for it was the custom in Paris and the environs to
adopt all disguises. I took care to have her served with as much attention as
if I had been in prosperous circumstances. She was ignorant of my poverty,
and I carefully kept her so, being resolved to return alone the following day
to Paris, to seek some cure for this vexatious kind of malady.

"At supper she appeared pale and thin; I had not observed this at the
Hospital, as the room in which I saw her was badly lighted. I asked her if
the excessive paleness were not caused by the shock of witnessing her
brother's death? She assured me that, horrified as she naturally was at the
event, her paleness was purely the effect of a three months' absence from
me. 'You do love me then devotedly?' I exclaimed.

"'A thousand times more than I can tell!' was her reply.

"'You will never leave me again?' I added.

"'No! never, never!' answered she.

"This assurance was confirmed by so many caresses and vows, that it
appeared impossible she could, to the end of time, forget them. I have never
doubted that she was at that moment sincere. What motive could she have
had for dissembling to such a degree? But she became afterwards still more
volatile than ever, or rather she was no longer anything, and entirely forgot

herself, when, in poverty and want, she saw other women living in
abundance. I was now on the point of receiving a new proof of her
inconstancy, which threw all that had passed into the shade, and which led
to the strangest adventure that ever happened to a man of my birth and
prospects.

"As I knew her disposition, I hastened the next day to Paris. The death of
her brother, and the necessity of getting linen and clothes for her, were such
good reasons, that I had no occasion for any further pretext. I left the inn,
with the intention, as I told Manon and the landlord, of going in a hired
carriage, but this was a mere flourish; necessity obliged me to travel on
foot: I walked very fast as far as Cours-la-Reine, where I intended to rest. A
moment of solitude and tranquillity was requisite to compose myself, and to
consider what was to be done in Paris.

"I sat down upon the grass. I plunged into a sea of thoughts and
considerations, which at length resolved themselves into three principal
heads. I had pressing want of an infinite number of absolute necessaries; I
had to seek some mode of at least raising a hope for the future; and, though
last, not least in importance, I had to gain information, and adopt measures,
to secure Manon's safety and my own. After having exhausted myself in
devising projects upon these three chief points, I was obliged to put out of
view for the moment the two last. We were not ill sheltered from
observation in the inn at Chaillot; and as to future wants, I thought it would
be time enough to think about them when those of the moment were
satisfied.

"The main object now was to replenish my purse. M. de T—— had once
offered me his, but I had an extreme repugnance to mention the subject to
him again. What a degradation to expose one's misery to a stranger, and to
ask for charity: it must be either a man of low mind who would thus
demean himself, and that from a baseness which must render him insensible
to the degradation, or a humble Christian, from a consciousness of
generosity in himself, which must put him above the sense of shame. I
would have sacrificed half my life to be spared the humiliation.

"'Tiberge,' said I, 'kind Tiberge, will he refuse me what he has it in his
power to grant? No, he will assuredly sympathise in my misery; but he will

also torture me with his lectures! One must endure his reproaches, his
exhortations, his threats: I shall have to purchase his assistance so dearly,
that I would rather make any sacrifice than encounter this distressing scene,
which cannot fail to leave me full of sorrow and remorse. Well,' thought I
again, 'all hope must be relinquished, since no other course presents itself:
so far am I from adopting either of these, that I would sooner shed half my
blood than face one of these evils, or the last drop rather than encounter
both. Yes, the very last drop,' I repeated after a moment's reflection, 'I would
sacrifice willingly rather than submit to such base supplication!

"'But it is not in reality a question of my existence! Manon's life and
maintenance, her love and her fidelity, are at stake! What consideration can
outweigh that? In her are centred all my glory, happiness, and future
fortune! There are doubtless many things that I would gladly give up my
life to obtain, or to avoid; but to estimate a thing merely beyond the value
of my own life, is not putting it on a par with that of Manon.' This idea soon
decided me: I went on my way, resolved to go first to Tiberge, and
afterwards to M. de T——.

"On entering Paris I took a hackney-coach, though I had not wherewithal
to pay for it; I calculated on the loan I was going to solicit. I drove to the
Luxembourg, whence I sent word to Tiberge that I was waiting for him. I
had not to stay many minutes. I told him without hesitation the extremity of
my wants. He asked if the fifty pounds which I had returned to him would
suffice, and he at once went to fetch it with that generous air, that pleasure
in bestowing which 'blesseth him that gives, and him that takes,' and which
can only be known to love or to true friendship.

"Although I had never entertained a doubt of Tiberge's readiness to grant
my request, yet I was surprised at having obtained it on such easy terms,
that is to say, without a word of reprimand for my impenitence; but I was
premature in fancying myself safe from his reproaches, for when he had
counted out the money, and I was on the point of going away, he begged of
me to take a walk with him in the garden. I had not mentioned Manon's
name; he knew nothing of her escape; so that his lecture was merely upon
my own rash flight from St. Lazare, and upon his apprehensions lest,

instead of profiting by the lessons of morality which I had received there, I
should again relapse into dissipation.

"He told me, that having gone to pay me a visit at St. Lazare, the day
after my escape, he had been astonished beyond expression at hearing the
mode in which I had effected it; that he had afterwards a conversation with
the Superior; that the good Father had not quite recovered the shock; that he
had, however, the generosity to conceal the real circumstances from the
lieutenant-general of police, and that he had prevented the death of the
porter from becoming known outside the walls; that I had, therefore, upon
that score, no ground for alarm, but that, if I retained one grain of prudence,
I should profit by this happy turn which Providence had given to my affairs,
and begin by writing to my father, and reconciling myself to his favour; and
finally that, if I would be guided by his advice, I should at once quit Paris,
and return to the bosom of my family.

"I listened to him attentively till he had finished. There was much in
what he said to gratify me. In the first place, I was delighted to learn that I
had nothing to fear on account of St. Lazare—the streets of Paris at least
were again open to me. Then I rejoiced to find that Tiberge had no
suspicion of Manon's escape, and her return to my arms. I even remarked
that he had not mentioned her name, probably from the idea that, by my
seeming indifference to her, she had become less dear to my heart. I
resolved, if not to return home, at least to write to my father, as he advised
me, and to assure him that I was disposed to return to my duty, and consult
his wishes. My intention was to urge him to send me money for the purpose
of pursuing my ordinary studies at the University, for I should have found it
difficult to persuade him that I had any inclination to resume my
ecclesiastical habit. I was in truth not at all averse to what I was now going
to promise him. On the contrary, I was ready to apply myself to some
creditable and rational pursuit, so far as the occupation would be
compatible with my love. I reckoned upon being able to live with my
mistress, and at the same time continuing my studies. I saw no
inconsistency in this plan.

"These thoughts were so satisfactory to my mind, that I promised
Tiberge to dispatch a letter by that day's post to my father: in fact, on

leaving him, I went into a scrivener's, and wrote in such a submissive and
dutiful tone, that, on reading over my own letter, I anticipated the triumph I
was going to achieve over my father's heart.

"Although I had money enough to pay for a hackney-coach after my
interview with Tiberge, I felt a pleasure in walking independently through
the streets to M. de T——'s house. There was great comfort in this
unaccustomed exercise of my liberty, as to which my friend had assured me
I had nothing now to apprehend. However, it suddenly occurred to me, that
he had been only referring to St. Lazare, and that I had the other affair of
the Hospital on my hands; being implicated, if not as an accomplice, at all
events as a witness. This thought alarmed me so much, that I slipped down
the first narrow street, and called a coach. I went at once to M. de T——'s,
and he laughed at my apprehensions. I myself thought them ridiculous
enough, when he informed me that there was no more danger from
Lescaut's affray, than from the Hospital adventure. He told me that, from
the fear of their suspecting that he had a hand in Manon's escape, he had
gone that morning to the Hospital and asked to see her, pretending not to
know anything of what had happened; that they were so far from
entertaining the least suspicion of either of us, that they lost no time in
relating the adventure as a piece of news to him; and that they wondered
how so pretty a girl as Manon Lescaut could have thought of eloping with a
servant: that he replied with seeming indifference, that it by no means
astonished him, for people would do anything for the sake of liberty.

"He continued to tell me how he then went to Lescaut's apartments, in
the hope of finding me there with my dear mistress; that the master of the
house, who was a coachmaker, protested he had seen neither me nor
Manon; but that it was no wonder that we had not appeared there, if our
object was to see Lescaut, for that we must have doubtless heard of his
having been assassinated about the very same time; upon which, he related
all that he knew of the cause and circumstances of the murder.

"About two hours previously, a guardsman of Lescaut's acquaintance had
come to see him, and proposed play. Lescaut had such a rapid and
extravagant run of luck, that in an hour the young man was minus twelve
hundred francs—all the money he had. Finding himself without a sou, he

begged of Lescaut to lend him half the sum he had lost; and there being
some difficulty on this point, an angry quarrel arose between them. Lescaut
had refused to give him the required satisfaction, and the other swore, on
quitting him, that he would take his life; a threat which he carried into
execution the same night. M. de T—— was kind enough to add, that he had
felt the utmost anxiety on our account, and that, such as they were, he
should gladly continue to us his services. I at once told him the place of our
retreat. He begged of me to allow him to sup with us.

"As I had nothing more to do than to procure the linen and clothes for
Manon, I told him that we might start almost immediately, if he would be so
good as to wait for me a moment while I went into one or two shops. I
know not whether he suspected that I made this proposition with the view
of calling his generosity into play, or whether it was by the mere impulse of
a kind heart; but, having consented to start immediately, he took me to a
shopkeeper, who had lately furnished his house. He there made me select
several articles of a much higher price than I had proposed to myself; and
when I was about paying the bill, he desired the man not to take a sou from
me. This he did so gracefully, that I felt no shame in accepting his present.
We then took the road to Chaillot together, where I arrived much more easy
in mind than when I had left it that morning.

"My return and the polite attentions of M. de T—— dispelled all
Manon's melancholy. 'Let us forget our past annoyances, my dear soul,' said
I to her, 'and endeavour to live a still happier life than before. After all, there
are worse masters than love: fate cannot subject us to as much sorrow as
love enables us to taste of happiness.' Our supper was a true scene of joy.

"In possession of Manon and of twelve hundred and fifty francs, I was
prouder and more contented than the richest voluptuary of Paris with untold
treasures. Wealth should be measured by the means it affords us of
satisfying our desires. There did not remain to me at this moment a single
wish unaccomplished. Even the future gave me little concern. I felt a hope,
amounting almost to certainty, that my father would allow me the means of
living respectably in Paris, because I had become entitled, on entering upon
my twentieth year, to a share of my mother's fortune. I did not conceal from
Manon what was the extent of my present wealth; but I added, that it might

suffice to support us until our fortune was bettered, either by the inheritance
I have just alluded to, or by the resources of the hazard-table."

VIII

This Passion hath its floods in the very times of weakness, which are great
prosperity, and great adversity; both which times kindle Love, and make it more
fervent.—BACON.

"For several weeks I thus continued to think only of enjoying the full
luxury of my situation; and being restrained, by a sense of honour, as well
as a lurking apprehension of the police, from renewing my intimacy with
my former companions at the hotel of Transylvania, I began to play in
certain coteries less notorious, where my good luck rendered it unnecessary
for me to have recourse to my former accomplishments. I passed a part of
the afternoon in town, and returned always to supper at Chaillot,
accompanied very often by M. de T——, whose intimacy and friendship for
us daily increased.

"Manon soon found resources against ennui. She became acquainted
with some young ladies, whom the spring brought into the neighbourhood.
They occupied their leisure hours in walking, and the customary
amusements of persons of their sex and age. Their little gains at cards
(always within innocent limits) were laid out in defraying the expense of a
coach, in which they took an airing occasionally in the Bois de Boulogne;
and each night when I returned, I was sure of finding Manon more beautiful
—more contented—more affectionate than ever.

"There arose, however, certain clouds, which seemed to threaten the
continuance of this blissful tranquillity, but they were soon dispelled; and
Manon's sprightliness made the affair so excessively comical in its

termination, that it is even now pleasing to recur to it, as a proof of the
tenderness as well as the cheerfulness of her disposition.

"The only servant we had came to me one day, with great
embarrassment, and taking me aside, told me that he had a secret of the
utmost importance to communicate to me. I urged him to explain himself
without reserve. After some hesitation, he gave me to understand that a
foreigner of high rank had apparently fallen in love with Manon. I felt my
blood boil at the announcement. 'Has she shown any penchant for him?' I
enquired, interrupting my informant with more impatience than was
requisite, if I desired to have a full explanation.

"He was alarmed at my excitement; and replied in an undecided tone,
that he had not made sufficiently minute observation to satisfy me; but that,
having noticed for several days together the regular arrival of the stranger at
the Bois de Boulogne, where, quitting his carriage, he walked by himself in
the cross-avenues, appearing to seek opportunities of meeting Manon, it had
occurred to him to form an acquaintance with the servants, in order to
discover the name of their master; that they spoke of him as an Italian
prince, and that they also suspected he was upon some adventure of
gallantry. He had not been able to learn anything further, he added,
trembling as he spoke, because the prince, then on the point of leaving the
wood, had approached him, and with the most condescending familiarity
asked his name; upon which, as if he at once knew that he was in our
service, he congratulated him on having, for his mistress, the most
enchanting person upon earth.

"I listened to this recital with the greatest impatience. He ended with the
most awkward excuses, which I attributed to the premature and imprudent
display of my own agitation. In vain I implored him to continue his history.
He protested that he knew nothing more, and that what he had previously
told me, having only happened the preceding day, he had not had a second
opportunity of seeing the prince's servants. I encouraged him, not only with
praises, but with a substantial recompense; and without betraying the
slightest distrust of Manon, I requested him, in the mildest manner, to keep
strict watch upon all the foreigner's movements.

"In truth, the effect of his fright was to leave me in a state of the cruellest
suspense. It was possible that she had ordered him to suppress part of the
truth. However, after a little reflection, I recovered sufficiently from my
fears to see the manner in which I had exposed my weaknesses. I could
hardly consider it a crime in Manon to be loved. Judging from appearances,
it was probable that she was not even aware of her conquest. 'And what
kind of life shall I in future lead,' thought I, 'if I am capable of letting
jealousy so easily take possession of my mind?'

"I returned on the following day to Paris, with no other intention than to
hasten the improvement of my fortune, by playing deeper than ever, in
order to be in a condition to quit Chaillot on the first real occasion for
uneasiness. That night I learned nothing at all calculated to trouble my
repose. The foreigner had, as usual, made his appearance in the Bois de
Boulogne; and venturing, from what had passed the preceding day, to accost
my servant more familiarly, he spoke to him openly of his passion, but in
such terms as not to lead to the slightest suspicion of Manon's being aware
of it. He put a thousand questions to him, and at last tried to bribe him with
large promises; and taking a letter from his pocket, he in vain entreated him,
with the promise of some louis d'ors, to convey it to her.

"Two days passed without anything more occurring: the third was of a
different character. I learned on my arrival, later than usual, from Paris, that
Manon, while in the wood, had left her companions for a moment, and that
the foreigner, who had followed her at a short distance, approached, upon
her making him a sign, and that she handed him a letter, which he took with
a transport of joy. He had only time to express his delight by kissing the
billet-doux, for she was out of sight in an instant. But she appeared in
unusually high spirits the remainder of the day; and even after her return to
our lodgings, her gaiety continued. I trembled at every word.

"'Are you perfectly sure,' said I, in an agony of fear, to my servant, 'that
your eyes have not deceived you?' He called Heaven to witness the truth of
what he had told me.

"I know not to what excess the torments of my mind would have driven
me, if Manon, who heard me come in, had not met me with an air of
impatience, and complained of my delay. Before I had time to reply, she

loaded me with caresses; and when she found we were alone, she
reproached me warmly with the habit I was contracting of staying out so
late. My silence gave her an opportunity of continuing; and she then said
that for the last three weeks I had never spent one entire day in her society;
that she could not endure such prolonged absence; that she should at least
expect me to give up a day to her from time to time, and that she
particularly wished me to be with her on the following day from morning
till night.

"'You may be very certain I shall do that,' said I, in rather a sharp tone.
She did not appear to notice my annoyance; she seemed to me to have more
than her usual cheerfulness; and she described, with infinite pleasantry, the
manner in which she had spent the day.

"'Incomprehensible girl!" said I to myself; 'what am I to expect after
such a prelude?' The adventures of my first separation occurred to me;
nevertheless, I fancied I saw in her cheerfulness, and the affectionate
reception she gave me, an air of truth that perfectly accorded with her
professions.

"It was an easy matter at supper to account for the low spirits which I
could not conceal, by attributing them to a loss I had that day sustained at
the gaming-table. I considered it most fortunate that the idea of my
remaining all the next day at Chaillot was suggested by herself: I should
thus have ample time for deliberation. My presence would prevent any fears
for at least the next day; and if nothing should occur to compel me to
disclose the discovery I had already made, I was determined on the
following day to move my establishment into town, and fix myself in a
quarter where I should have nothing to apprehend from the interference of
princes. This arrangement made me pass the night more tranquilly, but it by
no means put an end to the alarm I felt at the prospect of a new infidelity.

"When I awoke in the morning, Manon said to me, that although we
were to pass the day at home, she did not at all wish that I should be less
carefully dressed than on other occasions; and that she had a particular
fancy for doing the duties of my toilette that morning with her own hands. It
was an amusement she often indulged in: but she appeared to take more
pains on this occasion than I had ever observed before. To gratify her, I was

obliged to sit at her toilette table, and try all the different modes she
imagined for dressing my hair. In the course of the operation, she made me
often turn my head round towards her, and putting both hands upon my
shoulders, she would examine me with most anxious curiosity: then,
showing her approbation by one or two kisses, she would make me resume
my position before the glass, in order to continue her occupation.

"This amatory trifling engaged us till dinner-time. The pleasure she
seemed to derive from it, and her more than usual gaiety, appeared to me so
thoroughly natural, that I found it impossible any longer to suspect the
treason I had previously conjured up; and I was several times on the point
of candidly opening my mind to her, and throwing off a load that had begun
to weigh heavily upon my heart: but I flattered myself with the hope that
the explanation would every moment come from herself, and I anticipated
the delicious triumph this would afford me.

"We returned to her boudoir. She began again to put my hair in order,
and I humoured all her whims; when they came to say that the Prince of
—— was below, and wished to see her. The name alone almost threw me
into a rage.

"'What then,' exclaimed I, as I indignantly pushed her from me, 'who?—
what prince?'

"She made no answer to my enquiries.

"'Show him upstairs,' said she coolly to the servant; and then turning
towards me, 'Dearest love! you whom I so fervently adore,' she added in the
most bewitching tone, 'I only ask of you one moment's patience; one
moment, one single moment! I will love you ten thousand times more than
ever: your compliance now shall never, during my life, be forgotten.'

"Indignation and astonishment deprived me of the power of utterance.
She renewed her entreaties, and I could not find adequate expressions to
convey my feelings of anger and contempt. But hearing the door of the
ante-chamber open, she grasped with one hand my locks, which were
floating over my shoulders, while she took her toilette mirror in the other,
and with all her strength led me in this manner to the door of the boudoir,

which she opened with her knee, and presented to the foreigner, who had
been prevented by the noise he heard inside from advancing beyond the
middle of the ante-chamber, a spectacle that must have indeed amazed him.
I saw a man extremely well dressed, but with a particularly ill-favoured
countenance.

"Notwithstanding his embarrassment, he made her a profound bow.
Manon gave him no time for speech-making; she held up the mirror before
him: 'Look, sir,' said she to him, 'observe yourself minutely, and I only ask
you then to do me justice. You wish me to love you: this is the man whom I
love, and whom I have sworn to love during my whole life: make the
comparison yourself. If you think you can rival him in my affections, tell
me at least upon what pretensions; for I solemnly declare to you, that, in the
estimation of your most obedient humble servant, all the princes in Italy are
not worth a single one of the hairs I now hold in my hand.'

"During this whimsical harangue, which she had apparently prepared
beforehand, I tried in vain to disengage myself, and feeling compassion for
a person of such consideration, I was desirous, by my politeness at least, of
making some reparation for this little outrage. But recovering his self-
possession with the ease of a man accustomed to the world, he put an end to
my feelings of pity by his reply, which was, in my opinion, rude enough.

"'Young lady! young lady!' said he to her, with a sardonic smile, 'my
eyes in truth are opened, and I perceive that you are much less of a novice
than I had pictured to myself.'

"He immediately retired without looking at her again, muttering to
himself that the French women were quite as bad as those of Italy. I felt
little desire, on this occasion, to change his opinion of the fair sex.

"Manon let go my hand, threw herself into an armchair, and made the
room resound with her shouts of laughter. I candidly confess that I was
touched most sensibly by this unexpected proof of her affection, and by the
sacrifice of her own interest which I had just witnessed, and which she
could only have been induced to make by her excessive love for me. Still,
however, I could not help thinking she had gone rather too far. I reproached
her with what I called her indiscretion. She told me that my rival, after

having besieged her for several days in the Bois de Boulogne, and having
made her comprehend his object by signs and grimaces, had actually made
an open declaration of love; informing her at the same time of his name and
all his titles, by means of a letter, which he had sent through the hands of
the coachman who drove her and her companions; that he had promised her,
on the other side of the Alps, a brilliant fortune and eternal adoration; that
she returned to Chaillot, with the intention of relating to me the whole
adventure, but that, fancying it might be made a source of amusement to us,
she could not help gratifying her whim; that she accordingly invited the
Italian prince, by a flattering note, to pay her a visit; and that it had afforded
her equal delight to make me an accomplice, without giving me the least
suspicion of her plan. I said not a word of the information I had received
through another channel; and the intoxication of triumphant love made me
applaud all she had done."

IX

'Twas ever thus;—from childhood's hour
I've seen my fondest hopes decay;—
I never loved a tree or flower,
But it was sure to fade away;
I never nursed a dear Gazelle,
To glad me with its dark-blue eye,
But, when it came to know me well,
And love me, it was sure to die.
MOORE.

"During my life I have remarked that fate has invariably chosen for the
time of its severest visitations, those moments when my fortune seemed
established on the firmest basis. In the friendship of M. de T——, and the
tender affections of Manon, I imagined myself so thoroughly happy, that I
could not harbour the slightest apprehension of any new misfortune: there

was one, nevertheless, at this very period impending, which reduced me to
the state in which you beheld me at Passy, and which eventually brought in
its train miseries of so deplorable a nature, that you will have difficulty in
believing the simple recital that follows.

"One evening, when M. de T—— remained to sup with us, we heard the
sound of a carriage stopping at the door of the inn. Curiosity tempted us to
see who it was that arrived at this hour. They told us it was young G—— M
——, the son of our most vindictive enemy, of that debauched old sinner
who had incarcerated me in St. Lazare, and Manon in the Hospital. His
name made the blood mount to my cheeks. 'It is Providence that has led him
here,' said I to M. de T——, that I may punish him for the cowardly
baseness of his father. He shall not escape without our measuring swords at
least.' M. de T——, who knew him, and was even one of his most intimate
friends, tried to moderate my feelings of anger towards him. He assured me
that he was a most amiable young man, and so little capable of
countenancing his father's conduct, that I could not be many minutes in his
society without feeling esteem and affection for him. After saying many
more things in his praise, he begged my permission to invite him to come
and sit in our apartment, as well as to share the remainder of our supper. As
to the objection of Manon being exposed by this proceeding to any danger,
he pledged his honour and good faith, that when once the young man
became acquainted with us, we should find in him a most zealous defender.
After such an assurance, I could offer no further opposition.

"M. de T—— did not introduce him without delaying a few moments
outside, to let him know who we were. He certainly came in with an air that
prepossessed us in his favour: he shook hands with me; we sat down; he
admired Manon; he appeared pleased with me, and with everything that
belonged to us; and he ate with an appetite that did abundant honour to our
hospitality.

"When the table was cleared, our conversation became more serious. He
hung down his head while he spoke of his father's conduct towards us. He
made, on his own part, the most submissive excuses. 'I say the less upon the
subject,' said he, 'because I do not wish to recall a circumstance that fills me
with grief and shame.' If he were sincere in the beginning, he became much

more so in the end, for the conversation had not lasted half an hour, when I
perceived that Manon's charms had made a visible impression upon him.
His looks and his manner became by degrees more tender. He, however,
allowed no expression to escape him; but, without even the aid of jealousy,
I had had experience enough in love affairs to discern what was passing.

"He remained with us till a late hour in the night, and before he took his
leave, congratulated himself on having made our acquaintance, and begged
permission to call and renew the offer of his services. He went off next
morning with M. de T——, who accepted the offer of a seat in his carriage.

"I felt, as I before said, not the slightest symptom of jealousy: I had a
more foolish confidence than ever in Manon's vows. This dear creature had
so absolute a dominion over my whole soul and affections, that I could give
place to no other sentiment towards her than that of admiration and love.
Far from considering it a crime that she should have pleased young G——
M——, I was gratified by the effect of her charms, and experienced only a
feeling of pride in being loved by a girl whom the whole world found so
enchanting. I did not even deem it worth while to mention my suspicions to
her. We were for some days occupied in arranging her new wardrobe, and in
considering whether we might venture to the theatre without the risk of
being recognised. M. de T—— came again to see us before the end of the
week, and we consulted him upon this point. He saw clearly that the way to
please Manon was to say yes: we resolved to go all together that same
evening.

"We were not able, however, to carry this intention into effect; for,
having taken me aside, 'I have been in the greatest embarrassment,' said he
to me, 'since I saw you, and that is the cause of my visiting you today. G
—— M—— is in love with your mistress: he told me so in confidence; I
am his intimate friend, and disposed to do him any service in my power; but
I am not less devoted to you; his designs appeared to me unjustifiable, and I
expressed my disapprobation of them; I should not have divulged his secret,
if he had only intended to use fair and ordinary means for gaining Manon's
affections; but he is aware of her capricious disposition; he has learned,
God knows how, that her ruling passion is for affluence and pleasure; and,
as he is already in possession of a considerable fortune, he declared his

intention of tempting her at once with a present of great value, and the offer
of an annuity of six thousand francs; if I had in all other points considered
you both in an equal light, I should have had perhaps to do more violence to
my feelings in betraying him: but a sense of justice as well as of friendship
was on your side, and the more so from having been myself the imprudent,
though unconscious, cause of his passion in introducing him here. I feel it
my duty therefore to avert any evil consequences from the mischief I have
inadvertently caused.

"I thanked M. de T—— for rendering me so important a service, and
confessed to him, in a like spirit of confidence, that Manon's disposition
was precisely what G—— M—— had imagined; that is to say, that she was
incapable of enduring even the thought of poverty. 'However,' said I to him,
'when it is a mere question of more or less, I do not believe that she would
give me up for any other person; I can afford to let her want for nothing,
and I have from day to day reason to hope that my fortune will improve; I
only dread one thing,' continued I, 'which is, that G—— M—— may take
unfair advantage of the knowledge he has of our place of residence, and
bring us into trouble by disclosing it.'

"M. de T—— assured me that I might be perfectly easy upon that head;
that G—— M—— might be capable of a silly passion, but not of an act of
baseness; that if he ever could be villain enough for such a thing, he, de T
——, would be the first to punish him, and by that means make reparation
for the mischief he had occasioned. 'I feel grateful for what you say,' said I,
'but the mischief will have been all done, and the remedy even seems
doubtful; the wisest plan therefore will be to quit Chaillot, and go to reside
elsewhere.' 'Very true,' said M. de T——, 'but you will not be able to do it
quickly enough, for G—— M—— is to be here at noon; he told me so
yesterday, and it was that intelligence that made me come so early this
morning to inform you of his intentions. You may expect him every
moment.'"

"The urgency of the occasion made me view this matter in a more
serious light. As it seemed to me impossible to escape the visit of G—— M
——, and perhaps equally so to prevent him from making his declaration to
Manon, I resolved to tell her beforehand of the designs of my new rival. I

fancied that when she knew I was aware of the offers that would be made to
her, and made probably in my presence, she would be the more likely to
reject them. I told M. de T—— of my intention, and he observed that he
thought it a matter of extreme delicacy. 'I admit it,' said I, 'but no man ever
had more reason for confiding in a mistress, than I have for relying on the
affection of mine. The only thing that could possibly for a moment blind
her, is the splendour of his offers; no doubt she loves her ease, but she loves
me also; and in my present circumstances, I cannot believe that she would
abandon me for the son of the man who had incarcerated her in the
Magdalen.' In fine, I persisted in my intentions, and taking Manon aside, I
candidly told her what I had learned.

"She thanked me for the good opinion I entertained of her, and promised
to receive G—— M——'s offers in a way that should prevent a repetition
of them. 'No,' said I, 'you must not irritate him by incivility: he has it in his
power to injure us. But you know well enough, you little rogue,' continued
I, smiling, 'how to rid yourself of a disagreeable or useless lover!' After a
moment's pause she said: 'I have just thought of an admirable plan, and I
certainly have a fertile invention. G—— M—— is the son of our bitterest
enemy: we must avenge ourselves on the father, not through the son's
person, but through his purse. My plan is to listen to his proposals, accept
his presents, and then laugh at him.'

"'The project is not a bad one,' said I to her; 'but you forget, my dear
child, that it is precisely the same course that conducted us formerly to the
penitentiary.' I represented to her the danger of such an enterprise; she
replied, that the only thing necessary was to take our measures with caution,
and she found an answer to every objection I started. 'Show me the lover
who does not blindly humour every whim of an adored mistress, and I will
then allow that I was wrong in yielding so easily on this occasion.' The
resolution was taken to make a dupe of G——M——, and by an unforeseen
and unlucky turn of fortune, I became the victim myself.

"About eleven o'clock his carriage drove up to the door. He made the
most complaisant and refined speeches upon the liberty he had taken of
coming to dine with us uninvited. He was not surprised at meeting M. de T
——, who had the night before promised to meet him there, and who had,

under some pretext or other, refused a seat in his carriage. Although there
was not a single person in the party who was not at heart meditating
treachery, we all sat down with an air of mutual confidence and friendship.
G—— M—— easily found an opportunity of declaring his sentiments to
Manon. I did not wish to annoy him by appearing vigilant, so I left the room
purposely for several minutes.

"I perceived on my return that he had not had to encounter any very
discouraging austerity on Manon's part, for he was in the best possible
spirits. I affected good humour also. He was laughing in his mind at my
simplicity, while I was not less diverted by his own. During the whole
evening we were thus supplying to each other an inexhaustible fund of
amusement. I contrived, before his departure, to let him have Manon for
another moment to himself; so that he had reason to applaud my
complaisance, as well as the hospitable reception I had given him.

"As soon as he got into his carriage with M. de T——, Manon ran
towards me with extended arms, and embraced me; laughing all the while
immoderately. She repeated all his speeches and proposals, without altering
a word. This was the substance: He of course adored her; and wished to
share with her a large fortune of which he was already in possession,
without counting what he was to inherit at his father's death. She should be
sole mistress of his heart and fortune; and as an immediate token of his
liberality, he was ready at once to supply her with an equipage, a furnished
house, a lady's maid, three footmen, and a man-cook.

"'There is indeed a son,' said I, 'very different from his father! But tell me
truly, now, does not such an offer tempt you?' 'Me!' she replied, adapting to
the idea two verses from Racine—
Moi! vous me soupconnez de cette perfidie?
Moi! je pourrais souffrir un visage odieux,
Qui rappelle toujours l'Hopital a mes yeux?

'No!' replied I, continuing the parody—
J'aurais peine a penser que l'Hopital, madame,
Fut un trait dont l'amour l'eut grave dans votre ame.

'But it assuredly is a temptation—a furnished house, a lady's maid, a cook, a
carriage, and three servants—gallantry can offer but few more seductive
temptations.'

"She protested that her heart was entirely mine, and that it was for the
future only open to the impressions I chose to make upon it. 'I look upon his
promises,' said she, 'as an instrument for revenge, rather than as a mark of
love.' I asked her if she thought of accepting the hotel and the carriage. She
replied that his money was all she wanted."

The difficulty was, how to obtain the one without the other; we resolved
to wait for a detailed explanation of the whole project in a letter which G
—— M—— promised to write to her, and which in fact she received next
morning by a servant out of livery, who, very cleverly, contrived an
opportunity of speaking to her alone.

She told him to wait for an answer, and immediately brought the letter to
me: we opened it together.

"Passing over the usual commonplace expressions of tenderness, it gave
a particular detail of my rival's promises. There were no limits to the
expense. He engaged to pay her down ten thousand francs on her taking
possession of the hotel, and to supply her expenditure in such a way as that
she should never have less than that sum at her command. The appointed
day for her entering into possession was close at hand. He only required
two days for all his preparations, and he mentioned the name of the street
and the hotel, where he promised to be in waiting for her in the afternoon of
the second day, if she could manage to escape my vigilance. That was the
only point upon which he begged of her to relieve his uneasiness; he
seemed to be quite satisfied upon every other: but he added that, if she
apprehended any difficulty in escaping from me, he could find sure means
for facilitating her flight.

"G—— M—— the younger was more cunning than the old gentleman.
He wanted to secure his prey before he counted out the cash. We considered
what course Manon should adopt. I made another effort to induce her to
give up the scheme, and strongly represented all its dangers; nothing,
however, could shake her determination.

"Her answer to G—— M—— was brief, merely assuring him that she
could be, without the least difficulty, in Paris on the appointed day and that
he might expect her with certainty.

"We then resolved, that I should instantly hire lodgings in some village
on the other side of Paris, and that I should take our luggage with me; that
in the afternoon of the following day, which was the time appointed, she
should go to Paris; that, after receiving G—— M——'s presents, she should
earnestly entreat him to take her to the theatre; that she should carry with
her as large a portion of the money as she could, and charge my servant
with the remainder, for it was agreed that he was to accompany her. He was
the man who had rescued her from the Magdalen, and he was devotedly
attached to us. I was to be with a hackney-coach at the end of the street of
St. Andre-des-arcs, and to leave it there about seven o'clock, while I stole,
under cover of the twilight, to the door of the theatre. Manon promised to
make some excuse for quitting her box for a moment, when she would
come down and join me. The rest could be easily done. We were then to
return to my hackney-coach, and quit Paris by the Faubourg St. Antoine,
which was the road to our new residence.

"This plan, extravagant as it was, appeared to us satisfactorily arranged.
But our greatest folly was in imagining that, succeed as we might in its
execution, it would be possible for us to escape the consequences.
Nevertheless, we exposed ourselves to all risk with the blindest confidence.
Manon took her departure with Marcel—so was the servant called. I could
not help feeling a pang as she took leave of me. 'Manon,' said I, 'do not
deceive me; will you be faithful to me?' She complained, in the tenderest
tone, of my want of confidence, and renewed all her protestations of eternal
love.

"She was to be in Paris at three o'clock. I went some time after. I spent
the remainder of the afternoon moping in the Cafe de Fere, near the Pont St.
Michel. I remained there till nightfall. I then hired a hackney-coach, which I
placed, according to our plan, at the end of the street of St. Andre-des-arcs,
and went on foot to the door of the theatre. I was surprised at not seeing
Marcel, who was to have been there waiting for me. I waited patiently for a
full hour, standing among a crowd of lackeys, and gazing at every person

that passed. At length, seven o'clock having struck, without my being able
to discover anything or any person connected with our project, I procured a
pit ticket, in order to ascertain if Manon and G—— M—— were in the
boxes. Neither one nor the other could I find. I returned to the door, where I
again stopped for a quarter of an hour, in an agony of impatience and
uneasiness. No person appeared, and I went back to the coach, without
knowing what to conjecture. The coachman, seeing me, advanced a few
paces towards me, and said, with a mysterious air, that a very handsome
young person had been waiting more than an hour for me in the coach; that
she described me so exactly that he could not be mistaken, and having
learned that I intended to return, she said she would enter the coach and
wait with patience.

"I felt confident that it was Manon. I approached. I beheld a very pretty
face, certainly, but alas, not hers. The lady asked, in a voice that I had never
before heard, whether she had the honour of speaking to the Chevalier des
Grieux? I answered, 'That is my name.' 'I have a letter for you,' said she,
'which will tell you what has brought me here, and by what means I learned
your name.' I begged she would allow me a few moments to read it in an
adjoining cafe. She proposed to follow me, and advised me to ask for a
private room, to which I consented. 'Who is the writer of this letter?' I
enquired. She referred me to the letter itself.

"I recognised Manon's hand. This is nearly the substance of the letter: G
—— M—— had received her with a politeness and magnificence beyond
anything she had previously conceived. He had loaded her with the most
gorgeous presents. She had the prospect of almost imperial splendour. She
assured me, however, that she could not forget me amidst all this
magnificence; but that, not being able to prevail on G—— M—— to take
her that evening to the play, she was obliged to defer the pleasure of seeing
me; and that, as a slight consolation for the disappointment which she
feared this might cause me, she had found a messenger in one of the
loveliest girls in all Paris. She signed herself, 'Your loving and constant,
MANON LESCAUT.'

"There was something so cruel and so insulting in the letter, that, what
between indignation and grief, I resolutely determined to forget eternally

my ungrateful and perjured mistress. I looked at the young woman who
stood before me: she was exceedingly pretty, and I could have wished that
she had been sufficiently so to render me inconstant in my turn. But there
were wanting those lovely and languishing eyes, that divine gracefulness,
that exquisite complexion, in fine, those innumerable charms which nature
had so profusely lavished upon the perfidious Manon. 'No, no,' said I,
turning away from her; 'the ungrateful wretch who sent you knew in her
heart that she was sending you on a useless errand. Return to her; and tell
her from me, to triumph in her crime, and enjoy it, if she can, without
remorse. I abandon her in despair, and, at the same time, renounce all
women, who, without her fascination, are no doubt her equals in baseness
and infidelity.'

"I was then on the point of going away, determined never to bestow
another thought on Manon: the mortal jealousy that was racking my heart
lay concealed under a dark and sullen melancholy, and I fancied, because I
felt none of those violent emotions which I had experienced upon former
occasions, that I had shaken off my thraldom. Alas! I was even at that
moment infinitely more the dupe of love, than of G—— M—— and
Manon.

"The girl who had brought the letter, seeing me about to depart, asked
me what I wished her to say to M. G—— M——, and to the lady who was
with him? At this question, I stepped back again into the room, and by one
of those unaccountable transitions that are only known to the victims of
violent passion, I passed in an instant from the state of subdued tranquillity
which I have just described, into an ungovernable fury 'Away!' said I to her,
'tell the traitor G—— M——and his abandoned mistress the state of despair
into which your accursed mission has cast me; but warn them that it shall
not be long a source of amusement to them, and that my own hands shall be
warmed with the heart's blood of both!' I sank back upon a chair; my hat
fell on one side, and my cane upon the other: torrents of bitter tears rolled
down my cheeks. The paroxysm of rage changed into a profound and silent
grief: I did nothing but weep and sigh. 'Approach, my child, approach,' said
I to the young girl; 'approach, since it is you they have sent to bring me
comfort; tell me whether you have any balm to administer for the pangs of
despair and rage—any argument to offer against the crime of self-

destruction, which I have resolved upon, after ridding the world of two
perfidious monsters. Yes, approach,' continued I, perceiving that she
advanced with timid and doubtful steps; 'come and dry my sorrows; come
and restore peace to my mind; come and tell me that at least you love me:
you are handsome—I may perhaps love you in return.' The poor child, who
was only sixteen or seventeen years of age, and who appeared more modest
than girls of her class generally are, was thunderstruck at this unusual
scene. She however gently approached to caress me, when with uplifted
hands I rudely repulsed her. 'What do you wish with me?' exclaimed I to
her. 'Ah! you are a woman, and of a sex I abhor, and can no longer tolerate;
the very gentleness of your look threatens me with some new treason. Go,
leave me here alone!' She made me a curtsy without uttering a word, and
turned to go out. I called to her to stop: 'Tell me at least,' said I, 'wherefore
—how—with what design they sent you here? how did you discover my
name, or the place where you could find me?'

"She told me that she had long known M. G—— M——; that he had
sent for her that evening about five o'clock; and that, having followed the
servant who had been dispatched to her, she was shown into a large house,
where she found him playing at picquet with a beautiful young woman; and
that they both charged her to deliver the letter into my hands, after telling
her that she would find me in a hackney-coach at the bottom of the street of
St. Andre. I asked if they had said nothing more. She blushed while she
replied, that they had certainly made her believe that I should be glad of her
society. 'They have deceived you too,' said I, 'my poor girl—they have
deceived you; you are a woman, and probably wish for a lover; but you
must find one who is rich and happy, and it is not here you will find him.
Return, return to M. G—— M——; he possesses everything requisite to
make a man beloved. He has furnished houses and equipages to bestow,
while I, who have nothing but constancy of love to offer, am despised for
my poverty, and laughed at for my simplicity.'

"I continued in a tone of sorrow or violence, as these feelings alternately
took possession of my mind. However, by the very excess of my agitation, I
became gradually so subdued as to be able calmly to reflect upon the
situation of affairs. I compared this new misfortune with those which I had
already experienced of the same kind, and I could not perceive that there

was any more reason for despair now, than upon former occasions. I knew
Manon: why then distress myself on account of a calamity which I could
not but have plainly foreseen? Why not rather think of seeking a remedy?
there was yet time; I at least ought not to spare my own exertions, if I
wished to avoid the bitter reproach of having contributed, by my own
indolence, to my misery. I thereupon set about considering every means of
raising a gleam of hope.

"To attempt to take her by main force from the hands of G——M——
was too desperate a project, calculated only to ruin me, and without the
slightest probability of succeeding. But it seemed to me that if I could
ensure a moment's interview with her, I could not fail to regain my
influence over her affections. I so well knew how to excite her sensibilities!
I was so confident of her love for me! The very whim even of sending me a
pretty woman by way of consoling me, I would stake my existence, was her
idea, and that it was the suggestion of her own sincere sympathy for my
sufferings.

"I resolved to exert every nerve to procure an interview. After a
multitude of plans which I canvassed one after another, I fixed upon the
following: M. de T—— had shown so much sincerity in the services he had
rendered me, that I could not entertain a doubt of his zeal and good faith. I
proposed to call upon him at once, and make him send for G—— M——,
under pretence of some important business. Half an hour would suffice to
enable me to see Manon. I thought it would not be difficult to get
introduced into her apartment during G—— M——'s absence.

"This determination pacified me, and I gave a liberal present to the girl,
who was still with me; and in order to prevent her from returning to those
who had sent her, I took down her address, and half promised to call upon
her at a later hour. I then got into the hackney-coach, and drove quickly to
M. de T——'s. I was fortunate enough to find him at home. I had been
apprehensive upon this point as I went along. A single sentence put him in
possession of the whole case, as well of my sufferings, as of the friendly
service I had come to supplicate at his hands.

"He was so astonished to learn that G—— M—— had been able to
seduce Manon from me, that, not being aware that I had myself lent a hand

to my own misfortune, he generously offered to assemble his friends, and
evoke their aid for the deliverance of my mistress. I told him that such a
proceeding might by its publicity be attended with danger to Manon and to
me. 'Let us risk our lives,' said I, 'only as a last resource. My plan is of a
more peaceful nature, and promising at least equal success.' He entered
without a murmur into all that I proposed; so again stating that all I required
was, that he should send for G—— M——, and contrive to keep him an
hour or two from home, we at once set about our operations.

"We first of all considered what expedient we could make use of for
keeping him out so long a time. I proposed that he should write a note dated
from a cafe, begging of him to come there as soon as possible upon an affair
of too urgent importance to admit of delay. 'I will watch,' added I, 'the
moment he quits the house, and introduce myself without any difficulty,
being only known to Manon, and my servant Marcel. You can at the same
time tell G—— M——, that the important affair upon which you wished to
see him was the immediate want of a sum of money; that you had just
emptied your purse at play, and that you had played on, with continued bad
luck, upon credit. He will require some time to take you to his father's
house, where he keeps his money, and I shall have quite sufficient for the
execution of my plan.'

"M. de T—— minutely adhered to these directions. I left him in a cafe,
where he at once wrote his letter. I took my station close by Manon's house.
I saw de T——'s messenger arrive, and G—— M—— come out the next
moment, followed by a servant. Allowing him barely time to get out of the
street, I advanced to my deceiver's door, and notwithstanding the anger I
felt, I knocked with as much respect as at the portal of a church. Fortunately
it was Marcel who opened for me. Although I had nothing to apprehend
from the other servants, I asked him in a low voice if he could conduct me
unseen into the room in which Manon was. He said that was easily done, by
merely ascending the great staircase. 'Come then at once,' said I to him, 'and
endeavour to prevent anyone from coming up while I am there.' I reached
the apartment without any difficulty.

"Manon was reading. I had there an opportunity of admiring the singular
character of this girl. Instead of being nervous or alarmed at my appearance,

she scarcely betrayed a symptom of surprise, which few persons, however
indifferent, could restrain, on seeing one whom they imagined to be far
distant. 'Ah! it is you, my dear love,' said she, approaching to embrace me
with her usual tenderness. 'Good heavens, how venturesome and foolhardy
you are! Who could have expected to see you in this place!' Instead of
embracing her in return, I repulsed her with indignation, and retreated two
or three paces from her. This evidently disconcerted her. She remained
immovable, and fixed her eyes on me, while she changed colour.

"I was in reality so delighted to behold her once more, that, with so
much real cause for anger, I could hardly bring my lips to upbraid her. My
heart, however, felt the cruel outrage she had inflicted upon me. I
endeavoured to revive the recollection of it in my own mind, in order to
excite my feelings, and put on a look of stern indignation. I remained silent
for a few moments, when I remarked that she observed my agitation, and
trembled: apparently the effect of her fears.

"I could not longer endure this spectacle. 'Ah! Manon,' said I to her in
the mildest tone, 'faithless and perjured Manon! How am I to complain of
your conduct? I see you pale and trembling, and I am still so much alive to
your slightest sufferings, that I am unwilling to add to them by my
reproaches. But, Manon, I tell you that my heart is pierced with sorrow at
your treatment of me—treatment that is seldom inflicted but with the
purpose of destroying one's life. This is the third time, Manon; I have kept a
correct account; it is impossible to forget that. It is now for you to consider
what course you will adopt; for my afflicted heart is no longer capable of
sustaining such shocks. I know and feel that it must give way, and it is at
this moment ready to burst with grief. I can say no more,' added I, throwing
myself into a chair; 'I have hardly strength to speak, or to support myself.'

"She made me no reply; but when I was seated, she sank down upon her
knees, and rested her head upon my lap, covering her face with her hands. I
perceived in a moment that she was shedding floods of tears. Heavens! with
what conflicting sensations was I at that instant agitated! 'Ah! Manon,
Manon,' said I, sighing, 'it is too late to give me tears after the death-blow
you have inflicted. You affect a sorrow which you cannot feel. The greatest
of your misfortunes is no doubt my presence, which has been always an

obstacle to your happiness. Open your eyes; look up and see who it is that is
here; you will not throw away tears of tenderness upon an unhappy wretch
whom you have betrayed and abandoned.'

"She kissed my hands without changing her position. 'Inconstant
Manon,' said I again, 'ungrateful and faithless girl, where now are all your
promises and your vows? Capricious and cruel that you are! what has now
become of the love that you protested for me this very day? Just Heavens,'
added I, 'is it thus you permit a traitor to mock you, after having called you
so solemnly to witness her vows! Recompense and reward then are for the
perjured! Despair and neglect are the lot of fidelity and truth!'

"These words conveyed even to my own mind a sentiment so bitterly
severe, that, in spite of myself, some tears escaped from me. Manon
perceived this by the change in my voice. She at length spoke. 'I must have
indeed done something most culpable,' said she, sobbing with grief, 'to have
excited and annoyed you to this degree; but, I call Heaven to attest my utter
unconsciousness of crime, and my innocence of all criminal intention!'

"This speech struck me as so devoid of reason and of truth, that I could
not restrain a lively feeling of anger. 'Horrible hypocrisy!' cried I; 'I see
more plainly than ever that you are dishonest and treacherous. Now at
length I learn your wretched disposition. Adieu, base creature,' said I, rising
from my seat; 'I would prefer death a thousand times rather than continue to
hold the slightest communication with you. May Heaven punish me, if I
ever again waste upon you the smallest regard! Live on with your new lover
—renounce all feelings of honour—detest me—your love is now a matter to
me of utter insignificance!'

"Manon was so terrified by the violence of my anger, that, remaining on
her knees by the chair from which I had just before risen, breathless and
trembling, she fixed her eyes upon me. I advanced a little farther towards
the door, but, unless I had lost the last spark of humanity, I could not
continue longer unmoved by such a spectacle.

"So far, indeed, was I from this kind of stoical indifference, that, rushing
at once into the very opposite extreme, I returned, or rather flew back to her
without an instant's reflection. I lifted her in my arms; I gave her a thousand

tender kisses; I implored her to pardon my ungovernable temper; I
confessed that I was an absolute brute, and unworthy of being loved by
such an angel.

"I made her sit down, and throwing myself, in my turn, upon my knees, I
conjured her to listen to me in that attitude. Then I briefly expressed all that
a submissive and impassioned lover could say most tender and respectful. I
supplicated her pardon. She let her arms fall over my neck, as she said that
it was she who stood in need of forgiveness, and begged of me in mercy to
forget all the annoyances she had caused me, and that she began, with
reason, to fear that I should not approve of what she had to say in her
justification. 'Me!' said I interrupting her impatiently; 'I require no
justification; I approve of all you have done. It is not for me to demand
excuses for anything you do; I am but too happy, too contented, if my dear
Manon will only leave me master of her affections! But,' continued I,
remembering that it was the crisis of my fate, 'may I not, Manon, all-
powerful Manon, you who wield at your pleasure my joys and sorrows,
may I not be permitted, after having conciliated you by my submission and
all the signs of repentance, to speak to you now of my misery and distress?
May I now learn from your own lips what my destiny is to be, and whether
you are resolved to sign my death-warrant, by spending even a single night
with my rival?'

"She considered a moment before she replied. 'My good chevalier,' said
she, resuming the most tranquil tone, 'if you had only at first explained
yourself thus distinctly, you would have spared yourself a world of trouble,
and prevented a scene that has really annoyed me. Since your distress is the
result of jealousy, I could at first have cured that by offering to accompany
you where you pleased. But I imagined it was caused by the letter which I
was obliged to write in the presence of G—— M——, and of the girl whom
we sent with it. I thought you might have construed that letter into a
mockery; and have fancied that, by sending such a messenger, I meant to
announce my abandonment of you for the sake of G—— M——. It was
this idea that at once overwhelmed me with grief; for, innocent as I knew
myself to be, I could not but allow that appearances were against me.
However,' continued she, 'I will leave you to judge of my conduct, after I
shall have explained the whole truth.'

"She then told me all that had occurred to her after joining G—— M
——, whom she found punctually awaiting her arrival. He had in fact
received her in the most princely style. He showed her through all the
apartments, which were fitted up in the neatest and most correct taste. He
had counted out to her in her boudoir ten thousand francs, as well as a
quantity of jewels, amongst which were the identical pearl necklace and
bracelets which she had once before received as a present from his father.
He then led her into a splendid room, which she had not before seen, and in
which an exquisite collation was served; she was waited upon by the new
servants, whom he had hired purposely for her, and whom he now desired
to consider themselves as exclusively her attendants; the carriage and the
horses were afterwards paraded, and he then proposed a game of cards,
until supper should be announced.

"'I acknowledge,' continued Manon, 'that I was dazzled by all this
magnificence. It struck me that it would be madness to sacrifice at once so
many good things for the mere sake of carrying off the money and the
jewels already in my possession; that it was a certain fortune made for both
you and me, and that we might pass the remainder of our lives most
agreeably and comfortably at the expense of G—— M——.

"'Instead of proposing the theatre, I thought it more prudent to sound his
feelings with regard to you, in order to ascertain what facilities we should
have for meeting in future, on the supposition that I could carry my project
into effect. I found him of a most tractable disposition. He asked me how I
felt towards you, and if I had not experienced some compunction at quitting
you. I told him that you were so truly amiable, and had ever treated me with
such undeviating kindness, that it was impossible I could hate you. He
admitted that you were a man of merit, and expressed an ardent desire to
gain your friendship.

"'He was anxious to know how I thought you would take my elopement,
particularly when you should learn that I was in his hands. I answered, that
our love was of such long standing as to have had time to moderate a little;
that, besides, you were not in very easy circumstances, and would probably
not consider my departure as any severe misfortune, inasmuch as it would
relieve you from a burden of no very insignificant nature. I added that,

being perfectly convinced you would take the whole matter rationally, I had
not hesitated to tell you that I had some business in Paris; but you had at
once consented, and that having accompanied me yourself, you did not
seem very uneasy when we separated.

"'If I thought,' said he to me, 'that he could bring himself to live on good
terms with me, I should be too happy to make him a tender of my services
and attentions.' I assured him that, from what I knew of your disposition, I
had no doubt you would acknowledge his kindness in a congenial spirit:
especially, I added, if he could assist you in your affairs, which had become
embarrassed since your disagreement with your family. He interrupted me
by declaring, that he would gladly render you any service in his power, and
that if you were disposed to form a new attachment, he would introduce you
to an extremely pretty woman, whom he had just given up for me.

"'I approved of all he said,' she added, 'for fear of exciting any
suspicions; and being more and more satisfied of the feasibility of my
scheme, I only longed for an opportunity of letting you into it, lest you
should be alarmed at my not keeping my appointment. With this view I
suggested the idea of sending this young lady to you, in order to have an
opportunity of writing; I was obliged to have recourse to this plan, because
I could not see a chance of his leaving me to myself for a moment.'

"'He was greatly amused with my proposition; he called his valet, and
asking him whether he could immediately find his late mistress, he
dispatched him at once in search of her. He imagined that she would have to
go to Chaillot to meet you, but I told him that, when we parted, I promised
to meet you again at the theatre, or that, if anything should prevent me from
going there, you were to wait for me in a coach at the end of the street of St.
Andre; that consequently it would be best to send your new love there, if it
were only to save you from the misery of suspense during the whole night. I
said it would be also necessary to write you a line of explanation, without
which you would probably be puzzled by the whole transaction. He
consented; but I was obliged to write in his presence; and I took especial
care not to explain matters too palpably in my letter.

"'This is the history,' said Manon, 'of the entire affair. I conceal nothing
from you, of either my conduct or my intentions. The girl arrived; I thought

her handsome; and as I doubted not that you would be mortified by my
absence, I did most sincerely hope that she would be able to dissipate
something of your ennui: for it is the fidelity of the heart alone that I value.
I should have been too delighted to have sent Marcel, but I could not for a
single instant find an opportunity of telling him what I wished to
communicate to you.' She finished her story by describing the
embarrassment into which M. de T——'s letter had thrown G—— M——;
'he hesitated,' said she, 'about leaving, and assured me that he should not be
long absent; and it is on this account that I am uneasy at seeing you here,
and that I betrayed, at your appearance, some slight feeling of surprise.'

"I listened to her with great patience. There were certainly parts of her
recital sufficiently cruel and mortifying; for the intention, at least, of the
infidelity was so obvious, that she had not even taken the trouble to disguise
it. She could never have imagined that G—— M—— meant to venerate her
as a vestal. She must therefore clearly have made up her mind to pass at
least one night with him. What an avowal for a lover's ears! However, I
considered myself as partly the cause of her guilt, by having been the first
to let her know G—— M——'s sentiments towards her, and by the silly
readiness with which I entered into this rash project. Besides, by a natural
bent of my mind, peculiar I believe to myself, I was duped by the
ingenuousness of her story—by that open and winning manner with which
she related even the circumstances most calculated to annoy me. 'There is
nothing of wanton vice,' said I to myself, 'in her transgressions; she is
volatile and imprudent, but she is sincere and affectionate.' My love alone
rendered me blind to all her faults. I was enchanted at the prospect of
rescuing her that very night from my rival. I said to her: 'With whom do you
mean to pass the night?' She was evidently disconcerted by the question,
and answered me in an embarrassed manner with BUTS and IFS.

"I felt for her, and interrupted her by saying that I at once expected her to
accompany me.

"'Nothing can give me more pleasure,' said she; 'but you don't approve
then of my project?'

"'Is it not enough,' replied I, 'that I approve of all that you have, up to this
moment, done?'

"'What,' said she, 'are we not even to take the ten thousand francs with
us? Why, he gave me the money; it is mine.'

"I advised her to leave everything, and let us think only of escaping for
although I had been hardly half an hour with her, I began to dread the return
of G—— M——. However, she so earnestly urged me to consent to our
going out with something in our pockets, that I thought myself bound to
make her, on my part, some concession, in return for all she yielded to me.

"While we were getting ready for our departure, I heard someone knock
at the street door. I felt convinced that it must be G—— M——; and in the
heat of the moment, I told Manon, that as sure as he appeared I would take
his life. In truth, I felt that I was not sufficiently recovered from my late
excitement to be able to restrain my fury if I met him. Marcel put an end to
my uneasiness, by handing me a letter which he had received for me at the
door; it was from M. de T——.

"He told me that, as G—— M—— had gone to his father's house for the
money which he wanted, he had taken advantage of his absence to
communicate to me an amusing idea that had just come into his head; that it
appeared to him, I could not possibly take a more agreeable revenge upon
my rival, than by eating his supper, and spending the night in the very bed
which he had hoped to share with my mistress; all this seemed to him easy
enough, if I could only find two or three men upon whom I could depend,
of courage sufficient to stop him in the street, and detain him in custody
until next morning; that he would undertake to keep him occupied for
another hour at least, under some pretext, which he could devise before G
—— M——'s return.

"I showed the note to Manon; I told her at the same time of the manner
in which I had procured the interview with her. My scheme, as well as the
new one of M. de T——'s, delighted her: we laughed heartily at it for some
minutes; but when I treated it as a mere joke, I was surprised at her insisting
seriously upon it, as a thing perfectly practicable, and too delightful to be
neglected. In vain I enquired where she thought I could possibly find, on a
sudden, men fit for such an adventure? and on whom I could rely for
keeping G—— M—— in strict custody? She said that I should at least try,
as M. de T—— ensured us yet a full hour; and as to my other objections,

she said that I was playing the tyrant, and did not show the slightest
indulgence to her fancies. She said that it was impossible there could be a
more enchanting project. 'You will have his place at supper; you will sleep
in his bed; and tomorrow, as early as you like, you can walk off with both
his mistress and his money. You may thus, at one blow, be amply revenged
upon father and son.'

"I yielded to her entreaties, in spite of the secret misgivings of my own
mind, which seemed to forebode the unhappy catastrophe that afterwards
befell me. I went out with the intention of asking two or three guardsmen,
with whom Lescaut had made me acquainted, to undertake the arrest of G
—— M——. I found only one of them at home, but he was a fellow ripe
for any adventure; and he no sooner heard our plan, than he assured me of
certain success: all he required were six pistoles, to reward the three private
soldiers whom he determined to employ in the business. I begged of him to
lose no time. He got them together in less than a quarter of an hour. I waited
at his lodgings till he returned with them, and then conducted him to the
corner of a street through which I knew G—— M—— must pass in going
back to Manon's house. I requested him not to treat G—— M—— roughly,
but to keep him confined, and so strictly watched, until seven o'clock next
morning, that I might be free from all apprehension of his escape. He told
me his intention was to bring him a prisoner to his own room, and make
him undress and sleep in his bed, while he and his gallant comrades should
spend the night in drinking and playing.

"I remained with them until we saw G—— M—— returning
homewards; and I then withdrew a few steps into a dark recess in the street,
to enjoy so entertaining and extraordinary a scene. The officer challenged
him with a pistol to his breast, and then told him, in a civil tone, that he did
not want either his money or his life; but that if he hesitated to follow him,
or if he gave the slightest alarm, he would blow his brains out. G—— M
——, seeing that his assailant was supported by three soldiers, and perhaps
not uninfluenced by a dread of the pistol, yielded without further resistance.
I saw him led away like a lamb."

X

What lost a world, and bade a hero fly?
The timid tear in Cleopatra's eye.
Yet be the soft triumvir's fault forgiven,
By this, how many lose—not earth—but heaven!
Consign their souls to man's eternal foe,
And seal their own, to spare some wanton's, woe!
BYRON.

I soon returned to Manon; and to prevent the servants from having any
suspicion, I told her in their hearing, that she need not expect M. G—— M
—— to supper; that he was most reluctantly occupied with business which
detained him, and that he had commissioned me to come and make his
excuses, and to fill his place at the supper table; which, in the company of
so beautiful a lady, I could not but consider a very high honour. She
seconded me with her usual adroitness. We sat down to supper. I put on the
most serious air I could assume, while the servants were in the room, and at
length having got rid of them, we passed, beyond all comparison, the most
agreeable evening of my life. I gave Marcel orders to find a hackney-coach,
and engage it to be at the gate on the following morning a little before six
o'clock. I pretended to take leave of Manon about midnight, but easily
gaining admission again, through Marcel, I proceeded to occupy G—— M
——'s bed, as I had filled his place at the supper table.

"In the meantime our evil genius was at work for our destruction. We
were like children enjoying the success of our silly scheme, while the sword
hung suspended over our heads. The thread which upheld it was just about
to break; but the better to understand all the circumstances of our ruin, it is
necessary to know the immediate cause.

"G—— M—— was followed by a servant, when he was stopped by my
friend the guardsman. Alarmed by what he saw, this fellow retraced his

steps, and the first thing he did was to go and inform old G—— M—— of
what had just happened.

"Such a piece of news, of course, excited him greatly. This was his only
son; and considering the old gentleman's advanced age, he was extremely
active and ardent. He first enquired of the servant what his son had been
doing that afternoon; whether he had had any quarrel on his own account,
or interfered in any other; whether he had been in any suspicious house. The
lackey, who fancied his master in imminent danger, and thought he ought
not to have any reserve in such an emergency, disclosed at once all that he
knew of his connection with Manon, and of the expense he had gone to on
her account; the manner in which he had passed the afternoon with her until
about nine o'clock, the circumstance of his leaving her, and the outrage he
encountered on his return. This was enough to convince him that his son's
affair was a love quarrel. Although it was then at least half-past ten at night,
he determined at once to call on the lieutenant of police. He begged of him
to issue immediate orders to all the detachments that were out on duty, and
he himself, taking some men with him, hastened to the street where his son
had been stopped: he visited every place where he thought he might have a
chance of finding him; and not being able to discover the slightest trace of
him, he went off to the house of his mistress, to which he thought he
probably might by this time have returned.

"I was stepping into bed when he arrived. The door of the chamber being
closed, I did not hear the knock at the gate, but he rushed into the house,
accompanied by two archers of the guard, and after fruitless enquiries of the
servants about his son, he resolved to try whether he could get any
information from their mistress. He came up to the apartment, still
accompanied by the guard. We were just on the point of lying down when
he burst open the door, and electrified us by his appearance. 'Heavens!' said
I to Manon, 'it is old G—— M——.' I attempted to get possession of my
sword; but it was fortunately entangled in my belt. The archers, who saw
my object, advanced to lay hold of me. Stript to my shirt, I could, of course,
offer no resistance, and they speedily deprived me of all means of defence.

"G—— M——, although a good deal embarrassed by the whole scene,
soon recognised me; and Manon still more easily. 'Is this a dream?' said he,

in the most serious tone—'do I not see before me the Chevalier des Grieux
and Manon Lescaut?' I was so overcome with shame and disappointment,
that I could make him no reply. He appeared for some minutes revolving
different thoughts in his mind; and as if they had suddenly excited his
anger, he exclaimed, addressing himself to me: 'Wretch! I am confident that
you have murdered my son!'

"I felt indignant at so insulting a charge. 'You hoary and lecherous
villain!' I exclaimed, 'if I had been inclined to kill any of your worthless
family, it is with you I should most assuredly have commenced.'

"'Hold him fast,' cried he to the archers; 'he must give me some tidings of
my son; I shall have him hanged tomorrow, if he does not presently let me
know how he has disposed of him.'

"'You will have me hanged,' said I, 'will you? Infamous scoundrel! it is
for such as you that the gibbet is erected. Know that the blood which flows
in my veins is noble, and purer in every sense than yours. Yes,' I added, 'I
do know what has happened to your son; and if you irritate me further, I
will have him strangled before morning; and I promise you the consolation
of meeting in your own person the same fate, after he is disposed of.'

"I was imprudent in acknowledging that I knew where his son was, but
excess of anger made me commit this indiscretion. He immediately called
in five or six other archers, who were waiting at the gate, and ordered them
to take all the servants into custody. 'Ah! ah! Chevalier,' said he, in a tone of
sardonic raillery,—'so you do know where my son is, and you will have him
strangled, you say? We will try to set that matter to rights.'

"I now saw the folly I had committed.

"He approached Manon, who was sitting upon the bed, bathed in a flood
of tears. He said something, with the most cruel irony, of the despotic
power she wielded over old and young, father and son—her edifying
dominion over her empire. This superannuated monster of incontinence
actually attempted to take liberties with her.

"'Take care,' exclaimed I, 'how you lay a finger upon her!—neither
divine nor human law will be able, should your folly arouse it, to shield you
from my vengeance!'

"He quitted the room, desiring the archers to make us dress as quickly as
possible.

"I know not what were his intentions at that moment with regard to us;
we might perhaps have regained our liberty if we had told him where his
son was. As I dressed, I considered whether this would not be the wisest
course. But if, on quitting the room, such had been the disposition of his
mind, it was very different when he returned. He had first gone to question
Manon's servants, who were in the custody of the guard. From those who
had been expressly hired for her service by his son, he could learn nothing;
but when he found that Marcel had been previously our servant, he
determined to extract some information from him, by means of
intimidation, threats, or bribes.

"This lad was faithful, but weak and unsophisticated. The remembrance
of what he had done at the penitentiary for Manon's release, joined to the
terror with which G—— M—— now inspired him, so subdued his mind,
that he thought they were about leading him to the gallows, or the rack. He
promised that, if they would spare his life, he would disclose everything he
knew. This speech made G—— M—— imagine that there was something
more serious in the affair than he had before supposed; he not only gave
Marcel a promise of his life, but a handsome reward in hand for his
intended confession.

"The booby then told him the leading features of our plot, of which we
had made no secret before him, as he was himself to have borne a part in it.
True, he knew nothing of the alterations we had made at Paris in our
original design; but he had been informed, before quitting Chaillot, of our
projected adventure, and of the part he was to perform. He therefore told
him that the object was to make a dupe of his son; and that Manon was to
receive, if she had not already received, ten thousand francs, which,
according to our project, would be effectually lost to G—— M——, his
heirs and assigns for ever.

"Having acquired this information, the old gentleman hastened back in a
rage to the apartment. Without uttering a word, he passed into the boudoir,
where he easily put his hand upon the money and the jewels. He then
accosted us, bursting with rage; and holding up what he was pleased to call
our plunder, he loaded us with the most indignant reproaches. He placed
close to Manon's eye the pearl necklace and bracelets. 'Do you recognise
them?' said he, in a tone of mockery; 'it is not, perhaps, the first time you
may have seen them. The identical pearls, by my faith! They were selected
by your own exquisite taste! The poor innocents!' added he; 'they really are
most amiable creatures, both one and the other; but they are perhaps a little
too much inclined to roguery.'

"I could hardly contain my indignation at this speech. I would have
given for one moment's liberty—Heavens! what would I not have given? At
length, I suppressed my feelings sufficiently to say in a tone of moderation,
which was but the refinement of rage: 'Put an end, sir, to this insolent
mockery! What is your object? What do you purpose doing with us?'

"'M. Chevalier,' he answered, 'my object is to see you quietly lodged in
the prison of Le Chatelet. Tomorrow will bring daylight with it, and we
shall then be able to take a clearer view of matters; and I hope you will at
last do me the favour to let me know where my son is.'

"It did not require much consideration to feel convinced that our
incarceration in Le Chatelet would be a serious calamity. I foresaw all the
dangers that would ensue. In spite of my pride, I plainly saw the necessity
of bending before my fate, and conciliating my most implacable enemy by
submission. I begged of him, in the quietest manner, to listen to me. 'I wish
to do myself but common justice, sir,' said I to him; 'I admit that my youth
has led me into egregious follies; and that you have had fair reason to
complain: but if you have ever felt the resistless power of love, if you can
enter into the sufferings of an unhappy young man, from whom all that he
most loved was ravished, you may think me perhaps not so culpable in
seeking the gratification of an innocent revenge; or at least, you may
consider me sufficiently punished, by the exposure and degradation I have
just now endured. Neither pains nor imprisonment will be requisite to make
me tell you where your son now is. He is in perfect safety. It was never my

intention to injure him, nor to give you just cause for offence. I am ready to
let you know the place where he is safely passing the night, if, in return,
you will set us at liberty.'

"The old tiger, far from being softened by my prayer, turned his back
upon me and laughed. A few words escaped him, which showed that he
perfectly well knew our whole plan from the commencement. As for his
son, the brute said that he would easily find him, since I had not
assassinated him. 'Conduct them to the Petit-Chatelet,' said he to the
archers; 'and take especial care that the chevalier does not escape you: he is
a scamp that once before escaped from St. Lazare.'

"He went out, and left me in a condition that you may picture to
yourself. 'O Heavens!' cried I to myself, 'I receive with humble submission
all your visitations; but that a wretched scoundrel should thus have the
power to tyrannise over me! this it is that plunges me into the depths of
despair!' The archers begged that we would not detain them any longer.
They had a coach at the door. 'Come, my dear angel,' said I to Manon, as we
went down, 'come, let us submit to our destiny in all its rigour: it may one
day please Heaven to render us more happy.'

"We went in the same coach. I supported her in my arms. I had not heard
her utter a single word since G—— M——'s first appearance: but now,
finding herself alone with me, she addressed me in the tenderest manner,
and accused herself of being the cause of all my troubles. I assured her that
I never could complain, while she continued to love me. 'It is not I that have
reason to complain,' I added; 'imprisonment for a few months has no terrors
for me, and I would infinitely prefer Le Chatelet to St. Lazare; but it is for
you, my dearest soul, that my heart bleeds. What a lot for such an angel!
How can you, gracious Heaven! subject to such rigour the most perfect
work of your own hands? Why are we not both of us born with qualities
conformable to our wretched condition? We are endowed with spirit, with
taste, with feeling; while the vilest of God's creatures—brutes, alone worthy
of our unhappy fate, are revelling in all the favours of fortune.'

"These feelings filled me with grief; but it was bliss compared with my
prospects for the future. My fear, on account of Manon, knew no bounds.
She had already been an inmate of the Magdalen; and even if she had left it

by fair means, I knew that a relapse of this nature would be attended with
disastrous consequences. I wished to let her know my fears: I was
apprehensive of exciting hers. I trembled for her, without daring to put her
on her guard against the danger; and I embraced her tenderly, to satisfy her,
at least, of my love, which was almost the only sentiment to which I dared
to give expression. 'Manon,' said I, 'tell me sincerely, will you ever cease to
love me?'

"She answered, that it made her unhappy to think that I could doubt it.

"'Very well,' replied I, 'I do so no longer; and with this conviction, I may
well defy all my enemies. Through the influence of my family, I can ensure
my own liberation from the Chatelet; and my life will be of little use, and of
short duration, if I do not succeed in rescuing you.'

"We arrived at the prison, where they put us into separate cells. This
blow was the less severe, because I was prepared for it. I recommended
Manon to the attention of the porter, telling him that I was a person of some
distinction, and promising him a considerable recompense. I embraced my
dearest mistress before we parted; I implored her not to distress herself too
much, and to fear nothing while I lived. I had money with me: I gave her
some; and I paid the porter, out of what remained, the amount of a month's
expenses for both of us in, advance. This had an excellent effect, for I found
myself placed in an apartment comfortably furnished, and they assured me
that Manon was in one equally good.

"I immediately set about devising the means of procuring my liberty.
There certainly had been nothing actually criminal in my conduct; and
supposing even that our felonious intention was established by the evidence
of Marcel, I knew that criminal intentions alone were not punishable. I
resolved to write immediately to my father, and beg of him to come himself
to Paris. I felt much less humiliation, as I have already said, in being in Le
Chatelet than in St. Lazare. Besides, although I preserved all proper respect
for the paternal authority, age and experience had considerably lessened my
timidity. I wrote, and they made no difficulty in the prison about forwarding
my letter; but it was a trouble I should have spared myself, had I known that
my father was about to arrive on the following day in Paris. He had
received the letter I had written to him a week before; it gave him extreme

delight; but, notwithstanding the flattering hopes I had held out of my
conversion, he could not implicitly rely on my statements. He determined
therefore to satisfy himself of my reformation by the evidence of his own
senses, and to regulate his conduct towards me according to his conviction
of my sincerity. He arrived the day after my imprisonment.

"His first visit was to Tiberge, to whose care I begged that he would
address his answer. He could not learn from him either my present abode or
condition: Tiberge merely told him of my principal adventures since I had
escaped from St. Lazare. Tiberge spoke warmly of the disposition to virtue
which I had evinced at our last interview. He added, that he considered me
as having quite got rid of Manon; but that he was nevertheless surprised at
my not having given him any intelligence about myself for a week. My
father was not to be duped. He fully comprehended that there was
something in the silence of which Tiberge complained, which had escaped
my poor friend's penetration; and he took such pains to find me out, that in
two days after his arrival he learned that I was in Le Chatelet.

"Before I received this visit, which I little expected so soon, I had the
honour of one from the lieutenant-general of police, or, to call things by
their right names, I was subjected to an official examination. He upbraided
me certainly, but not in any harsh or annoying manner. He told me, in the
kindest tone, that he bitterly lamented my bad conduct; that I had
committed a gross indiscretion in making an enemy of such a man as M. G
—— M——; that in truth it was easy to see that there was, in the affair,
more of imprudence and folly than of malice; but that still it was the second
time I had been brought as a culprit under his cognisance; and that he had
hoped I should have become more sedate, after the experience of two or
three months in St. Lazare.

"Delighted at finding that I had a rational judge to deal with, I explained
the affair to him in a manner at once so respectful and so moderate, that he
seemed exceedingly satisfied with my answers to all the queries he put. He
desired me not to abandon myself to grief, and assured me that he felt every
disposition to serve me, as well on account of my birth as my inexperience.
I ventured to bespeak his attentions in favour of Manon, and I dwelt upon
her gentle and excellent disposition. He replied, with a smile, that he had

not yet seen her, but that she had been represented to him as a most
dangerous person. This expression so excited my sympathy, that I urged a
thousand anxious arguments in favour of my poor mistress, and I could not
restrain even from shedding tears.

"He desired them to conduct me back to my chamber. 'Love! love!' cried
this grave magistrate as I went out, 'thou art never to be reconciled with
discretion!'

"I had been occupied with the most melancholy reflections, and was
thinking of the conversation I had had with the lieutenant-general of police,
when I heard my door open. It was my father. Although I ought to have
been half prepared for seeing him, and had reasons to expect his arrival
within a day or two, yet I was so thunderstruck, that I could willingly have
sunk into the earth, if it had been open at my feet. I embraced him in the
greatest possible state of confusion. He took a seat, without either one or
other of us having uttered a word.

"As I remained standing, with my head uncovered, and my eyes cast on
the ground, 'Be seated, sir,' said he in a solemn voice; 'be seated. I have to
thank the notoriety of your debaucheries for learning the place of your
abode. It is the privilege of such fame as yours, that it cannot lie concealed.
You are acquiring celebrity by an unerring path. Doubtless it will lead you
to the Greve,[1] and you will then have the unfading glory of being held up
to the admiration of the world.'

"I made no reply. He continued: 'What an unhappy lot is that of a father,
who having tenderly loved a child, and strained every nerve to bring him up
a virtuous and respectable man, finds him turn out in the end a worthless
profligate, who dishonours him. To an ordinary reverse of fortune one may
be reconciled; time softens the affliction, and even the indulgence of sorrow
itself is not unavailing; but what remedy is there for an evil that is
perpetually augmenting, such as the profligacy of a vicious son, who has
deserted every principle of honour, and is ever plunging from deep into
deeper vice? You are silent,' added he: 'look at this counterfeit modesty, this
hypocritical air of gentleness!— might he not pass for the most respectable
member of his family?'

"Although I could not but feel that I deserved, in some degree, these
reproaches, yet he appeared to me to carry them beyond all reason. I
thought I might be permitted to explain my feelings.

"'I assure you, sir,' said I to him, 'that the modesty which you ridicule is
by no means affected; it is the natural feeling of a son who entertains
sincere respect for his father, and above all, a father irritated as you justly
are by his faults. Neither have I, sir, the slightest wish to pass for the most
respectable member of my family. I know that I have merited your
reproaches, but I conjure you to temper them with mercy, and not to look
upon me as the most infamous of mankind. I do not deserve such harsh
names. It is love, you know it, that has caused all my errors. Fatal passion!
Have you yourself never felt its force? Is it possible that you, with the same
blood in your veins that flows in mine, should have passed through life
unscathed by the same excitements? Love has rendered me perhaps
foolishly tender—too easily excited—too impassioned—too faithful, and
probably too indulgent to the desires and caprices, or, if you will, the faults
of an adored mistress. These are my crimes; are they such as to reflect
dishonour upon you? Come, my dear father,' said I tenderly, 'show some
pity for a son, who has never ceased to feel respect and affection for you—
who has not renounced, as you say, all feelings of honour and of duty, and
who is himself a thousand times more an object of pity than you imagine.' I
could not help shedding a tear as I concluded this appeal.

"A father's heart is a chef-d'oeuvre of creation. There nature rules in
undisturbed dominion, and regulates at will its most secret springs. He was
a man of high feeling and good taste, and was so sensibly affected by the
turn I had given to my defence, that he could no longer hide from me the
change I had wrought.

"'Come to me, my poor chevalier,' said he; 'come and embrace me. I do
pity you!'

"I embraced him: he pressed me to him in such a manner, that I guessed
what was passing in his heart.

"'But how are we,' said he, 'to extricate you from this place? Explain to
me the real situation of your affairs.'

"As there really was not anything in my conduct so grossly improper as
to reflect dishonour upon me; at least, in comparison with the conduct of
other young men of a certain station in the world; and as a mistress is not
considered a disgrace, any more than a little dexterity in drawing some
advantage from play, I gave my father a candid detail of the life I had been
leading. As I recounted each transgression, I took care to cite some
illustrious example in my justification, in order to palliate my own faults.

"'I lived,' said I, 'with a mistress without the solemnity of marriage. The
Duke of —— keeps two before the eyes of all Paris. M—— D—— has had
one now for ten years, and loves her with a fidelity which he has never
shown to his wife. Two-thirds of the men of fashion in Paris keep
mistresses.

"'I certainly have on one or two occasions cheated at play. Well, the
Marquis of —— and the Count —— have no other source of revenue. The
Prince of —— and the Duke of —— are at the head of a gang of the same
industrious order.' As for the designs I had upon the pockets of the two G
—— M——s, I might just as easily have proved that I had abundant
models for that also; but I had too much pride to plead guilty to this charge,
and rest on the justification of example; so that I begged of my father to
ascribe my weakness on this occasion to the violence of the two passions
which agitated me—Revenge and Love.

"He asked me whether I could suggest any means of obtaining my
liberty, and in such a way as to avoid publicity as much as possible. I told
him of the kind feelings which the lieutenant-general of police had
expressed towards me. 'If you encounter any obstacles,' said I, 'they will be
offered only by the two G—— M——s; so that I think it would be
advisable to call upon them.'

"He promised to do so.

"I did not dare ask him to solicit Manon's liberation; this was not from
want of courage, but from the apprehension of exasperating him by such a
proposition, and perhaps driving him to form some design fatal to the future
happiness of us both. It remains to this hour a problem whether this fear on
my part was not the immediate cause of all my most terrible misfortunes, by

preventing me from ascertaining my father's disposition, and endeavouring
to inspire him with favourable feelings towards my poor mistress: I might
have perhaps once more succeeded in exciting his commiseration; I might
have put him on his guard against the impression which he was sure of
receiving from a visit to old G—— M——. But how can I tell what the
consequences would have been! My unhappy fate would have most
probably counteracted all my efforts; but it would have been a consolation
to have had nothing else but that, and the cruelty of my enemies, to blame
for my afflictions.

"On quitting me, my father went to pay a visit to M. G—— M——. He
found him with his son, whom the guardsman had safely restored to liberty.
I never learned the particulars of their conversation; but I could easily infer
them from the disastrous results. They went together (the two old
gentlemen) to the lieutenant-general of police, from whom they requested
one favour each: the first was to have me at once liberated from Le
Chatelet; the second to condemn Manon to perpetual imprisonment, or to
transport her for life to America. They happened, at that very period, to be
sending out a number of convicts to the Mississippi. The lieutenant-general
promised to have her embarked on board the first vessel that sailed.

"M. G—— M—— and my father came together to bring me the news of
my liberation. M. G—— M—— said something civil with reference to
what had passed; and having congratulated me upon my happiness in
having such a father, he exhorted me to profit henceforward by his
instruction and example. My father desired me to express my sorrow for the
injustice I had even contemplated against his family, and my gratitude for
his having assisted in procuring my liberation.

"We all left the prison together, without the mention of Manon's name. I
dared not in their presence speak of her to the turnkeys. Alas! all my
entreaties in her favour would have been useless. The cruel sentence upon
Manon had arrived at the same time as the warrant for my discharge. The
unfortunate girl was conducted in an hour after to the Hospital, to be there
classed with some other wretched women, who had been condemned to the
same punishment.

"My father having forced me to accompany him to the house where he
was residing, it was near six o'clock before I had an opportunity of escaping
his vigilance. In returning to Le Chatelet, my only wish was to convey some
refreshments to Manon, and to recommend her to the attention of the porter;
for I had no hope of being permitted to see her; nor had I, as yet, had time
to reflect on the best means of rescuing her.

"I asked for the porter. I had won his heart, as much by my liberality to
him, as by the mildness of my manner; so that, having a disposition to serve
me, he spoke of Manon's sentence as a calamity which he sincerely
regretted, since it was calculated to mortify me. I was at first unable to
comprehend his meaning. We conversed for some minutes without my
understanding him. At length perceiving that an explanation was necessary,
he gave me such a one, as on a former occasion I wanted courage to relate
to you, and which, even now, makes my blood curdle in my veins to
remember."

[1] Who has e'er been at Paris must needs know the Greve,
The fatal retreat of th' unfortunate brave,
Where honour and justice most oddly contribute,
To ease heroes' pains by the halter and gibbet.—PRIOR.

XI

Alack! it is not when we sleep soft and wake merrily that we think on other
people's sufferings; but when the hour of trouble comes, said Jeanie Deans.—
WALTER SCOTT.

"Never did apoplexy produce on mortal a more sudden or terrific effect
than did the announcement of Manon's sentence upon me. I fell prostrate,
with so intense a palpitation of the heart, that as I swooned I thought that
death itself was come upon me. This idea continued even after I had been
restored to my senses. I gazed around me upon every part of the room, then
upon my own paralysed limbs, doubting, in my delirium, whether I still
bore about me the attributes of a living man. It is quite certain that, in
obedience to the desire I felt of terminating my sufferings, even by my own
hand, nothing could have been to me more welcome than death at that
moment of anguish and despair. Religion itself could depict nothing more
insupportable after death than the racking agony with which I was then
convulsed. Yet, by a miracle, only within the power of omnipotent love, I
soon regained strength enough to express my gratitude to Heaven for
restoring me to sense and reason. My death could have only been a relief
and blessing to myself; whereas Manon had occasion for my prolonged
existence, in order to deliver her—to succour her—to avenge her wrongs: I
swore to devote that existence unremittingly to these objects.

"The porter gave me every assistance that I could have expected at the
hands of my oldest friend: I accepted his services with the liveliest
gratitude. 'Alas!' said I to him, 'you then are affected by my sufferings! The
whole world abandons me; my own father proves one of the very cruellest
of my persecutors; no person feels pity for me! You alone, in this abode of
suffering and shame—you alone exhibit compassion for the most wretched
of mankind!' He advised me not to appear in the street until I had recovered
a little from my affliction. 'Do not stop me,' said I, as I went out; 'we shall
meet again sooner than you imagine: get ready your darkest dungeon, for I
shall shortly become its tenant.'

"In fact, my first idea was nothing less than to make away with the two
G—— M——s, and the lieutenant-general of police; and then to attack the
Hospital, sword in hand, assisted by all whom I could enlist in my cause.
Even my father's life was hardly respected, so just appeared my feelings of
vengeance; for the porter had informed me that he and G—— M—— were
jointly the authors of my ruin.

"But when I had advanced some paces into the street, and the fresh air
had cooled my excitement, I gradually viewed matters in a more rational
mood. The death of our enemies could be of little use to Manon; and the
obvious effect of such violence would be to deprive me of all other chance
of serving her. Besides, could I ever bring myself to be a cowardly assassin?
By what other means could I accomplish my revenge? I set all my ingenuity
and all my efforts at work to procure the deliverance of Manon, leaving
everything else to be considered hereafter when I had succeeded in this first
and paramount object.

"I had very little money left; money, however, was an indispensable
basis for all my operations. I only knew three persons from whom I had any
right to ask pecuniary assistance—M. de T——, Tiberge, and my father.
There appeared little chance of obtaining any from the two latter, and I was
really ashamed again to importune M. de T——. But it is not in desperate
emergencies that one stands upon points of ceremony. I went first to the
seminary of St. Sulpice, without considering whether I should be
recognised. I asked for Tiberge. His first words showed me that he knew
nothing of my latest adventure: this made me change the design I had

originally formed of appealing at once to his compassion. I spoke generally
of the pleasure it had given me to see my father again; and I then begged of
him to lend me some money, under the pretext of being anxious before I left
Paris to pay a few little debts, which I wished to keep secret. He handed me
his purse, without a single remark. I took twenty or twenty-five pounds,
which it contained. I offered him my note of hand, but he was too generous
to accept it.

"I then went to M. de T——: I had no reserve with him. I plainly told
him my misfortunes and distress: he already knew everything, and had
informed himself even of the most trifling circumstance, on account of the
interest he naturally took in young G—— M——'s adventure. He, however,
listened to me, and seemed sincerely to lament what had occurred. When I
consulted him as to the best means of rescuing Manon, he answered that he
saw such little ground for hope, that, without some extraordinary
interposition of Providence, it would be folly to expect relief; that he had
paid a visit expressly to the Hospital since Manon had been transferred
from the Chatelet, but that he could not even obtain permission to see her,
as the lieutenant-general of police had given the strictest orders to the
contrary; and that, to complete the catastrophe, the unfortunate train of
convicts, in which she was to be included, was to take its departure from
Paris the day but one after.

"I was so confounded by what he said, that if he had gone on speaking
for another hour, I should not have interrupted him. He continued to tell me,
that the reason of his not calling to see me at the Chatelet was, that he
hoped to be of more use by appearing to be unknown to me; that for the last
few hours, since I had been set at liberty, he had in vain looked for me, in
order to suggest the only plan through which he could see a hope of
averting Manon's fate. He told me it was dangerous counsel to give, and
implored me never to mention the part he took in it; it was to find some
enterprising fellows gallant enough to attack Manon's guard on getting
outside the barriere. Nor did he wait for me to urge a plea of poverty. 'Here
is fifty pounds,' he said, presenting me his purse; 'it may be of use to you;
you can repay me when you are in better circumstances.' He added, that if
the fear of losing his character did not prevent him from embarking in such

an enterprise, he would have willingly put his sword and his life at my
service.

"This unlooked-for generosity affected me to tears. I expressed my
gratitude with as much warmth as my depressed spirits left at my command.
I asked him if there were nothing to be expected from interceding with the
lieutenant-general of police: he said that he had considered that point; but
that he looked upon it as a hopeless attempt, because a favour of that nature
was never accorded without some strong motive, and he did not see what
inducement could be held out for engaging the intercession of any person of
power on her behalf; that if any hope could possibly be entertained upon the
point, it must be by working a change in the feelings of old G—— M——
and my father, and by prevailing on them to solicit from the lieutenant-
general of police the revocation of Manon's sentence. He offered to do
everything in his power to gain over the younger G—— M——, although
he fancied a coldness in that gentleman's manner towards him, probably
from some suspicions he might entertain of his being concerned in the late
affair; and he entreated me to lose no opportunity of effecting the desired
change in my father's mind.

"This was no easy undertaking for me; not only on account of the
difficulty I should naturally meet in overcoming his opinion, but for another
reason which made me fear even to approach him; I had quitted his
lodgings contrary to his express orders, and was resolved, since I had
learned the sad fate of my poor Manon, never again to return thither. I was
not without apprehensions indeed of his now retaining me against my will,
and perhaps taking me at once back with him into the country. My elder
brother had formerly had recourse to this violent measure. True, I was now
somewhat older; but age is a feeble argument against force. I hit upon a
mode, however, of avoiding this danger, which was to get him by
contrivance to some public place, and there announce myself to him under
an assumed name: I immediately resolved on this method. M. de T——
went to G—— M——'s, and I to the Luxembourg, whence I sent my father
word, that a gentleman waited there to speak with him. I hardly thought he
would come, as the night was advancing. He, however, soon made his
appearance, followed by a servant: I begged of him to choose a walk where
we could be alone. We walked at least a hundred paces without speaking.

He doubtless imagined that so much precaution could not be taken without
some important object. He waited for my opening speech, and I was
meditating how to commence it.

"At length I began.

"'Sir,' said I, trembling, 'you are a good and affectionate parent; you have
loaded me with favours, and have forgiven me an infinite number of faults;
I also, in my turn, call Heaven to witness the sincere, and tender, and
respectful sentiments I entertain towards you. But it does seem to me, that
your inexorable severity——'

"'Well, sir, my severity!' interrupted my father, who no doubt found my
hesitation little suited to his impatience.

"'Ah, sir,' I replied, 'it does seem to me that your severity is excessive in
the penalty you inflict upon the unfortunate Manon. You have taken only M.
G—— M——'s report of her. His hatred has made him represent her to you
in the most odious colours: you have formed a frightful idea of her. She is,
on the contrary, the mildest and most amiable of living creatures; would that
Heaven had but inspired you at any one moment with the desire of seeing
her! I am convinced that you would be not less sensible of her perfections
than your unhappy son. You would then have been her advocate; you would
have abhorred the foul artifices of G—— M——; you would have had pity
on both her and me. Alas! I am persuaded of it; your heart is not insensible;
it must ere now have melted with compassion.'

"He interrupted me again, perceiving that I spoke with a warmth which
would not allow me to finish very briefly. He begged to know with what
request I intended to wind up so fervent an harangue.

"'To ask my life at your hands,' said I, 'which I never can retain if Manon
once embark for America.'

"'No! no!' replied he, in the severest tone; 'I would rather see you lifeless,
than infamous and depraved.'

"'We have gone far enough, then,' said I, catching hold of his arm; 'take
from me, in common mercy, my life! weary and odious and insupportable
as it henceforward must be; for in the state of despair into which you now
plunge me, death would be the greatest favour you could bestow—a favour
worthy of a father's hand.'

"'I should only give you what you deserve,' replied he; 'I know fathers
who would not have shown as much patience as I have, but would
themselves have executed speedy justice; but it is my foolish and excessive
forbearance that has been your ruin.'

"I threw myself at his feet: 'Ah!' exclaimed I, 'if you have still any
remains of mercy, do not harden your heart against my distress and sorrow.
Remember that I am your child! Alas! think of my poor mother! you loved
her tenderly! would you have suffered her to be torn from your arms? You
would have defended her to the death! May not the same feeling then be
pardoned in others? Can persons become barbarous and cruel, after having
themselves experienced the softening influence of tenderness and grief?'

"'Breathe not again the sacred name of your mother,' he exclaimed, in a
voice of thunder; 'the very allusion to her memory rouses my indignation.
Had she lived to witness the unredeemed profligacy of your life, it would
have brought her in pain and sorrow to her grave.—Let us put an end to this
discussion' he added; 'it distresses me, and makes not the slightest change in
my determination: I am going back to my lodgings, and I desire you to
follow me.'

"The cool and resolute tone in which he uttered this command,
convinced me that he was inexorable. I stepped some paces aside, for fear
he should think fit to lay hands upon me.

"'Do not increase my misery and despair,' said I to him, 'by forcing me to
disobey you. It is impossible for me to follow you; and equally so that I
should continue to live, after the unkind treatment I have experienced from
you. I, therefore, bid you an eternal adieu. When you know that I am dead,
as I shall soon be, the paternal affection which you once entertained for me
may be perhaps revived.'

"As I was about to turn away from him: 'You refuse then to follow me,'
cried he, in a tone of excessive anger. 'Go! go on to your ruin. Adieu!
ungrateful and disobedient boy.'

"'Adieu!' exclaimed I to him, in a burst of grief, 'adieu, cruel and
unnatural father!'

"I left the Luxembourg, and rushed like a madman through the streets to
M. de T——'s house. I raised my hands and eyes as I went along, invoking
the Almighty Powers: 'O Heaven,' cried I, 'will you not prove more merciful
than man! The only hope that remains to me is from above!'

"M. de T—— had not yet returned home; but he arrived before many
minutes had elapsed. His negotiation had been as unsuccessful as my own.
He told me so with the most sorrowful countenance. Young G—— M——,
although less irritated than his father against Manon and me, would not
undertake to petition in our favour. He was, in great measure, deterred by
the fear which he himself had of the vindictive old lecher, who had already
vented his anger against him for his design of forming a connection with
Manon.

"There only remained to me, therefore, the violent measures which M. T
—— had suggested. I now confined all my hopes to them. They were
questionless most uncertain; but they held out to me, at least, a substantial
consolation, in the certainty of meeting death in the attempt, if
unsuccessful. I left him, begging that he would offer up his best wishes for
my triumph; and I thought only of finding some companions, to whom I
might communicate a portion of my own courage and determination.

"The first that occurred to me was the same guardsman whom I had
employed to arrest G—— M——. I had intended indeed to pass the night at
his rooms, not having had a moment of leisure during the afternoon to
procure myself a lodging. I found him alone. He was glad to see me out of
the Chatelet. He made me an offer of his services. I explained to him in
what way he might now do me the greatest kindness. He had good sense
enough to perceive all the difficulties; but he was also generous enough to
undertake to surmount them.

"We spent part of the night in considering how the plot was to be
executed. He spoke of the three soldiers whom he had made use of on the
last occasion, as men whose courage had been proved. M. de T—— had
told me the exact number of archers that would escort Manon; they were
but six. Five strong and determined men could not fail to strike terror into
these fellows, who would never think of defending themselves bravely,
when they were to be allowed the alternative of avoiding danger by
surrendering; and of that they would no doubt avail themselves. As I was
not without money, the guardsman advised me to spare no pains or expense
to ensure success. 'We must be mounted,' he said, 'and each man must have
his carbine and pistols; I will take care to prepare everything requisite by
tomorrow. We shall also want three new suits of regimentals for the
soldiers, who dare not appear in an affray of this kind in the uniform of their
regiment. I handed him the hundred pistoles which I had got from M. de T
——; it was all expended the next morning, to the very last sou. I inspected
the three soldiers; I animated them with the most liberal promises; and to
confirm their confidence in me, I began by making each man a present of
ten pistoles.

"The momentous day having arrived, I sent one of them at an early hour
to the Hospital, to ascertain the exact time when the police were to start
with their prisoners. Although I merely took this precaution from my
excessive anxiety, it turned out to have been a prudent step. I had formed
my plans upon false information, which I had received as to their
destination; and believing that it was at Rochelle this unhappy group was to
embark, all my trouble would have been thrown away in waiting for them
on the Orleans road. However, I learned, by the soldier's report, that they
would go out towards Rouen, and that it was from Havre-de-Grace they
were to sail for America.

"We at once went to the gate of St. Honore, taking care to go by different
streets. We assembled at the end of the faubourg. Our horses were fresh. In
a little time we observed before us the six archers and the two wretched
caravans, which you saw at Passy two years ago. The sight alone almost
deprived me of my strength and senses. 'Oh fate!' said I to myself, 'cruel
fate! grant me now either death or victory.'

"We hastily consulted as to the mode of making the attack. The
cavalcade was only four hundred paces in advance, and we might intercept
them by cutting across a small field, round which the high road led. The
guardsman was for this course, in order to fall suddenly upon them while
unprepared. I approved of the plan, and was the first to spur my horse
forward—but fate once again relentlessly blasted all my hopes.

"The escort, seeing five horsemen riding towards them, inferred that it
was for the purpose of attacking them. They put themselves in a position of
defence, preparing their bayonets and guns with an air of resolution.

"This demonstration, which in the guardsman and myself only inspired
fresh courage, had a very different effect upon our three cowardly
companions. They stopped simultaneously, and having muttered to each
other some words which I could not hear, they turned their horses' heads,
threw the bridles on their necks, and galloped back towards Paris.

"'Good heavens!' said the guardsman, who appeared as much annoyed as
I was by this infamous desertion, 'what is to be done? we are but two now.'

"From rage and consternation I had lost all power of speech. I doubted
whether my first revenge should not be in pursuing the cowards who had
abandoned me. I saw them flying, and looked in the other direction at the
escort: if it had been possible to divide myself, I should at once have fallen
upon both these objects of my fury; I should have destroyed all at the same
moment.

"The guardsman, who saw my irresolution by my wandering gaze,
begged of me to hear his advice. 'Being but two,' he said, 'it would be
madness to attack six men as well armed as ourselves, and who seem
determined to receive us firmly. Let us return to Paris, and endeavour to
succeed better in the choice of our comrades. The police cannot make very
rapid progress with two heavy vans; we may overtake them tomorrow
without difficulty.'

"I reflected a moment on this suggestion; but seeing nothing around me
but despair, I took a final and indeed desperate resolution: this was to thank
my companion for his services, and, far from attacking the police, to go up

with submission and implore them to receive me among them, that I might
accompany Manon to Havre-de-Grace, and afterwards, if possible, cross the
Atlantic with her. 'The whole world is either persecuting or betraying me,'
said I to the guardsman; 'I have no longer the power of interesting anyone in
my favour; I expect nothing more either from fortune or the friendship of
man; my misery is at its height; it only remains for me to submit, so that I
close my eyes henceforward against every gleam of hope. May Heaven,' I
continued, 'reward you for your generosity! Adieu! I shall go and aid my
wretched destiny in filling up the full measure of my ruin!' He, in vain,
endeavoured to persuade me to return with him to Paris. I entreated him to
leave me at once, lest the police should still suspect us of an intention to
attack them."

XII

The pauses and intermissions of pain become positive pleasures; and have thus a
power of shedding a satisfaction over the intervals of ease, which few
enjoyments exceed.—PALEY.

"Riding towards the cortege at a slow pace, and with a sorrowful
countenance, the guards could hardly see anything very terrific in my
approach. They seemed, however, to expect an attack. 'Be persuaded,
gentlemen,' said I to them, 'that I come not to wage war, but rather to ask
favours.' I then begged of them to continue their progress without any
distrust, and as we went along I made my solicitations. They consulted
together to ascertain in what way they should entertain my request. The
chief of them spoke for the rest. He said that the orders they had received to
watch the prisoners vigilantly were of the strictest kind; that, however, I
seemed so interesting a young man, that they might be induced to relax a
little in their duty; but that I must know, of course, that this would cost me
something. I had about sixteen pistoles left, and candidly told them what

my purse contained. 'Well,' said the gendarme, 'we will act generously. It
shall only cost you a crown an hour for conversing with any of our girls that
you may prefer— that is the ordinary price in Paris.'

"I said not a word of Manon, because I did not wish to let them know of
my passion. They at first supposed it was merely a boyish whim, that made
me think of amusing myself with these creatures: but when they discovered
that I was in love, they increased their demands in such a way, that my
purse was completely empty on leaving Mantes, where we had slept the
night before our arrival at Passy.

"Shall I describe to you my heart-rending interviews with Manon during
this journey, and what my sensations were when I obtained from the guards
permission to approach her caravan? Oh! language never can adequately
express the sentiments of the heart; but picture to yourself my poor
mistress, with a chain round her waist, seated upon a handful of straw, her
head resting languidly against the panel of the carriage, her face pale and
bathed with tears, which forced a passage between her eyelids, although she
kept them continually closed. She had not even the curiosity to open her
eyes on hearing the bustle of the guards when they expected our attack. Her
clothes were soiled, and in disorder; her delicate hands exposed to the rough
air; in fine, her whole angelic form, that face, lovely enough to carry back
the world to idolatry, presented a spectacle of distress and anguish utterly
indescribable.

"I spent some moments gazing at her as I rode alongside the carriage. I
had so lost my self-possession, that I was several times on the point of
falling from my horse. My sighs and frequent exclamations at length
attracted her attention. She looked at and recognised me, and I remarked
that on the first impulse, she unconsciously tried to leap from the carriage
towards me, but being checked by her chain, she fell into her former
attitude.

"I begged of the guards to stop one moment for the sake of mercy; they
consented for the sake of avarice. I dismounted to go and sit near her. She
was so languid and feeble, that she was for some time without the power of
speech, and could not raise her hands: I bathed them with my tears; and
being myself unable to utter a word, we formed together as deplorable a

picture of distress as could well be seen. When at length we were able to
speak, our conversation was not less sorrowful. Manon said little: shame
and grief appeared to have altered the character of her voice; its tone was
feeble and tremulous.

"She thanked me for not having forgotten her, and for the comfort I gave
her in allowing her to see me once more, and she then bade me a long and
last farewell. But when I assured her that no power on earth could ever
separate me from her, and that I was resolved to follow her to the extremity
of the world—to watch over her—to guard her—to love her—and
inseparably to unite my wretched destiny with hers, the poor girl gave way
to such feelings of tenderness and grief, that I almost dreaded danger to her
life from the violence of her emotion: the agitation of her whole soul
seemed intensely concentrated in her eyes; she fixed them steadfastly upon
me. She more than once opened her lips without the power of giving
utterance to her thoughts. I could, however, catch some expressions that
dropped from her, of admiration and wonder at my excessive love—of
doubt that she could have been fortunate enough to inspire me with a
passion so perfect—of earnest entreaty that I would abandon my intention
of following her, and seek elsewhere a lot more worthy of me, and which,
she said, I could never hope to find with her.

"In spite of the cruellest inflictions of Fate, I derived comfort from her
looks, and from the conviction that I now possessed her undivided
affection. I had in truth lost all that other men value; but I was the master of
Manon's heart, the only possession that I prized. Whether in Europe or in
America, of what moment to me was the place of my abode, provided I
might live happy in the society of my mistress? Is not the universe the
residence of two fond and faithful lovers? Does not each find in the other,
father, mother, friends, relations, riches, felicity?

"If anything caused me uneasiness, it was the fear of seeing Manon
exposed to want. I fancied myself already with her in a barbarous country,
inhabited by savages. 'I am quite certain,' said I, 'there will be none there
more cruel than G—— M—— and my father. They will, at least, allow us
to live in peace. If the accounts we read of savages be true, they obey the
laws of nature: they neither know the mean rapacity of avarice, nor the false

and fantastic notions of dignity, which have raised me up an enemy in my
own father. They will not harass and persecute two lovers, when they see us
adopt their own simple habits.' I was therefore at ease upon that point.

"But my romantic ideas were not formed with a proper view to the
ordinary wants of life. I had too often found that there were necessaries
which could not be dispensed with, particularly by a young and delicate
woman, accustomed to comfort and abundance. I was in despair at having
so fruitlessly emptied my purse, and the little money that now remained was
about being forced from me by the rascally imposition of the gendarmes. I
imagined that a very trifling sum would suffice for our support for some
time in America, where money was scarce, and might also enable me to
form some undertaking there for our permanent establishment.

"This idea made me resolve on writing to Tiberge, whom I had ever
found ready to hold out the generous hand of friendship. I wrote from the
first town we passed through. I only alluded to the destitute condition in
which I foresaw that I should find myself on arriving at Havre-de-Grace, to
which place I acknowledged that I was accompanying Manon. I asked him
for only fifty pistoles. 'You can remit it to me,' said I to him, 'through the
hands of the postmaster. You must perceive that it is the last time I can by
possibility trespass on your friendly kindness; and my poor unhappy
mistress being about to be exiled from her country for ever, I cannot let her
depart without supplying her with some few comforts, to soften the
sufferings of her lot, as well as to assuage my own sorrows.'

"The gendarmes became so rapacious when they saw the violence of my
passion, continually increasing their demands for the slightest favours, that
they soon left me penniless. Love did not permit me to put any bounds to
my liberality. At Manon's side I was not master of myself; and it was no
longer by the hour that time was measured; rather by the duration of whole
days. At length, my funds being completely exhausted, I found myself
exposed to the brutal caprice of these six wretches who treated me with
intolerable rudeness—you yourself witnessed it at Passy. My meeting with
you was a momentary relaxation accorded me by fate. Your compassion at
the sight of my sufferings was my only recommendation to your generous
nature. The assistance which you so liberally extended, enabled me to reach

Havre, and the guards kept their promise more faithfully than I had
ventured to hope.

"We arrived at Havre. I went to the post-office: Tiberge had not yet had
time to answer my letter. I ascertained the earliest day I might reckon upon
his answer: it could not possibly arrive for two days longer; and by an
extraordinary fatality, our vessel was to sail on the very morning of the day
when the letter might be expected. I cannot give you an idea of my despair.
'Alas!' cried I, 'even amongst the unfortunate, I am to be ever the most
wretched!'

"Manon replied: 'Alas! does a life so thoroughly miserable deserve the
care we bestow on ours? Let us die at Havre, dearest chevalier! Let death at
once put an end to our afflictions! Shall we persevere, and go to drag on this
hopeless existence in an unknown land, where we shall, no doubt, have to
encounter the most horrible pains, since it has been their object to punish
me by exile? Let us die,' she repeated, 'or do at least in mercy rid me of life,
and then you can seek another lot in the arms of some happier lover.'

"'No, no, Manon,' said I; 'it is but too enviable a lot, in my estimation, to
be allowed to share your misfortunes.'

"Her observations made me tremble. I saw that she was overpowered by
her afflictions. I tried to assume a more tranquil air, in order to dissipate
such melancholy thoughts of death and despair.

"I resolved to adopt the same course in future; and I learned by the
results, that nothing is more calculated to inspire a woman with courage
than the demonstration of intrepidity in the man she loves.

"When I lost all hope of receiving the expected assistance from Tiberge,
I sold my horse; the money it brought, joined to what remained of your
generous gift, amounted to the small sum of forty pistoles; I expended eight
in the purchase of some necessary articles for Manon; and I put the
remainder by, as the capital upon which we were to rest our hopes and raise
our fortunes in America. I had no difficulty in getting admitted on board the
vessel. They were at the time looking for young men as voluntary emigrants
to the colony. The passage and provisions were supplied gratis. I left a letter

for Tiberge, which was to go by the post next morning to Paris. It was no
doubt written in a tone calculated to affect him deeply, since it induced him
to form a resolution, which could only be carried into execution by the
tenderest and most generous sympathy for his unhappy friend.

XIII

Sunt hie etiam sua proemia laudi,
Sunt lachrymae rerum, et mentem mortalia tangunt.
VIRGIL.

E'en the mute walls relate the victim's fame.
And sinner's tears the good man's pity claim.
DRYDEN.

"We set sail; the wind continued favourable during the entire passage. I
obtained from the captain's kindness a separate cabin for the use of Manon
and myself. He was so good as to distinguish us from the herd of our
miserable associates. I took an opportunity, on the second day, of
conciliating his attentions, by telling him part of our unfortunate history. I
did not feel that I was guilty of any very culpable falsehood in saying that I
was the husband of Manon. He appeared to believe it, and promised me his
protection; and indeed we experienced, during the whole passage, the most
flattering evidences of his sincerity. He took care that our table was
comfortably provided; and his attentions procured us the marked respect of
our companions in misery. The unwearied object of my solicitude was to
save Manon from every inconvenience. She felt this, and her gratitude,
together with a lively sense of the singular position in which I had placed
myself solely for her sake, rendered the dear creature so tender and
impassioned, so attentive also to my most trifling wants, that it was between
us a continual emulation of attentions and of love. I felt no regret at quitting
Europe; on the contrary, the nearer we approached America, the more did I

feel my heart expand and become tranquil. If I had not felt a dread of our
perhaps wanting, by and by, the absolute necessaries of life, I should have
been grateful to fate for having at length given so favourable a turn to our
affairs.

"'After a passage of two months, we at length reached the banks of the
desired river. The country offered at first sight nothing agreeable. We saw
only sterile and uninhabited plains, covered with rushes, and some trees
rooted up by the wind. No trace either of men or animals. However, the
captain having discharged some pieces of artillery, we presently observed a
group of the inhabitants of New Orleans, who approached us with evident
signs of joy. We had not perceived the town: it is concealed upon the side
on which we approached it by a hill. We were received as persons dropped
from the clouds.

"The poor inhabitants hastened to put a thousand questions to us upon
the state of France, and of the different provinces in which they were born.
They embraced us as brothers, and as beloved companions, who had come
to share their pains and their solitude.

"We turned towards the town with them; but we were astonished to
perceive, as we advanced, that what we had hitherto heard spoken of as a
respectable town, was nothing more than a collection of miserable huts.
They were inhabited by five or six hundred persons. The governor's house
was a little distinguished from the rest by its height and its position. It was
surrounded by some earthen ramparts, and a deep ditch.

"We were first presented to him. He continued for some time in
conversation with the captain; and then advancing towards us, he looked
attentively at the women one after another: there were thirty of them, for
another troop of convicts had joined us at Havre. After having thus
inspected them, he sent for several young men of the colony who were
desirous to marry. He assigned the handsomest women to the principal of
these, and the remainder were disposed of by lot. He had not yet addressed
Manon; but having ordered the others to depart, he made us remain. 'I learn
from the captain,' said he, 'that you are married, and he is convinced by
your conduct on the passage that you are both persons of merit and of
education. I have nothing to do with the cause of your misfortunes; but if it

be true that you are as conversant with the world and society as your
appearance would indicate, I shall spare no pains to soften the severity of
your lot, and you may on your part contribute towards rendering this savage
and desert abode less disagreeable to me.' I replied in the manner which I
thought best calculated to confirm the opinion he had formed of us. He gave
orders to have a habitation prepared for us in the town, and detained us to
supper. I was really surprised to find so much politeness in a governor of
transported convicts. In the presence of others he abstained from enquiring
about our past adventures. The conversation was general; and in spite of our
degradation, Manon and I exerted ourselves to make it lively and agreeable.

"At night we were conducted to the lodging prepared for us. We found a
wretched hovel composed of planks and mud, containing three rooms on
the ground, and a loft overhead. He had sent there six chairs, and some few
necessaries of life.

"Manon appeared frightened by the first view of this melancholy
dwelling. It was on my account much more than upon her own, that she
distressed herself. When we were left to ourselves, she sat down and wept
bitterly. I attempted at first to console her; but when she enabled me to
understand that it was for my sake she deplored our privations, and that in
our common afflictions she only considered me as the sufferer, I put on an
air of resolution, and even of content, sufficient to encourage her.

"'What is there in my lot to lament?' said I; 'I possess all that I have ever
desired. You love me, Manon, do you not? What happiness beyond this
have I ever longed for? Let us leave to Providence the direction of our
destiny; it by no means appears to me so desperate. The governor is civil
and obliging; he has already given us marks of his consideration; he will not
allow us to want for necessaries. As to our rude hut and the squalidness of
our furniture, you might have noticed that there are few persons in the
colony better lodged or more comfortably furnished than we are: and then
you are an admirable chemist,' added I, embracing her; 'you transform
everything into gold.'

"'In that case,' she answered, 'you shall be the richest man in the
universe; for, as there never was love surpassing yours, so it is impossible
for man to be loved more tenderly than you are by me. I well know,' she

continued, 'that I have never merited the almost incredible fidelity and
attachment which you have shown for me. I have often caused you
annoyances, which nothing but excessive fondness could have induced you
to pardon. I have been thoughtless and volatile; and even while loving you
as I have always done to distraction, I was never free from a consciousness
of ingratitude. But you cannot believe how much my nature is altered; those
tears which you have so frequently seen me shed since quitting the French
shore, have not been caused by my own misfortunes. Since you began to
share them with me, I have been a stranger to selfishness: I only wept from
tenderness and compassion for you. I am inconsolable at the thought of
having given you one instant's pain during my past life. I never cease
upbraiding myself with my former inconstancy, and wondering at the
sacrifices which love has induced you to make for a miserable and
unworthy wretch, who could not, with the last drop of her blood,
compensate for half the torments she has caused you.'

"Her grief, the language, and the tone in which she expressed herself,
made such an impression, that I felt my heart ready to break in me. 'Take
care,' said I to her, 'take care, dear Manon; I have not strength to endure
such exciting marks of your affection; I am little accustomed to the
rapturous sensations which you now kindle in my heart. Oh Heaven!' cried
I, 'I have now nothing further to ask of you. I am sure of Manon's love. That
has been alone wanting to complete my happiness; I can now never cease to
be happy: my felicity is well secured.'

"'It is indeed,' she replied, 'if it depends upon me, and I well know where
I can be ever certain of finding my own happiness centred.'

"With these ideas, capable of turning my hut into a palace worthy of
earth's proudest monarch, I lay down to rest. America appeared to my view
the true land of milk and honey, the abode of contentment and delight.
'People should come to New Orleans,' I often said to Manon, 'who wish to
enjoy the real rapture of love! It is here that love is divested of all
selfishness, all jealousy, all inconstancy. Our countrymen come here in
search of gold; they little think that we have discovered treasures of
inestimably greater value.'

"We carefully cultivated the governor's friendship. He bestowed upon
me, a few weeks after our arrival, a small appointment which became
vacant in the fort. Although not one of any distinction, I gratefully accepted
it as a gift of Providence, as it enabled me to live independently of others'
aid. I took a servant for myself, and a woman for Manon. Our little
establishment became settled: nothing could surpass the regularity of my
conduct, or that of Manon; we lost no opportunity of serving or doing an act
of kindness to our neighbours. This friendly disposition, and the mildness of
our manners, secured us the confidence and affection of the whole colony.
We soon became so respected, that we ranked as the principal persons in the
town after the governor.

"The simplicity of our habits and occupations, and the perfect innocence
in which we lived, revived insensibly our early feelings of devotion. Manon
had never been an irreligious girl, and I was far from being one of those
reckless libertines who delight in adding impiety and sacrilege to moral
depravity: all the disorders of our lives might be fairly ascribed to the
natural influences of youth and love. Experience had now begun with us to
do the office of age; it produced the same effect upon us as years must have
done. Our conversation, which was generally of a serious turn, by degrees
engendered a longing for virtuous love. I first proposed this change to
Manon. I knew the principles of her heart; she was frank and natural in all
her sentiments, qualities which invariably predispose to virtue. I said to her
that there was but one thing wanting to complete our happiness: 'it is,' said
I, 'to invoke upon our union the benediction of Heaven. We have both of us
hearts too sensitive and minds too refined, to continue voluntarily in the
wilful violation of so sacred a duty. It signifies nothing our having lived
while in France in such a manner, because there it was as impossible for us
not to love, as to be united by a legitimate tie: but in America, where we are
under no restraint, where we owe no allegiance to the arbitrary distinctions
of birth and aristocratic prejudice, where besides we are already supposed
to be married, why should we not actually become so—why should we not
sanctify our love by the holy ordinances of religion? As for me,' I added, 'I
offer nothing new in offering you my hand and my heart; but I am ready to
ratify it at the foot of the altar.'

"This speech seemed to inspire her with joy. 'Would you believe it,' she
replied, 'I have thought of this a thousand times since our arrival in
America? The fear of annoying you has kept it shut up in my breast. I felt
that I had no pretensions to aspire to the character of your wife.'

"'Ah! Manon,' said I, 'you should very soon be a sovereign's consort, if I
had been born to the inheritance of a crown. Let us not hesitate; we have no
obstacle to impede us: I will this day speak to the governor on the subject,
and acknowledge that we have in this particular hitherto deceived him. Let
us leave,' added I, 'to vulgar lovers the dread of the indissoluble bonds of
marriage;[1] they would not fear them if they were assured, as we are, of
the continuance of those of love.' I left Manon enchanted by this resolution.

"I am persuaded that no honest man could disapprove of this intention in
my present situation; that is to say, fatally enslaved as I was by a passion
which I could not subdue, and visited by compunction and remorse which I
ought not to stifle. But will any man charge me with injustice or impiety if I
complain of the rigour of Heaven in defeating a design that I could only
have formed with the view of conciliating its favour and complying with its
decrees? Alas do I say defeated? nay punished as a new crime. I was
patiently permitted to go blindly along the high road of vice; and the
cruellest chastisements were reserved for the period when I was returning to
the paths of virtue. I now fear that I shall have hardly fortitude enough left
to recount the most disastrous circumstances that ever occurred to any man.

"I waited upon the governor, as I had settled with Manon, to procure his
consent to the ceremony of our marriage. I should have avoided speaking to
him or to any other person upon the subject, if I had imagined that his
chaplain, who was the only minister in the town, would have performed the
office for me without his knowledge; but not daring to hope that he would
do so privately, I determined to act ingenuously in the matter.

"The governor had a nephew named Synnelet, of whom he was
particularly fond. He was about thirty; brave, but of a headstrong and
violent disposition. He was not married. Manon's beauty had struck him on
the first day of our arrival; and the numberless opportunities he had of
seeing her during the last nine or ten months, had so inflamed his passion,
that he was absolutely pining for her in secret. However, as he was

convinced in common with his uncle and the whole colony that I was
married, he put such a restraint upon his feelings, that they remained
generally unnoticed; and he lost no opportunity of showing the most
disinterested friendship for me.

"He happened to be with his uncle when I arrived at the government
house. I had no reason for keeping my intention a secret from him, so that I
explained myself without hesitation in his presence. The governor heard me
with his usual kindness. I related to him a part of my history, to which he
listened with evident interest; and when I requested his presence at the
intended ceremony, he was so generous as to say, that he must be permitted
to defray the expenses of the succeeding entertainment. I retired perfectly
satisfied.

"In an hour after, the chaplain paid me a visit. I thought he was come to
prepare me by religious instruction for the sacred ceremony; but, after a
cold salutation, he announced to me in two words, that the governor desired
I would relinquish all thoughts of such a thing, for that he had other views
for Manon.

"'Other views for Manon!' said I, as I felt my heart sink within me; 'what
views then can they be, chaplain?'

"He replied, that I must be, of course, aware that the governor was
absolute master here; that Manon, having been transported from France to
the colony, was entirely at his disposal; that, hitherto he had not exercised
his right, believing that she was a married woman; but that now, having
learned from my own lips that it was not so, he had resolved to assign her to
M. Synnelet, who was passionately in love with her.

"My indignation overcame my prudence. Irritated as I was, I desired the
chaplain instantly to quit my house, swearing at the same time that neither
governor, Synnelet, nor the whole colony together, should lay hands upon
my wife, or mistress, if they chose so to call her.

"I immediately told Manon of the distressing message I had just
received. We conjectured that Synnelet had warped his uncle's mind after
my departure, and that it was all the effect of a premeditated design. They

were, questionless, the stronger party. We found ourselves in New Orleans,
as in the midst of the ocean, separated from the rest of the world by an
immense interval of space. In a country perfectly unknown, a desert, or
inhabited, if not by brutes, at least by savages quite as ferocious, to what
corner could we fly? I was respected in the town, but I could not hope to
excite the people in my favour to such a degree as to derive assistance from
them proportioned to the impending danger: money was requisite for that
purpose, and I was poor. Besides, the success of a popular commotion was
uncertain; and if we failed in the attempt, our doom would be inevitably
sealed.

"I revolved these thoughts in my mind; I mentioned them in part to
Manon; I found new ones, without waiting for her replies; I determined
upon one course, and then abandoned that to adopt another; I talked to
myself, and answered my own thoughts aloud; at length I sank into a kind
of hysterical stupor that I can compare to nothing, because nothing ever
equalled it. Manon observed my emotion, and from its violence, judged
how imminent was our danger; and, apprehensive more on my account than
on her own, the dear girl could not even venture to give expression to her
fears.

"After a multitude of reflections, I resolved to call upon the governor,
and appeal to his feelings of honour, to the recollection of my unvarying
respect for him, and the marks he had given of his own affection for us
both. Manon endeavoured to dissuade me from this attempt: she said, with
tears in her eyes, 'You are rushing into the jaws of death; they will murder
you—I shall never again see you—I am determined to die before you.' I had
great difficulty in persuading her that it was absolutely necessary that I
should go, and that she should remain at home. I promised that she should
see me again in a few moments. She did not foresee, nor did I, that it was
against herself the whole anger of Heaven, and the rabid fury of our
enemies, was about to be concentrated.

"I went to the fort: the governor was there with his chaplain. I
supplicated him in a tone of humble submission that I could have ill
brooked under other circumstances. I invoked his clemency by every

argument calculated to soften any heart less ferocious and cruel than a
tiger's.

"The barbarian made to all my prayers but two short answers, which he
repeated over and over again. 'Manon,' he said, 'was at his disposal: and he
had given a promise to his nephew.' I was resolved to command my feelings
to the last: I merely replied, that I had imagined he was too sincerely my
friend to desire my death, to which I would infinitely rather consent than to
the loss of my mistress.

"I felt persuaded, on quitting him, that it was folly to expect anything
from the obstinate tyrant, who would have damned himself a hundred times
over to please his nephew. However, I persevered in restraining my temper
to the end; deeply resolved, if they persisted in such flagrant injustice, to
make America the scene of one of the most horrible and bloody murders
that even love had ever led to.

"I was, on my return home, meditating upon this design, when fate, as if
impatient to expedite my ruin, threw Synnelet in my way. He read in my
countenance a portion of my thoughts. I before said, he was brave. He
approached me.

"'Are you not seeking me?' he enquired. 'I know that my intentions have
given you mortal offence, and that the death of one of us is indispensable:
let us see who is to be the happy man.'

"I replied, that such was unquestionably the fact, and that nothing but
death could end the difference between us.

"We retired about one hundred paces out of the town. We drew: I
wounded and disarmed him at the first onset. He was so enraged, that he
peremptorily refused either to ask his life or renounce his claims to Manon.
I might have been perhaps justified in ending both by a single blow; but
noble blood ever vindicates its origin. I threw him back his sword. 'Let us
renew the struggle,' said I to him, 'and remember that there shall be now no
quarter.' He attacked me with redoubled fury. I must confess that I was not
an accomplished swordsman, having had but three months' tuition in Paris.
Love, however, guided my weapon. Synnelet pierced me through and

through the left arm; but I caught him whilst thus engaged, and made so
vigorous a thrust that I stretched him senseless at my feet.

"In spite of the triumphant feeling that victory, after a mortal conflict,
inspires, I was immediately horrified by the certain consequences of his
death. There could not be the slightest hope of either pardon or respite from
the vengeance I had thus incurred. Aware, as I was, of the affection of the
governor for his nephew, I felt perfectly sure that my death would not be
delayed a single hour after his should become known. 'Urgent as this
apprehension was, it still was by no means the principal source of my
uneasiness. Manon, the welfare of Manon, the peril that impended over her,
and the certainty of my being now at length separated from her, afflicted me
to such a degree, that I was incapable of recognising the place in which I
stood. I regretted Synnelet's death: instant suicide seemed the only remedy
for my woes.

"However, it was this very thought that quickly restored me to my
reason, and enabled me to form a resolution. 'What,' said I to myself, 'die, in
order to end my pain! Then there is something I dread more than the loss of
all I love! No, let me suffer the cruellest extremities in order to aid her; and
when these prove of no avail, fly to death as a last resource!'

"I returned towards the town; on my arrival at home, I found Manon half
dead with fright and anxiety: my presence restored her. I could not conceal
from her the terrible accident that had happened. On my mentioning the
death of Synnelet and my own wound, she fell in a state of insensibility into
my arms. It was a quarter of an hour before I could bring her again to her
senses.

"I was myself in a most deplorable state of mind; I could not discern the
slightest prospect of safety for either of us. 'Manon,' said I to her, when she
had recovered a little, 'what shall we do? Alas, what hope remains to us? I
must necessarily fly. Will you remain in the town? Yes dearest Manon, do
remain; you may possibly still be happy here; while I, far away from you,
may seek death and find it amongst the savages, or the wild beasts.'

"She raised herself in spite of her weakness, and taking hold of my hand
to lead me towards the door: 'Let us,' said she, 'fly together, we have not a

moment to lose; Synnelet's body may be found by chance, and we shall then
have no time to escape.' 'But, dear Manon,' replied I, 'to what place can we
fly? Do you perceive any resource? Would it not be better that you should
endeavour to live on without me; and that I should go and voluntarily place
my life in the governor's hands?'

"This proposal had only the effect of making her more impatient for our
departure. I had presence of mind enough, on going out, to take with me
some strong liquors which I had in my chamber, and as much food as I
could carry in my pockets. We told our servants, who were in the adjoining
room, that we were going to take our evening walk, as was our invariable
habit; and we left the town behind us more rapidly than I had thought
possible from Manon's delicate state of health.

"Although I had not formed any resolve as to our future destination, I
still cherished a hope, without which I should have infinitely preferred
death to my suspense about Manon's safety. I had acquired a sufficient
knowledge of the country, during nearly ten months which I had now
passed in America, to know in what manner the natives should be
approached. Death was not the necessary consequence of falling into their
hands. I had learned a few words of their language, and some of their
customs, having had many opportunities of seeing them.

"Besides this sad resource, I derived some hopes from the fact, that the
English had, like ourselves, established colonies in this part of the New
World. But the distance was terrific. In order to reach them, we should have
to traverse deserts of many days' journey, and more than one range of
mountains so steep and vast as to seem almost impassable to the strongest
man. I nevertheless flattered myself that we might derive partial relief from
one or other of these sources: the savages might serve us as guides, and the
English receive us in their settlements.

"We journeyed on as long as Manon's strength would permit, that is to
say, about six miles; for this incomparable creature, with her usual absence
of selfishness, refused my repeated entreaties to stop. Overpowered at
length by fatigue, she acknowledged the utter impossibility of proceeding
farther. It was already night: we sat down in the midst of an extensive plain,
where we could not even find a tree to shelter us. Her first care was to dress

my wound, which she had bandaged before our departure. I, in vain,
entreated her to desist from exertion: it would have only added to her
distress if I had refused her the satisfaction of seeing me at ease and out of
danger, before her own wants were attended to. I allowed her therefore to
gratify herself, and in shame and silence submitted to her delicate
attentions.

"But when she had completed her tender task, with what ardour did I not
enter upon mine! I took off my clothes and stretched them under her, to
render more endurable the hard and rugged ground on which she lay. I
protected her delicate hands from the cold by my burning kisses and the
warmth of my sighs. I passed the livelong night in watching over her as she
slept, and praying Heaven to refresh her with soft and undisturbed repose.
'You can bear witness, just and all-seeing God! to the fervour and sincerity
of those prayers, and Thou alone knowest with what awful rigour they were
rejected.'

"You will excuse me, if I now cut short a story which it distresses me
beyond endurance to relate. It is, I believe, a calamity without parallel. I can
never cease to deplore it. But although it continues, of course, deeply and
indelibly impressed on my memory, yet my heart seems to shrink within me
each time that I attempt the recital.

"We had thus tranquilly passed the night. I had fondly imagined that my
beloved mistress was in a profound sleep, and I hardly dared to breathe lest
I should disturb her. As day broke, I observed that her hands were cold and
trembling; I pressed them to my bosom in the hope of restoring animation.
This movement roused her attention, and making an effort to grasp my
hand, she said, in a feeble voice, that she thought her last moments had
arrived.

"I, at first, took this for a passing weakness, or the ordinary language of
distress; and I answered with the usual consolations that love prompted. But
her incessant sighs, her silence, and inattention to my enquiries, the
convulsed grasp of her hands, in which she retained mine, soon convinced
me that the crowning end of all my miseries was approaching.

"Do not now expect me to attempt a description of my feelings, or to
repeat her dying expressions. I lost her—I received the purest assurances of
her love even at the very instant that her spirit fled. I have not nerve to say
more upon this fatal and disastrous event.

"My spirit was not destined to accompany Manon's. Doubtless, Heaven
did not as yet consider me sufficiently punished, and therefore ordained that
I should continue to drag on a languid and joyless existence. I willingly
renounced every hope of leading a happy one.

"I remained for twenty-four hours without taking my lips from the still
beauteous countenance and hands of my adored Manon. My intention was
to await my own death in that position; but at the beginning of the second
day, I reflected that, after I was gone, she must of necessity become the prey
of wild beasts. I then determined to bury her, and wait my own doom upon
her grave. I was already, indeed, so near my end from the combined effect
of long fasting and grief, that it was with the greatest difficulty I could
support myself standing. I was obliged to have recourse to the liquors which
I had brought with me, and these restored sufficient strength to enable me to
set about my last sad office. From the sandy nature of the soil there was
little trouble in opening the ground. I broke my sword and used it for the
purpose; but my bare hands were of greater service. I dug a deep grave, and
there deposited the idol of my heart, after having wrapt around her my
clothes to prevent the sand from touching her. I kissed her ten thousand
times with all the ardour of the most glowing love, before I laid her in this
melancholy bed. I sat for some time upon the bank intently gazing on her,
and could not command fortitude enough to close the grave over her. At
length, feeling that my strength was giving way, and apprehensive of its
being entirely exhausted before the completion of my task, I committed to
the earth all that it had ever contained most perfect and peerless. I then lay
myself with my face down upon the grave, and closing my eyes with the
determination never again to open them, I invoked the mercy of Heaven,
and ardently prayed for death.

"You will find it difficult to believe that, during the whole time of this
protracted and distressing ceremony, not a tear or a sigh escaped to relieve
my agony. The state of profound affliction in which I was, and the deep

settled resolution I had taken to die, had silenced the sighs of despair, and
effectually dried up the ordinary channels of grief. It was thus impossible
for me, in this posture upon the grave, to continue for any time in
possession of my faculties.

"After what you have listened to, the remainder of my own history
would ill repay the attention you seem inclined to bestow upon it. Synnelet
having been carried into the town and skilfully examined, it was found that,
so far from being dead, he was not even dangerously wounded. He
informed his uncle of the manner in which the affray had occurred between
us, and he generously did justice to my conduct on the occasion. I was sent
for; and as neither of us could be found, our flight was immediately
suspected. It was then too late to attempt to trace me, but the next day and
the following one were employed in the pursuit.

"I was found, without any appearance of life, upon the grave of Manon:
and the persons who discovered me in this situation, seeing that I was
almost naked and bleeding from my wounds, naturally supposed that I had
been robbed and assassinated. They carried me into the town. The motion
restored me to my senses. The sighs I heaved on opening my eyes and
finding myself still amongst the living, showed that I was not beyond the
reach of art: they were but too successful in its application.

"I was immediately confined as a close prisoner. My trial was ordered;
and as Manon was not forthcoming, I was accused of having murdered her
from rage and jealousy. I naturally related all that had occurred. Synnelet,
though bitterly grieved and disappointed by what he heard, had the
generosity to solicit my pardon: he obtained it.

"I was so reduced, that they were obliged to carry me from the prison to
my bed, and there I suffered for three long months under severe illness. My
aversion from life knew no diminution. I continually prayed for death, and
obstinately for some time refused every remedy. But Providence, after
having punished me with atoning rigour, saw fit to turn to my own use its
chastisements and the memory of my multiplied sorrows. It at length
deigned to shed upon me its redeeming light, and revived in my mind ideas
worthy of my birth and my early education.

"My tranquillity of mind being again restored, my cure speedily
followed. I began only to feel the highest aspirations of honour, and
diligently performed the duties of my appointment, whilst expecting the
arrival of the vessels from France, which were always due at this period of
the year. I resolved to return to my native country, there to expiate the
scandal of my former life by my future good conduct. Synnelet had the
remains of my dear mistress removed into a more hallowed spot.

"It was six weeks after my recovery that, one day walking alone upon
the banks of the river, I saw a vessel arrive, which some mercantile
speculation had directed to New Orleans. I stood by whilst the passengers
landed. Judge my surprise on recognising Tiberge amongst those who
proceeded towards the town. This ever-faithful friend knew me at a
distance, in spite of the ravages which care and sorrow had worked upon
my countenance. He told me that the sole object of his voyage had been to
see me once more, and to induce me to return with him to France; that on
receipt of the last letter which I had written to him from Havre, he started
for that place, and was himself the bearer of the succour which I solicited;
that he had been sensibly affected on learning my departure, and that he
would have instantly followed me, if there had been a vessel bound for the
same destination; that he had been for several months endeavouring to hear
of one in the various seaport towns, and that, having at length found one at
St. Malo which was weighing anchor for Martinique, he embarked, in the
expectation of easily passing from thence to New Orleans; that the St. Malo
vessel having been captured by Spanish pirates and taken to one of their
islands, he had contrived to escape; and that, in short, after many
adventures, he had got on board the vessel which had just arrived, and at
length happily attained his object.

"I was totally unable adequately to express my feelings of gratitude to
this generous and unshaken friend. I conducted him to my house, and
placed all I possessed at his service. I related to him every circumstance that
had occurred to me since I left France: and in order to gladden him with
tidings which I knew he did not expect, I assured him that the seeds of
virtue which he had in former days implanted in my heart, were now about
to produce fruit, of which even he should be proud. He declared to me, that

this gladdening announcement more than repaid him for all the fatigue and
trouble he had endured.

"We passed two months together at New Orleans whilst waiting the
departure of a vessel direct to France; and having at length sailed, we
landed only a fortnight since at Havre-de-Grace. On my arrival I wrote to
my family. By a letter from my elder brother, I there learned my father's
death, which, I dread to think, the disorders of my youth might have
hastened. The wind being favourable for Calais, I embarked for this port,
and am now going to the house of one of my relations who lives a few
miles off, where my brother said that he should anxiously await my arrival."

[1] Some say that Love, at sight of human ties,
Spreads his light wings, and in a moment flies.

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