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LOTUS BUDS

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The Great Rock. (Page 338.)

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LOTUS BUDS
BY

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AMY WILSON-CARMICHAEL
Keswick Missionary C.E.Z.M.S.

AUTHOR OF
"THINGS AS THEY ARE"; "OVERWEIGHTS OF JOY";
"THE BEGINNING OF A STORY," ETC.

WITH FIFTY HALF-TONE ILLUSTRATIONS
FROM PHOTOS SPECIALLY TAKEN FOR THIS WORK

MORGAN AND SCOTT LD.
12 PATERNOSTER BUILDINGS
LONDON MCMXII

Copyright, Morgan & Scott Ld., 1909

FIRST EDITION, Quarto (Fifty Photogravure Illustrations) 2,000 Nov., 1909
EDITION DE LUXE (Fifty Photogravures on Japon Vellum) 250 Nov., 1909
OCTAVO EDITION (Fifty Half-tone Engravings) 5,250 July, 1912

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TO THOSE WHO CARE

Dohnavur, Tinnevelly District,
South India

Christmas, 1909.

Each for himself, we live our lives apart,
Heirs of an age that turns us all to stone;
Yet ever Nature, thrust from out the heart,
Comes back to claim her own.

Still we have something left of that fair seed
God gave for birthright; still the sound of
tears
Hurts us, and children in their helpless need
Still call to listening ears.
Owen Seaman.
From "In a Good Cause."

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FOREWORD
TO THE

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PRESENT EDITION

W HEN first "Things as they are" trod the untrodden way, it walked as
a small child walks when for the first time it ventures forth upon
young, uncertain feet. It has to walk; it does not know why: it only knows
there is no choice about it. But there is an eager looking for an outstretched
hand, and an instant gratefulness always, for even a finger. A whole hand
given without reserve is something never forgotten.
It was only a child after all, and it had not anticipated having to find its
way alone among strangers. It had thought of nothing further than a very
short walk among familiar faces. If it had understood beforehand how far it
would have to walk, I doubt if it would have had the courage to start; for it
was not naturally brave. But once on its way it could not turn back; and
thanks to those kindly outstretched hands, it grew a little less afraid, and it
went on.
Then another small wayfarer followed. It also was very easily
discouraged; an unfriendly push would have knocked it over at once. But
nobody seemed to want to push so unpretentious a thing, so it gained
courage and went on.
And now a more grown-up looking traveller (though indeed its looks
belie it) has started on its way; more diffident, if the truth must be told, than
even its predecessors. For it thought within itself—Perhaps there will be no
welcoming hands held out this time; hands may grow tired of such kind
offices. But it has not been so. And now the sense of gratefulness cannot
longer be repressed.
All of which means that I want to thank sincerely those kings of the Book
World—Reviewers—and those dwellers in that world who are my Readers,
for their insight and the sympathy to which I owe so much.
Once I read of a soldier who wrote a letter home from the midst of a
battle, on a crumpled piece of paper laid upon a cannon ball. His home
people he knew would overlook the appearance of the paper and the lack of

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various things expected in a letter written in a quiet room upon a study
table. And he knew he could trust them not to bring too fine a criticism to
bear upon the unstudied words hot from the battle's heart.
I have thought sometimes that these books were not unlike that soldier's
letter; and those who read them seem to me very like his home people, for
they have been so generous in the kindness of their welcome.
Amy Wilson-Carmichael.
Dohnavur,
Tinnevelly District
S. India.

Feb. 19, 1912.

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THE WRITER TO THE READER

T HE photographs (except two) were taken by Mr. Penn, of
Ootacamund, whose work is known to all who care to possess good
photographs of the South Indian hills. The babies were a new experience to
him, and something of a trial, I fear, after the mountains, which can be
trusted to sit still.
The book has been written for lovers of children. Those who find such
young life tiresome will find the story dull, and the kindest thing it can ask
of them is not to read it at all.

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CONTENTS
CHAPTER PAGE
I. LOTUS BUDS 1
II. OPPOSITES 5
III. THE SCAMP 15
IV. THE PHOTOGRAPHS 23
V. TARA AND EVU 31
VI. PRINCIPALITIES, POWERS, RULERS 41
VII. HOW THE CHILDREN COME 51
VIII. OTHERS 61
IX. OLD DÉVAI 67
X. FAILURES? 75
XI. GOD HEARD: GOD ANSWERED 85
XII. TO WHAT PURPOSE? 95
XIII. A STORY OF COMFORT 103
XIV. PICKLES AND PUCK 113
XV. THE HOWLER 121
XVI. THE NEYOOR NURSERY 129
XVII. IN THE COMPOUND AND NEAR IT 141
XVIII. FROM THE TEMPLE OF THE ROCK 153
XIX. YOSÉPU 159
XX. THE MENAGERIE 169
XXI. MORE ANIMALS 183
XXII. THE PARROT HOUSE 191
XXIII. THE BEAR GARDEN 201
XXIV. THE ACCALS 215
XXV. THE LITTLE ACCALS 227
XXVI. THE GLORY OF THE USUAL 235
XXVII. THE SECRET TRAFFIC 245
XXVIII. BLUE BOOK EVIDENCE 253
XXIX. "VERY COMMON IN THOSE PARTS" 261

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ON THE SIDE OF THE OPPRESSORS THERE WAS
XXX. 269
POWER
XXXI. AND THERE WAS NONE TO SAVE 279
XXXII. THE POWER BEHIND THE WORK 291
XXXIII. IF THIS WERE ALL 301
XXXIV. "TO CONTINUE THE SUCCESSION" 309
XXXV. WHAT IF SHE MISSES HER CHANCE? 321
XXXVI. "THY SWEET ORIGINAL JOY" 331

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ILLUSTRATIONS
PAGE
THE GREAT ROCK Frontispiece
LOTUS FLOWERS 3
"GOD'S FIRE" 8
"AIYO! DID YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE DONE IT?" 12
CHELLALU WATCHING THE PICTURE-CATCHER 18
"OH, IT'S A JOKE!" 20
"THAT THING AGAIN!" 25
PYÂRIE AND VINEETHA 26
"DISGUSTING!" 28
"LOOK AT THE POSE!" 30
TARA 33
STURDY AND STOLID, AND LITTLE VEERA 63
PEBBLES 66
LATHA (FIREFLY) BLOWING BUBBLES 72
SEELA, MALA, AND NULLINIE 105
THE COTTAGE NURSERY 108
"PICKLES" AND HER FRIENDS 115
THE DOHNAVUR COUNTRY IN FLOOD 124
PAKIUM AND NAVEENA 126
ON THE ROAD TO NEYOOR 131
ON THE OUTSKIRTS OF NAGERCOIL 132
THE NEYOOR NURSERY 136
THE OLD NURSERY (THE "ROOM OF JOY") 143
THE COURTYARD 144
A COMING-DAY FEAST 146
THE RED LAKE 148
AT THE DOOR OF THE TEMPLE 150
THE WATER CARRIERS 161
THE BELOVED TINGALU 164

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TWO VIEWS OF LIFE 171
MORE ANIMALS: DEPRESSED 185
TUBBING 188
RED LAKE, AND HILL AS SEEN FROM THE TARAHA
193
NURSERY
CHILDREN WADING 196
CHILDREN WADING 197
ESLI, AND LITTLE KOHILA 198
PREETHA AWARE OF A FOE 200
JULLANIE AMONG THE GRASSES 203
ARULAI AND RUKMA, WITH NAVEENA 210
PONNAMAL, PREETHA, AND TARA 215
SELLAMUTTU AND SUSEELA 216
SUHINIE, AND HER BABY, SUNUNDA 218
THREE CONVERT WORKERS: SUNDOSHIE, SUHINIE,
220
AND JEYANIE
SEWING-CLASS IN THE COURTYARD 222
THREE LITTLE ACCALS 229
PREENA AND PREEYA 230
AFTER HER BOTTLE 237
NORTH LAKE AND HILLS 238
FROM THE ROCK, DOHNAVUR 338
THE PLACE OF BAPTISM 340

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CHAPTER I
Lotus Buds

LOTUS FLOWERS.
From that same pool, afterwards gathered by permission and given to us.

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LOTUS BUDS

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CHAPTER I
Lotus Buds

N EAR an ancient temple in Southern India is a large calm, beautiful
pool, enclosed by stone walls, broken here and there by wide spaces
fitted with steps leading down to the water's edge; and almost within reach
of the hand of one standing on the lowest step are pink Lotus lilies floating
serenely on the quiet water or standing up from it in a certain proud
loveliness all their own.
We were travelling to the neighbouring town when we came upon this
pool. We could not pass it with only a glance, so we stopped our bullock-
carts and unpacked ourselves—we were four or five to a cart—and we
climbed down the broken, time-worn steps and gazed and gazed till the
beauty entered into us.
Who can describe that harmony of colour, a Lotus-pool in blossom in
clear shining after rain! The grey old walls, the brown water, the dark green
of the Lotus leaves, the delicate pink of the flowers; overhead, infinite
crystalline blue; and beyond the old walls, palms.
With us was a young Indian friend. "I will gather some of the lilies for
you," he said, with the quick Indian desire to give pleasure; but some one
interposed: "They must not be gathered by us. The pool belongs to the
Temple."
It was as if a stone had been flung straight at a mirror. There was a sense
of crash and the shattering of some bright image. The Lotus-pool was a
Temple pool; its flowers are Temple flowers. The little buds that float and
open on the water, lifting young innocent faces up to the light as it smiles
down upon them and fills them through with almost a tremor of joyousness,
these Lotus buds are sacred things—sacred to whom?
For a single moment that thought had its way, but only for a moment. It
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against this—"All souls are Mine."
All souls are His, all flowers. An alien power has possessed them,
counted them his for so many generations, that we have almost acquiesced
in the shameful confiscation. But neither souls nor flowers are his who did
not make them. They were never truly his. They belong to the Lord of all
the earth, the Creator, the Redeemer. The little Lotus buds are His—His and
not another's. The children of the temples of South India are His—His and
not another's.
So now we go forth with the Owner Himself to claim His own
possession. There is hope in the thought, and confidence and the purest
inspiration. And, stirred to the very depths, as we are and must be many a
time when we see the tender Lotus buds gathered by a hand that has no
right to them, and crushed underfoot; bewildered and sore troubled, as the
heart cannot help being sometimes, when the mystery of the apparent
victory of evil over good is overwhelming: even so there will be always a
hush, a rest, a repose of spirit, as we stand by the Lotus-pools of life and
seek in His Name to gather His flowers.

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CHAPTER II
Opposites

B ALA is nearly four. There are so many much younger things in the
nursery, that Bala feels almost grown up: four will be quite grown up;
it will be nice to be four. Bala takes life seriously, she has always done so;
she thinks it would be monotonous to have too many frivolous babies. But
Bala's eyes can sparkle as no other eyes ever do; and her mirth is something
by itself, like a little hidden fountain in the heart of a wood, with the
sweetness of surprise in it and very pure delight.
When Bala came to us first she was between one and two, an age when
most babies have a good deal to say. Bala said nothing. She was like a book
with all its leaves uncut; and some who saw her, forgetting that uncut books
are sometimes interesting, concluded she was dull. "Quite a prosaic child,"
they said; but Bala did not care. There are some babies, like some grown-up
people, who show all they have to show upon first acquaintance and to all.
Others cover the depths within, and open only to their own. Bala is one of
these; and even with her own she has seasons of reserve.
Her first remark, however, shown rather than said, was not romantic. She
was too old for a bottle, and she seemed to feel sore over this. But she noted
the time the infants were fed, and followed the nurses about while they
were preparing the meal; and when they sat down to give it, each to her
respective baby, Bala would choose the one of most uncertain appetite, and
sit down beside it and wait. There was an expression on her face at such
times which suggested a hymn, set it humming in one's head in fact, in spite
of all efforts to escape it. More than once we have caught ourselves singing
it, and pulled up sharply: "Even me! Even me! Let some droppings fall on
me."

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"God's Fire."
Taken on the bank of the Red Lake, near Dohnavur.

Most of our family remind us very early that they trace their descent to
the mother of us all. Bala, on the contrary, was good: so we almost forgot
she was human, and began to expect too much of her; but she got tired of
this after a while, and one day suddenly sinned. The surprise acted like
"hypo," and fixed the photograph.
The place was the old nursery, which has one uncomfortably dark corner
in it. Something had offended Bala; she marched straight into that corner
and stamped. We can see her—poor little girl—as she rumpled her curls
with both her hands, and flashed on the world a withering glance. "Scorn to
be scorned by those I scorn" was written large all over the indignant little
face.
After this shock we were prepared for anything, but nothing special
happened; only when the demands made upon her are unreasonable, then
Bala retires into herself and turns upon all foolish insistence a face that is a
blank. If this point is passed, the dark eyes can flash. But such revealings
are rare.

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When Bala was something under three, she was very tender-hearted.
One evening, after the first rains had flooded the pools and revived the
mosquitoes, the nursery wall was the scene of many executions; and Bala
could not bear it. "Sittie, don't kill the poor pûchies!" she said pitifully; and
Sittie, much touched, stopped to comfort and explain. The other babies were
delighting in the slaughter, pointing out with glee each detested "pûchie";
but Bala is not like the other babies. Later, the ferocious instinct common to
most young animals asserted itself in a relish for the horrible, which rather
contradicted the mosquito incident. Bala visibly gloats over the gory head
of Goliath, and intensely admires David as he operates upon it. Her
favourite part of the story about his encounter with the lion is the suggestive
sentence, "I caught him by the beard"; and Bala loves to show you exactly
how he did it. But then that is different from seeing it done; and after all it is
only a story, and it happened long ago.
I have told how the ignorant once called Bala prosaic.
Bala knows nothing of poetry, but is full of the little seeds of God's Fire
that strange and wonderful plant; and the time to get to
know her is when the evening sky is a golden blaze, or glows with that
mystic glory which wakens something within us and makes it stir and
speak.
"God has not lighted His fire to-night," she said wistfully one evening
when the West was colourless; but when that fire is lighted she stands and
gazes satisfied. "What does God do when His fire goes out?" was a question
on one such evening, as the mountains darkened in the passing of the after-
glow; and then: "Why does He not light it every night?"
"Amma! I have looked into Heaven!" she said suddenly to me after a
long silence. "I have seen quite in, and I know what it is like." "What is it
like? Can you tell me?" and the child's voice answered dreamily: "It was
shining, very shining." Then with animation, in broken but vivid Tamil:
"Oh, it was beautiful! all a garden like our garden, only bigger, and there
were flowers and flowers and flowers!"—here words failed to describe the
number, and a comprehensive sweep of the hand served instead. "And our
dolls can walk there. They never can down here, poor things! And Jesus
plays with our babies there" (the dear little sisters who have gone to the

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nursery out of sight, but are unforgotten by the children). "He plays with
Indraneela—lovely games."
"What games, Bala?" I asked, wondering greatly what she would say.
There was a long, thoughtful pause, and Bala looked at me with grave,
contented eyes:—
"New games," she said simply.
Bala's opposite is Chellalu. We never made any mistake about her. We
never thought her good. Not that she is impossibly bad. She was created for
play and for laughter, and very happy babies are not often very wicked; but
she is so irrepressible, so hopelessly given up to fun, that her kindergarten
teacher, Rukma, smiles a rueful smile at the mention of her name. For to
Chellalu the most unreasonable thing you can ask is implicit obedience,
which unfortunately is preferred by us to any amount of fun. She will learn
to obey, we are not afraid about that; but more than any of our children, her
attitude towards this demand has been one of protest and surprise. She
thinks it unfair of grown-up people to take advantage of their size in the
arbitrary way they do. And when, disgusted with life's dispensations, she
condescends to expostulate, her "Ba-a-a-a" is a thing to affright. But this is
the wrong side of Chellalu, and not for ever in evidence. The right side is
not so depressing.
It is a brilliant morning in late November. The world, all washed and
cooled by the rains, has not had time to get hot and tired, and the air has that
crystal quality which is the charm of this season in South India. Every
wrinkle on the brown trunks of the trees in the compound, every twig and
leaf, stands out with a special distinctness of its own, and the mountains in
the distance glisten as if made of precious stones.
Suddenly, all unconscious of affinity or contrast, a little
person in scarlet comes dancing into the picture, which The Blameless
Chellalu
opens to receive her, for she belongs to it. Her hands are full
of Gloriosa lilies, fiery red, terra-cotta, yellow, delicate old-rose and green
—such a mingling of colour, but nothing discordant—and the child, waving
her spoils above her head, sings at the top of her voice something intended
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Oh, the delight of the glorious light!
The joy of the shining blue!
Beautiful flowers! wonderful flowers!
Oh, I should like to be you!
"But, Chellalu, where did you get them?" for the lilies in the garden are
supposed to be safe from attack. Chellalu looks up with frank, brown eyes.
"For you!" she says briefly in Tamil; but there is a wealth of forgiveness in
the tone as she offers her armful of flowers. Chellalu wonders at grown-up
hearts which can harbour unworthy suspicions about blameless little
children. As if she would have picked them!
"But, Chellalu, where did you get them?" and still looking grieved and
surprised and forgiving, Chellalu explains that yesterday evening the elder
sisters went for a walk in the fields, and brought home so many lilies, that
after all just claims were met there were still some over—an expressive
gesture shows the heap—so Chellalu thought of her Ammal (mother) and
went and picked out the best for her. Then by way of emphasis the story is
attempted in English: "Very good? Yesh. Naughty? No. Kindergarten room
want flowers? No. I" (patting herself approvingly) "very good; yesh." With
Chellalu, speech is a mere adjunct to conversation, a sort of footnote to a
page of illustration. The illustration is the thing that speaks. So now both
Tamil and English are illuminated by vivid gesture of hands, feet, the whole
body indeed; curls and even eyelashes play their part, and the final
impression produced upon her questioner is one of complete contrition for
ever having so misjudged a thing so virtuous.
But Chellalu wastes no sympathy upon herself. She is accustomed to be
believed; and perfectly happy in her mind, casts a keen glance round, for
who knows what new delights may be somewhere within reach! "Ah!"—the
deep-breathed sigh of content—is always a danger signal where this
innocent child is concerned. I turn in time to avert disaster, and Chellalu,
finding life dull with me, departs.
Then the little scarlet figure with its crown of careless curls scampers
across the sunny space, and dives into the shadow of a tree. There it stays.
Something arresting has happened—some skurry of squirrel up the trunk, or
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those terrible eyes. Or better
still, something is "playing
dead," and the child,
fascinated, is waiting for it to
resurrect. And then the song
about the lilies begins again,
only it is all a jumble this
time; for Chellalu sings just
as it comes, untrammelled by
thoughts about sequence or
sense, and when she forgets
the words she calmly makes
them up. And I cannot help
thinking that Chellalu is very
like her song; here is an
intelligible bit, a line or two
in order, then a cheerful
tumble up, and an
irresponsible conclusion. The
tune too seems in character
—"Speed, bonnie boat, like a
bird on the wing"; the
swinging old Jacobite air had
"AIYO!" fitted itself to a nursery song
(Fingers and toes curled in grieved surprise.) about the brave fire-lilies, and
"Did you think I would have done it?" something in its abandon to
the happy mood of the
moment seems to express the child.
It is not easy to express her. "If you had to describe Chellalu, how would
you do it?" I asked my colleague this morning, hoping for illumination. "I
would not attempt it! Who would?" she answered helpfully.
"Chellalu! Oh, you need ten pairs of eyes and ten pairs of
hands, and even then you could never be sure you had Only More So
her"—this was her nurse's earliest description. She was six
months old then, she is three and three-quarters now; but she is what she
was, "only more so."

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Before Chellalu had a single tooth she had developed mother-ways, and
would comfort distressed babies by thrusting into their open mouths
whatever was most convenient. At first this was her own small thumb,
which she had once found good herself; but she soon discovered that infants
can bite, and after that she offered rattle-handles. Later, she used to stagger
from one hammock to another and swing them. And often, before she
understood the perfect art of balance, she would find herself, to her surprise,
on the floor, as the hammock in its rebound knocked her over. She felt this
ungrateful of the baby inside; but she seemed to reflect that it was young
and knew no better, for she never retaliated, but picked herself up and began
again. These hammocks, which are our South Indian cradles, are long strips
of white cotton hung from the roof, and they make delightful swings.
Chellalu learned this early, and her nurse's life was a burden to her because
of the discovery.
"She could walk before she could stand"—this is another nursery
description, and truer than it sounds. Certainly no one ever saw Chellalu
learning to walk. She was a baby one day, rapid in unexpected motion, but
only on all fours; the next day—or so it seems, looking back—she was
everywhere on her two feet. "Now there will be no place where she won't
be!" groaned the family, the first time she was seen walking about with an
air of having done it all her life. And appalling visions rose of Chellalu
standing on the wall of the well looking down, or sitting in the bucket left
by some careless water-drawer just on the edge of the wall, or trying to
descend by the rope.
Before this date such diversions as the classic Pattycake had been much
in favour. Chellalu's Attai (the word here and hereafter signifies Mrs.
Walker, "Mother's elder sister") had taught it to her; and whenever and
wherever Chellalu saw her Attai, she immediately began to perform "Prick
it and nick it" with great enthusiasm. But after she could walk, Chellalu
would have nothing more to do with such childish things. "Show us Edward
Rajah!" the older children would say; and instead of standing up with a
regal dignity and crowning her curls with the appropriate gesture, Chellalu
would merely look surprised. They had forgotten. She was not a baby now.
Such trifles are for babies.

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CHAPTER III
The Scamp

"P AT-A-CAKE is a thing of the past, but the stage from the highest
point of view is still distinctly attractive"; so decided Chellalu, and
resolved to devote herself thenceforth to this new and engrossing pursuit.
She chose the scene of her first public performance without consulting us. It
was the open floor of the church, on a Sunday morning, in the midst of a
large congregation. This was how it happened.
Chellalu's Attai, who in those days was unaware of all the painful
surprises in store, had taken her to morning service, and allowed her to sit
beside her on the mat at the back of the church. All through the first part of
the service Chellalu was good; and as the sermon began, she was forgotten.
In our church we sit on the floor, men on one side, women and children on
the other. A broad aisle is left between, and the Iyer (Mr. Walker), refusing
to be boxed up in the usual manner, walks up and down as he preaches. This
interested Chellalu.
That morning the sermon was to children, and the subject was "Girdles."
The East of this ancient India is the East to which the prophet spoke by
parable and picture; and, following that time-worn path, the preacher
pictured the parable of Jeremiah's linen girdle: the attention of the people
was riveted upon him, and no one noticed what was happening on the mat
at the end of the church. Only we, up at the front with all the other children,
saw, without being able to stop it, the dreadful pantomime. For Chellalu,
wholly absorbed and pleased with this unexpected delight, first stood on the
mat and acted the girdle picture; then, growing bolder, advanced out into
the open aisle, and, following the preacher's gestures, reproduced them all
exactly. It was a moment of tension; but if ever a child had a good angel in
attendance, Chellalu has, for something always stops her before the bitter
end. I forget what stopped her then; something invisible, and so, doubtless,
the angel. But we did not breathe freely till we had her safe at home.

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Chellalu's visible angel is
the gentle Esli, a young
convert-helper, of a meek and
lowly disposition. At first
sight nothing seems more
unsuitable, for Chellalu needs
a firm hand. But firmness
without wisdom would have
been disastrous; so as we had
not the perfect combination,
we chose the less dangerous
virtue, and gave the nursery
scamp to the gentlest of us
all. Sometimes, to tell the
whole unromantic truth, we
have been afraid less Esli was
spilling emotion in vain upon
this graceless soul; and we
have suggested an exchange
of angels—but somehow it
has never come to pass. Once
we almost did it. For a noise
past all bounds called us
down to the nursery, and we CHELLALU, WATCHING THE PICTURE-
found the cause of it in a CATCHER WITH SOME SUSPICION.
huddled heap in the corner. "Whatever is he doing with that black box?"
"Chellalu! what is the
matter?" Only the softest of soft sobs, heard in the silence that followed our
advent, and one round shoulder heaved, and the curly head went down on
the arm in an attitude of woe. Now this is not Chellalu's way at all. Soft
sobbing is not in her line; and I turned to the twenty-nine children now
prancing about in unholy glee, and they shouted the explanation: "Oh, she is
Esli Accal! She was very exceedingly naughty. She would not come when
Accal called; she raced round the room so fast that Accal could not catch
her, and then she jumped out of her cumasu" (the single small garment
worn), "and ran out into the garden! And Esli Accal sat down in a corner
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But the pet opportunity in those glad days was when
some freak of manner in friend or visitor suggested a new Their Real Use
game. We used to wish, sometimes, that these kind people
understood how much pleasure they were giving to the artless babe who
was studying them with such interest, while they, all unconscious of their
real use, imagined probably she was thinking of nothing more serious than
sweets. After an hour in the bungalow, Chellalu would wander off,
apparently because she was tired of us, but really because she was full of a
new and original idea, and wanted an audience. Once she puzzled the
nursery community who had not been visiting the bungalow, by mincing
about on pointed toes, with shoulders shrugged like a dancing master in
caricature. The babies thought this a very nice game, and for weeks they
played it industriously.
Chellalu talked late—she has long ago made up for lost time—but she
was never at a loss for an answer to a question which could be answered by
action. "Who is in the nursery now?" we asked her one afternoon when she
had escaped before the tea-bell, that trumpet of jubilee to the nursery, had
rung. She smiled and sat down slowly, and then sighed. Another sigh, and
she proceeded to perform her toilet. When the small hands went up to the
head with an action of decorously swinging the back hair up and coiling it
into a loose knot, and when a spasmodic shake suggested it must be done
over again, there was no doubt as to who was in charge. No one but the
excellent Pakium, one of our earlier workers, ever did things quite like this.
No one else was so ponderous. No one sighed in that middle-aged manner,
no one but Pakium. We never could blame Pakium for Chellalu's escape. As
well blame a mature cat for the escapades of her kitten. Chellalu, watching
for a clue as to her fate, would sigh again profoundly. It was never easy to
return her.
We were not sorry when this phase passed into something safer for
herself, though perhaps not so charming to the public. Chellalu at two and
three-quarters had surgical ambitions. Medical work she considered slow.
She liked operations. Her first, so far as we know, was performed upon the
unwilling eye of a smaller and weaker sister. "Lie down!" she had
commanded, and the patient had lain down. "Open your eyes!" At this point
the victim realised what she was in for, and her howls brought deliverance;
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her knees, and holding the
screwed-up eye wide open
with one hand, was
proceeding to drop in
"medicine" with the other.
Mercifully the medicine was
water.
Thwarted in this
direction, Chellalu applied
herself to bandaging. She
would persuade someone to
lend her a finger or a toe; the
owner was assured it was
sore—very sore. She would
then proceed to bandage it to
the best of her ability. But all
this was mere play. What
Chellalu's soul yearned for
was a real knife, or even only
a needle, provided it would
prick and cause red blood to
flow. Oh to be allowed to
"OH, IT'S A JOKE!" operate properly, as grown-
up people do! Chellalu had
seen them do it—had seen
thorns extracted from little bare feet, and small sores dressed; and it had
deeply interested her. The difficulty was, no one would offer a limb. She
walked up and down the nursery one morning with a bit of an old milk tin,
very jagged and sharp and inviting, and secreted in her curls was a long,
bright darning needle; but though she took so much trouble to prepare, no
one would give her a chance to perform, and Chellalu was disgusted.
Someone who did not know her suggested she should perform on herself.
This disgusted her still more. Do doctors perform on themselves!
Chellalu's latest phase introduces the kindergarten. For an
educational comrade, perceiving our defects in this Yesh: No
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push-off into these pleasant waters; so the little boat sails gaily, and the
children at least are content.
Chellalu has never been so keen about this institution as the other babies
are. "Do you like the kindergarten?" some one asked her the other day; and
she answered with her usual decision: "Yesh. No." We thought she was
talking at random, and tested her by questions about things which we knew
she liked or disliked. But she was never caught. "Well, then, don't you like
the kindergarten?" "Yesh. No." It was evident she knew what she meant,
and said it exactly. Bits of it she likes, other bits she thinks might be
improved. The trouble is that she has an objection to sitting in the same
place for more than a minute at longest. Other babies, steady, mature things
of five, are already evolving quite orderly sentences in English—the
language in which the kindergarten is partly taught—and we feel they are
getting on. Chellalu never stops long enough to evolve anything, and yet
she seems to be doing a little. From the first week she has talked all she
knew in unabashed fashion. "Good morning very much" was an early
production; and it was followed by many oddments forgotten now, but
comical in effect at the time, which perhaps may explain the otherwise
inexplicable fact that she sometimes learns something.
One only of those early dashes into the unexplored land is remembered,
because it enriched us with a new synonym. It was at afternoon tea that a
sympathetic Sittie (the word means "Mother's younger sister"), knowing
that Chellalu had received something thoroughly well earned, asked her in
English: "What did Ammal give you this morning?" Chellalu caught at the
one familiar word in this sentence (for the babies learn the names of the
flowers in the garden before they are troubled with lesser matters), and she
answered brightly: "Morning-glory!" So Morning-glory has become to us
an alias for smacks.
This same Morning-glory is the subject of one of the kindergarten songs.
For after searching through two or three hundred pages of nursery rhymes,
and interviewing many proper kindergarten songs, we found few that
belonged to the Indian babies' world; and so we had to make them for
ourselves. These songs are about the flowers and the birds and other simple
things, and are twittered by the tiniest with at least some intelligence, which
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it is Chellalu who gives them surprises. One day we saw her standing under
a bamboo arch, covered with her favourite Morning-glory. She had two
smaller babies with her, one on either side. "Amma! Look!" she called; but
italics are inadequate to express the emphasis. "Look, Morning—glory—
kissing—'chother," and she pointed with eagerness to the nestling little
clusters of lilac, growing, as their pretty manner is, close to each other.
Then, seizing each of the babies in a fervent and somewhat embarrassing
embrace, she hugged and kissed them both; and finally wheeling round on
the flowers, addressed them impressively: "For—all—loving—little—
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CHAPTER IV
The Photographs

I DO not know how they
will strike the critical
public, but the photos are so
much better than we dared to
expect, that we are grateful
and almost satisfied. Of
course, they are insipid as
compared with the lively
originals; but the difficulty
was to get them of any
truthful sort whatsoever, for
the babies regarded the
photographer—the kindest
and mildest of men—with the
gravest suspicion: and the
moment he appeared, little
faces, all animation before,
would stiffen into shyness,
and the light would slip out
of them, and the naturalness,
so that all the camera saw,
and therefore all it could
show, was a succession of
blanks. "THAT THING AGAIN!" (Page 28.)

Then, too, when our artist
friend was with us we were in
the grasp of an epidemic of cholera. Morning and evening, and sometimes
into the night, we were tending the sick and dying in the village; and in the
interval between we had little heart for photographs. But the visit of a real
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take advantage of it. Remembering our difficulties, we wonder we got
anything at all; and we hope that stranger eyes will be kind.
Often when we looked at
the pretty little reversed
picture in the camera, with its
delicate colouring and the
grace of movement, we have
wished that we could send it
as we saw it, all living and
true. The photos were taken
in the open air; underfoot
was soft terra-cotta-coloured
sand; overhead, the cloudless
blue. In such a setting the
baby pictures look their
brightest, something very
different from these dull
copies in sepia. An Oriental
scene in print always looks
sorry for itself, and quite
apologetic. It knows it is
almost a farce, and very flat
and poor.
Then there were
PYÂRIE AND VINEETHA. difficulties connected with
"Do smile, you little Turk!" character. Our photographer
was more accustomed to the
dignified ways of mountains
than to the extremely restless habit of children; and he never could
understand why they would not sit for him as the mountains sat, and let him
focus them comfortably. The babies looked at things from an opposite point
of view, and strongly objected to delays and leisureliness of every
description. Sometimes when the focussing process promised to be much
prolonged, we put a child we did not wish to photograph in the place of one
upon whom we had designs, and then at the last moment exchanged her.
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such ensnarements, would promptly wriggle out of focus. It was like trying
to observe some active animalculæ under a high power. The microscope is
perfect, the creatures are entrapped in a drop of water on the slide; but the
game is not won by any means. Sometimes, after spoiling more plates than
was convenient, our artist almost gave up in despair; but he never quite
gave up, and we owe what we have to his infinite patience.
Pyârie was the most troublesome of these small sitters,
though she was old enough to know better. My mother was The Bête Noir
with us when she came to us, a tiny babe and very delicate.
She had loved her and helped to nurse her, and so we wanted a happy
photograph for her sake; but nothing was further from Pyârie's intentions,
and instead of smiling, she scowled. Our first attempt was in the compound,
where a bullock-bandy stood. Pyârie and Vineetha, a little girl of about the
same age, were very pleased to climb over the pole and untwist the rope and
play see-saw; but when the objectionable camera appeared, they stared at it
with aversion, and no amount of coaxing would persuade Pyârie to smile.
"Can't you do something to improve her expression?" inquired the
photographer, emerging from his black hood; then someone said in
desperation: "Do smile, you little Turk!" Vineetha, about whose expression
we were not concerned, obediently smiled; but Pyârie looked
thunderclouds, and turned her head away. She was caught before she
turned, poor dear, so that photograph was a failure.
Once again our kind friend tried. This time he gave her a doll. Pyârie is
most motherly. She is usually tender and loving with dolls, and we hoped
for a sweet expression. But in this we were disappointed. She accepted the
doll—a beautiful thing, with a good constitution and imperturbable temper;
and she looked it straight in the face—a rag face painted—smiling as we
wanted her to smile. Then she smote it, and she scolded it, and called for a
stick and whacked it, and called for a bigger stick and repeated the
performance. Finally she stopped, laid the doll upon the step, sat down on
it, and smiled. But she was hopelessly out of focus by this time, and it was
weary work getting her in. She smiled during the process in a perfectly
exasperating manner, but the moment all was ready she suddenly wriggled
out; and when invited to go in again, she shook her head decidedly, and
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with its cloth, she remarked, "Naughty! Naughty!" and we had to give her
up.

"DISGUSTING!" SHE REMARKED IN EXPLICIT YOUNG TAMIL, AND
LOOKED DISGUSTED.

"Perhaps she would be happier in someone's arms," next suggested the
long-suffering artist; and so one morning, just after her bath, she was caught
up, sweet and smiling, and played with till the peals of merry laughter
assured us of an easy victory. But the camera was no sooner seen stalking
round to the nursery, than suspicions filled Pyârie's breast. That thing again!
And the photograph taken under such circumstances is left to speak for
itself. Why did it follow her everywhere? Life, haunted by a camera, was
not worth living—in which sentiment some of us heartily concur.
Once an attempt was made when Pyârie and two other
little girls were busily playing on the doorstep. Pyârie soon I want a
birthday
perceived and expressed her opinion about the fraud—for
the camera's stealthy approach could not be kept from the children.
"Disgusting!" she remarked in explicit young Tamil, and looked disgusted.
The photograph which resulted was perfect in detail of little rounded limb
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our persevering friend tried to catch her unawares. He showed us the result
at breakfast in the shape of a negative which we recognised as Pyârie. He
seemed very pleased. "Look at the pose!" he said. There was pose certainly,
but where was the smile? Pyârie's one idea had evidently been to ward off
something or someone; and our artist explained it by saying that in despair
of getting her quiet for one second, he had directed his servant to climb an
almost overhanging tree, and the child apparently thought he was going to
tumble on the top of her, and objected. "I got another of her smiling
beautifully, but the plate is cracked," we were told, after the table had
admired the pose. That is a way plates have. The one you most want cracks.
Poor little Pyârie; we
sometimes fear lest her
"pose" should be too true of
her. She takes life hardly, and
often protests. "I want a
birthday!"—this was only
yesterday, when everyone
was rejoicing over a birthday
jubilation. Pyârie alone was
sorrowful. She stood by her
poor little lonely self, with
her head thrown back and her
mouth wide open, and her
tears ran into her open mouth
as she wailed: "Aiyo! Aiyo!
(Alas! Alas!) I want a
birthday!"
But she is such a loving
child, so loyal to her own and
so unselfish to all younger
things, that we hope for her
more than we fear. And yet
underneath there is a fear; "'LOOK AT THE POSE!'
and we ask those who can He said. There was pose, certainly, but where was the
understand to remember this smile?" (Page 28.)
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world is not always kind to its poor little foolish Pyâries.
I am writing in the afternoon, and two little people are playing on the
floor. One has a picture-book, and the other is looking eagerly as she turns
the pages and questions: "What is it? What is it?" I notice it is always
Pyârie who asks the question, and Vineetha who answers it: "It is a cow. It
is a cat." "Why don't you let Vineetha ask you what it is?" I suggest; but
Pyârie continues as before: "What is it? What is it?" varied by "What colour
is it? What shape is it? Who made it?" and the mischief in her eyes (would
that our artist could have caught it!) explains the game. It is decidedly better
to be teacher than scholar, because suitable questions can cover all
ignorance. Pyârie has not been to the kindergarten of late, and has reason to
fear Vineetha is somewhat ahead of her; so she ignores my proposals, and
continues her safe questions. We sometimes think we shall one night be
heard talking in our sleep, and the burden of our conversation will be
always—"What is it? What colour is it? What shape is it? Who made it?"

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CHAPTER V
Tara and Evu

O UR nurseries are full
of contrasts,
perhaps the two who are
but

most unlike are the little Tara
and Evu, aged, at the hour of
writing, three years and two
and a half. I am hammering
at my typewriter, when clear
through its metallic
monotony comes in distinct
double treble, "Amma!
Tala!" "Amma! Evu!" They
always announce each other
in this order, and with much
emphasis. If it is impossible
to stop, I give them a few
toys, and they sit down on
the mat exactly opposite my
table and play contentedly.
This lasts for a short five
minutes; then a whimper
from Tara makes me look up,
and I see Evu, with a face of
more mischief than malice, TARA.
holding all the toys—Tara's
share and her own—in a
tight armful, while Tara points at her with a grieved expression which does
not touch Evu in the least. A word, however, sets things right. Evu beams
upon Tara, and pours the whole armful into her lap. Tara smiles forgivingly,
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overflows, and she hugs Evu. Evu wriggles out of this embrace, and they
play for another five minutes or so without further misadventure.
Only once I remember Evu sinned beyond forgiveness. The occasion
was Pyârie's rag-doll of smiling countenance, which had been badly
neglected by the family. But Tara felt for it and loved it. She was small at
the time, and the doll was large, and Tara must have got tired of carrying it;
but she would not tell it so, and for one whole morning she staggered about
with the cumbersome beauty tilted over her shoulder, which gave her the
appearance of an unbalanced but very affectionate parent.
This was too much for Evu, to whom the comic appeals much more than
the sentimental. She watched her opportunity, and pounced upon the doll.
Tara gave chase; but Evu's fat legs can carry her faster than one would
suppose, and Tara's wails rose to a shriek when across half the garden's
width she saw that ruthless sinner swing her treasure round by one arm and
then deliberately jump on it. It was hours before Tara recovered.
Such a breach of the peace is happily rare; for the two are a pretty
illustration of the mutual attraction of opposites. At this moment they are
playing ball. This is the manner of the game: Tara sits in a high chair and
throws the ball as far as she can. Evu dashes after it like an excited kitten,
and kitten-wise badly wants to tumble over and worry it; for it is made of
bits of wool, which, as every sensible baby knows, were only put in to be
pulled out. She resists the temptation, however, and presents the ball to Tara
with a somewhat inconsequent "Tankou!" "Tankou!" returns Tara politely,
and tosses the ball again. This time Evu sits down with her back to Tara,
and proceeds to investigate the ball. It is perfectly fascinating. The ends are
all loose and quite easily pulled out. Evu forgets all about Tara in her keen
desire to see to the far end of this delight. "Evu!" comes from the chair in
accents of dignified surprise. "Tala!" exclaims Evu abashed, and hurries up
with the ball. "Tankou!" she says as before, and Tara responds "Tankou!"
This is an integral part of the game. If either forgets it, the other corrects her
by remarking inquiringly, "Tankou?" whereupon the echo replies in a tone
of apology, "Tankou!"
Both these babies are devout, as most things Indian are.
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church; and perhaps this is the reason why in religious matters Tara takes
the lead, for she does go to church. In secularities it is always Evu who
initiates, and Tara admiringly follows. The ball game was exceptional only
because Evu prefers the rôle of kitten to that of queen.
This little characteristic is shown in common ways. The two are sitting
on your knee entirely comfortable and content. The prayer-bell rings. Down
struggles Tara. "To prayers I must go!" she says with decision in Tamil.
"Evu too," urges Evu, also in Tamil. "Tum!" says Tara in superior English,
and waits. Evu "tums," and they hastily depart.
Or it is the time for evening hymns and good-night kisses. We have sung
through the chief favourites, ending always with, "Jesus, tender Shepherd."
"Now sing, 'Oh, luvvly lily g'oing in our garden!'" This from Tara. Echo
from Evu: "Yes; 'Oh, luvvly lily g'oing in our garden!'" You point out to the
garden: "It is dark, there are no lovely lilies to be seen; besides, that is not
exactly a hymn; shall we have 'Jesus, tender Shepherd,' again, and say
good-night?" But this is not at all satisfactory. Tara looks a little hurt.
"Tender Shepperd, no! Oh, luvvly lily!" Evu wonders if we are making
excuses. Perhaps we have forgotten the tune, and she starts it:—
Oh, lovely lily,
Growing in our garden,
Who made a dress so fair
For you to wear?
Who made you straight and tall
To give pleasure to us all?
Oh, lovely lily,
Who did it all?

Oh, little children,
Playing in our garden,
God made this dress so fair
For us to wear.
God made us straight and tall
To give pleasure to you all.
Oh, little children,
God did it all.

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Then Tara smiles all round, and you are given to understand you have
earned your good-night kisses. Evidently to Tara at least there is a sense of
incompleteness somewhere if the lovely lilies are excluded from the family
devotions.
To Tara and to Evu, as to most babies, the garden is a pleasant place. But
when they grow up and make gardens, they will not fill them with
forbidden joys as we do. One of the temptations of life is furnished by
inconsiderate ferns, which hold their curly infant fronds just within reach.
Then there are crotons, with bright leaves aggressively yellow and
delightful, and there are "tunflowers"; and the babies think us greedy in our
attitude towards all these things. The croton was especially alluring; and
one day Tara was found tiptoe on a low wall, reaching up with both hands,
eagerly pulling bits of leaf off. She was brought to me to be judged; and I
said: "Poor leaves! Shall we try to put them on again?" And hand in hand
we went to the garden, and Tara tried. But the pulled-off bits would not fit
on again; and Tara's face was full of serious thought, though she said
nothing. Next day she was found on the same low wall, reaching up tiptoe
in the same sinful way to the shining yellow leaves overhead. Quite
suddenly she stopped, put her hands behind her back, and never again was
she known to pick croton leaves to pieces.
The same plan prevailed with the ferns. The poor little crumples of silver
and green moved her to pity, and she left them to uncurl in peace when once
she had tried and sadly failed to help them. But the sunflowers' feelings did
not affect her in quite the same way. The kind we have in abundance is that
little dwarf variety with a thin stalk, and a cheerful face which smiles up at
you even after you behead it, and does not seem to mind. Tara was
convinced such treatment did not hurt them. They would stop smiling if it
did. But one day she suddenly seemed to feel a pang of compunction, for
she looked at the little useless heads and sighed. I had suggested their being
fitted on again, as with the croton leaves and ferns. But this idea had failed;
and what worked the change I know not, for Tara never told. But
"tunflowers" now are left in peace so far as she is concerned; and she is
learning to pick the free grasses and wild-flowers, which happily grow for
everybody, and to make sure their stalks are long enough to go into water,
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There is much to be done for all our children, but perhaps
for Tara especially, if she is to grow up strong in soul to Tara's Way
fight the battles of life. We felt this more than ever on the
day of our last return from the hills, after nearly seven weeks' absence. On
the evening when we left them, we had gone round the nurseries after the
little ones had fallen asleep, and said goodbye to each of them without their
knowing it; but when we came to Tara's mat, and kissed the little sleeping
face, she stirred and said, "Amma!" in her sleep; and we stole away fearing
she should wake and understand. Now in the early morning we were home
again, and all the children who were up were on the verandah to welcome
us, each in her own way. It was Tara's way which troubled us.
At first most of the babies were shy, for six weeks are like six years to
the very young; but soon there was a general rush and a thoroughly cheerful
chatter. Tara did not join in it. She stood outside the little dancing dazzle of
delight—the confusion of little animated coloured dots is rather like the
shake of a kaleidoscope—and she just looked and looked. Then, as we drew
her close, the little hands felt and stroked one's face as if the evidence of
eye and ear were not enough to make her sure beyond a doubt that her own
had come back to her; and then, as the assurance broke, she clung with a
little cry of joy, and suddenly burst into tears.
If only we could hold her safe and sheltered in our arms for ever! How
the longing swept through one at that moment: for the winds of the world
are cold. But it cannot be, it should not be, for such love would be weak
indeed. Rather do we long to brace the gentle nature so that its very
sensitiveness may change to a tender power, and the fountain of sweet
waters refresh many a desert place. But who is sufficient for even this?
Handle the little soul carelessly, harden rather than brace, misinterpret the
broken expression, misunderstand the signs—and the sweet waters turn to
bitterness. God save us from such mistake!
We covet prayer for our children. We want to know that around them all
is thrown that mysterious veil of protection which is woven out of prayer.
We need prayer, too, for ourselves, that our love may be brave and wise.
Evu's disposition is different. It would not be easy to
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hour of our return. One cannot imagine a kitten shedding tears of joy; and
Evu is a kitten, a dear little Persian kitten, with nothing worse than mischief
at present to account for. Of that there is no lack. "Oh, it is Evu!" we say,
and everyone knows what to expect when "it is Evu." Evu's chief sentiment
that morning, so far as she expressed it, was rather one of wonder at our
ignorant audacity. "You vanished in the night when we were all asleep, and
now you suddenly drop from the skies before we are properly awake, and
expect us all to begin again exactly where we left off. How little you know
of babies!" Doubtless this sentence was somewhat beyond her in language;
but Evu is not dependent on language, and she conveyed the sense of it to
us. She backed out of reach of kisses, and stood with a small finger
upraised; much as a kitten might raise its paw in mock protest to its mother.
She soon made friends, however, and proved herself an affectionate kitten,
though wholly unemotional.
When Tara is naughty, as she is at times, like most people of only three,
a reproachful look brings her spirits down to the lowest depths of distress.
Evu is more inclined to hold up that funny little warning first finger, and
shake it straight in your face. This, at two and a half, is terrible
presumption; but the brown eyes are so innocent, you cannot be too
shocked. Sometimes, however, the case is worse, and Evu tries to sulk. She
sits down solemnly on the ground, and throws her four fat limbs about in a
dreadful recklessness, supposed to strike the grown-up offender dumb with
awe and penitence. Sometimes she even tries to put out her lower lip, but it
was not made a suitable shape, for it smiles in spite of itself; and then there
is a sudden spring; and two little arms are round your neck, and you are
being told, if you know how to listen, what a very tiresome thing it is to feel
obliged to sin. Then, with the comforting sense of irresponsible kittenhood
fully restored, Evu discovers some new diversion, and you find yourself
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CHAPTER VI
Principalities, Powers, Rulers

I T may seem a quick transition from nursery to battle-field; but rightly to
understand this story, it must be remembered that our nursery is set in
the midst of the battle-field. It is a little sheltered place, where no sound of
war disturbs the babies at their play, and the flowers bloom like the babies
in happy unconsciousness of battles, and make a garden for us and fill it full
of peace; but underlying the babies' caresses and the sweetness of the
flowers there is always a sense of conflict just over, or soon coming on. We
"let the elastic go" in the nursery. We are happy, light-hearted children with
our children; sometimes we even wonder at ourselves; and then remember
that the happiness of the moment is a pure, bright gift, not meant to be
examined, but just enjoyed, and we enjoy it as if there were no battles in the
world or any sadness any more.
And yet this book comes hot from the fight. It is not a retrospect written
in the calm after-years, when the outline of things has grown indistinct and
the sharpness of life is blurred. There is nothing mellowed about a battle-
field. Even as I write these words, the post comes in and brings two letters.
One tells of a child of twelve in whom the first faint desires have awakened
to lead a different life. "She is a Temple girl. Pray that she may have grace
to hold on; and that if she does, we may be guided through the difficult
legal complications. Poor little girl! It makes one sick to think of her
spoiled young life!" The other is a Tamil letter, about another child who is
in earnest, so far as the writer can ascertain, to escape from the life planned
out for her. She learned about Jesus at school, and responded in her simple
way; but was suddenly taken from school, and shut up in the back part of
the house and not allowed to learn any more. "Like a little dove fluttering in
a cage, so she seemed to me. But she is a timid dove, and the house is full
of wickedness. How will she hold out against it? By God's grace I was
allowed to see her for one moment alone. I gave her a little Gospel. She
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Only a little while ago we traced a bright young Brahman girl to a
certain Temple house, and by means of one of our workers we made friends
with her. The child, a little widow, was ill, and was sent to the municipal
hospital for medicine. It was there our worker met her, and the child
whispered her story in a few hurried words. She had been kidnapped (she
had not time to tell how), and shut up in the Temple house, and told she
must obey the rules of the house and it was useless to protest. "If we could
help you," she was asked, "would you like to come to us?" The child
hesitated—the very name "Christian" was abhorrent to her—but after a
moment's doubt she nodded, and then slipped away. Our worker never saw
her again. The conversation must have been noticed by the child's escort,
and reported. She was sent off to another town, and all attempts to trace her
failed.
And the god to whom these young child-lives are
dedicated? In South India all the greater symbols of deity "The Great"
are secluded in the innermost shrine, the heart of the
Temple. In our part of the country the approach to the shrine is always
frequented by Brahman priests, who would never allow the foreigner near,
even if he wished to go near. "Far, far! remove thyself far!" would be the
immediate command, did any polluting presence presume to draw near the
shrine. There are idols by the roadside, and these are open to all; but they
are lesser creations. The Great, as the people call that which the Temple
contains, is something apart. It is to these—The Great—that little children
are dedicated; the whole Temple system is worked in their name.
"Have you ever seen the god to whom your little ones would have been
given?" is a question we are often asked; and until a few days ago we
always answered, "Never." But now we have seen it, seen it unexpectedly
and unintentionally, as we waited for an opportunity to talk to the crowds of
people who had assembled to see it being ceremonially bathed. We cannot
account for our being allowed to see it, except by the fact that the Brahmans
had withdrawn for the moment, and we being, as our custom is, in Indian
dress, were not noticed in the crowd.
Near the place where the idol was being bathed, with much pomp by the
priests, was a little rest-house, where we had waited till some child told us
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they would misunderstand our motive. While we talked with them, the
Brahmans, who had been bathing in the river after the water had been
sanctified by the god, began to stream up the steps and pass through the
crowd, which opened respectfully and made a wide avenue within itself: for
well the smallest child in that crowd understood that no touch might defile
those Brahmans as they walked, wringing out their dripping garments and
their long black hair.
How we searched the faces as they passed!—sensual, cynical, cold
faces, faces of utter carelessness, faces full of pride and aloofness. But there
were some so different—earnest faces, keen faces, faces sensitive and
spiritual. Oh, the pathos of it all! How our hearts went out to these, whose
eager wistfulness marked them out as truly religious and sincere! How we
longed that they should hear the word, "Come unto Me, and I will give you
rest"! They passed, men young and old, women and children, and very
many widows; and then suddenly two palanquins which had been standing
near were carried down to the awning where the idol had been bathed; and
before we realised what was happening, they passed us. In the first was the
disk, the symbol of the god; in the second, the god itself.
"We wrestle not against flesh and blood; but against principalities,
against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against
spiritual wickedness in high places"—this was the word that flashed
through us then. That small, insignificant, painted, and bejewelled image, in
its gaudy little palanquin, was not only that. It was the visible representative
of Powers.
We thought of a merry child in our nursery who was dedicated at birth to
this particular Power. By some glad chance that little girl was the first to run
up to us in welcome upon our return home in the evening. We thought of
her with thankfulness which cannot be expressed; but the sorrow of other
children bound to this same god swept over us as we stood gazing after the
palanquins, till they became a coloured blur in the shimmering sunshine.
There was one such, a bright little child of eight, who was in attendance
upon an old blind woman belonging to that Temple. "Yes," she had
answered to our distressed questions, "she is my adopted daughter. Should I
not have a daughter to wait upon me and succeed me? How can I serve the
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the service "when she was a suitable age." Her parents were half-proud and
half-ashamed of their intention; and when they knew we were aware of it,
they denied it, and we found it impossible to do anything.
We turned to the people about us. They were laughing
and chatting, and the women were showing each other the "Only as
Souls"
pretty glass bangles and necklets they had bought at the fair.
Glorious sunshine filled the world, the whole bright scene sparkled with life
and colour, and all about us was a "lucid paradise of air." But "only as souls
we saw the folk thereunder," and our spirit was stirred within us. There is
something very solemn in such a scene—something that must be
experienced to be understood. The pitiful triviality, the sense of tremendous
forces at work among these trivialities; the people, these crowds of people,
absorbed in the interests of the moment—and Eternity so near; all this and
much more presses hard upon the spirit till one understands the old Hebrew
word: "The burden which the prophet did see."
Does this sound intolerant and narrow, as if no good existed outside our
own little pale? Surely it is not so. We are not ignorant of the lofty and the
noble contained in the ancient Hindu books; we are not of those who cannot
recognise any truth or any beauty unless it is labelled with our label. We
know God has not left Himself without witnesses anywhere. But we know
—for the Spirit of Truth Himself has inspired the description—how
desolate is the condition of those who are without Christ. We dare not water
down the force of such a description till the words mean practically nothing.
We form no hard, presumptuous creed as to how the God of all the earth
will deal with these masses of mankind who have missed the knowledge of
Him here; we know He will do right. But we know, with a knowledge
which is burnt into us, how very many of the units live who compose these
masses. We know what they are missing to-day, through not knowing our
blessed Saviour as a personal, living Friend; and we know what it means to
the thoughtful mind to face an unknown to-morrow.
A Hindu in a town in the northern part of our district lay dying. He knew
that death was near, and he was in great distress. His friends tried to
comfort him by reminding him of the gods, and by quoting stanzas from the
sacred books; but all in vain. Nothing brought him any comfort, and he
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Then to one of the watchers came the remembrance of how, as a little
lad, he had seen a Christian die. In his desperation at the failure of all
attempts to comfort the dying man, he thought of this one little, far-back
memory; and though he could hardly dare to hope there would be much
help in it, he told it to his friend. The Christian was Ragland, the
missionary. He was living in a little house outside the town, when a sudden
hæmorrhage surprised him, and he had no time to prepare for death. He just
threw himself upon his bed, and looking up, exclaimed, "Jesus!" and passed
in perfect peace. Outside the window was a little Hindu boy, unobserved by
any in the house. He had climbed up to the window, and, leaning in,
watched all that happened, heard the one word "Jesus," saw the quick and
peaceful passing; and then slipped away unnoticed.
The dying Hindu listened as his friend described it to him. And this little
faint ray was the only ray of comfort that lightened the dark way for him.
Compare that experience with this:—
The missionary to whom this tale was told by the Hindu
who had tried to console his dying friend, was himself "Oh for a Love
——"
smitten with dangerous illness, and lay in the dim
borderland, unable to think or frame a prayer. Then like the melody of long
familiar music, without effort, without strain, came the calming words of
the old prayer: "Lighten our darkness, we beseech Thee, O Lord; and by
Thy great mercy defend us from all perils and dangers of this night; for the
love of Thine only Son, our Saviour, Jesus Christ."
Could any two scenes present a more moving contrast? Could any
contrast contain a more persuasive call?
As we went in and out among the crowd, there were many who turned
away uninterested; but some listened, and some sat down by the wayside to
read aloud, in the sing-song chant of the East, the little booklets or Gospels
we gave them. We, who are constantly among these people, feel our need of
a fresh touch, as we speak with them and see them day by day. We need
renewed compassions, renewed earnestness. It is easy to grow accustomed
to things, easy to get cool. We pray not only for those at home, who as yet
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"voiceless silence" of these lands, but we pray for ourselves with ever
deepening intensity:—
Oh for a love, for a burning love, like the
fervent flame of fire!
Oh for a love, for a yearning love, that will
never, never tire!
Lord, in my need I appeal
unto Thee;
Oh, give me my heart's desire!

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CHAPTER VII
How the Children Come

T HEY come in many ways through the help of many friends. We have
told before[A] how our first two babies came to us through two
pastors, one in the north, the other in the south of our district. Since then
many Indian pastors and workers, and several warm-hearted Christian
apothecaries and nurses in Government service, have become interested;
with the result that little children who must otherwise have perished have
been saved.
One little babe, who has since become one of our very dearest, was
redeemed from Temple life by the wife of a leading pastor, who was
wonderfully brought to the very place where the little child was waiting for
the arrival of the Temple people. We have seldom known a more definite
leading. "I being in the way, the Lord led me," was surely true of that friend
that day, and of other Indian sisters who helped her. Later, when she came
to stay with us, she told us about it. "When first I heard of this new work, I
was not in sympathy with it. I even talked against it to others. But when I
saw that little babe, so innocent and helpless, and so beautiful too, then all
my heart went out to it. And now——" Tears filled her eyes. She could not
finish her sentence. Nor was there any need; the loving Indian heart had
been won.
My mother was with us when this baby came; and she adopted her as her
own from the first, and always had the little basket in which the baby slept
put by her bedside. When the mosquitoes began to be troublesome, the
basket was slipped under her own mosquito net, lest the little pink blossom
should be disturbed. But the baby did not thrive at first; and the pink,
instead of passing into buff, began to fade into something too near ivory for
our peace of mind. It was then the friend who had saved the little one came
to stay with us; and she proposed taking her and her nurse out to her
country village, in hopes of getting a foster-mother for her there. So my
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News Village, and stayed in the pastor's hospitable home. The hope which
had drawn them there was not fulfilled; but the memory of that visit is fresh
and fragrant. We read of alienation between Indian Christians and
missionaries. We are told there cannot be much mutual affection and
contact. We often wonder why it should be so, and are glad we know by
experience so little of the difficulty, that we cannot understand it. We have
found India friendly, and her Christians are our friends. In these matters
each can only speak from personal experience. Ours has been happy. There
may be unkindness and misunderstanding in India, as in England; but
nowhere could there be warmer love, more tender affection.
All sorts of people help us in this work of saving the children. Once it
was a convert-schoolboy who saw a widow with a baby in her arms.
Noticing the bright large eyes, and what he described as the "blossoming
countenance of the child," he got into conversation with the mother, and
learned that she had been greatly tempted by Temple women in the town,
who had admired the baby and wanted to get it. "If I give her to them, she
will never be a widow," was the allurement there. The bitterness of
widowhood had entered into her soul, and poisoned the very mother-love
within her; and yet there was something of it left, for she did not want her
babe to be a widow. The boy, with the leisureliness of the East, dropped the
matter there; and only in a casual fashion, a week or so later, mentioned in a
letter that he had seen this pretty child, and that probably, the mother would
end in yielding to the temptation to give her to the Temple—"but it may be
by the grace of God that you will be able to save her." We sent at once to try
to find the mother; but she had wandered off, and no one knew her home.
However, the boy was stirred to prayer, and we prayed here; and a search
through towns and villages resulted at last in the mother being traced and
the child being saved.
Christian women have helped us. One such, sitting on her
verandah after her morning's work, heard two women in the The Talk on
the Verandah
adjoining verandah discuss the case of a widow who had
come from Travancore with a bright little baby-girl, whom she had vowed
she would give to one of our largest temples. The Christian woman had
heard of the Dohnavur nurseries, and at once she longed to save this little
child, but hardly knew how to do it. She feared to tell the two women she
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prayed that the widow might be detained and kept from offering her gift till
our worker, old Dévai, could come; and she wrote to old Dévai.
Happily Dévai was at home when the letter reached her; otherwise days
would have been lost, for her wanderings are many. She went at once, and
found the mother most reasonable. Her idea had been to acquire merit for
herself, and an assured future for her child, by giving it to the gods; but
when the matter was opened to her, she was willing to give it to us instead.
In her case, as in the other, our natural instinct would have been to try to
make some provision by which the mothers could keep their babies; but it
would not have been possible. The cruel law of widowhood had begun to do
its work in them. The Temple people's inducements would have proved too
much for them. The children would not have been safe.
Once it was a man-servant who saved a lovely child. He heard an aside
in the market which put him on the track. The case was very usual. The
parents were dead, and the grandmother was in difficulties. For the parents'
sake she wanted to keep the dear little babe; but she was old, and had no
relatives to whose care she could commit it. Mercifully we were the first to
hear about this little one; for even as a baby she was so winning that Temple
people would have done much to get her, and the old grandmother would
almost certainly have been beguiled into giving her to them. How often it
has been so! "She will be brought up carefully according to her caste. All
that is beautiful will be hers, jewels and silk raiment." The hook concealed
within the shining bait is forgotten. The old grandmother feels she is doing
her best for the child, and the little life passes out of her world.
"It is a dear little thing, and the man (its grandfather) seemed really fond
of it. He said he would not part with it; but its parents are both dead, and he
did not know what might happen to it if he died." This from the letter of a
fellow-missionary, who saved the little one and sent her out to us, is
descriptive of many. "Not the measure of a rape-seed of sleep does she give
me. I have done my best for her since her mother died, but her noise is most
vexatious." This was a father's account of the matter only a week or two
ago. "Have you no women relations?" we asked him. "Numerous are my
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Given these circumstances of difficulty, and the strong
under-pull of Temple influence—is it wonderful that many Not Waifs and
Strays
an orphaned babe finds her way to the Temple house? For in
the South the child of the kind we are seeking to save is never offered to us
because there is no other place where she is wanted. Everywhere there are
those who are searching for such children; and each little one saved
represents a counter-search, and somewhere, earnest prayer. The mystery of
our work, as we have said before, is the oftentimes apparent victory of
wrong over right. We are silent before it. God reigns; God knows. But
sometimes the interpositions are such that our hearts are cheered, and we go
on in fresh courage and hope.
Among our earliest friends were some of the London Missionary Society
workers of South Travancore. One of these friends interested her
Biblewomen; and when, one morning, one of these Biblewomen passed a
woman with a child in her arms on the road leading to a well-known
Temple, she was ready to understand the leading, and made friends with the
mother. She found that even then she was on her way to a Temple house. A
few minutes later and she would not have passed her on the road.
There was something to account for this directness of leading. At that
time we had our branch nursery at Neyoor, in South Travancore, ten miles
from the place where the Biblewoman met the mother. On that same
morning, Ponnamal, who was in charge there, felt impelled to go to the
upper room to pray for a little child in danger. She remained in prayer till
the assurance of the answer was given, and then returned to her work. That
evening a bandy drove up to the nursery, and she saw the explanation of the
pressure and the answer to the prayer. A little child was lifted out of the
bandy, and laid in her arms. She stood with her nurses about her, and
together they worshipped God.
This prayer-pressure has been often our experience when special help is
needed to effect the salvation of some little unknown child. It was our
Prayer-day, July 6, 1907. Three of us were burdened with a burden that
could not be lightened till we met and prayed for a child in peril. We had no
knowledge of any special child, though, of course, we knew of many in
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strongly that we were meant to concentrate upon one. Who, or where, we
did not know.
Five days later, a letter reached us from a friend in the Wesleyan
Mission, working in a city five hundred miles distant. The letter was written
on the 8th:—
"On the morning of the 6th, a woman who knows our Biblewomen well,
told them of a little Brahman baby in great danger; so J. and two others
went at once and spent the greater part of the morning trying to save the
child. It was in the house of a so-called Temple woman, who had adopted it,
and she had taken every care of it. For some reason she wanted to go away,
and could not take it with her. Two or three women of her own kind were
there and wanted it. One had money in her hand for it. But J. had already
got the baby into her arms, and reasoned and persuaded until the woman at
last consented. They at once brought it here. Had the friendly woman not
told J., the baby would now be in the hands of the second Temple woman. I
visited the woman afterwards. She had two grown girls in the room with
her, the elder such a sweet girl. She told me openly it was all according to
custom, and that God had arranged their lives on those lines, and they could
not do otherwise. It is terribly sad, and such houses abound."
Happenings of this sort—if the word "happen" is not
irreverent in such a connection—have a curiously quieting "Father, we
adore Thee"
effect upon us. We are very happy; but there is a feeling of
awe which finds expression in words which, at first reading, may not sound
appropriate; but we write for those who will understand:—
Oh, fix Thy chair of grace, that all my
powers
May also fix their reverence ;. . .
Scatter, or bind, or bend them all to Thee!
Though elements change and Heaven
move,
Let not Thy higher court remove,
But keep a standing Majesty in me.

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[A] "Overweights of Joy."

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CHAPTER VIII
Others

STURDY AND STOLID, AND LITTLE VEERA
—whose story, however, is different.

W E have some children who were not in Temple danger, but who
could not have grown up good if we had not taken them. "If peril to
the soul is of importance," wrote the pastor who sent us two little girls,
"then it is important you should take them": so we took them. These little
ones were in "peril to the soul," because their nominal Christian mother
had, after her husband's death, married a Hindu, against the rules of her
religion and his. The children were under the worst influence; and both
were winning little things, who might have drifted anywhere. We have
found it impossible to refuse such little ones, even though danger of the
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Such a child, for example, is the little girl the Moslem is ready to adopt
and convert to the faith. Our first redeemed from this captivity (literally
slavery under the name of adoption) was a cheerful little person of six, with
the sturdy air the camera caught, and a manner all her own. An American
missionary in an adjoining district heard of her and her little sister, and
wrote to know if we would take them if he could save them. We could not
say No; so he tried, and succeeded in getting the elder child; the little one
had been already "adopted," and he could not get her. "The whole affair was
the most astonishing thing I have ever seen in India," he wrote when he sent
the little girl. The child upon arrival made friends with another, and
confided to her in a burst of confidence: "Ah, she was a jewel, my own little
sister—not like me, not dark of skin, but 'fair' and tender; and the great man
in the turban saw her and desired her, and he took her away; and she cried
and cried and cried, because she was only such a very little girl."
"The business was being discussed out in the open street"—the writer
was another missionary—"the pastor heard of it from a Christian who was
passing, and saw the cluster of Muhammadans round the mother and her
children. It was touch-and-go with the child." These two, Sturdy and Stolid,
side by side in the photograph, are in all ways quite unlike the typical
Temple child; but the danger from which they were delivered is as real, and
perhaps in its way as grave.
One of the sweetest of our little girls, a child with a
spiritual expression which strikes all who see her, came to We know what
her Heart is
us through a young catechist who heard of her and Saying
persuaded her people to let her come to Dohnavur. She is an
orphan; and being "fair" and very gentle, needed a mother's care. Her
nearest relatives had families of their own, and were not anxious for this
addition to their already numerous daughters; and the little girl, feeling
herself unwanted, was fretting sadly. Then an offer came to the relations—
not made expressly in words, but implied—by which they would be
relieved of the responsibility of the little niece's future. All would not have
been straight for the child, however, and they hesitated. The temptation was
great; and in the end it is probable they would have yielded, had not the
catechist heard of it, and influenced them to turn from temptation. It was the
evening of our Prayer-day when the little Pearl came; and when we saw the
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frightened dog taken away alone among strangers, and when we heard the
story, and knew what the child's fate might have been, then we welcomed
her as another Prayer-day gift. We do not look for gratitude in this work;
who does? But sometimes it comes of itself; and the grateful love of a child,
like the grateful love of a little affectionate animal lifted out of its terror and
comforted, is something sweet and tender and very good to know. The Pearl
says little; but her soft brown eyes look up into ours with a trustful
expression of peaceful happiness; and as she slips her little hand into ours
and gives it a tight squeeze, we know what her heart is saying, and we are
content.
Two more of these "others" are the two in the photograph who are
playing a pebble game. Their parents died leaving them in the care of an
aunt, a perfectly heartless woman whose record was not of the best. She
starved the children, though she was not poor; and then punished them
severely when, faint with hunger, they took food from a kindly woman of
another caste. Finally she gave them to a neighbour, telling her to dispose of
them as she liked.
About this time our head worker, Ponnamal, was travelling in search of a
child of whom we had heard in a town near Palamcottah. She could not find
the child, and, tired and discouraged, turned into the large Church
Missionary Society hall, where a meeting was being held to welcome our
new Bishop. As Ponnamal was late, she sat at the back, and could not hear
what was going on; so she gave herself up to prayer for the little child
whom she had not found, and asked that her three days' journey might not
be all in vain.
As she prayed in silence thus, another woman came in and sat down at
the back near Ponnamal. When Ponnamal looked up, she saw it was a friend
she had not met for years. She began to tell her about her search for the
child; and this led on to telling about the children in general, and the work
we were trying to do. The other had known nothing of it all before; but as
she listened, a light broke on her face, and she eagerly told Ponnamal how
that same morning she had come across a Hindu woman in charge of two
little girls. The Tamils when they meet, however casually, have a useful
habit of exchanging confidences. The woman had told Ponnamal's friend
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conversation of the morning.
In a few hours more
Ponnamal was upon the track
of the Hindu woman and her
two little charges. It ended in
the two little girls being
saved.

PEBBLES.

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CHAPTER IX
Old Dévai

S HE has been called "Old Dévai" ever since we knew her, twelve years
ago; and she is still active in mind and body. "As I was then, even so
is my strength now for war, both to go out and to come in," she would tell
you with a courageous toss of the old grey head. Her spirit at least is
untired.
We knew her first as a woman of character. One Sunday, in our Tamil
church, a sermon was preached upon the love of the Father as compared
with the love of the world. That Sunday Dévai went home and acted upon
the teaching in such fashion that she had to suffer from the scourge of the
tongue in her own particular world. But she went on her way, unmoved by
adverse criticism. Some years later, when we were in perplexity as to how
to set about our search for children in danger of being given to temples, old
Dévai offered to help. She was peculiarly suitable, both in age and in
position, for this most delicate work; and we accepted her offer with
thanksgiving. Since then she has travelled far, and followed many a clue
discovered in strange ways and in strange company. Perhaps no one in
South India knows as much as Dévai knows about the secret system by
which the Temple altars are supplied with little living victims; but she has
no idea of how to put her knowledge into shape and express it in paragraph
form. We learn most from her when she least knows she is saying anything
interesting.
When first we began the work, our great difficulty was, as it is still, to
get upon the track of the children before the Temple women heard of them.
Once they were known to be available, Temple scouts appeared
mysteriously alert; and it is doubly difficult to get a little child after
negotiations have been opened with the subtle Temple scout. How often old
Dévai has come to us sick at heart after a long, fruitless search and effort to
save some little child who, perhaps, only an hour before her arrival was
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I saw it in the distance; but swiftly went their bullocks, and I could not
overtake it. At last they stopped to rest, and I came to where they were. But
they smiled at me and said: 'Did you ever hear of such a thing as you ask in
foolishness? Is it the custom to give up a child, once it is ours?'" Sometimes
a new story is invented on the spot. "Did you not know it was my sister's
child; and I, her only sister, having no child of my own, have adopted this
one as my own? Would you ask me to give up my own child, the apple of
my eye?" Oftener, however, the clue fails, and all Dévai knows is that the
little one is nowhere to be found. Once she traced it straight to a Temple
house, won her way in, and pleaded with tears, offering all compensation
for expenses incurred (travelling and other) if only the Temple woman
would let her take the child. But no: "If it dies, that matters little; but
disgrace is not to be contemplated." When all else fails, we earnestly ask
that the little one in danger may be taken quickly out of that polluted
atmosphere up into purer air; and it is startling to note how solemnly the
answer to that prayer has come in very many instances.
The clue for which we are always on the watch is often
like a fine silk thread leading down into dark places where The Knock at
Night
we cannot see it, can hardly feel it; it is so thin a thread.
Sometimes, when we thought we held it securely, we have lost it in the
dark.
Sometimes it seems as if the Evil One, whose interest in these little ones
may be greater than we know, lays a false clue across our path, and
bewilders us by causing us to spend time and strength in what appears to be
a wholly useless fashion. Once old Dévai was lured far out of our own
district in search of two children who did not even exist. She had taken all
precautions to verify the information given, but a false address had baffled
her; and we can only conclude that, for some reason unknown to us, but
well known to those whom we oppose, they were permitted on that
occasion to gain an advantage over us. We made it a rule, after that will-of-
the-wisp experience, that any address out of our own district must be
verified; and that the nearest missionary thereto, or responsible Indian
Christian, must be approached, before further steps are taken. This rule has
saved many a fruitless journey; but also we cannot help knowing it has
sometimes occasioned delays which have had sad results. For distances are
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address is uncertain, as she sets off at a moment's notice for any place
where she has reason to think a child in danger may be saved. Then, too,
missionaries and responsible Indian Christians are not everywhere. So that
sometimes it is a case of choosing the lesser of two evils, and choosing
immediately.
Once in the night a knock
came to Dévai's door. A man
stood outside, a Hindu known
to her. "A little girl has just
been taken to the Temple of
A., where the great festival is
being held. If you go at once
you may perhaps get her."
The place named was out of
our jurisdiction; but in such
cases Dévai knows rules are
only made to be broken. Off
she went on foot, got a bandy
en route, reached the town
before the festival was over,
found the house to which she
had been directed—a little
shut-up house, doors and
windows all closed—
managed, how we never
knew, to get in, found a
young woman, a Temple
woman from Travancore,
with a little child asleep on LATHA (FIREFLY) BLOWING BUBBLES.
the mat beside her, persuaded
her to slip out of the house with the child without wakening anyone, crept
out of the town and fled away into the night, thankful for the blessed
covering darkness. The child was being kept in that house till the Temple
woman to whom she was to be given produced the stipulated "Joy-gift,"
after which she would become Temple property. Some delay in its being
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a most lovable little girl, had been kidnapped and disguised; and the matter
was so skilfully managed, that we have never been able to discover even the
name of her own town. We only know she must have been well brought up,
for she was from the first a refined little thing with very dainty ways. She
and her little special friend are sitting on the steps looking at Latha
(Firefly), who is blowing bubbles. The other little one has a similar but
different history. Her father brought her to us himself, fearing lest she
should be kidnapped by one related to her who much wanted to have her. "I,
being a man, cannot be always with the child," he said, "and I fear for her."
On another occasion the clue was found through Dévai's
happening to overhear the conversation of two men in a "It"
wood in the early morning. One said to the other something
about someone having taken "It" somewhere; and Dévai, whose scent is
keen where little "Its" are concerned, made friends with the men, and got
the information she wanted from them. Careful work resulted in a little
child's salvation; but Dévai hardly dared believe it safe until she reached
Dohnavur. When that occurred we were all at church; for special services
were being held in week-day evenings, and old Dévai had to possess her
soul in patience till we came out of church. Then there was a rush round to
the nursery, and an eager showing of the "It." I shall never forget the pang
of disappointment and apprehension. Several little ones had been sent to us
who could not possibly live; and the nurses had got overborne, and we
dreaded another strain for them. It was a tiny thing, three pounds and three-
quarters of pale brown skin and bone. Its face was a criss-cross of wrinkles,
and it looked any age. But "Man looketh upon the outward appearance"
would have been assuredly quoted to us, regardless of context, had we
ventured upon a remark to old Dévai, who poured forth the story of its
salvation in vivid sentences. Next evening the old grannie of the compound
told us the baby could not live till morning. She laid it on a mat and
regarded it critically, felt its pulses (both wrists), examined minutely its
eyes and the bridge of its nose: "No, not till morning. Better have the grave
prepared, for early morning will be an inconvenient hour for digging."
Others confirmed her diagnosis, and sorrowfully the order was given and
the grave was dug.
But the baby lived till morning; and though for two years it needed a
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one of our healthiest; and now when old Dévai comes to see us she looks at
it, and then to Heaven, and sighs with gratitude.

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CHAPTER X
Failures?

B UT sometimes old Dévai brings us little ones who do not come to
stay. Failures, the world would call them. Twice lately this has
happened, and each time unexpectedly; for the babies had stories which
seemed to imply a promise of future usefulness. Surely such a deliverance
must have been wrought for something special, we say to ourselves, and
refuse to fear.
One dear little fat "fair" baby was brought to us as a surprise, for we had
not heard of her. It had seemed so improbable that Dévai could get her, that
she had not written to us to ask us to pray her through the battle, as she
usually does. The sound of the bullock-bells' jingle one moonlight night
woke us to welcome the baby. She had travelled fifty miles in the shaky
bullock-cart, and she was only a few days old; but she seemed healthy, and
we had no fears. "Ah, the Lord our God gave her to me, or never could I
have got her! Her mother had determined to give her to the Temple; and
when I went to persuade her, she hid the baby in an earthen vessel lest my
eyes should see her. But earthen pots cannot hide from the eyes of the Lord.
And here she is!" The details, fished out of Dévai by dint of many
questions, made it clear that in very truth the Lord, to whom all souls
belong, had worked on behalf of this little one; moving even Hindu hearts,
as His brave old servant pleaded, making it possible to break through caste
and custom, those prison walls of most cruel convention, till even the
Hindus said: "Let the Christian have the babe!" We do not know why she
was taken. She never seemed to sicken, but just left us; perhaps she was
needed somewhere else, and Dohnavur was the way there.
The other meant even more to us, for she was our first from Benares, the
heart of this great Hinduism; and her very presence seemed such a splendid
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This little one was saved through a friend, a Wesleyan missionary, who
had interested her Indian workers in the children. The baby's mother was a
pilgrim from Benares, and her baby had been born in the South. A Temple
woman had seen it and was eager to get it, for it was a child of promise. Our
friend's worker heard of this, and interposed. The mother consented to give
her baby to us. It was not a case in which we dare have persuaded her to
keep it; for such babies are greatly coveted, and the mother was already
predisposed to give her child to the gods.
When we heard of this little one, old Dévai was with us. She had only
just arrived after a journey of two days with a little girl, but she knew the
perils of delay too well to risk them now. "Let me go! I will have some
coffee, and immediately start!" So off she went for five more days of
wearisome bullock-cart and train. But her face beamed when she returned
and laid a six-weeks-old baby in our arms—a baby fair to look upon. We
gathered round her at once, and she lay and smiled at us all. Hardly ever
have we had so sweet a babe. But the smiling little mouth was too pale a
pink, and the beautiful eyes were too bright. She had only been with us a
month when we were startled by the other-world look on the baby's face.
We had seen it before; we recognised it, and our hearts sank within us. That
evening, as she lay in her white cradle, the waxy hands folded in an
unchildlike calm, she looked as if the angel of Death had passed her as she
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She stayed with us for another month, and was nursed
day and night till more and more she became endeared to us; Passion-
flowers
and then once more we heard the word that cannot be
refused, and we let her go. We laid passion-flowers about her as she lay
asleep. The smile that had left her little face had come back now. "She came
with a smile, and she went with a smile," said one who loved her dearly;
and the flowers of mystery and glory spoke to us, as we stood and looked.
"Who for the joy that was set before Him ;. . . endured." The scent of the
violet passion-flower will always carry its message to us. "Let us be worthy
of the grief God sends."
And oh that such experiences may make us more earnest, more self-less
in our service for these little ones! Someone has expressed this thought very
tenderly and simply:—
Because of one small low-laid head, all
crowned
With golden hair,
For evermore all fair young brows to me
A halo wear.
I kiss them reverently. Alas, I know
The pain I bear!

Because of dear but close-shut holy eyes
Of heaven's own blue,
All little eyes do fill my own with tears,
Whate'er their hue.
And, motherly, I gaze their innocent,
Clear depths into.

Because of little pallid lips, which once
My name did call,
No childish voice in vain appeal upon
My ears doth fall.
I count it all my joy their joys to share,
And sorrows small.

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Because of little dimpled hands
Which folded lie,
All little hands henceforth to me do have
A pleading cry.
I clasp them, as they were small wandering
birds,
Lured home to fly.

Because of little death-cold feet, for earth's
Rough roads unmeet,
I'd journey leagues to save from sin and harm
Such little feet.
And count the lowliest service done for them
So sacred—sweet.
But grief is almost too poignant a word for what is so "Until He find
stingless as this. And yet God the Father, who gives the love, it"
understands and knows how much may lie behind two
words and two dates. "Given ;. . . Taken ;. . ." Only indeed we do bless Him
when the cup holds no bitterness of fear or of regret. There is nothing ever
to fear for the little folded lambs. If only the veil of blinding sense might
drop from our eyes when the door opens to our cherished little children,
should we have the heart to toil so hard to keep that bright door shut?
Would it not seem almost selfish to try? But the case is different when the
child is not lifted lovingly to fair lands out of sight, but snatched back,
dragged back down into the darkness from which we had hoped it had
escaped. This work for the children, which seems so strangely full of trial of
its own (as it is surely still more full of its own particular joy), has held this
bitterness for us, and yet the bitter has changed to sweet; and even now in
our "twilight of short knowledge" we can understand a little, and where we
cannot we are content to wait.
Four years ago, after much correspondence and effort, a little girl was
saved from Temple service in connection with a famous Temple of the
South from which few have ever been saved. She had been dedicated by her
father, and her mother had consented. Dévai got a paper signed by them
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regretted the step he had taken, and followed Dévai, unknown to her. Alas,
the child had not been with us an hour before she was carried off.
For two years we heard nothing of her. Old Dévai, who was broken-
hearted about the matter, tried to find what had been done with her, but it
was kept secret. She almost gave up in despair.
At last information reached her that the child was in the same town; and
that her father having died of cholera, the mother and another little daughter
were in a certain house well known to her. She went immediately and found
the older child had not been given to the gods. Something of her pleadings
had lingered in the father's memory, and he had refused to give her up. But
the mother was otherwise minded, and intended to give both children to the
Temple. Dévai had been guided to go at the critical time of decision. The
mother was persuaded, and Dévai returned with two sheaves instead of one
—and even that one she had hardly dared to expect. Once more we were
called to hold our gifts with light hands. The younger of the welcome little
two was one of ten who died during an epidemic at Neyoor. The elder one is
with us still—a bright, intelligent child.
The only other one whom we have been compelled to give up in this
most hurting way was saved through friends on the hills, who, before they
sent the little child to us, believed all safe as to claims upon her afterwards.
She was a pretty child of five, and we grew to love her very much; for her
ways were sweet and gentle and very affectionate. Lala, Lola, and Leela
were a dear little trio, all about the same age, and all rather specially
interesting children.
But the father gave trouble. He was not a good man, and we knew it was
not love for his little daughter which prompted his action. He demanded her
back, and our friends had to telegraph to us to send her home. It was not an
easy thing to do; and we packed her little belongings feeling as if we were
moving blindly in a grievous dream, out of which we must surely awaken.
There was some delay about a bandy, but at last it was ready and
standing at the door. We lifted the little girl into it, put a doll and a packet of
sweets in her hands, and gave our last charges to those who were taking her
up to the hills, workers upon whom we could depend to do anything that
could yet be done to win her back again. Then the bandy drove away.

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But we went back to our room and asked for a great and good thing to be
done. We thought of little Lala, with her gentle nature which had so soon
responded to loving influence, and we knew her very gentleness would be
her danger now; for how could such a little child, naturally so yielding in
disposition, withstand the call that would come, and the pressure that had
broken far stronger wills? So we asked that she might either be returned to
us soon or taken away from the evil to come. A week passed and our
workers returned without her; they evidently felt the case quite hopeless.
But the next letter we had from our friends told us the child was safe.
She had left us in perfect health, but pneumonia set in
upon her return to the colder air of the hills. She had been Carried by the
Angels
only a few days ill, and died very suddenly—died without
anyone near her to comfort her with soothing words about the One to whom
she was going. Even in the gladness that she was safe now, there was the
pitiful thought of her loneliness through the dark valley; and we seemed to
see the little wistful face, and felt she would be so frightened and shy and
bewildered; and we longed to know something about those last hours. But
one of the heathen women who had been about her at the last told what she
knew, and our friends wrote what they heard. "She said she was Jesus' child,
and did not seem afraid. And she said that she saw three Shining Ones come
into the room where she was lying, and she was comforted." Oh, need we
ever fear? Little Lala had been with us for so short a time that we had not
been able to teach her much; and so far as any of us know, she had heard
nothing of the ministry of angels. We had hardly dared to hope she
understood enough about our Lord Himself to rest her little heart upon Him.
But we do not know everything. Little innocent child that she was, she was
carried by the angels from the evil to come.
Old Dévai keeps a brave heart. When she comes to see us, she cheers
herself by nursing the cheerful little people she brought to us, small and
wailing and not very hopeful. She is full of reminiscences on these
occasions. "Ah," she will say, addressing an astonished two-year-old, "the
devil and all his imps fought for you, my child!" This is unfamiliar
language to the baby; but Dévai knows nothing of our modern ideas of
education, and considers crude fact advisable at any age. "Yes, he fought for
you, my child. I was sitting on the verandah of the house wherein you lay,
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five devils appeared. Yea, five were they, one older and four younger. Men
were they in outward shape, but within them were the devils. I had nearly
persuaded the women to let me have you, my child; and till they fully
consented, I was filling up the interval with speech, for no man shall shut
my mouth. And the women listened well, and my heart burned within me—
for it was life to me to see them listening—when lo! those devils came—
yea, five, one older and four younger—sent by their master to confound me.
And they rose up against me and turned me out, and told the women folk
not to listen; and you—I should never get you, said they; and so it appeared,
for with such is might, and their master waxes furious when he knows his
time is short. But the Lord on high is mightier than a million million devils,
and what are five to Him? He rose up for me against them and discomfited
them"—Dévai does not go into secular particulars—"and so you were
delivered from the mouth of the lion, my child!"
We are not anxious that our babies should know too much ancient
history. Enough for them that they are in the fold—
I am Jesus' little lamb,
Happy all day long I am;
He will keep me safe from harm,
For I'm His lamb—
is enough theology for two-year-olds; but Dévai's visits are not so frequent
as to make a deep impression, and the baby thus addressed, after a long and
unsympathetic stare, usually scrambles off her knee and returns unscathed
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CHAPTER XI
God Heard: God Answered

O LD Dévai, with her vivid conversation about the one old devil and
four younger, does not suggest a conciliatory attitude towards the
people of her land. And it may be possible so to misinterpret the spirit of
this book as to see in it only something unappreciative and therefore
unkind. So it shall now be written down in sincerity and earnestness that
nothing of the sort is intended. The thing we fight is not India or Indian, in
essence or development. It is something alien to the old life of the people. It
is not allowed in the Védas (ancient sacred books). It is like a parasite
which has settled upon the bough of some noble forest-tree—on it, but not
of it. The parasite has gripped the bough with strong and interlacing roots;
but it is not the bough.
We think of the real India as we see it in the thinker—the seeker after the
unknown God, with his wistful eyes. "The Lord beholding him loved him,"
and we cannot help loving as we look. And there is the Indian woman
hidden away from the noise of crowds, patient in her motherhood, loyal to
the light she has. We see the spirit of the old land there; and it wins us and
holds us, and makes it a joy to be here to live for India.
The true India is sensitive and very gentle. There is a wisdom in its
ways, none the less wise because it is not the wisdom of the West. This
spirit which traffics in children is callous and fierce as a ravening beast; and
its wisdom descendeth not from above, but is earthly, sensual, devilish. . . .
And this spirit, alien to the land, has settled upon it, and made itself at home
in it, and so become a part of it that nothing but the touch of God will ever
get it out. We want that touch of God: "Touch the mountains, and they shall
smoke." That is why we write.
For we write for those who believe in prayer—not in the emasculated
modern sense, but in the old Hebrew sense, deep as the other is shallow. We
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and what happens afterwards. Otherwise we should leave the darkness to
cover the things that belong to the dark. We should be for ever dumb about
them, if it were not that we know an evil covered up is not an evil
conquered. So we do the thing from which we shrink with strong recoil; we
stand on the edge of the pit, and look down and tell what we have seen,
urged by the longing within us that the Christians of England should pray.
"Only pray?" does someone ask? Prayer of the sort we mean never stops
with praying. "Whatsoever He saith unto you, do it," is the prayer's solemn
afterword; but the prayer we ask is no trifle. Lines from an American poet
upon what it costs to make true poetry, come with suggestion here:—
Deem not the framing of a deathless lay
The pastime of a drowsy summer day.
But gather all thy powers, and wreck them on
the verse
That thou dost weave. . . .
The secret wouldst thou know
To touch the heart or fire the blood at will?
Let thine eyes overflow,
Let thy lips quiver with the passionate thrill.
"Arise, cry out in the night; in the beginning of the night
watches pour out thine heart like water before the Lord; lift "And call. . . .
So will I hear
up thine hands towards Him for the life of thy young thee"
children!"
The story of the children is the story of answered prayer. If any of us
were tempted to doubt whether, after all, prayer is a genuine transaction,
and answers to prayer no figment of the imagination—but something as real
as the tangible things about us—we have only to look at some of our
children. It would require more faith to believe that what we call the
Answer came by chance or by the action of some unintelligible combination
of controlling influences, than to accept the statement in its simplicity—
God heard: God answered.
In October, 1908, we were told of two children whose mother had
recently died. They were with their father in a town some distance from
Dohnavur; but the source from which our information came was so

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unreliable that we hardly knew whether to believe it, and we prayed rather a
tentative prayer: "If the children exist, save them." For three months we
heard nothing; then a rumour drifted across to us that the elder of the two
had died in a Temple house. The younger, six months old, was still with her
father. On Christmas Eve our informant arrived in the compound with his
usual unexpectedness. The father was near, but would not come nearer
because the following day being Friday (a day of ill-omen), he did not wish
to discuss matters concerning the child; he would come on Saturday. On
Saturday he came, carrying a dear little babe with brilliant eyes. She almost
sprang from him into our arms, and we saw she was mad with thirst. She
was fed and put to sleep, and hardly daring yet to rejoice (for the matter was
not settled with the father), we took him aside and discussed the case with
him. There were difficulties. A Temple woman had offered a large sum for
the child, and had also promised to bequeath her property to her. He had
heard, however, that we had little children who had all but been given to
Temples, and he had come to reconnoitre rather than to decide.
The position was explained to him. But the Temple
meant to him everything that was worshipful. How could "Though it
tarry, wait for
anything that was wrong be sanctioned by the gods? The it . . .
child's mother had been a devout Hindu; and as we went
deeper and deeper into things with him, it was evident he became more and
more reluctant to leave the little one with us. "Her mother would have felt it
shame and eternal dishonour." We were in the little prayer-room, a flowery
little summer-house in the garden, when this talk took place. On either side
are the nurseries, and playing on the wide verandahs were happy, healthy
babes; their merry shouts filled the spaces in the conversation. Sometimes a
little toddling thing would find her way across to the prayer-room, and
break in upon the talk with affectionate caresses. To our eyes everything
looked so happy, so incomparably better than anything the Temple house
could offer, that it was difficult to adjust one's mental vision so as to
understand that of the Hindu beside us, to whose thought all the happiness
was as nothing, because these babes would be brought up without caste. In
the Temple house caste is kept most carefully. If a Temple woman breaks
the rules of her community she is out-casted, excommunicated. "You do not
keep caste! you do not keep caste!" the father repeated over and over again
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and as happy as the day was long; nothing to him that cleanliness reigned,
so far as constant supervision could ensure it, through every corner of the
compound. We did not profess to keep caste; we welcomed every little child
in danger of being given to Temples, irrespective altogether of her caste. All
castes were welcome to us, for all were dear to our Lord. This was beyond
him; and he declared he would never have brought his child to us, had he
understood it before. "Let her die rather! There is no disgrace in death." As
he talked and expounded his views, he argued himself further and further
away from us in spirit, until he became disgusted with himself for ever
having considered giving the baby to us. All this time the baby lay asleep;
and as we looked at the little face and noted the "mother-want," the
appealing expression of pitiful weariness even in sleep, it was all we could
do to turn away and face the almost inevitable result of the conversation.
Once the father, a splendid looking man, tall and dignified, rose and stood
erect in sudden indignation. "Where is the babe? I will take her away and
do as I will with her. She is my child!" We persuaded him to wait awhile as
she was asleep, and we went away to pray. Together we waited upon God,
whose touch turns hard rocks into standing water, and flint-stone into a
springing well, beseeching Him to deal with that father's heart, and make it
melt and yield. And as we waited it seemed as if an answer of peace were
distinctly given to us, and we rose from our knees at rest. But just at that
moment the father went to where his baby slept in her cradle, and he took
her up and walked away in a white heat of wrath.
The little one was in an exhausted condition, for she had not had suitable
food for at least three days. It was the time of our land-winds, which are
raw and cold to South Indian people; and it seemed that the answer of peace
must mean peace after death of cold and starvation. It would soon be over,
we knew; twenty-four hours, more or less, and those great wistful eyes
would close, and the last cry would be cried. But even twenty-four hours
seemed long to think of a child in distress, and her being so little did not
make it easier to think of her dying like that. So on Sunday morning I shut
myself up in my room asking for quick relief for her, or—but this seemed
almost asking too much—that she might be given back to us. And as I
prayed, a knock came at the door, and a voice called joyously, "Oh, Amma!
Amma! Come! The father stands outside the church; he has brought the
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But the child was almost in collapse. Without a word he dropped the
cold, limp little body into our arms, and prostrated himself till his forehead
touched the dust. We had not time to think of him, we hardly noted his
extraordinary submission, for all our thought was for the babe. There was
no pulse to be felt, only those far too brilliant eyes looked alive. We worked
with restoratives for hours, and at last the little limbs warmed and the pulse
came back. But it was a bounding, unnatural pulse, and the restlessness
which supervened confirmed the tale of the brilliant eyes—the little babe
had been drugged.
From that day on till our Prayer-day, January 6th, it was one long,
unremitting fight with death. We wrote to our medical comrade in Neyoor,
and described the symptoms, which were all bad. He could give us little
hope. Gradually the brilliance passed from the eyes, and they became what
the Tamils call "dead." The film formed after which none of us had ever
seen recovery. Then we gathered round the little cot in the room we call
Tranquillity, and we gave the babe her Christian name Vimala, the Spotless
One; for we thought that very soon she would be without spot and
blameless, another little innocent in that happy band of innocents who see
His Face.
On the evening of the 5th, friends of our own Mission who were with us
seemed to lay hold for the life of the child with such fresh earnestness and
faith, that we ourselves were strengthened. Next morning we believed we
saw a change in the little deathlike face, and that evening we were sure the
child's life was coming back to her.
It was not till then we thought of the father, who, after
signing a paper made out for him by our pastor, who is ". . .Because it
will surely
always ready to help us, had returned to his own town. come"
When we heard all that had occurred we saw how our God
had worked for us. It was not fear of his baby's death that had moved the
man to return to us. "What is the death of a babe? Let her die across my
shoulders!" He was not afraid of the law. After all persuasions had failed,
we had tried threats: the thing he purposed to do was illegal. The Collector
(chief magistrate) would do justice. "What care I for your Collector? How
can he find me if I choose to lose myself? How can you prove anything
against me?" And in that he spoke the truth. There are ways by which the

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intention of the law concerning little children can be most easily and
successfully circumvented. Our pleadings had not touched him. "Is she not
my child? Was her mother not my wife? Who has the right to come between
this child of mine and me her father?" And so saying he had departed
without the slightest intention of coming back again. But a Power with
which he did not reckon had him in sight; and a Hand was laid upon him,
and it bent him like a reed. We hope some ray of a purer light than he had
ever experienced found its way into his darkened soul, and revealed to him
the sin of his intention. But we only know that he left his child and went
back to his own town. God had heard: God had answered.

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CHAPTER XII
To what Purpose?

A MONG the closest of our little children's friends is one whose name
I may not give, lest her work should be hindered; for in this work of
saving the little ones, though we have the sympathy of many, we naturally
have to meet the covert opposition of very many more, and it is not well to
give too explicit information as to the centres of supply. This dear friend's
help has been invaluable. From the first she has stood by us, interesting her
friends, Indian and English, in the children, and stirring them into practical
co-operation. Then, when the babies have been saved and had to be cared
for and sent off, she made nothing of the trouble, and above all she has
never been discouraged. Sometimes things have been difficult. Some have
doubted, and many have criticised, and even the kindest have lost heart.
This friend has never lost heart.
For not all the chapters of the Temple children's story can be written
down and printed for everyone to read. We think of the unwritten chapters,
and remember how often when the pressure was greatest the thought of that
undiscouraged comrade has been strength and inspiration. No one except
those who, in weakness and inexperience, have tried to do something not
attempted before can understand how the heart prizes sympathy just at the
difficult times, and how such brave and steadfast comradeship is a thing
that can never be forgotten.
Among the babies saved through this friend's influence was one with a
short but typical story.
The little mite was seen first in her mother's arms, and the mother was
standing by the wayside, as if waiting. Something in her attitude and
appearance drew the attention of an Indian Christian, whom our friend had
interested in the work, and she got into conversation with the mother, who
told her that her husband had died a fortnight before the baby's birth, and
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one's future. How could she marry her properly? She had come to the
conclusion that her best plan would be to give her to the Temple. So she
was even then waiting till someone from a Temple house would come and
take her little girl.
The news that such a child is to be had soon becomes known to those
who are on the watch, and it is improbable that the mother would have had
long to wait. The Christian persuaded her to give up the idea, and the little
babe was saved and sent to us. On the journey to Dohnavur a Temple
woman chanced to get into the carriage where the little baby slept in its
basket. There was nothing to tell who she was; and like the other women in
the carriage, she was greatly interested in its story. But presently it became
evident that her interest was more than superficial. She looked well at the
baby and was quiet for a time; then she said to the Christian who was
bringing it to us: "I see it is going to be an intelligent child. Let me have it; I
will pay you." The Christian of course refused, and asked her how she knew
it was going to be intelligent. "Look at its nose," said the Temple woman.
"See, here is money!" and she offered it. "Let me have the baby! You can
tell your Missie Ammal it died in the train!"
Sometimes our babies have to run greater risks than this
in their journeys south to us. The distances which have to be "He banged
the door!"
covered by train and bullock-cart are great, and the
travelling tedious. And there are many delays and opportunities for
difficulties to arise; so that when we know a baby is on its way to us we feel
we want to wrap it round in prayer, so that, thus invisibly enveloped, it will
be protected and carried safely all the way. Once a little child, travelling to
us from a place as distant, counting by time, as Rome is from London, was
observed by some Brahman men, who happened to be at the far end of the
long third-class carriage. Our worker, who was alone with the child, noticed
the whispering and glances toward her little charge, and wrapped it closer in
its shawl, and, as she said, "looked out of the window as if she were not at
all afraid, and prayed much in her heart." Presently a station was reached.
The language spoken there was not her vernacular, but she understood
enough to know something was being said about the baby. Then an official
appeared, and there was a cry quite understandable to her: "A Brahman
baby! That Christian there is kidnapping a Brahman baby!" The official
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confused chatter, a crowd gathered at the door in a moment, and someone
shouted in Tamil, above the excited clamour on the platform: "Pull her out!
A Christian with a Brahman baby!"
"Then did my heart tremble! I held the baby tight in my arms. The man
in clothes said, 'Show it to me!' And he looked at its hands and he looked at
its feet, and he said: 'This is no child of yours!' But as I began to explain to
him, the train moved, and he banged the door; and I praised God!"
India is a land where strange things can be accomplished with the
greatest ease. As all went well it is idle to imagine what might have been;
but we knew enough to be thankful.
Among the unwritten chapters is one which touches a problem. There
are some little children—often the most valuable to the Temple women—
who cannot live with us, but can live with them, because the baby in the
Temple house is nursed by a foster-mother for the sake of merit, and thus it
is given its best chance of life; whereas with us it is impossible to get foster-
mothers. Indian children of the castes approved for the service are not, as a
class, as robust as others; the secluded lives of their mothers, and the rigid
rules pertaining to widows (girl-children born after the mother becomes a
widow are, as has been seen, in special danger), partly account for this; and
in other cases there are other reasons. Whatever the cause, however, the
effect is manifest. The baby is seldom the little bundle of content of our
English nurseries. It may become so later on, if all goes well. Often it lives
upon its birth-strength for four months, or less, and then slips away. We
have often hesitated about taking such babies; and then we have found that
by refusing one who is likely to die we have discouraged those who were
willing to help us, and the next baby in danger has been taken straight to the
house where its welcome was assured. So we have hardly ever dared to
refuse, and we have taken little fragile things whose days we knew were
numbered unless a foster-mother could be found, for it seemed to us that
death with us was better than life with the Temple people; and also we have
not dared to risk losing the next, who might be healthy. "One dies, one
lives," say the Temple women in their wisdom, and take all who are suitable
in caste and in appearance. "She will be 'fair,'" or, "She will be intelligent,"
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One night I woke suddenly with the feeling of someone
near, and saw, standing beside my bed out on the verandah, "To what
Purpose?"
the friend who has sent us so many little ones. She had
something wrapped in a shawl in her arms, and as she moved the shawl a
thin cry smote me with a fear, for a baby who has come to stay does not cry
like that.
It was a dear little baby, one of the type the Temple women prize, and
will take so much trouble to rear. The little head was finely formed, and the
tiny face, in its minute perfection of feature, looked as if some fairy had
shaped it out of a cream rose-petal. Alas, there was that look we know so
well and fear so much—that look of not belonging to us, the elsewhere,
other-world look. But we could not do this work at all, we would not have
the heart to do it, if we did not hope. So we go on hoping.
The baby filled the next half-hour, for a thing so small can be hungry
and say so; and together we heated the water and made the food, till,
satisfied at length that her little charge was comfortable, our friend lay
down to rest. "Jesus therefore being weary with His journey, sat thus on the
well." There is something in the utter weariness after a long, hot journey,
ending with seven hours in a bullock-cart over rough tracks by night, which
always recalls that word of human tiredness. How I wished that the morning
were not so near as I saw my friend asleep at last! A few hours later she was
on her homeward way, and we were left with our hopes and our fears, and
the baby.
For three weeks we hoped against fear, till there was no room left for
any more hope, or for anything but prayer that the child might cease to
suffer. And after a month of struggle for life, the tiny, tossing thing lay still.
"To what purpose is this waste?" Was it strange that the question came
again to ourselves, and to others too? Our dear friend's toilsome travelling
—a journey equal in expenditure of time to one from London to Vienna and
back again, and very much more exhausting, the faithful nurse's patience,
the little baby's pain! And all the love that had grown through the weeks,
and all the efforts that had failed, the very train ticket and bandy fare—was
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We knew in our hearts it was not. The dear little babe was safe; and it
might be that our having taken her, though she was so very delicate, would
result in another, a healthy child, being saved, who, if she had been refused,
would never have been brought. This hope comforted us; and we prayed
definitely for its fulfilment, and it was fulfilled. For shortly after that little
seed had been sown in death, information came from the same source
through which she had been saved, that another child was in danger of
being adopted by Temple women; and this information would not have been
given to our friend had the first child been refused. Nundinie we called this
little gift: the name means Happiness.
Sometimes in moments of depression and disappointment we go for
change of air and scene to the Prémalia nursery; and the baby Nundinie,
otherwise Dimples, of whom more afterwards, comes running up to us with
her welcoming smile and outstretched arms; while others, with stories as
full of comfort, tumble about us, and cuddle, and nestle, and pat us into
shape. Then we take courage again, and ask forgiveness for our fears. It is
true our problems are not always solved, and perhaps more difficult days
are before; but we will not be afraid. Sometimes a sudden light falls on the
way, and we look up and still it shines: and what can we do but "follow the
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CHAPTER XIII
A Story of Comfort

SEELA IS THE BABY IN THE MIDDLE.
She slipped into the picture at the last moment, and so was caught unawares. Mala is
to the right; Nullinie to the left. (This little one's left hand and foot are partially
paralyzed through drugging in infancy.)

A MONG the stories of comfort is one that belongs to our merry little
Seela. She is bigger now than when the despairing photographer
broke thirteen plates in the vain attempt to catch her; but she is still most
elusive and alluring, a veritable baby, though over two years old. Some
months ago, the Iyer measured her, and told her she was thirty-two inches
of mischief. For weeks afterwards, when asked her name, she always
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All who have to do with babies know how different they can be in
disposition and habits. There is the shop-window baby, who shows all her
innocent wares at once to everyone kind enough to look. She is a charming
baby. And there is the little wild bird of the wood, who will answer your
whistle politely, if you know how to whistle her note; but she will not trust
herself near you till she is sure of you. Seela is that sort of baby. We have
watched her when she has been approached by some unfamiliar presence,
and seen her summon all her baby dignity to keep her from breaking into
tears of overwhelming shyness. Give her time to observe you from under
long, drooping lashes; give her time to make sure—then the mischief will
sparkle out, and something of the real child. But only something, never all,
till you become a relation; with those who are only acquaintances Seela,
like Bala, has many reserves.
Seela's joy is to be considered old and allowed to go to the kindergarten.
She takes her place with the bigger babies, and tries to do all she sees them
do. Sometimes a visitor looks in, and then Seela, naturally, will do nothing;
but if the visitor is wise and takes no notice, she will presently be rewarded
by seeing the eager little face light up again, and the fat hands busily at
work. Seela is not supposed to be learning very seriously; but she seems to
know nearly as much as some of the older children, and her quaint attempts
at English are much appreciated. Seela has her faults. She likes to have her
own way, and once was observed to slap severely an offender almost twice
her own size; but on the whole she is a peaceful little person, beloved by all
the other babies, both senior and junior. Her great ambition is to follow
Chellalu into all possible places of mischief. Anything Chellalu can do
Seela will attempt; and as she is more brave than steady on her little feet,
she has many a narrow escape. Her latest escapade was to follow her
reckless leader in an attempt to walk round the top of the back of a large
armchair, the cane rim of which is a slippery slant, two inches wide.
On the morning of her arrival, not liking to leave her
even for a few minutes, I carried her to the early tea-table, Table Manners
when she saw the Iyer and smiled her first smile to him.
From that day on she has been his loyal little friend. At first his various
absences from home perplexed her. She would toddle off to his room and
hunt everywhere for him, even under his desk and behind his waste-paper
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"Iyer is not!" "Where is he, Seela?" "Gone to Heaven!" was her invariable
reply. When he returned from that distant sphere she never displayed the
least surprise. That is not our babies' way. She calmly accepted him as a
returned possession; stood by his chair waiting for the invitation, "Climb
up"; climbed up as if he had never been away—and settled down to bliss.
Part of this bliss consists in being supplied with morsels of toast and
biscuit and occasional sips of tea. Sometimes there is that delicious luxury,
a spoonful of the unmelted sugar at the bottom of the cup. For Seela is a
baby after all, and does not profess to be like grown-up people who do not
appreciate nice things to eat, being, of course, entirely superior to food; but,
excitable little damsel as she is in all other matters, her table manners are
most correct, and she shows her appreciation of kind attentions in
characteristic fashion. A smile, so quick under the black lashes that only one
on the look-out for it would see it, a sudden confiding little nestle closer to
the giver—these are her only signs of pleasure; and if no notice is taken of
her, she sits in silent patience. Sometimes, if politeness be mistaken for
indifference, a shadow creeps into her eyes, a sort of pained surprise at the
obtuseness of the great; but she rarely makes any remark, and never points
or asks, as the irrepressible Chellalu does in spite of all our admonitions. If,
however, Seela is being attended to and fed at judicious intervals, and she
knows the intention is to feed her comfortably, then her attitude is different.
She feels a reminder will be acceptable; and as soon as she has disposed of
a piece of biscuit, she quietly holds up an empty little hand, and glances
fearlessly up to the face that looks down with a smile upon her. This little
silent, empty hand, held up so quietly, has often spoken to us of things
unknown to our little girl; and as if to enforce the lesson, the other babies,
to our amusement, apparently noticing the gratifying result of Seela's
upturned hand, began to hold up their little hands with the same silent
expectancy, till all round the table small hands were raised in perfect
silence, by hopeful infants of observant habits and strong faith.

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THE COTTAGE NURSERY.

Mala, the rather stolid-looking little girl to the right of the photograph, is
Seela's elder sister. She is not so square-faced as the photograph shows her,
and she is much more interesting. This little one seems to us to have in
some special sense the grace of God upon her; for her nursery life is so
happy and blameless and unselfish, that we rarely have to wish her different
in anything. Her coming, with little Seela's, is one of the very gladdest of
our Overweights of Joy.
We heard of the little sisters through a mission schoolmaster, who—
knowing that they had been left motherless, and that a Hindu of good
position had obtained something equivalent to powers of guardianship, and
thus empowered had placed them with a Temple woman—was most
anxious to save them, and wrote to us; and, as he expressed it, "also
earnestly and importunately prayed the benign British Government to
intervene."
The Collector to whom the petition was sent was a friend
of ours. He knew about the nursery work, and was ready to "And he
said. . . . But
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Caste and Temple people, and so advised us to try to get the children
privately. We sent our wisest woman-worker, Ponnamal, to the town, and
she saw the principal people concerned; but they entirely refused to give up
the children. The man who had adopted them had got his authority from the
local Indian sub-magistrate; and contended that as the Government had
given them to him, no one had any right to take them from him; "and even
if the Government itself ordered me to give them up, I never will. I will
never let them go." This in Tamil is even more explicit: "The hold by which
I hold them I will never let go." Ponnamal returned, weary in mind and in
body, after three days of travelling and effort; she had caught a glimpse of
the baby, and the little face haunted her. The elder child was reported very
miserable, and she had seen nothing of her. The guardian, of course, had not
dealt with her direct; but she heard he had taken legal advice, and was sure
of his position. There was nothing hopeful to report. Once again we tried,
but in vain. By this time a new bond had been formed, for the guardian had
become attached to little Seela, and spent his time, so we heard, in playing
with her. He let it be known that nothing would ever make him give her up.
"She is in my hand, and my hand will never let go."
Then suddenly news came that he was dead. The baby had sickened with
cholera. He had nursed her and contracted the disease. In two days he had
died. He had been compelled to let go.
Then the feeling of all concerned changed completely. It hardly needed
the Collector's order, given with the utmost promptitude, to cause the
Temple woman to give the children up. To the Indian mind, quick to see the
finger of God in such an event, the thing was self-evident. An unseen Power
was at work here. Who were they that they should withstand it? A telegram
told us the children were safe, and next day we had them here.
The baby was happy at once; but the elder little one, then a child of
about three and a half, was very sorrowful. She was so pitifully frightened,
too, that at first we could do nothing with her; and there was a look in her
eyes that alarmed us, it was so distraught and unchildlike. "My mother did
her best for them," wrote the kind schoolmaster to whose house the children
had been taken when the Temple woman gave them up; "but the elder one
has fever. She is always muttering to herself, and can neither stand nor sit."
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look of bewilderment worse than pain. For days it was a question with us as
to whether she would ever recover perfectly. That first night we had to give
her bromide, and she woke very miserable. Next day she stood by the door
waiting for her mother, as it seemed; for under her breath she was
constantly whispering, "Amma! Amma!" ("Mother! Mother!") She never
cried aloud, only sobbed quietly every now and then. She would not let us
touch her, but shrank away terrified if we tried to pet her. All through the
third day she sat by the door. This was better than the weary standing, but
pitiful enough. On the morning of the fourth day she sat down again for a
long watch; but once when her little hand went up to brush away a tear, we
saw there was a toy in it, and that gave us hope. That night she went to bed
with a doll, an empty tin, and a ball in her arms; and the next day she let us
play with her in a quiet, reserved fashion. Next morning she woke happy.
The babies teach us much, and sometimes their
unconscious lessons illuminate the deeper experiences of Teachers—
unawares
life. One such illumination is connected in my mind with the
little trellised verandah, shown in the photograph, of the cottage used as a
nursery when Mala and Seela came to us.
It was the hour between lights, and five babies under two years old were
waiting for their supper—Seela, Tara, and Evu (always a hungry baby),
Ruhinie, usually irrepressible, but now in very low spirits, and a tiny thing
with a face like a pansy—all five thinking longingly of supper. These five
had to wait till the fresh milk came in, as their food was special; that
evening the cows had wandered home with more than their usual
leisureliness from their pasture out in the jungle, and so the milk was late.
The babies, who do not understand the weary ways of cows, disapproved
of having to wait, and were fractious. To add to their depression, the boy
whose duty it was to light the lamps and lanterns had been detained, and the
trellised verandah was dark. So the five fretful babies made remarks to each
other, and threw their toys about in that exasperated fashion which tells you
the limits of patience have been passed; and the most distressed began to
whimper.
At this point a lantern was brought and set behind me, so that its light
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parted from its body, one whole new doll, a tin with little stones in it, a
matchbox, and other sundries. If anything will comfort them, their toys will,
I thought, as I directed their attention to the tin with its pleasant rattling
pebbles, and the other scattered treasures on the mat. But the babies looked
disgusted. Toys were a mockery at that moment. Evu seized the china head
and flung it as far as ever she could. Tara sat stolid, with two fingers in her
mouth. Seela turned away, evidently deeply hurt in her feelings, and the
other two cried. Not one of them would find consolation in toys.
Then the pansy-faced baby, Prâsie, pointed out to the bushes, where
something dangerous, she was quite sure, was moving; and she wailed a
wail of such infectious misery that all the babies howled. And one rolled
over near the lantern which was on the floor behind me, and for safety's
sake I moved it, and its light fell on my face. In a moment all five babies
were tumbling over me with little exclamations of delight, and they nestled
on my lap, caressing and content.
Are there not evenings when our toys have no power to please or
soothe? There is not any rest in them or any comfort. Then the One whom
we love better than all His dearest gifts comes and moves the lantern for us,
so that our toys are in the shadow but His face is in the light. And He makes
His face to shine upon us and gives us peace.
"For Thou, O Lord my God, art above all things best; . . . Thou alone
most sufficient and most full; Thou alone most sweet and most comfortable.
"Thou alone most fair and most loving; Thou alone most noble and most
glorious above all things; in whom all things are at once and perfectly good,
and ever have been and shall be.
"And therefore whatever Thou bestowest upon me beside Thyself, or
whatever Thou revealest or promisest concerning Thyself, so long as I do
not see or fully enjoy Thee, is too little, and fails to satisfy me.
"Because, indeed, my heart cannot truly rest nor be entirely contented
unless it rest in Thee, and rise above all Thy gifts and all things created.
"When shall I fully recollect myself in Thee, that through the love of
Thee I may not feel myself but Thee alone, above all feeling and measure in
a manner not known to all?"

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CHAPTER XIV
Pickles and Puck

"PICKLES" AND HER FRIENDS.
"Pickles" sits with her thumb in her mouth, distrustful of photographers.

"A MMA! Amma!" then in baby Tamil, "Salala has come!" And one
of the most enticing of the little interruptions to a steady hour's
work scrambles over the raised doorstep, tripping and tumbling in her
eagerness to get in. Now she is staggering happily about the room on fat,
uncertain feet. Upsets are nothing to Sarala. She shakes herself, rubs a
bumped head, smiles if you smile down at her, and picks herself up with a
sturdy independence that promises something for her future. She has
travelled to-day, stopping only to visit her Préma Sittie, a long way across
the field all by herself. She has braved tumbles and captures, for her nurse
may any minute discover her flight; and even now, safe in port, she keeps a
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she thinks I am about to suggest her departure, she immediately engages me
in some interest of her own. She has ways and wiles unknown to any baby
but herself; and if all seems likely to fail, she sits down on the floor, and
first puts out her lower lip as far as it will go, and then springs up, climbs
over you, clings with all four limbs at once, and buries her curly tangle deep
into your neck. But if the case is hopeless, she sits down on the floor again
and digs her small fists into her eyes, in silent indignation and despair. Then
comes a howl impossible to smother, and at last such bitter bursts of woe as
nothing short of dire necessity can force you to provoke. This is Sarala, one
of the most affectionate, most wilful, most winsome of all the babies. She is
truthful. She has just this moment pulled a drawing-pin out of its place,
which happened to be within reach, and her solemn "Aiyo!" (Alas!) "Look,
Amma!" shows she feels she has sinned, but wants to confess. Life will
have many a battle for this baby; but surely if she is truthful and loving, and
we are loving and wise, the Lord who has redeemed her will carry her
through.
Her first great battle royal was with the new Sittie,[B] who immediately
upon arrival loved the babies. The battle was about Sarala's evening meal,
which she refused to take from the new Sittie because she had offended her
small majesty a few minutes before by allowing another baby to share the
lap of which Sarala wished to have complete possession; and the baby had
crawled off disgusted with the ways of such a Sittie.
As a rule we avoid collisions at bedtime. The day should end peacefully
for babies; but the contest once begun had to be carried through, for Sarala
is not a baby to whom it is wise to give in where a conflict of wills is
concerned. Next morning it was evident she remembered all about it. When
the new Sittie (now called Préma Sittie by the children)[C] came to the
nursery, Sarala hurried off and would have nothing to do with her. From the
distance of the garden she would catch sight of her advancing form, and
retreat round a corner. Sometimes if Préma Sittie sat down on the floor and
fondled another baby, Sarala would crawl up from behind, put her arms
round her neck, and even begin to sit down on her knee; but if her Sittie
made the first advance, she was instantly repelled. This continued for a
fortnight; and as Sarala was only a year and eight months old at the time, a
fortnight's memory rather astonished us. In the end she forgot, and now
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But it was the other Sittie, Piria Sittie by name,[D] who
first made Sarala's acquaintance. She and I went to Neyoor Twins
together when the branch nursery was there; and as the new
nursery was almost ready for the babies, we lightened the immense
undertaking of removal by carting off whatever we could of furniture and
infants. Sarala has eyes which can smile bewitchingly, and a voice which
can coo with delicious affection; but those sweet eyes can look stormy, and
cooing is a sound remote from Sarala's powers in opposite directions; so we
wondered, as we packed her into the bandy, what would happen that night.
If we had known Sarala better we should not have wondered. All this child
wants to make her good is someone to hold on to. She woke frequently
during the night, for we were not entirely comfortable, wedged sideways
and close as herrings in a barrel. But all she did when she awoke was to
push a soft little arm round either one or other of us, and cuddle as close as
she possibly could; the least movement on our part, however, she deeply
resented and feared. A limpet on a rock is nothing to this baby. Her very
toes can cling.
Sarala's private name is Pickles. Her twin in mischief is Puck, and she,
too, is fond of paying visits to the bungalow. But she always comes as a
surprise; she never announces herself. You are busy with your back to the
door when that curious feeling, a sense of not being quite alone, comes over
you, and you turn and see an elfish thing, very still and small and shy, but
with eyes so comical that Puck is the only possible name by which she
could be called. Seen unexpectedly, playing among the flowers in a
fragment of green garment washed to the softness of a tulip leaf, you feel
she only needs a pair of small wings and a wand to be entirely in character.
Puck has none of Pickles' faults, and a good many of her virtues. She is a
most good-tempered little person, loving to be loved, but equally delighted
that others should share the petting. She gives up to everybody, and smiles
her way through life; such a comical little mouth it is, to match the comical
eyes. All she ever asks with insistence is somewhere to play. Bereft of room
to play, Puck might become disagreeable, though a disagreeable Puck is
something unimaginable. Yesterday it was needful to keep her in the shade;
and as a special policeman-nurse could not be told off to keep watch over
her, she was tied by a long string to the nursery door. At first she was sorely
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began to tie herself up more securely. If they do such things at all they
should do them better, she seemed to think. And this is Puck all through.
She will find the laugh hidden in things, if she can. Sometimes in her
eagerness to make everybody as happy as she is herself she gets into serious
trouble. She was hardly able to walk when she was discovered comforting a
crying infant by taking a bottle of milk from an older babe (who, according
to her thinking, had had enough) and giving it to the younger one who
seemed to need it more. What the older baby said is not recorded.
Puck in trouble is a pitiful sight. She tries not to give in
to feelings of depression. She screws her smiling lips tight, Disgraced
Dohnavur
twists her face into a pucker, and shuts her eyes till you only
see two slits marked by the curly eyelashes. But if her emotions are too
much for her she gives herself up to them thoroughly. There is no whining
or whimpering or sulking; she wails with a wail that rivals Pickles' howl.
"What an awful child!" remarked a visitor one morning, in a very shocked
tone, as she went the round of the nurseries and came upon Puck on the
floor abandoned to grief. We wondered if our friend knew how much more
awful most babies are, and we wished the usually charming Puck had
chosen some other moment to disgrace herself and us. But no, there she sat,
her two small fists crushed over her mouth—for we insist that when the
babes feel obliged to cry, they shall smother the sound thereof as much as
may be—and the visitor retired, feeling, doubtless, thankful the awful child
was not hers. But Puck's griefs are of short duration. Ten minutes later she
was climbing the chain from which the swing hangs, trying to fit her little
toes into the links, and laughing, with the tears still wet on her cheeks,
because the chain shook so that she could not climb it properly, though she
tried it valiantly, hand over head, like a dancing bear on a pole. Puck's
Guardian Angel, like Chellalu's, must be ever in attendance.

FOOTNOTES:
[B] Miss Lucy Ross.
[C] "Préma" means Beloved.
[D] Miss Mabel Wade, who joined us November 15, 1907. "Piria," like
"Préma," means Beloved.

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CHAPTER XV
The Howler

P ICKLES and Puck at their worst and both together are nothing to the
Howler in her separate capacity. We called her the Howler because
she howled.
We heard of her first through our good Pakium, who, during a
pilgrimage round the district, paid a visit to the family of which she was the
youngest member. "She lay in her cradle asleep"—Pakium kindled over it
—"like an innocent little flower, and she once opened her eyes—such eyes!
—and smiled up in my face. Oh, like a flower is the babe!" And much
speech followed, till we pictured a tender, flower-like baby, all sweetness
and smiles.
Her story was such as to suggest fears, though on the surface things
looked safe. Her grandfather, a fine old man, head of the house, was
sheltering the baby and her mother and three other children; for the son-in-
law had "gone to Colombo," which in this case meant he desired to be free
from the responsibilities of wife and family. He had left no address, and had
not written after his departure. So the old man had the five on his hands. A
Temple woman belonging to a famous South-country Temple, knowing the
circumstances, had made a flattering offer for the baby, then just three
months old. The grandfather had refused; but the grandmother was
religious, and she felt the pinch of the extra five, and secretly influenced her
daughter, so that it was probable the Temple woman would win if she
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THE DOHNAVUR COUNTRY IN FLOOD.

A year passed quietly. We had friends on the watch, and they kept us
informed of what was going on. The idea of dedication was becoming
gradually familiar to the grandfather, and he was ill and times were hard.
But still we could do nothing, for to himself and his whole clan adoption by
Christians was a far more unpleasant alternative than Temple-dedication.
After all, the Temple people never break caste.
Once a message reached us: "Send at once, for the Temple women are
about to get the baby"; and we sent, but in vain. A few weeks later a similar
message reached us; and again the long journey was made, and again there
was the disappointing return empty-handed. It seemed useless to try any
more.
About that time a comrade in North Africa, Miss Lilias Trotter, sent us
her new little booklet, "The Glory of the Impossible." As we read the first
few paragraphs and roughly translated them for our Tamil fellow-workers,
such a hope was created within us that we laid hold with fresh faith and a
sort of quiet, confident joy. And yet, when we wrote to our friends who
were watching, their answer was most discouraging. The only bright word
in the letter was the word "Impossible."

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"Far up in the Alpine hollows, year by year, God works one of His
marvels. The snow-patches lie there, frozen into ice at their edges from the
strife of sunny days and frosty nights; and through that ice-crust come,
unscathed, flowers in full bloom.
"Back in the days of the bygone summer the little
soldanella plant spread its leaves wide and flat on the The Glory of
ground to drink in the sun-rays; and it kept them stored in the Impossible
the root through the winter. Then spring came and stirred its pulses even
below the snow-shroud. And as it sprouted, warmth was given out in such
strange measure that it thawed a little dome of the snow above its head.
Higher and higher it grew, and always above it rose the bell of air till the
flower-bud formed safely within it; and at last the icy covering of the air-
bell gave way and let the blossom through into the sunshine, the crystalline
texture of its mauve petals sparkling like the snow itself, as if it bore the
traces of the fight through which it had come.
"And the fragile things ring an echo in our hearts that none of the jewel-
like flowers nestled in the warm turf on the slopes below could waken. We
love to see the impossible done, and so does God."
These were the sentences which we read together. To the South Indian
imagination Alpine snow is something quite inconceivable; but the picture
on the cover and snow-scene photographs helped, and the Indian mind is
ever quick to apprehend the spiritual, so the booklet did its work.
We have two seasons here, the wet and the dry. The dry is subdivided
into hot, hotter, and hottest; but the wet stands alone. It is a time when the
country round Dohnavur is swamp or lake according to the level of the
ground; and we do not expect visitors—the heavy bullock-carts sink in the
mud and make the way too difficult. If a letter had come just then asking us
to send for the baby, we should certainly have tried to go; but no letter
came, and it was then, when everything said, "Impossible," that suddenly all
resistance gave way and the grandfather said: "Let her go to the Christians."
We were sitting round the dinner-table one wet evening, thinking of
nothing more exciting than the flying and creeping creatures which insisted
upon drowning themselves in our soup, when the jingle of bullock-bells
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wonder who it was, we all
ran out and met Rukma
running in from the wet
darkness. "It's it! it's it!" she
cried, and danced into the
dining-room, decorum
thrown to the pools in the
compound. "Look at it!" and
we saw a bundle in her arms.
And it howled.
From that day on for
nearly a week it continued
consistently to howl. We
called the little thing
Naveena, for the name means
"new"; and it was our nearest
approach to Soldanella,
which we should have called
her if we did not keep to
Indian names for our babies.
New and fresh as that little
flower of joy, so was our new
PAKIUM AND NAVEENA. little gift to us, a new token
for good. But flowers and
howlers—the words draw
their little skirts aside and refuse to touch each other. From certain points of
view, in this case as so often, the sublime and the ridiculous were much too
close together. The very crows made remarks about the baby when she
wakened the morning with her howls. Mercifully for the family's nerves she
fell asleep at noon; but as soon as she woke she began again, and went on
till both she and we were exhausted. There were no tears, the big dark eyes
were only entirely defiant; and the baby stood straight up with her hands
behind her back and her mouth open—that was all. But we knew it meant
pure misery, though expressed so very aggressively; and we coaxed and
petted when she would allow us, and won her confidence at last, and then
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It took months to tame the little thing. She had been
allowed to do exactly as she liked; for she was her Friends
grandfather's pet, and no one might cross her will. We had to
go very gently; but eventually she understood and became a dear little girl,
reserved but very affectionate, and scampish to such a degree that Chellalu,
discerning a congenial spirit, decided to adopt her as "her friend."
This fact was announced to us at the babies' Bible-class, when the word
"friend," which was new to the babies, was being explained. It has four
syllables in Tamil, and the babies love four-syllabled words. They were
rolling this juicy morsel under their tongues with sounds of appreciation,
when Chellalu pointed across to Naveena, and with an air of possession
remarked, "She is my friend." The other babies nodded their heads, "Yes,
Naveena is Chellalu's friend!" Naveena looked flattered and very pleased.
These friends in a kindergarten class are rather terrible. They are always
separated—as the Tamil would say, if one sits north the other sits south—
but even so there are means of communication. This morning, passing the
door of the kindergarten room, I looked in and saw something not included
in the time-table. We have a little yellow bellflower here which grows in
great profusion; and some vandal taught the babies to blow it up like a little
balloon, and then snap it on the forehead. The crack it makes is delightful.
We do not like this game, and try to teach the babies to respect the pretty
flowers; but there are so many sins in the world, that we do not make
another by actually forbidding it; we trust to time and sense and good
feeling to help us. So it comes to pass that the worst scamps indulge in this
game without feeling too guilty; and now I saw Chellalu with a handful of
the flowers, cracking them at intervals, to the distraction of the teacher and
the delight of all the class. One other was cracking flowers too. It was
Naveena, and there was a method in her cracks. When Rukma turned to
Chellalu, Naveena cracked her flower. When she turned to Naveena, then
Chellalu cracked hers. How they had eluded the search which precedes
admission to the kindergarten nobody knew; but there they were, each with
a goodly handful of bells. At a word from Rukma, however, they handed
them over to her with an indulgent smile, and even offered to search the
other babies in case they had secreted any; and as I left the room the lesson
continued as before, but the friends' intention was evident: they had hoped
to be turned out together.

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CHAPTER XVI
The Neyoor Nursery

"The roads are rugged, the precipices steep; there may be
feelings of dizziness on the heights, gusts of wind, peals of
thunder, nights of awful gloom. Fear them not!
"There are also the joys of sunlight, flowers such as are not
in the plain, the purest of air, restful nooks, and the stars smile
thence like the eyes of God."—Père Didon (translated by Rev.
Arthur G. Nash).

ON THE ROAD TO NEYOOR.

A ND now for a chapter of history. We had not been long at the new
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impossible to describe in detail. Some of these concerned the health of the
younger children; and eventually it seemed best to move the infants' nursery
to within reach of medical help, and keep the bigger babies and elder
children, whose protection was another grave anxiety, with us at Dohnavur.
Shortly before that time we had been brought into touch with the
medical missionaries at Neyoor, in South Travancore. The senior
missionary, Dr. Fells, was about to retire; but his successor, Dr. Bentall,
cordially agreed to let us rent a little house in the village and fill it with
babies, though he knew such a houseful might materially add to the fulness
of his already overflowing day. He, and afterwards Dr. Davidson (now the
only survivor at Neyoor of that kind trio of doctors), seemed to think
nothing a trouble if only it helped a friend. So the little house was taken and
the babies installed.

ON THE OUTSKIRTS OF NAGERCOIL, WHERE WE STOPPED TO
REST.

The first day, September 25, 1905, is a day to be remembered. I had
gone on before to prepare the house, and for a day and a half waited in
uncertainty as to what had happened to the little party which was to have
followed close behind. I had left one baby ill. She was the first child sent to
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newly interested and stirred to seek these little ones, and of what it would
mean of discouragement to them if she were taken, and my heart held on for
her.
At last the carts appeared in sight. It was the windy season, and six carts
had been overturned on the road, so they had travelled slowly. Then a wheel
came off one of their carts and an accident was narrowly averted. This had
caused the delay. The baby about whom I had feared had recovered in time
to be sent on. She was soon quite well, and has continued well from that
day to this.
How familiar the road between Dohnavur and Neyoor
became to us, as the months passed and frequent journeys The Welcome
were made with little new babies! Sometimes those journeys
were very wearisome. There was great heat, or a dust-laden wind filled the
bandy to suffocation and blew out the spirit-lamp when we stopped to
prepare the babies' food. How glad we used to be when, in the early
evening, the white gleam of the stretch of water outside Nagercoil appeared
in sight! We used to stop and bathe the babies, and feed them under some
convenient trees, and then go on to our friends with whom we were to
spend the night, trusting that the soothing effect of the bathe and food
would not pass off until after our arrival. Those friends, our comrades of the
L.M.S., like the Medicals at Neyoor, seemed made of kindness. How often
their welcome has rested us after the long day!
Next morning we tried to start early, so as to arrive at Neyoor before the
sun shone in fever-threatening strength straight in through the open end of
the cart. This plan, however, proved too difficult, so we found it better to
travel slowly straight on from Dohnavur to Neyoor. In this way we missed
the blazing sun; but we also missed the refreshment of our friends at
Nagercoil, and arrived more or less tired out, after a journey which, because
of slow progress and frequent stops, was equal in time to one from London
to Marseilles. But the welcome at the nursery made up for everything.
How vividly the photograph recalls it! The house opened upon the main
street of the village, and there was nearly always a watcher on the look-out
for us. Sometimes it was Isaac, our good man-of-all-work, who never failed
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and Ponnamal (we used to call her the Princess, but dignity gives place to
something more human at such moments) would come flying down the path
with a face which made words superfluous. Then there was the scramble
out of the bandy, and the handing down of babies and exclamations about
them; and all the nurses seemed to be kissing us at once and making their
amazed babies kiss us, and everything was for one happy moment
bewilderingly delightful.
Then there was the run round the cradles in which smaller babies were
sleeping, and an eager comparing of notes as to the improvement of each.
And if there were no improvement, how well one remembers the smothered
sense of disappointment—smothered in public at least, lest the nurses
should be discouraged. Then came a cup of tea on the mat in the little front
room, where four white hammock-cradles hung, one in each corner; while
Ponnamal sat beside me with three babies on her knee and two or three
more somewhere near her. The babies used to study me in their wise and
serious fashion, and then make careful advances. And so we would make
friends.
Ponnamal had always much to tell about the exhaustless kindness of the
doctors and their wives and the lady superintendent of the hospital. And the
chief Tamil medical Evangelist had been true to his name, which means
Blessedness. Once, in much distress of mind, we sent a little babe to the
nursery, hardly daring to hope for her. When she arrived, the doctors were
both away on tour, and the medical Evangelist was in charge. He attended
to her at once, and by God's grace upon his work was able to relieve the
little child, who has prospered ever since.
But I must leave unrecorded many acts of helpfulness. In those early
days of doubt and difficulty, almost forgotten by us now, we beckoned to
our "partners which were in the other ship," and their Master and ours will
not forget how they held out willing hands and helped us.
It was not always plain sailing, even at Neyoor. "You are fighting Satan
at a point upon which he is very sensitive; he will not leave you long in
peace," wrote an experienced friend. On Palm Sunday, 1907, our first little
band of young girls, fruit of this special work, confessed Christ in baptism,
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thrilling that nothing of earth may be likened to it. A fortnight later we were
ordered to the hills, and then the trouble came.
The immediate cause was overcrowding. Why did we overcrowd?
Friends at home to whom the facts about Temple service
were new, were stirred to earnest prayer. Out here fellow- Could we
Refuse?
missionaries helped us to save the children. God heard the
prayer and blessed the work, and children began to come. Soon our one
little room became too full. We had babies in the bungalow and on our
verandah, babies everywhere. Then money came to build two more rooms,
but they were soon too full. At Neyoor the pressure was worse, for we could
only rent two small houses; and though we put up mat shelters, and the
children lived as much as possible in the open air, it was difficult to
manage. But how could we refuse the little children? The Temple women
were ready to take them if we had refused. Their houses are never too full.
There was no other nursery to which they could be sent. Little children who
had passed the troublesome infant stage could sometimes find a home
elsewhere; but only the Temple houses were open at all times to babies.
Could we have written to the friend who had saved a little child: "Hand her
back to the Temple. It is the will of our Father that this little one should
perish"? Should we have done it? We dare not do it. We prayed that help
would be sent to build new nurseries, and we went on and did our best; but
it was difficult.
We had just reached the hills in early April, and were forbidden to return,
when news reached us of a fatal epidemic of dysentery which had broken
out in the Neyoor nursery. Unseasonable rains had fallen and driven the
babies indoors; this increased the overcrowding. The doctors were away.
Letters telling us about the disaster had been lost—how, we never knew—
so that the second which reached us, taking it for granted we had the first,
gave no details, only the names of the smitten babes—nineteen of them, and
five dead. Then trouble followed trouble. "While he was yet speaking, there
came also another." Some evil men who had sought to injure us before,
caused us infinite anxiety. And for a time that cannot be counted in days or
in weeks it was like living through a nightmare, when everything happens
in painful confusion and the sense of oppression is complete.

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THE NEYOOR NURSERY.

Out of the maelstrom came a letter from Ponnamal. "We are being
comforted," she wrote. "You will be longing to come to us, but oh, do not
come! If you were here all your strength would be given to fighting this
battle with death, and you would have no strength left for prayer. God
wanted to have one of us free to pray; and so He has taken you up to the
mountain, as He took Moses when the people were fighting down in the
plain." This was the true inward meaning of it all, and I knew it. But
Ponnamal is far from strong, and I feared for her; and to stay away with the
babies ill—it was the very hardest thing I had ever been asked to do.
When the trouble passed there were ten in heaven. One, a little child of
two, had been saved so wonderfully from Temple dedication that we had
looked forward to a future of special blessing for her; and another was a
very lovely babe, dear to the missionary who, after much toil and many
disappointments, had been comforted by saving her. Each of the ten had
cost someone much. But this is an earthly point of view. They had cost Him
most who had taken them, and he is only an owner in name who has no
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The other side, the purely human side, pressed heavily just then. The
doctors had most kindly at once ordered a mission room, vacated at that
season, to be lent to the nursery, and another little house was taken for the
month. How Ponnamal kept all four houses going in an orderly fashion,
how she kept her nurses together through that time of almost panic, and
how she herself, frail and delicate as she is, kept up till all was over, we
cannot understand from any point of view but the Divine. She only broke
down once. It was when her dearest child, our merry, beautiful little Heart's
Joy, who, having more strength than most, had battled longer and almost
recovered, suddenly sank. The visible cause was that a special nutrient,
which, being costly, we stocked in small quantities, ran short, and the fresh
supply reached the nursery just too late. "If only it had come yesterday!"
moaned Ponnamal, and we with her when we heard of the series of
contretemps which had delayed its arrival. The torture of second causes is
as the blackness of darkness, but the Lord gave deliverance from it; for just
as she had to part with all that was left her of our little Heart's Joy, a letter
came from Dr. Davidson which was God's own blessed comfort to a heart
almost broken. She never refers to that letter without the quick tears
starting. "I could let my little treasure go after I read that letter. It
strengthened me."
While all this was going on in Neyoor, Chellalu, then just
two years old, was very ill in Dohnavur. Mr. and Mrs. "The Lord sat
as King at the
Walker were still there, and they nursed her night and day; Flood"
but at last a letter came, evidently meant to prepare me for
fresh sorrow. "Every little lamb belongs to the Good Shepherd, not to us,"
the letter said, and told of a temperature 106° and rising. The child, all spirit
and frolic, had little reserve strength, and there was not much cause for
hope. But we were spared this parting. Chellalu is with us still.
The sky was clearing again and we were beginning to breathe freely,
when the worst that had ever touched us in all our years of work came
suddenly upon us. How small things that affect the body appear when the
point of attack wheels round to the soul! The death of all the babies seemed
as nothing compared with the falling away of one soul. But God is the God
of the waves and the billows, and they are still His when they come over us;
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overwhelm. Once more by His interposition deliverance came. We were
cast down, but not destroyed.
A time of calm succeeded this storm. Money came to build nurseries at
Dohnavur, and buy more of the special nutrients we so much required. The
Neyoor remnant picked up, and the nurses took heart again. I went out to
them as soon as I could after our return from the hills, and found those who
were left well and strong. "They shall see His face" had been the text in
Daily Light, the evening the news reached me of the little procession
heavenwards. I looked at the ten names written in the margin of my book;
and, recalling the story of each, could be glad they have seen the face of the
One who loves them best. Lower down on the page come the words, "We
shall be satisfied." We thought of our babies satisfied so soon; and then we
knelt together and said, "Even so, Father: for so it seemeth good in Thy
sight."
Pretty pictures all in colours and bright sunshine tempt one to linger over
that visit. I can see the white hammocks slung from the trees in the nursery
compound, and happy baby-faces looking out of them. And another shows
me one who had been like a sister to Ponnamal, lightening her load
whenever she could; sitting with two dear babies in her arms, and another
clinging round her neck. "She comes and helps us often in the mornings
when we are very busy," said Ponnamal about the doctor's wife, as I noticed
the babies' affection for her and her sweet, kind ways with them.
"Sometimes when I am feeling down and home-sick, she comes in like this
and plays with the babies, and cheers us all up." The Indian woman is very
home-loving. Only devotion to the children could have kept the nurses and
Ponnamal so long in exile for their sake; and there were times when even
Ponnamal's brave heart sank. Then these love-touches helped.
When the time came for the nursery party to leave
Neyoor and return to Dohnavur, after two and a half years in Goodbye to
Neyoor
that hospitable mission, we were sorry to part. Days like the
days we had passed through test the stuff of which souls are made, and they
prove what we call friendship. After the fire has spent itself, the fine gold
shines out purified, and there is something solemn in its light. We had
grown close to our friends in Neyoor; but the cloud had moved, so far as we
could read the sign, and it seemed right to return. The missionaries were

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away when the day came, but the Christians surrounded Ponnamal with
tokens of goodwill. "The nursery has been like a little light in our midst,"
they said; and this word cheered her more than all other words. And so
farewelled, they arrived home, all glad and warm with the glow that comes
when hearts meet each other and each finds the other kind.

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CHAPTER XVII
In the Compound and Near it

THE OLD NURSERY. THE "ROOM OF JOY."

"N OW I know why God put you in Dohnavur when He wanted this
work done. He hid you from the eyes of the world for the little
children's sake. He knew this work could never have been done by the road-
side, so He hid you."
The speaker was a Christian friend from Palamcottah, an Indian lawyer
who, for the first time, had come out to see us. He had found our
approaches appalling, and had wondered at first why we lived in such an
out-of-the-way place, three or four miles from the nearest road, and twenty-
four from civilisation. When he saw the children he understood. Later, he
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only upon paying his own and our worker's expenses, but in sending us a
gift for the nurseries. With the gift came a letter full of loving, Indian
sympathy; and again he added as before: "The Lord hid you in that quiet
place for the little children's sake." Sometimes when the inconveniences of
jungle life press upon us, we remember our friend's words: "This work
could never have been done by the road-side, so He hid you."
We have children with us who would not have been safe for a day had
we lived near a large town or near a railway. The stretch of open country
between us and Palamcottah (the Church Missionary Society centre of the
Tinnevelly district), to cover which, by bullock-cart, takes as long as to
travel from London to Brussels, is not considered very safe for solitary
Indian travellers, as the robber clan frequent it, and this is an added
protection for the children. Several times, to our knowledge, unwelcome
visitors have been deterred from making a raid upon us, by the rumour of
the robbers on the road. We are also most mercifully quite out of the beat of
the ordinary exploiter of missions; few except the really keen care for such
a journey; so that we get on with our work uninterrupted by anything but
the occasional arrival of welcome friends and comrades. These, when they
visit us for the first time, are usually much astonished to find something
almost civilised out in the wilds, and they walk round with an air of
surprise, and quite inspiring appreciation, being kindly pleased with little,
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THE COURTYARD.

The compound in which the nurseries are built is a field, bounded on
three sides by fields, and on the fourth by the bungalow compound. The
Western Ghauts with their foothills make it a beautiful place.
The buildings are not beautiful. With us, as elsewhere,
doubtless, even the break of a gable in the straight, barn-like Coming-days
roof makes a difference in the estimate, and we have never
had a margin for luxuries. But the walls are coloured a soft terra-cotta, the
roofs are a dull red; while the porches (hidden by the palm trunks in the
photograph) are a mass of greenery and bloom; and the garden at the
moment of writing is rejoicing in over a hundred lilies, brilliant yellow and
flame colour, each head with its many flowers rising separate and radiant in
the sunshine. Then we have oleanders, crimson and pink and white, and
little young hibiscus trees, crimson and rose and cream. The arches in the
new nursery garden are covered with the lilac of morning-glory; and the
Prayer-room in the middle of the garden is a mass of violet passion-flower,
the pretty pink antigone, and starry jessamine. The very hedges at this
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delight of colour; so though our buildings are simple, we think the lines
have fallen unto us in pleasant places.
The first picture shows the old nursery, used now for the kindergarten. It
opens off the courtyard shown in the second photo. This courtyard serves as
an open-air room, a bright little place which is filled with merrier children
than the sober photograph shows. Tamils old and young move when they
laugh or even smile; in fact they wriggle. Being still, with them, meant
being seriously subdued; and so, where time-exposures were required, we
had to choose between solemn photos, or no photos at all.
Opening off the courtyard on the opposite side to the kindergarten is a
room used as a store-room and Bible-class room combined. It was so very
uncomfortable that last Christmas, as a surprise for the children, we divided
the room into two halves with a curtain between. Their half is made pretty
with pictures and texts, painted in blue on pale brown wood. The children
call this part of the room the Tabernacle. The part beyond the curtain is the
court of the Gentiles.
The Coming-Day Feasts are a feature of Dohnavur life. Now that there
are so many feasts to celebrate, we find it more convenient to combine; and
the photograph overleaf shows as much as it can of one such happy feast.
The children who are being fêted are distinguished from the others by
having flowers in their hair. No Indian feast is complete without flowers.
Jessamine is the favourite, but the prettiest wreaths are made of pink
oleander; and sometimes a girl will surprise us with a new and lovely
combination, as of brown flowering grasses and yellow Tecoma bells.

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A COMING-DAY FEAST.

Opposite the kindergarten room is the first of the two new nurseries—the
lively Parrot-house. This nursery, really the Taraha (Star, called after its
English giver, whose name means "star") is the abode of the middle-aged
babies, aged between two years and four. Most of these attend the
kindergarten, and are very proud of the fact.
The Prémalia nursery (Abode of Love), given by two friends in memory
of a mother translated, lies beyond the Taraha. Here the tiny infants live,
and we call it the Menagerie. This nursery, like the other, looks out on the
glorious mountains. If beautiful things can make babies good, ours should
be very good.
On the eastern side of the field we have lately built two small sick-
rooms, used oftener as overflow nurseries. These little rooms have names
meaning "peace" and "tranquillity"; and those of us who have lived in them
with our babies, sick or well, find the names appropriate. In the foreground
there is a garden, in the background the mountain; and to give purpose to it
all, the foreground is full of life. A new nursery now being built is a
welcome gift from Australia; and a new field with a noble tree, in whose

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shade a hundred children could play, is the gift of a friend who stayed with
us for one bright week last year.
All this is a later development, unthought of when our artist friend was
with us. We have often wished for him since the nurseries filled. When he
was with us our choice of subject was very limited: now, wherever we look
we see pictures, which to be properly caught ask for colour photography.
The story of these buildings is the story of the Ravens, so old and yet so
new. When first the work began, we had only one mud-floored room for
nursery, kitchen, bedroom, and everything else that was needed. We hardly
knew ourselves whereunto things would grow, and feared to run before the
Lord by even a prayer for buildings. And yet we could not go on as we
were. The birds were soon too many for the nest, and we needed more
nests. No one knew of our need; for visitors at that time were few at
Dohnavur, and we told no one. But money began to come. We ventured on
a single room without a verandah or even foundations—built of sun-dried
bricks as inexpensively as possible. But it was a palace to us. While we
were building it, more little children came. We felt we should need more
room, but had not more money; so we told the builders to wait for a day
while we gave ourselves to prayer about the matter. Was the work going to
grow much more? We were fearful of making mistakes. Were we right to
incur fresh responsibility?—for buildings need to be kept in condition, and
the cheaper they are the more care they need. No one at home was
responsible for us. No one had authorised this new work. It would not be
fair to saddle those on whom the burden might eventually fall with
responsibilities for which they were not responsible. And yet surely the
work of saving these little children had been given to us to do? Someone
was responsible. Surely, unless we were utterly wrong and had mistaken the
Shepherd's Voice, surely He was responsible! He could not mean us to
search for the lambs for whom only the wolves had been searching, and
then leave them out in the open, found but unfolded, or packed so close in
the little fold that they could not grow as little lambs should?
We rolled the burden off that day as to the ultimate
responsibility, and we asked definitely for all that was The Registered
Letter
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Three days later a registered letter came from a bank in Madras. It
contained an anonymous gift of one hundred rupees, and was marked, "For
a new nursery." The date showed that it had been posted in Madras on the
day of our waiting upon God for guidance as to His wishes. A few days
later, the same amount, with the same direction as to its use, was sent to us
from the same bank. The giver, as we knew long afterwards, was a fellow-
missionary in Tinnevelly, whose order to send these sums to us was given
before even we ourselves had fully understood the meaning of the leading.
The second room was built on to the first, and the children called it the
Room of Joy.

THE RED LAKE.
Water Palms, with Mountains in the background.

There are no secrets in India. The Hindu masons were amazed at what
they at once recognised as the hand of the Lord upon the work, and they
spread the story everywhere. Later, when they built the nursery where poor
little Mala stood and mourned, they understood why they had to stop before
the verandah was built. Only enough was in hand to build the bare room;
but to their eyes, as to ours, a verandah was much needed, and they were
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sunshine and drenching monsoon a house without a verandah is hardly
habitable, and a small square room without one has a Manx-cat appearance.
The story of the rooms has been repeated in the story of
the work ever since. "Do not thank us. It is only a belated "These are
Thy wonders,
tenth," wrote a fellow-missionary not long ago, as she sent a Lord"
gift for the nurseries. Belated tenths have reached us
sometimes when they have been like visible ravens flying straight from the
blue above. All the long journeys in search of the children, all the expenses
connected with their salvation, all that has been required to provide nurses
and food (including the special nourishment without which the more
delicate could not live at all), all that is now being needed for their
education—all has come and is coming as the ravens came to Elijah. The
work has been a revelation of how many hearts are sensitive and obedient to
the touch of the Spirit; for sometimes help has reached us in such a way and
in such form that we could not but stand and worship, awestruck by the
token of the nearness of our God. There is many a spot marked in garden or
in field or in the busy nursery or our own quiet room, where, with the open
letter in our hand—the letter of relief from a pressure unknown even to the
nearest fellow-worker—we have knelt in spirit with Jacob and said: "Surely
the Lord is in this place!" and almost added, so dense are we in
unilluminated moments, "and I knew it not."
Framed between red roofs and foliage, there are far blue glimpses of
mountains shown in this lakeside photograph. We do not see the water from
the compound. It lies on the other side of the boundary fields and hedges;
but we see the mountains with perfect distinctness of outline, scarped with
bare crags, which in the early morning are sometimes pink, and in the
evening, purple. But the time to see the mountains in their glory is when the
south-west monsoon is flinging its masses of cloud across to us. Then the
mountains, waking from the lazy sleep of the long, hot months, catch the
clouds on their pointed fangs, toss them back and harry them, wrap
themselves up in robes of them, and go to sleep again.
The road that skirts the Red Lake leads through two ancient Hindu
towns, from both of which we have children saved, in each case as by a
miracle. In the first of these old towns there is a Temple surrounded by a
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There are two large gates and one small side door in the wall; and,
passing in through the small side door, one sees another wall almost as
strong as the first, and realises something of the power that built it. The
Temple is in the centre of the large enclosure. It is a single tower opening
off the inner court. In the outer court a pillared hall is used as stable for the
Temple elephant, and two camels lounge in the roughly kept garden in
front. This Temple, with its double walls, its massive, splendidly-carved
doors and expensive animal life, is somewhat of a surprise to the visitor,
who hardly expects to see so much in a little old country town on the
borders of the wilds. But Hinduism has not lost hold of this old remote
India yet. There are some who think that the country town is the place to see
it in strength.

AT THE DOOR OF THE TEMPLE.

It was early in August, three years ago, that we heard of a baby girl in
that town, devoted from birth to the god. We set wheels in motion, and
waited. A month passed and nothing was done. We could not go ourselves
and attempt to persuade the mother to change the vow she had made, as any
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child to the god. We had to be quiet and wait. At last, one evening in
September, a Hindu arrived in the town with whom our friends who were
on the watch had intimate connection. He, too, knew about the child; and he
knew a way unknown to our friends by which the mother might be
influenced, and he consented to try. His arrival just at that juncture appeared
to us, who were waiting in daily expectation of an answer of deliverance, as
the evident beginning of that answer; thus our faith was quickened and we
waited in keen hope. Two days later, after dark, there was a rush from the
nursery to the bungalow. "The baby has come!" Another moment, and we
were in the nursery. A woman—one of our friends—was standing with what
looked like a parcel wrapped in a cloth hidden under her arm. Even then,
though all was safe, she was trembling; and outside, two men, her relations,
stood on guard. She opened the white cloth, and inside was the baby.
The men assured us that all was right. The mother had
been convinced of the wrongness of dedicating the little Her Choice
babe, and would give us no trouble. But a day or two later,
she came and demanded it back. She could not stand the derision of her
friends, who told her she had sinned far more in giving her child to those
who would break its caste than she ever could have done had she given it to
the Temple. We pacified her with difficulty, and were thankful when the
little thing was safe in the Neyoor nursery. For in those days, before we
learned how best to protect our children, we were often glad to have some
place even more out of reach than Dohnavur.
The second of these old towns is famous for its rock, and its Temple
built into the rock. Looking down from above one can see inside the
courtyard as into an open well. Connected with this Temple, some years
ago, there was a beautiful young Temple woman, who had been given as a
child—as all Temple women must be—to the service of the gods. She had
no choice as regarded herself—probably the idea of choice never entered
her mind—but for her babe she determined to choose; and yet she knew of
no way of deliverance.
But there was a way of deliverance, and if it had only been for this one
child's sake, and for the sake of the relief it must have been to that fear-
haunted mother, we are glad with a gladness too deep for words that the
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She quietly avoided them, and through others who were willing to help she
sent her child to us. She herself would not come. She waited a mile or so
from the bungalow till the matter was concluded, then returned to her home
alone.
A week later she appeared suddenly at the bungalow. It was only to
make sure the little one was safe and well, and in order to sign a paper
saying she was wholly given to us. This done she disappeared again,
refusing speech with anyone, and for months we heard nothing of her. Then
cholera swept our countryside, and we heard she had taken it and died. We
leave her to God her Creator, who alone knows all the story of her life: we
only know enough to make us very silent. And through the quiet we hear as
it were a voice that chants a fragment from an old hymn: "We believe that
THOU shalt come to be our Judge."

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CHAPTER XVIII
From the Temple of the Rock

A NOTHER little girl who came from that same Temple of the Rock
has a story very different from the other, and far more typical.
It was on a blazing day in June, when the very air, tired of being hot,
leaned heavily upon us, and we felt unequal to contest, that a cough outside
my open door announced a visitor. "Come in!" Another cough, and I looked
out and saw a shuffling form disappear round the corner of the house. I
called again, and the figure turned. It was a man who had helped us before,
but about whose bonâ-fides we had doubts; so we asked without much
hopefulness what he had to tell us. He said he had reason to believe a
certain Temple woman known to him had a child she meant to dedicate to
the god of a Temple a day's journey distant. Then he paused. "Do you know
where she is now?" "She is on her way to the Temple." "It would be well if
she came here instead." "If that is the Animal's desire it may be possible to
bring her." "Has she gone far? Could you overtake her?" "She is waiting
outside your gate."
At such a moment it is wise to show no surprise and no anxiety. All the
burning eagerness must be covered up with coolness. But in the hour that
intervened before the woman "at the gate" could be persuaded to come
further, we quieted ourselves in the Lord our God and held on for the little
child.
At last the shuffling step and the sound of voices told us they had come
—two women, the man, and a child. The child was a baby of something
under two, a sad-looking little thing, with great, dark, pathetic eyes looking
out from under limp brown curls. She was very pale and fragile; and when
the woman who carried her set her down upon the floor and propped her
against the wall, she leaned against it listlessly, with her little chin in her
tiny hand, in a sorrowful, grown-up fashion. I longed to take her and nestle
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sympathy would have been misunderstood by the women. All through the
interminable talk upon which her fate depended, that child sat wearily
patient, making no demands upon anyone; only the little head drooped, and
the mouth grew pitiful in its complete despondency.
The ways of the East are devious. The fact that the child had been
brought to us did not indicate a decision to give her to us instead of to the
Temple. The woman and the man who had persuaded them to come had
much to say to one another, and there was much we had to explain. A child
given to Temple service is not in all cases entirely cut off from her people.
If the Temple woman's hold on her is sure, her relations are sometimes
allowed to visit her; so far as friendly intercourse goes she is not lost to
them. But with us things are different. For the child's own sake we have to
refuse all intercourse whatever. Once given to us, she is lost to them as if
they had never had her. We adopt the little one altogether or not at all.
It is a delicate thing to explain all this so clearly that
there can be no misunderstanding about it, without so Till the Battle
is Won
infuriating the relations that they will have nothing more to
do with us. Naturally their view-point is entirely different from ours, and
they cannot appreciate our reasons. At such a time we lean upon the
Invisible, and count upon that supernatural help which alone is sufficient for
us; we count also upon the prayers of those who know what it is to pray
through all opposing forces, till the battle is won by faith which is the
victory.
It was strange to watch the women as the talk went on. The woman
within them had died, there was nothing of it left to which we could appeal;
everything about them was perverted, unnatural. I looked at the insensitive
faces and then at the sensitive face of the child, and entered deeper than
ever into the mercifulness of God's denunciations of sin.
Once towards the close of what had been a time of some tension, the
leader of the two women suddenly sprang up, snatched at the tired baby,
and flung out of the room with her. She had been gradually hardening; and I
had felt rather than seen the shutting down of the prison-house gates upon
that little soul, and had, as a last resource, appealed to the sense, not wholly
atrophied, the sense that recognises the supernatural. God is, I told them

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briefly; God takes cognisance of what we are and do: God will repay: some
time, somewhere, God will punish sin. The arrow struck through to the
mark. Startled, indignant, overwhelmed by the sweep of an awful
conviction, with a passionate cry she rushed away; and we lived through
one breathless moment, but the next saw the child dropped into our arms,
safe at last.
Facts about any matter of importance are usually other than at first
stated; but we have reason to believe that in this instance our shuffling
friend spoke the truth. The women were really on their way to the Temple
when he waylaid them. The wonder was that they allowed themselves to be
persuaded by him to come to us. But if nothing happened except what we
might naturally expect would happen in this work, we might as well give it
up at once. If we did not expect our Jericho walls to fall down flat, it would
be foolish indeed to continue marching round them.
It was a relief when the women left the compound, after signing a paper
committing the child to us. There is defilement in the mere thought of evil,
but such close contact with it is a thing by itself. The sense of
contamination lasted for days; and yet would that we could go through it
every day if the result might be the same! For the child woke up to a new
life, and became what a child should be. At first it was very pitiful. She
would sit hour after hour as she had sat through that first hour, with her chin
in hand, her eyes cast down, and the little mouth pathetic. We found that, in
accordance with a custom prevailing in the coterie of Temple women
belonging to the Temple of the Rock, she had been lent by her mother to
another woman when she was an infant, the other lending her baby in
exchange. This exchange had worked sadly; for the little one had asked for
something which had not been given her, and her two years had left her
starved of love and experienced in loneliness. But when she came to us
everything changed; for love and happiness took her hands and led her back
to baby ways, and taught her how to laugh and play: and now there is
nothing left to remind us of those two first years but a certain droop of the
little mouth when she feels for the moment desolate, or wants some extra
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CHAPTER XIX
Yosépu

N
would
O description of
the
be
compound
complete
without mention of
Yosépu, friend of the
babies.
This photograph
shows the Indian
equivalent of pumps and
water-pipes. We have
neither; so all the water
required for a family of
about a hundred has to be
drawn from the well and
carried to the kitchens
and nurseries. The elder
girls, who would
otherwise help with the
work, according to South
Indian custom, are
already fully employed
with the babies. So at
present the men do it all.
They also buy the grain
and other food-stuffs, THE WATER CARRIERS.
look after the cows and
vegetable garden—a
necessity for those who dwell far from markets—and in all other possible
masculine ways are of service to the family.

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Chief of these men is Yosépu, whose seamed and wrinkled and most
expressive face I wish we had photographed, instead of this not very
interesting string of solemnities.
Yosépu is not like a man, he is more like a dear dog. He has the ways of
our dog-friends, their patience and fidelity, their gratefulness for pats.
He came to us in a wrecked condition, thin and weak and rather queer.
He had been beaten by his Hindu brother for becoming a Christian, and it
had been too much for him. The first time we saw him, a few minutes after
his arrival, he was standing leaning against a post with folded hands and
upturned eyes and a general expression of resignation which went to our
hearts. We found afterwards he was not feeling resigned so much as hungry,
and he was better after food.
For a week he slept, ate, and meditated. Sometimes he would hover
round us, if such a verb is admissible for his seriousness of gait. He would
wait till we noticed him, then sigh and extend his hand. He wanted us to
feel his pulse—both pulses. This ceremony always refreshed him, and he
would return to his corner of the verandah and meditate till his next meal
came.
Sometimes, however, more attention was required. He would linger after
his pulses were felt, and we knew he was not satisfied. One day a happy
thought struck us. The Tamil loves scent. The very babies sniff our hands if
we happen to be using scented soap, and tell each other rapturously what
they think about that "chope." Scent is the one thing they cannot resist. A tin
of sweets on our table may be untouched for days, few babies being wicked
enough to venture upon it in our absence; but a bottle of scent is irresistible,
and scented "chope" on our washing-stands has a way of growing thin. The
baby will emerge from our bathrooms rubbing suspiciously clean hands,
and in her innocence will invite us to smell them. Then we know why our
"chope" disappears. So now that Yosépu needed something to lift him over
the trials of life, we remembered the gift of a good Scottish friend, and tried
the effect of eau-de-Cologne. It worked most wonderfully. Yosépu held out
his two hands joined close lest a single drop should spill, and then he stood
and sniffed. It would have made a perfect advertisement—the big brown
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upon every visible feature. Now, when Yosépu is down-hearted, we always
try eau-de-Cologne.
His first move towards being of use was when some of
our children had small-pox and were put up in a half- Blessed be
Drudgery
finished room which was being built. "It has walls and it has
a roof, therefore it is suitable," was Yosépu's opinion; and he offered to
nurse the children. One evening we heard a terrible noise; it was like three
cracked violins gone mad, all playing different tunes at the same time. It
was only Yosépu singing hymns to the children. "For spiritual instruction is
a thing to be desired, and there is nothing so edifying as music."
After this he announced his intention of becoming a water-carrier.
"Water is a pure thing and a necessity. The young children demand much
water if their bodies are to be"—here followed Scriptural quotations meant
in deepest reverence. "I will be responsible for the baths of all the babes."
And from that time Yosépu has been responsible. Solemnly from dawn to
dusk, with breathing spaces for meals and meditation, he stalks across from
nurseries to well and from well to nurseries. He is a man of few smiles; but
he is the cause of many, and we all feel grateful to Yosépu for his goodness
to us. Often on melancholy days he comes and comforts us.
It was so one anxious day before we went to the hills, when we were
trying to plan for the safety of our family. We can only take a limited
number of converts with us, and no babies; the difficulty is then which to
take, which to hide, and which to leave in the nurseries. We were in the
midst of this perplexity when Yosépu arrived. He stood in silence, and then
sighed, as his cheerful custom is. We made the usual inquiries as to his
health, physical and spiritual. Both soul and body (his invariable order,
never body and soul) were well, he said; his pulse did not need to be felt to-
day: no, there was something weightier upon his mind. There are times
when it is like extracting a tooth to get a straight answer from Yosépu, for
he resents directness in speech; he thinks it barbarous. At last it came.
"Aiyo! Aiyo!" (Alas! Alas!) "My sun has set; but who am I, that I should
complain or assault the decrees of Providence? But Amma! remember the
word of truth: 'Then shall ye bring down my grey hairs with sorrow to the
grave.'" And he slowly unwound his wisp of a turban, held it in his folded

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hands, and shook down his lanky, jet-black locks with a pathos that was
almost sublime.
It took time to pierce
to the meaning of it: the
children were being
scattered—the reason
must be that we felt the
bath-water carrying too
much for his powers
through the hot weeks. It
was not so! He was
strong to draw and to
bear. The babies should
never be deprived of their
baths! But to-day as he
went to the well he had
heard what broke his
heart; and he laid his
hand upon the injured
organ, and sighed with a
sigh that assured us his
lungs at least were sound.
"Tingalu is to go away!
The apple of my eye! that
golden child who smiles
upon me, and says, 'Oh,
elder brother, good
THE BELOVED TINGALU. morning!' You are not
going to leave her with
me! Therefore spake I the word of truth concerning my grey hairs." Then
quoting the text again, he turned and walked away.
Once the beloved Tingalu was slightly indisposed. She has not often the
privilege of being ill, and so, when the opportunity offers, she does the
invalid thoroughly; it would be a pity, Tingalu thinks, to be anything but
correct. But Yosépu was much concerned. He appeared in the early morning
with his usual cough and sigh. "Amma! Tingalu is ill!" "She will soon be

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better, Yosépu; she is having medicine." "What sort of medicine, Amma?"
and Yosépu mentioned the kind he thought suitable. "That is exactly what
she has had; you will see her playing about to-morrow." "But no smile is on
her face to-day; I fear for the babe." (Tingalu never smiles when ill. Invalids
should not smile.) Yosépu suggested another medicine to supplement the
first, and departed.
Next morning he came again, anxious and cast down in
countenance. I had to keep him waiting; and when I came I will pay for it
out, he was standing beside my verandah steps, head on one
side, eyes shut, hands folded as if in prayer. "Well, Yosépu, what is it?"
"Amma! the light of your eyes revives me!" "Well, tell me the trouble." "All
yesterday I saw you not; it was a starless night to me!" This is merely the
preface. "But, Yosépu, what is wrong?" "Tingalu, that golden child with a
voice like a bird, she lies on her mat. I am concerned about the babe,"
(Tingalu, turned four, is as hardy as a gipsy), "I fear for her delicate interior.
Those ignorant children" (the convert nurses would have been pleased if
they had heard him) "know nothing at all. It may be they will feed her with
curry and rice this morning. That would be dangerous. Amma! Let her have
bread and milk, and I will pay for it!"
Yosépu came a few days ago with a request for a doll. "Who for?" "For
myself." "But are you going to play with it?" Yosépu acknowledged he was,
and he wished it to have genuine hair, a pink silk frock, and eyes that would
open and shut. We had not anything so elaborate to give him, and he had to
be contented with a black china head and painted eyes; but he was pleased,
and took it away carefully rolled up in his turban, which serves
conveniently for head-gear, towel, scarf, and duster. When and where he
plays with the doll no one knows, but he assures us he does; and we have
mentally reserved the first pink silk, with eyes that will open and shut, that
a benevolent public sends to us, for Yosépu. . . . The words were hardly
written when a shadow fell across the paper, and the unconscious subject of
this chapter remarked as I looked up: "1 Corinthians vii. 31." "Do you want
anything, Yosépu?" "Amma! 1 Corinthians vii. 31." "Well, Yosépu?" "As it
is written in that chapter, and that verse: 'The fashion of this world passeth
away.' Amma, if within the next two months a visitor comes to Dohnavur
carrying a picture-catching box, I desire that you arrange for the catching of
my picture. This, Amma, is my desire."

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The Western mind is very dense; and for a moment I could not see the
connection between the text and the photograph. Yosépu is never impatient.
He squatted down beside me, dropped his turban round his neck, held his
left foot with his left hand, and emphasised his explanation with his right.
"Amma, the wise know that life is uncertain. I am a frail mortal. You,
who are as mother and as father to this unworthy worm, would feel an
emptiness within you if I were to depart." "But, Yosépu, I hope you are not
going to depart." This was exactly what Yosépu had anticipated. He smiled,
then he sighed. "Amma! did I not say it before? 1 Corinthians vii. 31: 'The
fashion of this world passeth away.' Therefore I said, Let me have my
picture caught, so that when I depart you may hang it on your wall and still
remember me."
Yosépu's latest freak has been to take a holiday. "My
internal arrangements are disturbed; composure of mind will Within me
pulled the
only be obtained by a month's respite from secularities." Strings of
Yosépu had once announced his intention of offering Love
himself to the National Missionary Society, and we thought
he now referred to becoming an ascetic for a month and wandering round
the country, begging-bowl in hand; for he solemnly declared as he stroked
his bony frame: "The Lord will provide." But his intention was a real
holiday. He would go and see the brother who had beaten him, and forgive
him. We suggested the brother might beat him again. He smiled at our want
of faith, and went for his holiday. A month was the time agreed upon, but
within three days he was back. He could not stay away, he explained, with a
shame-faced air of affection. "Within me pulled the strings of love; pulled,
yea, pulled till I returned." Faithful, quaint, and wholly original Yosépu! He
calls himself our servant, but we think of him as our friend.

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CHAPTER XX
The Menagerie

Fate which foresaw
How frivolous a baby man would be—

T HE event of the week,
from a Tamil point of
view, is the midday Sunday
service; so we take care of
the nurseries during that hour,
and send all grown-up life to
church. In the Prémalia
nursery the babies range from
a few days old to eighteen
months, and sometimes two
years. There is a baby for
every mood, as one beloved
of the babies says; and the
babies seem to know it. We
have a lively time there on
Sundays; for by noon the
morning sleep is over, and
nineteen or twenty babies are
waking up one after the other
or all together. And most of
them want something, and
want it at once.
These babies are of TWO VIEWS OF LIFE.
various dispositions and
colour—nut-brown, biscuit,
and buff; and there are two who, taken together, suggest chocolate-cream.

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Chocolate is a dear child, very good-tempered and easy to manage. Cream
is a scamp. We see in her another Chellalu, and watch with mingled feelings
her vigorous development.
Chocolate has another name. It is Beetle. This does not sound
appreciative, but Beetle is beloved. The name was discovered by her
affectionate Piria Sittie, who came upon her one morning lying on her back
in the swinging cot, kicking her four limbs in the air in the agitated manner
of that insect unexpectedly upset. But no beetle ever smiled as ours does.
Cream, whose real name is Nundinie, oftener called Dimples, because
she dimples so when she laughs, is a baby of character. She early
discovered her way to the bungalow, and scorning assistance or
superintendence found her way over as soon as she could walk. Afternoon
tea is never a sombre meal, for the middle-aged babies attend it in relays of
four or five; and Dimples and her special chum, Lulla, like to arrive in good
time for the full enjoyment of the function. Dimples sits down properly in a
high chair close beside her Attai, who, according to her view of matters,
was created to help her to sugar. Lulla, so as to be even nearer that
exhaustless delight, insists upon her Attai's knee; and tapping her face with
her very small fingers, immediately points to the sugar bowl.

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These preliminaries over, Dimples sets herself to pay for
her seat. She smiles upon her Attai first, then upon all the Diversions
company. If the Iyer is present, she notices him kindly: there
is nothing in all nature so patronising as a baby. If in the mood, she will
imitate her friends like her predecessor Scamp No. 1; or folding her fat
arms will regard us all with a quizzical expression more comical than play.
Her latest invention is drill. She stands straight up in her chair, and goes
through certain actions intended to represent as much as she knows of that
interesting exercise. We are kept anxious lest she should overbalance; but
she is a wary babe, and always suddenly sits down when she gets to the
edge of a tumble. Sometimes, however, when these diversions are in
progress, we have wished that the family could see how very much more
entertaining she is in her own nursery. There, from the beginning of the day
till the sad moment when it ends, she seems to be engaged in entertaining
somebody. Sometimes it is one of the Accals, those good elder sisters to
whom the babies owe so much. Dimples thinks she looks tired. Tired people
must be cheered, so Dimples devotes herself to her. Sometimes it is another
baby who is dull. Dull babies are anomalies. Dimples feels responsible till
the dull baby revives. Or it is just her own happy little self who is being
entertained. If ever a baby enjoyed a game for its own sweet sake, it is
Dimples.
But one thing she does not enjoy, and that is being put to bed at night.
Our babies are anointed with oil, according to the custom of the East, before
being put to sleep; but the moment Dimples sees the oil-bottle in her nurse's
hand, she knows her fate is sealed and protests with all her might. Once she
contrived to seize the bottle, pull out the cork, and spill the oil before she
was discovered. She seemed to argue that as she was invariably oiled before
being put to bed, the best way to avoid ever being put to bed would be to
get rid of the oil. Another evening she succeeded in diverting her nurse into
a long search for the cork, thereby delaying the fatal last moment; it was
finally found in her mouth. When, in spite of all efforts to wriggle out of
reach, she is captured, anointed, and put in her hammock, Dimples knows
she must not get out; but her wails are so lamentable that it is difficult to
restrain ourselves from throwing discipline to the winds, and if by any
chance we do, her smiles are simply ravishing. But we hear about it
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If Dimples is asleep when we take charge of the nursery, we find things
fairly quiet and almost flat. But she usually wakens early, and always in a
good temper. It is instructive to see the way she scrambles out of her
hammock before she is quite awake, and her sleepy stagger across the room
is often interrupted by a tumble. Dimples does not mind tumbles. If her
curly head has been rather badly knocked, she looks reproachfully at the
floor, rubs her head, and gets up again. By the time she reaches us she is
wide awake and most engaging.
In C. F. Holder's Life of Agassiz we are told that the great scientist "could
not bear with superficial study: a man should give his whole life to the
object he had undertaken to investigate. He felt that desultory, isolated,
spasmodic working avails nothing, but curses with narrowness and
mediocrity." This is exactly the view of one of our babies, already
introduced, the little wise Lulla, who always knows her own mind and
sticks to her intentions, unbeguiled by any blandishments.
This baby is a tiny thing, with a round, small head, covered with soft,
small curls; and this head is very full of thoughts. Her face, which she
rarely shows to a stranger, is like a doll in its delicate daintiness; but the
mouth is very resolute, and the eyes very grave. Her hands and feet are sea-
shell things of a pretty pinky brown, and her ways are the ways of a sea-
anemone in a pool among the rocks.
Lulla, because of her anemone ways, is sometimes unkindly called
"Huffs." She does not understand that there are days when those who love
her most have little time to give to her. Lulla naturally argues that where
there is a will there is a way, and desultory, isolated, spasmodic affection is
worth little; so next time her friend appears, she explains all this to her by
means of a single gesture: she draws her tentacles in.
But it is when Lulla has undertaken to investigate a tin of
sweets that she most suggests Agassiz. The tin has a lid Agassiz
which fits tightly, and Lulla's fingers are very small and not
very strong. The tin, moreover, is on the window-sill just out of reach,
though she stands on tip-toe and stretches a little eager hand as far as it will
go. Then it is you see persistence. Lulla finds another baby, leads her to the
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together; if this fails, Lulla finds a taller one, and at last successful, sits
down with the tin held tightly in both hands, and turns it over and shakes it.
This process seems to inspire fresh hope and energy; for she sets to work
round the lid, which is one of the fitting-in sort, and carefully presses and
pulls. Naturally this does nothing, and she shakes the tin again. The joyful
sound of rattling sweets stimulates to fresh attempts upon the lid. She tugs
and pulls, and thumps the refractory thing on the floor. By this time the
other babies, attracted by the hopeful rattle, have gathered round and are
watching operations; some offer to help, but all such offers are declined.
This oyster is Lulla's. She has undertaken to force it. Agassiz and his fishes
are on her side. She will not give it up. But she is not getting on; and she
sits still for a moment, knitting her brow, and frowning a little puzzled
frown at the refractory tin.
Suddenly her forehead smooths, the anxious brown eyes smile, Lulla has
thought a new good thought. The babies struggle up and offer to help Lulla
up, but she shakes her head. She seems to feel if she herself unaided, of her
own free will, hands her problem over to her Ammal or her Sittie, only so
she may achieve her purpose without loss of self-respect.
Lulla's beloved nurse is a motherly woman, older than most of our
workers. Her name is Annamai. When the nurses return from church, each
makes straight for her baby; and the babies always respond with a cordial
and pretty affection. But Lulla welcoming Annamai is something more than
pretty. The big white-robed figure no sooner appears in the garden than the
tiny Lulla is all a-quiver with excitement. But it is a quiet excitement; and if
you take any notice, the tentacles suddenly draw in, and the little face is as
wax. If no one seems to notice, then Lulla lets herself go. She all but dances
in her eagerness, while Annamai is slowly sailing up the walk; and when
she reaches the verandah, Lulla can wait no longer; one spring and she is in
her arms, nestling, cuddling, burying her curls in her neck; then looking up
confidentially, little Lulla begins to talk; everything we have done and said
is being whispered into Annamai's ear. It does not matter that Lulla cannot
yet speak any language known to men; she can make Annamai understand,
and that is all she cares. Once we remember watching her, as she took the
remnant of a sweet we had given her, out of her mouth and poked it into
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Dimples and Lulla are quite inseparable. Lulla is to Dimples what Tara is
to Evu. She immensely admires her vigorous little junior, and tries to copy
her whenever possible. One delicious game seems to have been suggested
by the arches in the garden. Dimples and Lulla stand on all fours close
together. Then they lean over till their heads touch the ground, and look
through the arch. If you are on the babies' level (that is on the floor), you
will enjoy this game.
Another Sunday morning entertainment is kissing. Dimples advances
upon Lulla. Lulla falls upon Dimples. Then Dimples hugs Lulla, nearly
chokes her, almost certainly overturns her. The two roll over and over like
kittens. Dimples seizes Lulla by her curls and vehemently kisses face, neck,
and anything else she can get at; and then backs off, propelling herself on
two feet and one hand, in which position she looks like a puppy on three
paws. Lulla smooths her ruffled curls and person generally, regards Dimples
with gravity, and, if in an affectionate humour herself, leads the attack upon
Dimples, and the programme is repeated.
But the joy of the hour is to spin in the hammocks. These contrivances
being hung from the roof swing freely, and the special excitement is to hold
on with both hands, and run round so that the hammock twists into a knot
and spins when released, with the baby inside it, in a giddy waltz till the
coil untwists itself. This looks dangerous, and when the game was first
invented we rather demurred. But we are wiser now, and we let them spin.
Lulla especially enjoys this madness. It is startling to see the tiny thing
whirl like a reckless young teetotum. But if you weakly interfere, Lulla
thinks you want to learn the art, and goes at it with even madder zest, till
her very curls are dizzy.
Dimples and Lulla in disgrace are a piteous spectacle.
Dimples opens her mouth till it is almost square, and the "Daren't laugh
and wouldn't
most plaintive wail proceeds from it for about a minute and cry
a half. Then she stops, looks sadly on the world, surprised
and hurt at its unkindness to her, and then suddenly she discovers
something interesting to do; and hastily rubbing her knuckles into her eyes
to clear them as quickly as maybe of tears, she scrambles on to her feet, and
forgets her injuries. Once she had been very naughty, and had to be
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requires it; but hard things have to be done, so that morning the fat little
hands, to their surprise, knew the feel of chastening pats. "She daren't laugh,
and she wouldn't cry"; this description, her Piria Sittie's, is the best I can
offer of that baby's attitude. The thing could not possibly be a joke, but if
meant otherwise, it was an indignity far past tears.
Lulla is quite different. She drops on the floor, if admonished, as if her
limbs had suddenly become paralysed, and takes absolutely no notice of the
offending disciplinarian. She simply ignores her, and gazes mutely beyond
her. The offence is not one for explanation, and if invited to repent, her
aloofness of demeanour is perfectly withering. But take her up in your
arms, and she buries her curls in your neck, and coos her apologies (or is it
forgiveness?) in your ear, and loves you all the better for the momentary
breach.
Our babies are often parables. Lulla stands for the Single Eye. How
often we have watched her and learned the lesson from her! She sees
someone to whom she wants to go at what must seem to her an immense
distance. And the distance is filled with obstacles, some of them quite
enormous. But Lulla never stops to consider possibilities. Difficulties are
simply things to be climbed over. She looks at the goal and makes straight
for it. Her only care is to reach it. Sometimes at afternoon tea, when she is
sitting on someone's lap, facing an empty, uninteresting plate, she sees
another plate three chairs distant, and upon that plate there is a biscuit or
some other sweet attraction. Upon such occasions Lulla all but plunges into
space between the chairs, in her singleness of purpose. Having reached the
lap nearest that plate, she turns and smiles at her late entertainer just to
make sure she is not offended. But even if she knew she would be, Lulla
would not hesitate. Curly head foremost, eyes on the goal: that is Lulla.
We have a custom at Dohnavur which perplexes the
sober-minded. We call most of our possessions by names Mixed pickles
other than their own. These names are entirely private. We
have to keep to this rule of privacy, otherwise we get shocks. "O Lord, look
upon our beloved Puppy, and make her tooth come through; and bless Alice
(in Wonderland), whose inside has gone wrong," was the petition offered in
all seriousness, which finally moved us to prudence. We do not feel
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when they come. That is all we have to do with them. Besides the Beetle
and the Sea-anemone we have a dear Cockatoo, who screws her nose and
her whole face up into a delightful pucker when she either laughs or cries,
and then suddenly unscrews it in the middle of either emotion and looks
entirely demure. This is the little Vimala, who, under God, owes her life to
her Piria Sittie's splendid nursing. This baby has always got a private little
secret of joy hidden away somewhere inside. We surprise her sometimes,
sitting alone on the floor talking to herself about it; and then she tells us bits
of it—as much as she thinks we can understand. But most of it is still
hidden away, her own private little secret. And there is an Owlet, a Coney, a
Froglet, and a Cheshire Cat, a Teddy-bear, a Spider, a Ratlet, and a
Rosebud. We are aware that this list is rather mixed; but to be too critical
would end in being nothing, so we are a Menagerie.
The Rosebud is like her name, small and sweet. When she wants to kiss
her friends, which is whenever she sees them, her mouth is like the pink
point of a moss-rose bud just coming through the moss. George Macdonald,
perfect interpreter of babies, must have had our Preethie's double in his
mind when he wrote:—
Whence that three-cornered smile of bliss?
Three angels gave me at once a kiss.
How did you come to us, you dear?
God thought of you, and so I am here.
The Owlet is twin to that quaint little bird, so its name flew to her and
stayed. This babe has round eyes with long curling lashes. When she is
good, these round eyes beam, and every one forgets that anything so
fascinating can ever be other than good. When she is naughty the case is
exactly reversed. This baby's proper name is Lullitha, which means
Playfulness, and illustrates a side of her character undiscovered by the
visitor who only sees the Owlet sitting on her perch with serious, watchful,
unblinking eyes, regarding the intruder. But most babies are complex
characters, and are not known in an hour.
The Teddy-bear is a fine child with perfect lungs, a benevolent smile,
and an appetite. Her ruling passion at present is devotion to her food. She
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her own five meal-times and also at the meal-times of all the other babies in
the nursery.
On Sunday morning, when we are in charge, we hear her
views upon this subject expressed in a manner wholly her Teddy
own. She has just drained her own bottle, and is indignantly
explaining that it is not nearly enough, when another bottle arrives for
another baby, and this is too much for Teddy's equanimity. We all know
how hard it is to keep up under the shock of adversity. Teddy does not
attempt to keep up; she invariably topples over. But the way she does this is
instructive. She sits stiff and straight for one brief moment, her milky mouth
wide open, her hands outstretched in despairing appeal; then she clasps her
head with her hands in a tragic fashion, absurd in a very fat infant, sways
backwards and forwards two or three times till the desperate rock ends
suddenly, as the poor Teddy-bear overbalances and bursts with a mighty
burst. But the storm is too furious to last, and she soon subsides with a
gusty sob and a short snort.
Poor little injured Teddy-bear! If it were not for her splendid health we
might believe her oft-repeated tale of private starvation. "They only feed me
when you are here to see! Other times they give me nothing at all!" She
tells us this frequently in her own particular language, but the sturdy limbs
belie it. This babe in matters of affection and mischief is as strenuous and
original as she is about the one supreme affair pertaining to her elastic
receptacle—to quote a Tamil friend's polite reference to the cavity within us
—and many more edifying scenes might have been shown from her
eventful life. But undoubtedly the predominating note at the present hour is
her insatiable hunger, and when her name is mentioned in the nursery there
is a smile and a new tale about her amazing appetite.

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CHAPTER XXI
More Animals

MORE ANIMALS: DEPRESSED.
Nurses: Karuna to left (the Duckling of "Things as They Are"); and Annamai, to
right, Lulla's beloved.

I N full contrast to Teddy-bear is that floppy child, the Coney. In Hart's
Animals of the Bible, there is a picture of this baby, only the fore-paws
should be raised in piteous appeal to be taken up. The Coney is really a
pretty child with pathetic eyes and a grateful smile; but she was long in
learning to walk, and felt aggrieved when we remonstrated. Her feet, she
considered, were created to be ornamental rather than useful, and no
amount of coaxing backed up with massage could persuade her otherwise.
So she was left behind in the march; and when her contemporaries departed
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the infants had no pity. They regarded her as a sort of hassock, large and
soft and good to jump on. More than once we have come into the nursery
and found the big, meek child of three kneeling resignedly under a window
upon which an adventurous eighteen-months wished to climb; and often we
have found her prostrate and patient under the dancing feet of Dimples.
However, the Coney can walk now. This triumph was effected with the
help of an Indianised go-cart, which did what all our persuasions had
entirely failed to do. But the process was not pleasant. The poor Coney
would stand mournfully holding the handle of her instrument of torture,
longing with a yearning unspeakable to sit down and give it up for ever.
Someone would pass, and hope would rise in her heart. She would be
carried now, carried out of sight of that detested go-cart. But no, the
callous-hearted only urged her to proceed. She would howl then with a
howl that told of bitter disappointment. Sometimes she would sit down flat
and regard the thing with a blighting glance, the hatred of a gentle nature
roused to unwonted vehemence. Always her wails accompanied the
rumbling of its wheels.
"The Conies are but a feeble folk, yet they make their houses in the
rocks." One day in deep depression of spirits the Coney arrived at the
kindergarten. She sat down before the threshold, which is three inches high,
and climbed carefully over it. She found herself in a new world, where
babies were doing wonderful things and enjoying all they did. The Coney
decided to join a class, and was offered beads to thread. Life with beautiful
beads to thread became worth living, and it may be in the course of time
that the tortoise will overtake the hare. In any case we find much cheer in
the conclusion of the verse, for if our Coney builds in the Rock her being
rather feeble will not matter very much.
Those who possess that friend of our youth, Alice, as illustrated by Sir
John Tenniel, may find the photograph twice reproduced of our fat Cheshire
Cat. This baby is remarkable for two things: she smiles and she vanishes.
The time to see the vanishing conducted with more celerity than Alice ever
saw it, is when the babies' warning call is sounded across the verandah and
a visitor appears in the too near horizon. This baby then vanishes round the
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chief contrast between her and the cat among the foliage is that with our Cat
the smile goes first.
Sunday morning, to return to the beginning, is full of
possible misadventure. Sometimes the babies seem to agree "Beetle! Open
your mouth!"
among themselves that it would be well to be good. Then
their admiring Sittie and Ammal have nothing to do but enjoy them. But
sometimes it is otherwise. First one baby pulls her sister's hair, and the other
retaliates, till the two get entangled in each other's curls. Piria Sittie flies to
the rescue, disentangles the combatants and persuades them to make
friends. Meanwhile three restless spirits in bodies to match have crept out
through the open door (it is too hot if we shut the doors), and we find them
comfortably ensconced in forbidden places. The Beetle is a quiet child. She
retires to a corner and looks devout. Presently a sound as of scraping draws
our attention to her. "Beetle! Open your mouth!" Beetle opens her mouth. It
is packed with whitewash off the wall. Then a scared cry rings through the
nursery, and all the babies, imagining awful things imminent, tumble one on
top of the other in a wild rush into refuge. It is only a large grasshopper
which has startled the Cheshire Cat, whose great eyes are always on the
look-out for possible causes of panic. The grasshopper is banished to the
garden and the Cheshire Cat smiles all over her face. Peace restored,
Dimples and the Owlet remember a dead lizard they found in a corner of
the verandah, and set off to recover it. These two walk exactly like
mechanical toys; and as they strut along hand in hand, or one after the other,
they look like something wound up and going, in a Christmas shop window.
Presently they return with the lizard. Its tail is loose, and they sit down to
pull it off. This is not a nice game, and something else is suggested.
Dimple's mouth grows suddenly square; she wants that lizard's tail.
Then a dear little child called Muff (because she ought to be called Huff
if the name had not been already appropriated), who has been solemnly
munching a watch, decides it is time to demand more individual attention.
She objects to the presence of another baby on her Sittie's lap. Why should
two babies share one lap? The thing is self-evidently wrong. One lap, one
baby, should be the rule in all properly conducted nurseries. Muff broods
over this in silence, then slides off the crowded lap and sits down
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takes time to explain matters and comfort, without giving in to the one-lap-
one-baby theory.

TUBBING.

We have several helpful babies. Dimples has been discovered paying
required attentions to things smaller than herself; and the Wax Doll pats the
Rosebud if she thinks it will reassure her, when (as rarely happens) that pet
of the family is left stranded on a mat. But Puck is the most inventive. It
was one happy Sunday morning that we came upon her feeding the Ratlet
on her own account. The Ratlet was making ungrateful remarks; and we
hurried across to her and saw that Puck, under the impression doubtless that
any hole would do, was pouring the milk in a steady stream down the poor
infant's nose. Puck smiled up peacefully. She was sure we would be pleased
with her. But the Ratlet continued eloquent for very many minutes.
Sometimes (but this is an old story now) our difficulties
were increased by the Spider's habit of whimpering, which The Spider
and the Cod-
had a depressing effect upon the family. This poor baby was fish
a weak little bag of bones when first she came to us. The
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colour of her skin, and hung about her head like tattered shreds of a spider's
web. She sat in a bunch and never smiled. Something about her suggested a
spider. Her Tamil name is Chrysanthemum, which by the change of one
letter becomes Spider. So we called her Spider.
At first we were not anxious about her; for such little children pick up
quickly if they are healthy to begin with, as we believed she was. But she
did not respond to the good food and care, and only grew thinner and more
miserable as the weeks passed, till she looked like the first picture in a
series of advertisements of some marvellous patent food, and we wondered
if she would ever grow like the fat and flourishing last baby of the series.
For two months this state of things continued; she grew more wizened
every day; and the uncanny spider-limbs and attitude gave her the air of not
being a human baby at all, but a terrible little specimen which ought not to
be on view but should be hidden safely away in some private medical place
—on a shelf in a bottle of spirits of wine.
We are asked sometimes if such tiny things can suffer other than
physically. We have reason to think they can. As all else failed, we took a
little girl from school for whom the Spider had an affection, and let her love
her all day long; and almost at once there was a change in the sad little face
of the Spider. She had been cared for by an old grandfather after her
mother's death, and it seemed as if she had fretted for him and needed
someone all to herself to make up for what she was missing.
This little girl, the Cod-fish by name, was devoted to the Spider. She
nestled her and played with her—or attempted to, I should say, for at first
the Spider almost resented any attempts to play. "She doesn't know how to
smile!" said the Cod-fish disconsolately after a week's petting and loving
had resulted only in fewer whimpers, but not as yet in smiles. A few days
later she came to us, and announced with much emotion: "She has smiled
three times!" Next day the record rose to seven; after that we left off
counting.
The Spider is fat and bonnie now. Her skin is a clear and creamy brown,
and her hair has lost its dustiness; but she still likes to sit crumpled up, and
a small alcove in the kitchen is her favourite haven when tired of the world.
Seen unexpectedly in there, bunched in a tight knot, her dark, keen little

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eyes peering out of the light-coloured little face, she still suggests a spider.
But it is a cheerful Spider, which makes all the difference.

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CHAPTER XXII
The Parrot House

RED LAKE AND HILL.
As seen (without the water) from the Taraha Nursery.

T HE time to see the Taraha nursery at its best is between late evening
and early morning, and again about noon. It is perfectly peaceful then.
Thirty mats are spread upon the floor. Thirty babies are strewn upon the
mats. All the thirty are asleep. A sleeping baby is good. Thirty babies all
good at once is something we cannot promise at any other hour.
Shading your lantern, and walking carefully so as not to tread on more
scattered limbs than may be, you wander round the nursery and meditate
upon the beautiful ways of childhood. There is something so touching in
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locked in each other's arms. You have to look twice before you see which
limbs belong to which. There another is hugging a doll minus its head. Next
to her a baby sleeps pillowed on another, and the other does not mind. In
the middle of the floor, far from her mat, a sturdy three-year-old sprawls
content. You pick her up gently and lay her on her mat. With an expression
of determined resolution the baby rolls off again; and if you attempt another
remove, an ominous pucker of the forehead warns you to desist. You
wonder if the babies are quite as good as they seem. One of the dear, fat,
devoted little pair you noticed at first, stirs, disentangles herself from her
neighbour, and gives her a slight kick. There is a smothered, sleepy howl,
and the kick is returned. "Water!" wails the first fat baby. "Water!" wails the
second. You get water, give it, pat both fat babies till they go to sleep, and
then cautiously retire. It would be a pity if all the babies were to waken
thirsty and kick each other. At the door you turn and look back. Graceful
babies, clumsy babies, babies who lie extended like young pokers, babies
curled like kittens. All sorts of babies, good, bad, and middling, but all
blessedly asleep.
Sleep, baby, sleep!
Thy father guards his sheep,
Thy mother shakes the dreamland-tree
Down fall the little dreams for thee,
Sleep, baby, sleep!

Sleep, baby, sleep!
Our Saviour loves His sheep.
He is the Lamb of God on high,
Who for our sakes came down to die.
Sleep, baby, sleep!
The pretty German lullaby rises unbidden, and is pushed away by the
quick, sad thoughts that will not listen to it. For under all the laughter and
nursery frolic and happiness, we cannot but remember why these little ones
are here. Round about the compound in a great triangle there are three
Temple towers. They are out of sight though near us, but we cannot forget
they are there. They stand for that which deprives these children of their
birthright. Oh for the day when those Temple towers will fall and the reign
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desire that the fire should be allowed to touch the stately and beautiful
things of the world. Now there is something that satisfies as nothing else
could in the vision of that purifying fire; and the promise that stands out
like a light in the darkness is that which tells that the Son of Man shall send
forth His angels, and they shall gather out of His kingdom, all things that
offend.
In the tiny babies' nursery many a crooning Indian
lullaby is sung to the babies in their swinging white cradles; Higher Critics
but in the Taraha nursery we sing sweet old hymns, in Tamil
and English, and then all sensible people are supposed to go to sleep. But
one evening after the singing, two little tots settled down for a talk. Said
one lying comfortably on her back with her two hands clasped behind her
head: "Who takes care of us at night when we all go to sleep?" Said the
other in a mixture of Tamil and English: "Jesus-tender-Shepherd takes care
of us—Jesus-loves-me-this-I-know." The first baby rolled over upon her
small sister with a crow of derision. "It is not! It is Accal! I woke one night
and saw her!" The other baby insisted she was making a mistake. "Accal
sleeps, all people sleep; they lie down like us and go to sleep. Only Jesus
stays awake, and never, never goes to sleep." "Never, never?" questioned
the first, and was quiet for a minute considering the matter; then with a
sceptical little laugh, "Did you ever wake up and see Him?"
If the babies were always in a state of calm repose, the Taraha's pet
name, Parrot-house, would be inappropriate: but for nearly ten hours of the
day they are awake and talkative. Talk, however, is a mild word by which to
describe their powers of conversation. Sometimes we wonder if they never
tire of chattering, and then we remember they have only lately learned to
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CHILDREN WADING

Once we listened, hoping that the trailing clouds of glory so recently
departed had left some trace of illumination in this their first expression in
earth's language of their feelings and emotions. But we found them very
mundane. Most of the conversation concerned their "saman," a
comprehensive Indian word used by people with limited vocabularies to
express all manner of things to play with. Their "saman" was various. Dolls,
of course, and the remnants of dolls; tins and the lids thereof; bits of
everything which could break; corks, stones, seeds, half cocoa-nut shells;
rags of many ages and colours; scraped down morsels of brick; withered
flowers and leaves; sticks of all sorts and sizes; English Christmas cards,
sometimes with much domestic information on the back; unauthorised
sundries from the kindergarten—delivered up with a smile intended to
assure you that they were only being kept for Sittie; and pûchies. Pûchies
are insects. We have one baby who collects pûchies. "Look!" she said, one
morning before prayers, "Deah little five pûchies!" and she opened her hand
and five red and black beetles crawled slowly out, to the delight of the
devout, who scrambled up from their orderly rows with shrieks of
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But if the babies' conversation was unenlightening, their chosen
avocations are not uninteresting. They are always busy about something,
and, from their point of view, something important. There are, of course,
some among the thirty who are unimaginative and unenterprising. These sit
in the sand and play. Others have more to do. Life to them is full of the
unknown. The unknown is full of possibilities. The great thing is to
experiment. Nothing is too insignificant to explore, and all five senses are
useful to the thoroughly competent baby.
They knew, of course, all the flowers, and the discovery
of anything fresh was always followed by a scene which "Watching a
Miracle"
suggested a colony of small and active ants hauling some
large object to their nest; for the nearest grown-up person was invariably
hailed, and pulled, and pushed, and hurried along till the "new flower" was
reached. Then, if the object was incautious enough to stoop down to
examine it, the ants, ant-wise, would envelope it, climbing, swarming all
over it, till there was nothing to be seen but ants.

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They knew the habits of caterpillars, and especially they had knowledge
about the wonderful silver chrysalis which pins itself to the pointed leaves
of the oleander. They knew what was packed up inside, and some with
wide-open eyes had watched the miracle slowly evolving as the butterfly
unpacked itself, and sunned its crumpled velvet wings, till the crumples
smoothed, and the wings dried, and the butterfly fluttered away. They knew,
too, the less approachable ways of the wild bees, and where they hive, and
what happens if they are disturbed; and they knew the private feelings of
calves, and which likes to be treated as a brother and which resents such
liberties. Crows they knew intimately, and squirrels a little; for infants
fallen from their nests have often been taken care of, much against their
foolish wills, until old enough to look after themselves. Their namesakes,
the parrots, they knew very well; and the dainty little sunbirds that flash
from flower to flower like little living jewels in the sunlight; and the clever
tailor-bird, which sews its own nest, knotting its thread like a grown-up
human being; and the wise leaf-insect that can hardly be found till it moves;
and the great, green, frisky grasshopper that seems to invite a chase.
We found they knew, alas, too much about the misuse of everything
growing in the field! The tamarind fruit makes condiment, but eaten raw it
gives fever; and the babies think we are wrong here, and they are fond of
forgetting our rules. Many kinds of grasses are very good to eat; and here
again we are mistaken, for we know not the flavour of grasses. Seeds may
be useful to plant; but those who think their use ends there, are short-
sighted and ignorant people. Upon these and other matters the babies feel
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ESLI AND LITTLE KOHILA.
Taken a year earlier.

One weird joy has been theirs, and they never will forget it. For one
whole blissful afternoon they followed the snake-charmer about at a
respectful distance; and they cannot understand why we are not anxious
they should dance as he danced, and pipe as he piped, round the hopeful
holes they discover in the red mud walls.
Other things they had learned to do, not wholly innocent. They must
have made friends with the masons who built their new nursery, and
persuaded them to do their work in a sympathetic spirit; for they knew the
weak points hidden from our eyes, and how pleasant it is to scoop mortar
out of cracks between the bricks of the floor. They had learned how most of
their toys were made, and how a doll could be most easily dissected, and
the particular taste of its inside. They knew, too, the lusciousness of divers
sorts of sand—this last, however, being a mixture of crime and disease, and
treated as such, is not a popular sin. Finally, to our lasting disgrace, they
had learned, after a series of thoughtful experiments, how best to obey a
command and yet elude its intention; thus on a wet day, when they were
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row on the edge of the verandah, their heads protruding so as to catch the
lovely drip from the roof. And all these things they had carefully learned in
spite of a certain amount of supervision; and, being entirely unsuspicious,
they will take you into their confidence and let you share the forbidden
fruit, if you are so inclined.
But, after all, perfection of goodness would make us
more anxious than even these enormities; we should fear our The Kindness
of the Babies
babies were growing too good—a fear not pressing at
present. The Parrot-house only overwhelms when the birds begin to sing.
Then indeed all who can, flee far away, for the babies once started are
difficult to stop. They are sure you like it as much as they do, and are
anxious to oblige you when you visit their world. So they sing with the
greatest earnestness, and as they invariably hang on to every available part
of you, and punctuate their melodies with kisses and embraces, escape is
not always practicable.
The Taraha nursery was our first substantial building. It is built upon
foundations raised well off the ground, and has a wide verandah. When first
it was opened and the children were invited to take possession, they did so
most completely. One quaint little person of barely three, called Kohila,
whose small, repressed face in the photograph gives no hint of character,
used to stalk up and down the verandah with an air of proprietorship which
left no doubt in any mind as to her opinion on the subject. Another (sharing
the swinging cot with Kohila in the photo) sat on the top step and smiled
encouragingly to visitors. It was nice to be smiled at, but there was
something very condescending in the smile. Another stood guard over the
plants, which grew in pots much bigger than herself all the way down the
verandah. If any presumed to touch them, she would dart out upon them
with an indignant chirrup. For days after the great event—the opening of
the Taraha—small parties waited on visitors, formed in procession before
and behind, and escorted them round, explaining all mysteries, and insisting
upon due admiration. Everything had to be interviewed, from teaspoons to
pots of fern. This concluded, the guests were politely dismissed, and
departed, let us hope, properly penetrated with a sense of the kindness of
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There have always been some who object to visitors. One of these
showed her objection, not by crying and running away, as undignified
babies do, but by sitting exactly where she was when she first caught sight
of the intruder, and staring straight into space with a very stony stare. A
sensitive visitor could hardly have had the temerity to pass her, but normal
visitors are not sensitive. Sometimes they attempted to make friends. This
was too much. One fat arm would be slowly raised till it covered the baby's
eyes, and in this position she would sit like a small petrifaction, till the
horror had withdrawn.

PREETHA AWARE OF A FOE.
Tara on the left: the Coney on the right.

This baby, Preetha by name, has in most matters a way of her own. One
of her little peculiarities is a strong preference for solo music as compared
with concert. She listens attentively to others' performances, then
disappears. If followed, she will be found alone in a corner, with her face to
the wall and her back to the world; and if she thinks herself unobserved,
you will be regaled with a solo. This experience is interesting to the
musical. It is never twice alike. Sometimes it is a succession of sounds, like
a tune that has lost its way; sometimes, a recognisable version of the chorus

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lately learned. At other times she delivers her soul in a series of short groans
and grunts, beating time with her podgy hands. If she perceives through the
back of her head that someone is looking or listening, she stops at once; and
no persuasions can ever produce that special rehearsal again. Of late this
baby, being now nearly three, has awakened to a sense of life's
responsibilities, and she evidently wishes to prepare to meet them suitably.
Yesterday evening she came to me with an exceedingly serious face,
pointed in the direction of the kindergarten room, and then tapping herself,
remarked: "Amma! I kindergarten." No more was said; but we know we
shall soon see her solemnly waddling into the schoolroom, and we wonder
what will happen. Will she continue to insist upon a corner to herself?

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CHAPTER XXIII
The Bear Garden

JULLANIE AMONG THE GRASSES.

"T HE fruit of the lotus—a capsule—ripens below the surface of the
water. When the seeds are ripe and leave the berry, a small bubble
of air attached to them brings them to the surface, and the seeds are carried
wherever the wind and waves take them until the bubble bursts; when the
seed, being heavier than water, sinks to the bottom, and then begins to grow
to form a new plant, which may be at some distance from the parent one. In
this simple way the lotus plant is enabled to spread." So says our botany
book; and the thought of the lotus seed in its little air-boat floating away
over the water to be sown, perhaps, far from the parent plant, is full of
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A lotus-pool, a bear-garden—the connection is not obvious. Alice in her
wanderings never wandered into bewilderment more profound than such a
mixture of ideas. But this is the way we get to it: We have called these little
children Lotus-buds—for such they are in their youngness and innocence;
and the underlying thought runs deeper, as those who have read the first
chapter know—but the Lotus-buds must grow into flowers and must be
sown as living seeds, perhaps far away from the happy place they knew
when they were buds. The little air-boat will come for them. The breath of
the Spirit that bloweth where it listeth will carry them where it will, and we
want them to be ready to be sown wherever the pools of the world are
barren of lotus flowers. And this brings us straight to the newest of our
beginnings in Dohnavur—the Kindergarten.
An ideal kindergarten is a place where the teachers train the scholars,
and we hope to have that in time; at present the case is opposite, and that is
why it has its name, the name that conflicts with the lotus-pool—the Bear-
garden.
In this peaceful room Classes B, C, and D have taken their young
teachers in hand—Rukma, Preena, and Sanda. Of these Rukma (Radiance)
has the clearest ideas about discipline; Preena (the Elf) knows best how to
coax; and Sanda, excellent Mouse that she is, has the gift of patience. These
three (who after all are only school-girls, continuing their own education
with their Préma Sittie) are attempting to instruct the babies on the lines of
organised play; but the babies feel they have much to teach their teachers,
and this is how they do it:—
Préma Sittie goes into the room when the kindergarten is in progress,
and from three classes at once babies come springing towards her with
squeals of joy, and they clasp her knees and look up with eyes full of
affection and confidence in their welcome. "Go back to your place!" she
says, and tries to look severe; with a chuckle the children obey, and she
looks round and takes notes.
Chellalu is lying full-length on the bench, with a look of supreme
content on her face, and her two feet against the wall. Pyârie has turned her
back to the picture that is being shown, and is tying a handkerchief round
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up from her seat, and is starting a chorus, of which she is fond, at the top of
her not very gentle voice; and Komala, a perfect sprite, is tickling the child
who sits next to her. "Sittie!" exclaims the distracted teacher, "they won't
learn anything!" Or if she happens to be the Mouse, she is calmly engaged
with the one good child in her class.
The next group is stringing beads on pieces of wire.
"Look, look!" and an eager babe holds out her wire for Babel
admiration, and probably spills her beads in her effort to
secure attention. If she does, there is a general scramble, beads rolling loose
on the floor being quite irresistible. One wicked baby sits by herself and
strings her beads on her curls.
A few minutes later it is mat-plaiting; and the agile little fingers are
diligently weaving pieces of blue and yellow material, bits over from their
elder sisters' garments, beautifully unconscious that they are supposed to be
working the colours alternately. Sometimes in the gayest way they exclaim:
"Sittie! It's wrong! it's wrong!" Occasionally there is a howl from a child
who has been pinched by another, or whose neighbour has helped herself to
her beads. Sittie crosses the room hurriedly. "What's the matter?" With tears
rolling down her cheeks the victim points to her oppressor. "May you do
that?" is the invariable English question. It is answered by a shake of the
head, the tiniest baby understanding that particular remark. The injured
baby smiles. A reproof, or at worst a pat on the fat arm next to hers, satisfies
her sense of justice, and she is content.
When an English lesson begins, those afflicted with delicate nerves are
happier elsewhere. One class has a toy farmyard, another a set of tea-things,
the third a doll which every member of the class is aching to embrace. The
teachers and children alike are inclined to talk with emphasis; and if you
stand between the three classes you hear queer answers to queerer
questions, and wonder if the babies at Babel were anything like so
bewildering.
But this vision of the kindergarten is hardly a fortnight old; for Classes
B, C, and D are of recent development, and are made up of some heedless
characters, as Chellalu and Pyârie, who could not keep up with class A, and
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rabbits from the wood when we began. Also it should be stated that from
the babies' point of view white people are only playthings. "They were very
good before you came!" is the unflattering remark frequently addressed to
us; and as we discreetly retire, the babies do seem to become suddenly
beautifully docile. But even so they might be better, as an unconscious
comedy over-seen this morning proves. I was in the porch outside the door,
when Rukma, pointing to a blackboard on which were written sundry
words, told Chellalu to show her "cat," and I looked in interested to know if
Chellalu really knew anything of reading. Chellalu brandished the pointer,
then turned to Rukma with a confidential smile, "Cat? Where is it, Accal? Is
it at the top or at the bottom?" Rukma, who has a keen sense of the comic,
seemed to find it difficult to look as she felt she ought. Chellalu caught the
twinkle in her eye, and throwing herself heartily into the spirit of the game,
which was evidently intended to be a kindergarten version of Hunt the
Mouse through the Wood, she searched the blackboard for cat. Then to
Rukma: "Accal! dear Accal! Tell me, and I'll tell you!"
There is nothing that helps us so much to be good as to be believed in
and thought better than we are; and the converse is true, so we do not want
to be always suspecting Chellalu of sin; but this last was entirely too artless,
and this was apparently Rukma's view, for she sent Chellalu back to her seat
and called up another baby, who, fairly radiating virtue, immediately found
the cat.
The next room—which Class A (the first to be formed)
has to itself—is a haven of peace after the Bear-garden. It is Compassions
of the Wise
a pleasant room like the other, pretty with pictures and with
flowers. And the little bright faces make it a happy place, for this class,
though serious-minded, is exceedingly cheerful. There is the demure little
Tingalu, the good child of the kindergarten, its hope and stay in troublous
hours, and the quaint little trio, Jeya, Jullanie, and Sella—this last is called
Cock-robin by the family, for she has eyes and manners which remind us of
the bird, and she hardly ever walks, she hops. Mala and Bala are in the
class, and a lively scamp called Puvai.
The kindergarten is worked in English, helped out with Tamil when
occasion requires. This plan, adopted for reasons pertaining to the future of
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when the first six months are over and the babies grow correct. At present
they talk with delightful abandon impossible to reproduce, but very
entertaining to those who know both languages. They tack Tamil
terminations to English verbs, and English nouns make subjects for Tamil
predicates. They turn their sentences upside down and inside out, and any
way in fact which occurs to them at the moment, only insisting upon one
thing: you must be made to understand. They apply everything they learn as
immediately as possible, and woe to the unwary flounderer in the realm of
natural science who offers an explanation of any phenomena of nature other
than that taught in the kindergarten. The learned baby regards you with a
tender sort of pity. Poor thing, you are very ignorant; but you will know
better in time—if only you will come to the kindergarten, the source of the
fountain of knowledge.
The ease and the quickness with which a new word is appropriated
constantly surprises us. As for example: one morning two babies wandered
round the Prayer-room, and, discovering passion-flowers within reach,
eagerly begged for them in Tamil. One of the two pushed the other aside
and wanted all the flowers. "Greedy! greedy!" I said reprovingly, in
English. "Greedy mine!" was the immediate rejoinder, and the little hand
was held out with more certainty than ever now that the name of the flower
was known. "Greedy my flower! Mine!"
But some of the quaintest experiences are when the eloquent baby,
determined to express herself in English, falls back upon scraps of
kindergarten rhyme and delivers it in all seriousness. On the evening before
my birthday I was banished from my room, and the children decorated it
exactly as they pleased. When I returned I was implored not to look at
anything, as it was not intended to be seen till next morning. Next morning
the babies came in procession with their elders, and while I was occupied
with them out on the verandah, Chellalu and her friend Naveena,
discovering something unusual in my room, escaped from the ranks and
went off to examine the mystery. I found them a moment later gazing in
astonished joy at the glories there revealed. "Who did it all?" gasped
Chellalu, whose intention, let us hope, was perfectly reverent. "God did it
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The one kindergarten class taught entirely in Tamil is the Scripture
lesson, illustrated whenever possible by pictures; and being always taught
about sacred things in Tamil, the babies have no doubt about the language
in use in Bible days. But sometimes a little mind is puzzled, as an
instructive aside revealed a day or two ago. For their teacher had told them
in English, not as a Scripture lesson, but just as a story, about Peter and
John and the lame man. The picture was before them, and they understood
and followed keenly; but one little girl whispered to another, who happened
to be the well-informed Cock-robin: "Did Peter and John talk English or
Tamil?" "Tamil, of course!" returned Cock-robin, without a moment's
hesitation.
The Scripture lessons are usually given by Arulai, whose delight is Bible
teaching. "So that as much as lieth in you you will apply yourself wholly to
this one thing, and draw all your cares and studies this way," is a word that
always comes to mind when one thinks of Arulai and her Bible. She much
enjoys taking the babies, believing that the impressions created upon the
mind of a little child are practically indelible.
Sometimes these impressions are expressed in vigorous
fashion. Once the subject of the class was the Good Practical
Politics
Samaritan. The babies were greatly exercised over the
scandalous behaviour of the priest and the Levite. "Punish them! Let them
have whippings!" they demanded. Arulai explained further. But one baby
got up from her seat and walked solemnly to the picture. "Take care what
you are doing!" she remarked impressively in Tamil, shaking her finger at
the two retreating backs. "Naughty! naughty!"—this was in English—"take
care!"
One of the favourite pictures shows Abraham and Isaac on the way to
the mount of sacrifice. This story was told one morning with much
reverence and feeling, and the babies were impressed. There were tears in
Bala's eyes as she gazed at the picture, but she brushed them away hurriedly
and hoped no one had noticed. Only Chellalu appeared perfectly
unconcerned. She had business of her own on hand, and the story, it
seemed, had not touched her. The babies are searched before they come to
school, and all toys, bits of string, old tins, and sundries are removed from
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these ways. She now produced a long wisp of red tape from somewhere—
she did not tell us where—and proceeded to tie her feet together. This
accomplished, she curled herself up on the bench like a caterpillar on a leaf,
and to all appearances went to sleep. Why was she not awakened and
compelled to behave properly? asks the reader, duly shocked. Perhaps
because on that rather special morning the teacher preferred her asleep.
The story finished,
the children were
questioned, and they
answered with unwonted
gravity. "What did Isaac
say to his father as they
walked alone together?"
An awed little voice had
begun the required
answer, when Chellalu
suddenly uncurled, sat
up, and said in clear,
decided Tamil: "He said,
'Father! do not kill me!'
Yesh! that was what he
said."
When first the babies
heard about Heaven, they
all wanted to go at once,
and with difficulty were
restrained from praying
to be taken there
immediately. There was
one naughty child who,
when she was given ARULAI AND RUKMA, WITH NAVEENA.
medicine, invariably
announced, "I will not
stay in this village: I am going to Heaven! I am going now!" But they soon
grew wiser. It was our excitable, merry little Jullanie who summed up all
desires with most simplicity: "Lord Jesus, please take me there or anywhere

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anytime; only wherever I am, please stay there too!" Some of the babies are
carnal: "When I go to that village (Heaven), I shall go for a ride on the
cherubim's wings. I will make them take me to all sorts of places, just
wherever I want to go."
The latest pronouncement, however, was for the moment
the most perplexing. "Come-anda-look-ata-well!" said The Way to
Heaven
Chellalu yesterday evening, the sentence in a single long
word. The well is being dug in the Menagerie garden and is surrounded by a
trellis, beyond which the babies may not pass, unless taken by one of
ourselves. As we drew near to the well, Chellalu pointed to it and said:
"Amma! That is the way to Heaven!" This speech, which was in Tamil,
considerably surprised me, as naturally we think of Heaven above the bright
blue sky. The yawning gulf of the unfinished well suggested something
different.
But Chellalu was positive. "It is the way to Heaven. I may not go there,
but you may! Yesh! you may go to Heaven, Amma, but I may not!" She had
nothing more to say; and we wondered how she could possibly have arrived
at so extraordinary a conclusion, till we remembered that it had been
explained to the babies that any baby falling in would probably be drowned
and die, and so until it was finished and made safe no baby must go near it.
Chellalu had evidently argued that as to die meant going to Heaven, the
well must be the way to Heaven; and as only grown-up people might go
near it, they, and they alone apparently, were allowed to go to Heaven.
These babies are nothing if not practical. Arulai had been teaching the
story of the Unmerciful Servant; and to bring it down to nursery life,
supposed the case of a baby who snatched at other babies' toys, and was
unfair and selfish. Such a baby, if not reformed, would grow up and be like
the Unmerciful Servant. The babies looked upon the back of the offender as
shown in the picture. "Bad man! Nasty man!" they said to each other,
pointing to him with aversion. And Arulai closed the class with a short
prayer that none of the babies might ever be like the Unmerciful Servant.
The prayer over, the babies rushed to the table where their toys were put
during the Scripture lesson. Pyârie got there first, and, gathering all she
could reach, she swept them into her lap and was darting off with them,

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when a word from Arulai recalled her. For a moment there was a struggle.
Then she ran up to Tingalu, the child she had chiefly defrauded, poured all
her treasures into her lap, and then sprang into Arulai's arms with the eager
question: "Acca! Acca! Am I not a Merciful Servant?"

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CHAPTER XXIV
The Accals

"This sacred work demands not lukewarm, selfish, slack
souls, but hearts more finely tempered than steel, wills purer and
harder than the diamond."—Père Didon.

PONNAMAL, WITH PREETHA ON HER KNEE, AND TARA BESIDE HER.

T HE Accals, without whom this work in all its various branches could
not be undertaken, are a band of Indian sisters (the word Accal means
older sister) who live for the service of the children. First among the Accals
is Ponnamal (Golden). With the quick affection of the East the children find
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Sometimes we are asked if we ever find an Indian fellow-worker whom
we can thoroughly trust. The ungenerous question would make us as
indignant as it would if it were asked about our own relations, were it not
that we know it is asked in ignorance by those who have never had the
opportunity of experiencing, or have missed the happiness of enjoying, true
friendship with the people of this land. Those who have known that
happiness, know the limitless loyalty and the tender, wonderful love that is
lavished on the one who feels so unworthy of it all. If there is distance and
want of sympathy between those who are called to be workers together with
the great Master, is not something wrong? Simple, effortless intimacy, that
closeness of touch which is friendship indeed, is surely possible. But rather
we would put it otherwise, and say that without it service together, of the
only sort we would care to know, is perfectly impossible.
In our work all along we have had this joy to the full. God in His
goodness gave us from the first those who responded at once to the
confidence we offered them. In India the ideal of a consecrated life is a life
with no reserves—which seeks for nothing, understands nothing, cares for
nothing but to be poured forth upon the sacrifice and service. Pierce through
the various incrustations which have over-laid this pure ideal, give no heed
to the effect of Western influence and example, and you come upon this
feeling, however expressed or unexpressed, at the very back of all—the
instinct that recognises and responds to the call to sacrifice, and does not
understand its absence in the lives of those who profess to follow the
Crucified. Who, to whom this ideal is indeed "The Gleam," that draws and
ever draws the soul to passionate allegiance, can fail to find in the Indian
nature at its truest and finest that kinship of spirit which knits hearts
together? "And it came to pass when he had made an end of speaking, that
the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved
him as his own soul": this tells it all. The spring of heart to heart that we
call affinity, the knitting no hand can ever afterward unravel—these
experiences have been granted to us all through our work together, and we
thank God for it.
Ponnamal's work lies chiefly among the convert-nurses and the babies.
She has charge of the nurseries and of the food arrangements, so intricate
and difficult to the mere lay mind; she trains her workers to thoroughness
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cheerful
unselfishness Pure Justice
that is very
inspiring. How often we have
sent a young convert, tempted
to self-centredness and
depression, to Ponnamal, and
seen her return to her ordinary
work braced and bright and
sensible. We are all faulty and
weak at times, and every
nursery, like every life, has its
occasional lapses; but on the
whole it is not too much to
say that the nurseries are
happy places, and Ponnamal's
influence goes through them
all like a fresh wind. And this
in spite of very poor health.
For Ponnamal, who was the
leader of our itinerating band,
broke down hopelessly, and
thought her use in life had
SELLAMUTTU AND SUSEELA. passed—till the babies came
and brought her back to
activity again. And the joy of the Lord, we have often proved, is strength for
body as well as soul.
Sellamuttu, who comes next to Ponnamal, is the "Pearl" of previous
records, and she has been a pearl to us through all our years together. She is
special Accal to the household of children above the baby-age—a healthy,
high-spirited crow of most diverse dispositions; and she is loved by one and
all with a love which is tempered with great respect, for she is "all pure
justice," as a little girl remarked feelingly not long ago, after being rather
sharply reproved for exceeding naughtiness: "within my heart wrath burned
like a fire; but my mouth could not open to reply, for inside me a voice said,
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This Accal, however, is most tender in her affections, and among the
babies she has some particular specials. One of these is the solemn-faced
morsel of the photograph, to save whom she travelled, counting by time, as
far as from London to Moscow and back; and the baby arrived as happy and
well as when the friends at "Moscow" sent her off with prayers and
blessings and kindness. But the photograph was a shock. "Aiyo!" she said,
quite upset to see her delight so misrepresented, "that is not Suseela! There
is no smile, no pleasure in her face!" We comforted her by the assurance
that any one who understood babies and their ways would consider the
camera responsible for the expression. And at least the baby was obedient.
Had she not told her to make a salaam, and had not the little hand gone up
in serious salute? A perfectly obedient baby is Sellamuttu's ideal, and she
was satisfied.

TO THE RIGHT, SUHINIE, AND HER BABY SUNUNDA

Both these sisters came to us at some loss to themselves, for both could
have lived at home at ease if they had been so inclined. Ponnamal lost all
her little fortune by joining us. She could, perhaps, have recovered it by
going to law, but she did not feel it right to do so, and she suffered herself to
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what to them would appear worldly-minded?" That was all she ever said by
way of explanation.
Next to Ponnamal and Sellamuttu come the motherly-hearted Gnanamal
and Annamai. They came to us when we were in circumstances of peculiar
difficulty. The work was just beginning, and we had not enough trustworthy
helpers; so, wearied with disturbed nights, we were almost at the end of our
strength. "Send us help!" we prayed, and went on each trying to do the work
of three. It was one hot, tiring afternoon, when we longed to forget
everything and rest for half an hour, but could not, because there was so
much to do, that a bright, capable face appeared at the door of our room,
and Annamai, Lulla's beloved, came in and said: "God sent me, and my
relative" (naming a mission catechist) "brought me. And so I have come!"
And Gnanamal—we were in dire straits, for a dear little babe had
suffered at the hands of one who thought first of herself and second of her
charge, and the most careful tending was needed if the baby was to survive
—it was then Gnanamal came and took charge of the delicate child, and
became the comfort and help she has ever continued to be. When there is
serious illness, and night-nursing is required, Gnanamal is always ready to
volunteer; though to her, as to most of us in India, night work is not what
the flesh would choose. Then in the morning, when we go to relieve her, we
find her bright as ever, as if she had slept comfortably all the time. We think
this sort of help worth gratitude.
The convert-workers, dear as dear children, but, thank
God, dependable as comrades, come next in age to the head Whose Names
are in the
Accals. Arulai Tara (known to some as "Star") is what her Book of Life
name suggests, something steadfast, something shining,
something burning with a pure devotion which kindles other fires. We
cannot imagine our children without their beloved Arulai. Then there is
Sundoshie (Joy), to the left next Suhinie in the photo, a young wife for
whom poison was prepared three times, and whose escape from death at the
hand of husband and mother-in-law was one of those quiet miracles which
God is ever working in this land of cruelty in dark places. And Suhinie
(Gladness), whose story of deliverance has been told before;[E] and Esli, the
gift of a fellow-missionary, a most faithful girl; and others younger, but
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much care, but the care of genuine converts is very fruitful work; and one
interesting part of it is the fitting of each to her niche, or of fitting the niche
to her. Discernment of spirit is needed for this, for misfits means waste
energy and great discomfort; and energy is too good a thing to waste, and
comfort too pleasant a thing to spoil. So those who are responsible for this
part of the work would be grateful for the remembrance of any who know
how much depends upon it.
Among the recognised "fits" in our family is "the Accal who loves the
unlovable babies." This is Suhinie. We tried her once with the Taraha
children; but the terrible activity of these young people was altogether too
much for the slowly moving machinery of poor Suhinie's brain, and she was
perfectly overwhelmed and very miserable. For Suhinie hates hurry and
sudden shocks of any sort, and the babies of maturer years discovered this
immediately; and Suhinie, waddling forlornly after the babies, looked like a
highly respectable duck in charge of a flock of impertinent robins.

THREE CONVERT WORKERS.

It was quite a misfit, and Suhinie's worst came to the top, and we
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For there you see Suhinie in her true sphere. Give her a poor, puny babe,
who will never, if she can help it, let her Accal have an undisturbed hour;
give her the most impossible, most troublesome baby in the nursery, and
then you will see Suhinie's best. We discovered this when Ponnamal was in
charge of the Neyoor nursery. Ponnamal had one small infant so cross that
nobody wanted her. She would cry half the night, a snarly, snappy cry, that
would not stop unless she was rocked, and began again as soon as the
rocking was stopped. Ponnamal gave her to Suhinie.
"Night after night till two in the morning she would sing to that fractious
child"—this was Ponnamal's story to me when next I went to Neyoor. "She
never seemed to tire; hymn after hymn she would sing, on and on and on. I
never saw her impatient with it; she just loved it from the first." And a
curious thing began to happen: the baby grew like her Accal. This likeness
was not caught in the photograph, but is nevertheless so observable that
visitors have often asked if the little one were her own child.
This baby, Sununda by name, is greatly attached to
Suhinie. As she is over two years old now, she has been Sinners
promoted to the Taraha, and being an extremely wilful little
person, she sometimes gets into trouble. One day I was called to
remonstrate, and a little "morning glory" was required, and I put her in a
corner to think about it. Another sinner had to be dealt with, and when I
returned Sununda was nowhere to be found. I searched all over the Taraha
and in the garden, and finally found her in the Prémalia cuddled close to
Suhinie. "She has told me all about it," said Suhinie, who was nursing
another edition of difficult infancy; and she looked down on the curly head
with eyes of brooding affection, like a tender turtle-dove upon her nestling.
Then the roguish brown eyes smiled up at me with an expression of perfect
confidence that I would understand and sympathise with the desire to share
the troubles of this strange, sad life with so beloved an Accal.
The question of discipline is sometimes rather difficult with so many
dispositions, each requiring different dealing. We try, of course, to fit the
penalty to the crime, so that the child's sense of justice will work on our
side; and in this we always find there is a wonderful unconscious co-
operation on the part of the merest baby. But the older children used to be
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developed and their characters partly formed. Most of them were with us of
their own free will, and could have walked off any day, for they knew
where they would be welcome. Discipline under these circumstances is not
entirely easy. But three years ago something of Revival Power swept
through all our family. It was not the Great Revival for which we wait, but
it was something most blessed in effect and abiding in result; and ever since
then the tone has been higher and the life deeper, so that there is something
to which we can appeal confident of a quick response. But children will be
scampish; and once their earnestness of desire to be good was put to
unexpected and somewhat drastic proof.
At that time the mild Esli had charge of the sewing-class, and the class
had got into bad ways; carelessness and chattering prevailed, so Esli came
in despair to me, and I talked to the erring children. They were sorry, made
no excuses, and promised to be different in future. I left them repentant and
thoroughly ashamed of themselves, and went to other duties.

SEWING-CLASS IN THE COURTYARD.

Shortly afterwards Arulai found them in a state of great The Mark
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the sewing-class, but were afraid they would forget. Arulai's ideas are
usually most original, and she sympathised with the children, but told them
there was no need for them ever to forget. They asked eagerly what could
be done to help them to remember. They had prayed, but even so had
doubts. Was there anything to be done besides praying? Arulai said there
was, and she expounded certain verses from the Book of Proverbs.
"Sometimes the best way to make a mark upon the mind is to make a mark
upon the body," she suggested, and asked the children if they would like
this done. The children hesitated. They were aware that Arulai's "marks"
were likely to be emphatic, for Arulai never does things by halves. But their
devotion to her and belief in her overcame all fears; and being genuinely
anxious to reform, they one and all consented. So she sent a small girl off to
look for a cane; and presently one was produced, "thin and nice and
suitable," as I was afterwards informed. The younger children were invited
to take the cane and look at it, and consider well how it would feel. This
they did obediently, but still stuck undauntedly to their determination, in
fact, were keen to go through with it. Then Arulai explained that when the
King said, "Chasten thy son while there is hope, and let not thy soul spare
for his crying," he must have been thinking of a very little boy who had not
the sense to know what was good for him. They had sense. The mark on the
body would be waste punishment if it were not received willingly and
gratefully; so if any child cried or pulled her hand away, she would stop.
Then the children all stood up and held out their hands—what a moment for
a photograph! Arulai's "mark upon the body" was a genuine affair, but the
class received it with fortitude and gratitude.
When I heard this history, an hour or so after its occurrence, I rather
demurred. The children had appeared to be sincerely sorry when I spoke to
them, and if so, why proceed to extremities? But Arulai answered with
wisdom and much assurance: "They have been talked to before and have
been sorry, but they forgot and did it again. This time they will not forget."
And neither did they. As long as that class continued, its behaviour was
exemplary; and "the mark upon the mind," to judge by their demeanour,
remained as fresh as it must have been on that memorable day when the
"mark" upon the body effected its creation. The story ought to end here; but
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The first occurred a few weeks later. A little girl, one of the sewing-class,
had slipped into the habit of careless disobedience, followed too often by
sulks. If we happened to come across her just when the thunder-clouds were
gathering, we could usually divert her attention and avert the threatened
trouble; but if we did not happen to meet her just at the right moment, she
would plunge straight into the most outrageous naughtiness with a sort of
purposeful directness that was difficult to deal with. Knowing the child
well, we often let her choose her own punishments; and she did this so
conscientiously that at last, as she herself mournfully remarked, "they were
all used up," and there was nothing left but the most ancient—and perhaps
in some cases most efficacious, which, the circumstances being what they
were, I was naturally reluctant to try. But the child, trained to be perfectly
honest with herself, apparently thought the thing over, and calmly made up
her mind to accept the inevitable; for when, anxious she should not
misunderstand, I began to explain matters to her, I was met by this
somewhat astonishing response: "Yes, Amma, I know. I know you have
tried everything else" (she said this almost sympathetically, as if
appreciating my dilemma), "and so you have to do it. I do not like it at all,
but Arulai Accal says it is no use unless I take it willingly, so Amma, please
give me a good caning." (The idiom is the same in Tamil as in English, but
there is a stronger word which she now proceeded to use with great
deliberation.) "Yes, Amma, a hot caning—with my full mind I am willing.
And I will not cry. Or if I do cry" (this was added in a serious, reflecting
sort of way), "let not your soul spare for my crying!"
The second is less abnormal. Esli, whose placid soul had been sadly
stirred at the time of the infliction of the "mark," was so impressed by its
salutary effect that she conceived a new respect for the methods of King
Solomon. The application of "morning glory" is a privilege reserved, as a
rule, for ourselves; but one day, being doubtless hard pressed, Esli produced
a stick—a very feeble one—and calling up the leader of all rebels,
addressed herself to her. Chellalu, as might have been expected, was taken
by surprise; and for one short moment Esli was permitted to follow the
ways of the King. But only for a moment: for, suddenly apprehending the
gravity of the situation, and realising that such precedent should not pass
unchallenged, Chellalu, with a quick wriggle, stood forth free, seized the
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then stopping before her afflicted Accal, she solemnly handed her one of the
pieces, and with a bound and a scamper like a triumphant puppy, was off to
the very end of her world with the other half of that stick.
When the Elf came to us on March 6, 1901, and we
began to know some of the secrets of the Temple, we tried to "Not
Lukewarm,
save several little children, but we failed. The thought of Selfish, Slack
those first children with whom we came into touch, but for Souls"
whom all our efforts were unavailing, is unforgettable. We
see them still, little children—lost. But we partly understand why we had to
wait so long; we had not the workers then to help us to take care of them.
We had only some of the older Accals, who could not have done it alone.
These convert-girls, who now help us so much, were in Hindu homes; some
of them had not even heard of Christ, whose love alone makes this work
possible. For India is not England in its view of such work. There is
absolutely nothing attractive about it. It is not "honourable work," like
preaching and teaching. No money would have drawn these workers to us.
Work which has no clear ending, but drifts on into the night if babies are
young or troublesome—such work makes demands upon devotion and
practical unselfishness which appeal to none but those who are prepared to
love with the tireless love of the mother. "I do not want people who come to
me under certain reservations. In battle you need soldiers who fear
nothing." So wrote the heroic Père Didon; and, though it may sound
presumptuous to do so, we say the same. We want as comrades those who
come to us without reservations. But such workers have to be prepared, and
such preparation takes time. "Tarry ye the Lord's leisure," is a word that
unfolds as we go on.
Yet we find that the work, though so demanding, is full of
compensations. The convert in her loneliness is welcomed into a family
where little children need her and will soon love her dearly. The
uncomforted places in her heart become healed, for the touch of a little
child is very healing. If she is willing to forget herself and live for that little
child, something new springs up within her; she does not understand it, but
those who watch her know that all is well. Sometimes long afterwards she
reads her own heart's story and opens it to us. "I was torn with longing for
my home. I dreamed night after night about it, and I used to waken just wild
to run back. And yet I knew if I had, it would have been destruction to my

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soul. And then the baby came, and you put her into my arms, and she grew
into my heart, and she took away all that feeling, till I forgot I ever had it."
This was the story of one, a young wife, for whom the natural joys of home
can never be. But if there is selfishness or slackness or a weak desire to drift
along in easiness, taking all and giving nothing, things are otherwise. For
such the nurseries hold nothing but noise and interruptions. We ask to be
spared from such as these. Or if they come, may they be inspired by the
constraining love of Christ and "The Glory of the Usual."

FOOTNOTES:
[E] Overweights of Joy, ch. xxiii. Suhinie left the nursery for a few hours' rest
at noon on February 2, 1910. She fell asleep, to awaken in heaven.

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CHAPTER XXV
The Little Accals

But Thou didst reckon, when at first
Thy word our hearts and hands did crave,
What it would come to at the worst
To save.
Perpetual knockings at Thy door,
Tears sullying Thy transparent rooms.

THREE LITTLE ACCALS.

T HESE lines come with insistence as I look at the little Accals, who
follow in order after the Accals, convert children, most of them, now

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growing up to helpfulness. If part of the story of one such young girl is told,
it may help those to whom such tales are unfamiliar to understand and to
care.
December 16, 1903, was spent by three of us in a rest-house on the
outskirts of a Hindu town. We were on our way to Dohnavur from Madras,
where we had seen Mr. and Mrs. Walker off for England. The two days'
journey had left us somewhat weary; and yet we were strong in hope that
day, for we knew there was special thought for us on board ship and at
home, and something special was being asked as a birthday gift of joy.
Arulai (Star) and Preena (the Elf), the two who were with me, were full of
expectation. The day had often been marked by that joy of joys, a lost sheep
found; and as we looked out at the heathen town with its many people so
unconscious of our thoughts about them, we wondered where we should
find the one our thoughts had singled from among the crowd, and we went
out to look for her.
Up and down the long white streets we looked for her; on the little
narrow verandahs, in the courtyards of the houses, in their dark inner rooms
when we were invited within, out again into the sunshine—but we could not
find her. That evening I remember, though we did not say so to each other,
we felt a little disappointed. We had not met one who even remotely cared
for the things we had come to bring.
No one had responded. There was not, so far as we knew it, even a little
blade to point to, much less a sheaf to lay at His feet. After nightfall a
woman came to see us. But she was a Christian, and beyond trying to cheer
her to more earnest service among the heathen, there was nothing to be
done for her. She left us, she told us afterwards, warmed to hope; and she
talked to a child next morning, a little relative of her own, whose heart the
Lord opened.
For three months we heard nothing; then unexpectedly a letter came.
"The child is much in earnest, and she has made up her mind to join your
Starry Cluster" (a name given by the people to our band, which at that time
was itinerating in the district), "so I purpose sending her at once." The
parents, for reasons of their own, agreed to the arrangement, and the little
girl came to Dohnavur. It was wonderful to watch her learning. She is not

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intellectually brilliant, but the
soul awakened at once, and
there was that tenderness of
response which refreshes the
heart of the teacher. She
seemed to come straight to
our Lord Jesus and know
Him as her Saviour, child
though she was; and soon the
longing to win others
possessed her, and a younger
child, who was her special
charge among the nursery
children, was influenced so
gently and so willingly, that
we do not know the time
when, led by her little Accal,
she too came to the Lover of
children.
But one day, suddenly,
trouble came. The parents
appeared in the Dohnavur
compound and claimed their PREENA AND PREEYA
daughter; and we had no (To left and right) getting ready for a Coming-Day
legal right to refuse her, for Feast.
she was under age. We shall
never forget the hour they
came. They had haunted the neighbourhood, as we "Across the
Will of
afterwards heard, and prowled about outside the compound, Nature"
watching for an opportunity to carry the child off without
our knowledge. But she was always with the other children, so that plan
failed. When first she heard they had come, she fled to the bungalow. "My
parents have come! My father is strong! Oh, hide me! hide me!" she
besought us. "I cannot resist him! I cannot!" and she cried and clung to us.
But when we went out to meet them, she was perfectly quiet; and no one
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answered their questions, without a tremble in her voice, how frightened
she had been before.
"What is this talk about being a Christian?" the father demanded
stormily. "What can an infant know about such matters? Are you wiser than
your fathers, that their religion is not good enough for you?" And scathing
mockery followed, harder to bear than abuse. "Come! Say salaam to the
Missie Ammal, and bring your jewels" (she had taken them off), "and let us
go home together." The child stood absolutely still, looking up with brave
eyes; and to our astonishment said, as though it were the only thing to be
said: "But I am a Christian. I cannot go home."
We had not thought of her saying this. We had, indeed, encouraged her
as we had encouraged ourselves, to rest in our God, who is unto us a God of
deliverances; but we had not suggested any line of resistance, and were not
prepared for the calm refusal which so quietly took it for granted that she
had no power to refuse.
The father was evidently nonplussed. He knew his little daughter, a timid
child, whose translated name, Fawn, seems to express her exactly, and he
gazed down upon her in silence for one surprised moment, then burst out in
wrath and indignant revilings. "Snake! nurtured in the bosom only to turn
and sting! Vile, filthy, disgusting insect, born to disgrace her caste!" And
they cursed her as she stood.
Then their mood changed, and they tried pleadings, much more difficult
to resist. The father reminded her of his pilgrimage to a famous Temple at
her birth: "He had named her before the gods." Her mother touched on
tenderer memories, till we could feel the quiver of soul, and feared for the
little Fawn. Then they promised her liberty at home. She should read her
Bible, pray to the true God, "for all gods are one." I saw Fawn shut her eyes
for a moment. What she saw in that moment she told me afterwards: a fire
lighted on the floor, a Bible tossed into it, two schoolboy brothers (whose
leanings towards Christianity had been discovered) pushed into an inner
room, the sound of blows and cries. "And after that my brothers did not
want to be Christians any more." Poor little timid Fawn! We hardly wonder
as we look at her that she shrank and shut her eyes. I have seen a child of
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with a cocoa-nut shell fastened to the end of a stick; I have seen her wrists
twisted almost to dislocation—seen it, and been unable to help. I think of
the child, now our happy Gladness, lover of the unlovable babies; and I for
one cannot wonder at the little Fawn's fear. But aloud she only said:
"Forgive me, I cannot go home."
The father grew impatient. "Get your jewels and let us be
gone!" Fawn ran into the house, brought her jewels, and Not Peace, but
a Sword
handed them to her father. He counted them over—pretty
little chains and bangles, and then he eyed her curiously. A child to give up
her jewels like this—he found it unaccountable. And then he began to
argue, but Fawn answered him with clearness and simplicity, and he could
not perplex her. She knew Whom she believed.
At last they rose to go, cursing the day she was born with a curse that
sounded horrible. But their younger daughter, whom they had brought with
them, threw herself upon the ground, tearing her hair, beating her breast,
shrieking and rolling and flinging the dust about like a mad thing. "I will
not go without my sister! I will not go! I will not go!" And she clung to
Fawn, and wept and bewailed till we hardly dared to hope the child would
be able to withstand her. For a moment the parents stood and waited. We,
too, stood in tension of spirit. "They have told her to do it," whispered
Fawn, and stood firm. Then the father stooped, snatched up the younger
child, and departed, followed by the mother.
All this time two of our number had been waiting upon God in a quiet
place out of sight. One of the two went after the parents, hoping for a
chance to explain matters to the mother. As she drew near she heard the
wife say in an undertone to her husband: "Leave them for to-day. Wait till
to-night. You have carried off the younger in your arms against her will.
What hinders you doing the same to the elder?" And that night we prayed
that the Wall of Fire might be round us, and slept in peace.
As a dream when one awaketh, so was the memory of that afternoon
when we awoke next morning. And as a dream so the parents passed out of
sight, for they left before the dawn. But weeks afterwards we heard what
had happened that night. They had lodged in the Hindu village outside our
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responded in any way. It is a little shut-in place of darkness on the borders
of the light. But when the parents proposed a raid upon the bungalow that
night they would not rise to it. "No, we have no feud with the bungalow. We
will not do it." The nearest white face was a day's journey distant, and a
woman alone, white or brown, does not count for much in Hindu eyes. But
the Wall of Fire was around us, and so we were safe.
If the story could stop here, how easy life would be! One fight, one fling
to the lions, and then the palm and crown. But it is not so. The perils of
reaction are greater for the convert than the first great strain of facing the
alternative, "Diana or Christ." Home-sickness comes, wave upon wave, and
all but sweeps the soul away; feelings and longings asleep in the child
awake in the girl, and draw her and woo her, and blind her too often to all
that yielding means. She forgets the under-side of the life she has forsaken;
she remembers only the alluring; and all that is natural pleads within her,
and will not let her rest. "Across the will of Nature leads on the path of
God," is sternly true for the convert in a Hindu or Moslem land.
And so we write this unfinished story in faith that some one reading it
will remember the young girl-converts as well as the little children. Fawn
has been kept steadfast, but she still needs prayer. These last five years have
held anxious hours for those who love her, and to us, as to all who have to
do with converts. "Perpetual knockings at Thy door, tears sullying Thy
transparent rooms," are words that go deep and touch the heart of things.

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CHAPTER XXVI
The Glory of the Usual

"A ND all things were
done in
excellent methods, and I
such

cannot tell how, but things in
the doing of them seemed to
cast a smile"—is a beautiful
sentence from Bunyan's Holy
War, which has been with us
ever since we began the
Nursery work. Lately we
found its complement in a
modern book of sermons,
The Unlighted Lustre, by G.
H. Morrison. "No matter
how stirring your life be, it
will be a failure if you have
never been wakened to the
glory of the usual. There is
no happiness like the old and
common happiness, sunshine
and love and duty and the
laughter of children. . . .
There are no duties that so
enrich as dull duties." AFTER HER BOTTLE.

The ancient voice and the
new voice sing to the same sweet tune; and we in our little measure are
learning to sing it too.
As we have said, India is a land where the secular does not appeal. When
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women to join us, as many in one month as we now have in five years.
Sometimes it has seemed to us that we were set to learn and to teach a new
and difficult lesson, the sacredness of the commonplace. Day by day we
learn to rub out a little more of the clear chalked line that someone has ruled
on life's black-board; the Secular and the Spiritual may not be divided now.
The enlightening of a dark soul or the lighting of a kitchen fire, it matters
not which it is, if only we are obedient to the heavenly vision, and work
with a pure intention to the glory of our God.

NORTH LAKE AND HILLS.

The nursery kitchen is a pleasant little place. We hardly ever enter it
without remembering and appreciating John Bunyan's pretty thought, for
there things in the doing of them seem to cast a smile. Ponnamal, who, as
we said, superintends the more delicate food-making work, has trained two
of her helpers to carefulness; and these two—one a motherly older woman
with a most comfortable face, the other the convert, Joy—look up with such
a welcome that you feel it good to be there. Scrubbing away at endless pots
and pans and milk vessels is a younger convent-girl, who, when she first
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her Bible on her lap and a far-away look of content on her face until the
dinner-bell rang. Now she scrubs with a sense of responsibility.
All the younger converts have regular teaching, for they have much to
learn, and all, older and younger, have daily classes and meetings; above
all, it is planned that each has her quiet time undisturbed. But it is early
understood that to be happy each must contribute her share to the happiness
of the family; and one of the first lessons the young convert has to learn is
to honour the "Grey Angel," Drudgery, and not to call her bad names.
The kitchen has an outlook dear to the Tamil heart. A
trellis covered with pink antigone surrounds it, but a The Story of a
Raven
window is cut in the trellis so that the kitchen may
command the bungalow. "While I stirred the milk I saw everything you did
on your verandah," remarked one of the workers lately, in tones of
appreciation. The opposite outlook is the mountain shown in the
photograph; only instead of water we have the kitchen-garden with its
tropical-looking plantains and creeping marrows. "And the warm melon lay
like a little sun on the tawny sand," is a line for an Eastern garden when the
great marrows ripen suddenly.
The kitchen thus favoured without, is adorned within, according to the
taste of its owners, with those very interesting pictures published by the
makers of infant foods. "How do you choose them?" we asked one day.
"The truest and the prettiest," was the satisfactory answer. Our Dohnavur
text, which hangs in every nursery, looks down upon the workers, and, as
they put it, "keeps them sweet in heart": "Love never faileth."
When first we began to cultivate babies we were very ignorant, and we
asked advice of all who seemed competent to give it. The advice was most
perplexing. Each mother was sure the food that had suited her baby was the
best of all foods, and regarded all others as doubtful, if not bad. One whom
we greatly respected told us Indian babies would be sure to get on anyhow,
as it was their own land. And one seriously suggested rice-water as a
suitable nourishment. Naturally we began with the time-honoured milk and
barley-water, and some throve upon it. But we found each baby had to be
studied separately. There was no universal (artificial) food. We could write
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sentence in it would be, "Don't change the food if you can help it." This
tractlet would certainly close with a word of thanks to those kind people,
the milk-food manufacturers, who have helped us to build up healthy
children; for feelings of personal gratitude come when help of this kind is
given.
The nursery kitchen is a room full of reminders of help. "I have
commanded the ravens," is a word of strength to us. Once we were very
low. A little child had died under trying circumstances. One of the milk-
sellers, instead of using the vessel sent him, poured his milk into an unclean
copper vessel, and it was poisoned. He remembered that it would not be
taken unless brought in the proper vessel, so at the last moment he corrected
his mistake, but the correction was fatal, for there was no warning. The milk
was sterilized as usual and given to the child. She was a healthy baby, and
her nurse remembers how she smiled and welcomed her bottle, taking it in
her little hands in her happy eagerness. A few hours later she was dead.
At such times the heart seems foolishly weak, and things which would
not trouble it otherwise have power to make it sore. We were four days'
journey from the nursery at the time, and had the added anxiety about the
other babies, to whom we feared the poisoned milk might have been given,
and we dreaded what the next post might bring. Just at that moment it was
suggested, with kindest intentions, that perhaps we were on the wrong
track, the work seemed so difficult and wasteful.
It was mail-day. The mail as usual brought a pile of letters, and the top
envelope contained a bill for foods ordered from England some weeks
before. It came to more than I had expected, in spite of the kindness of
several firms in giving a liberal discount; and for a moment the rice-water
talk (to give it a name which covers all that type of talk) came back to me
with hurt in it: "To what purpose is this waste?" But with it came another
word: "Take this child away (away from the terrible Temple) and nurse it
for Me." And with the pile of letters before me, and the bill for food in my
hand, I asked that enough might be found in those letters to pay it. It did not
occur to me at the moment that the prayer was rather illogical. I only knew
it would be comforting, and like a little word of peace, if such an assurance
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Letter after letter was empty. Not empty of kindness, but
quite empty of cheques. The last envelope looked thin and Because He
hath Heard
not at all hopeful. Cheques are usually inside reliable-
looking covers. I opened it. There was nothing but a piece of unknown
writing. But the writing was to ask if we happened to have a need which a
sum named in the letter would meet. This sum exactly covered the bill for
the foods. When the cheque eventually reached me it was for more than the
letter had mentioned, and covered all carriage and duty expenses, which
were unknown to me at the time the first letter came, and to which of course
I had not referred in my reply. Thus almost visibly and audibly has the
Lord, from whose hands we received this charge to keep, confirmed His
word to us, strengthening us when we were weak, and comforting us when
we were sad with that innermost sense of His tenderness which braces
while it soothes.
Surely we who know Him thus should love the Lord because He hath
heard our voice and our supplication. Every advertisement on the walls of
the little nursery kitchen is like an illuminated text with a story hidden away
in it:—
When Thou dost favour any action,
It runs, it flies;
All things concur to give it a perfection.
The nursery kitchen, we were amused to discover, has a sphere of
influence all its own. Our discovery was on this wise:—
One wet evening we were caught in a downpour as we were crossing
from the Taraha nursery to the bungalow, and we took shelter in the
kindergarten room, which reverts to the Lola-and-Leela tribe when the
kindergarten babies depart. The tribe do not often possess their Sittie and
their Ammal both together and all to themselves, now that the juniors are so
numerous, and they welcomed us with acclamations. "Finish spreading your
mats," we said to them, as they seemed inclined to let our advent interrupt
the order of the evening; and we watched them unroll their mats, which
hung round the wall in neat rolls swung by cords from the roof, and spread
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mummy, and beside each mummy was a matchbox and a small bundle of
rags.
Presently the mummies were unswathed, and proved to be dolls in more
or less good condition. Each was carefully laid upon a morsel of sheet, and
covered with another sheet folded over in the neatest fashion. "If we teach
them to be particular when they are young, they will be tidy when they are
old," we were informed. It was pleasant to hear our own remarks so
accurately repeated.
The matchboxes were next unpacked; each contained a bit of match, a
small pointed shell, a pebble (preferably black), and a couple of minute
cockles. "I suppose you don't know what all these are?" said Lola, affably.
"That," pointing to the match, "is a spoon; and this," taking the pointed shell
up carefully, "is a bottle. This is the 'rubber,' of course," and the black
pebble was indicated; "and these" (setting the cockle-shells on a piece of
white paper on the floor) "are bowls of water, one for the bottle and the
other for the rubber." We suggested one bowl of water would hold both
bottle and rubber; but Lola's entirely mischievous eyes looked quite
shocked and reproving. "Two bowls are better," was the serious reply; "it is
very important to be clean." "What does your child have?" we inquired
respectfully. "Barley-water and milk, two-and-a-half ounces every two
hours—that's five tablespoonfuls, you know." "And Leela's?" "Oh, Leela's
child is delicate. She has to have Benger. Two ounces every two hours; and
it has to be a long time digested." "Do all your children have their food
every two hours?" Lola looked surprised, and Leela giggled: how very
ignorant we seemed to be! "No, only the tiny ones; our babies are very
young. After they get older they have more at a time and not so often. That
child there," pointing to another mat, "has Condensed, as we haven't enough
cow's milk for them all. It suits her very well. She has six ounces at a time;
once before she goes to sleep, and then none till she wakens in the morning.
She's a very healthy child." "How do you know the time?" we asked,
prepared for anything now. "Oh, we have watches. This is mine," and a toy
from a Christmas cracker was produced; "Leela's watch is different" (it was
indeed different—a mere figment of the imagination), "but she can look at
mine when she wants to." "Why does your child sleep with Leela's?" (All
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Leela looked shyer. These little matters of affection were not intended for
public discussion.
By this time the rain had cleared, so we prepared to
depart, and the further entertainments provided for us by the The Usual
cheerful tribe that evening do not belong to this story. We
escaped finally, damp with much laughter in a humid atmosphere. "Come
every evening!" shouted the tribe, as at last we disappeared, and we felt
much inclined to accept the invitation.
The kitchen is a busy place in the morning, and again in the evening,
when the fresh milk is carried to it in shining aluminium vessels to be
sterilized or otherwise dealt with. But even in the busiest hours there is
almost sure to be a baby set in an upturned stool, in which she sits holding
on to the front legs in proud consciousness of being able to sit up. Or an
older one will be clinging to the garments of the busy workers, or perched
beside them on a stool. Once we found Tara and Evu seated on the window-
sill. Ponnamal was making foods at the table under the window, and the
little bare feet were tucked in between bowls and jugs of milk. "But, indeed,
they are quite clean," explained Ponnamal, without waiting for remark from
us, for she knew what we were thinking of her table decorations. "We
dusted the sand off their little feet before we lifted them up." The babies
said nothing, but looked doubtfully up at us, as if not very sure of our
intentions. But Ponnamal's eyes were so appealing, and the little buff things
in blue with a trellis of pink flowers for background made such a pretty
picture, that we had not the heart to spoil it. Then the little faces smiled
gratefully upon us, and everybody smiled. The kitchen is a happy place of
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CHAPTER XXVII
The Secret Traffic

"Sir, to leave things out of a book because they will not be
believed, is meanness."—Dr. Johnson.

W HEN first, upon March 7, 1901, we heard from the lips of a little
child the story of her life in a Temple house, we were startled and
distressed, and penetrated with the conviction that such a story ought to be
impossible in a land ruled by a Christian Power. The subject was new to us;
we knew nothing of the magnitude of what may be called "The Secret
Traffic of India"—a traffic in little children, mere infants oftentimes, for
wrong purposes; and we did not appreciate, as we do now, the delicacy and
difficulty of the position from a Government point of view, or the quiet
might of the forces upon the other side. And though with added knowledge
comes an added sense of responsibility, and a fear of all careless appeal to
those whose burden is already so heavy, yet with every fresh discovery the
conviction deepens that something should be done—and done, if possible,
soon—to save at least this generation of children, or some of them, from
destruction.
"It is useless to move without a body of evidence at your back," said a
friend in the Civil Service to us at the close of a long conversation. "If you
can get the children, of course they themselves will furnish the best
evidence; but, anyhow, collect facts." And this was the beginning of a Note-
book, into which we entered whatever we could learn about the Temple
children, and in which we kept letters relating to them.
By Temple children throughout this book we mean children dedicated to
gods, or in danger of being so dedicated. Dedication to gods implies a form
of marriage which makes ordinary marriage impossible. The child is
regarded as belonging to the gods. In Southern India, where religious
feeling runs strong, and the great Temples are the centres of Hindu
influence, this that I have called "The Traffic" is worked upon religious

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lines; and so in trying to save the children we have to contend with the
perverted religious sense. Something of the same kind exists in other parts
of India, and the traffic under another name is common in provinces where
Temple service as we have it in the South is unknown. Again, in areas
where, owing to the action of the native Government, Temple service, as
such, is not recognised, so that children in danger of wrong cannot, strictly
speaking, be called Temple children, there is yet need of legislation which
shall touch all houses where little children are being brought up for the
same purpose; so that the subject is immense and involved, and the thought
of it suggests a net thrown over millions of square miles of territory, so
finely woven as to be almost invisible, but so strong in its mesh that in no
place yet has it ever given way. And the net is alive: it can feel and it can
hold.
But all through this book we have kept to the South—to the area where
the evil is distinctly and recognisably religious. Others elsewhere have told
their own story; ours, though in touch with theirs (in that its whole motive is
to save the little children), is yet different in manner, in that it is avowedly
Christian. India is a land where generalisations are deceptive. So we have
kept to the South.
We ourselves became only very gradually aware of what was happening
about us. As fact after fact came to light, we were forced to certain
conclusions which we could not doubt were correct. But at first we were
almost alone in these conclusions, because it was impossible to take others
with us in our tedious underground hunt after facts. So the question was
often asked: "But do the children really exist?"
I have said we were almost alone, not quite. Members of
the Indian Civil Service, who are much among the people, "If"
knew something of the custom of child-dedication, but
found themselves unable to touch it. Hindu Reformers, of course, knew;
and two or three veteran missionaries had come into contact with it and had
grieved over their helplessness to do anything. One of these had written a
pamphlet on the subject twenty years before our Nursery work began. He
sent it to me with a sorrowful word written across it, "Result? Nil." But we
do not often meet our civilian friends, for they are busy, and so are we; and
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earlier years were in places far from us, and so were all the Reformers. So
perhaps it was not wonderful that, beset by doubting letters from home and
a certain amount of not unnatural incredulity in India, we sometimes almost
wondered if we ourselves were dreaming. "Well, if they do exist, I hope you
will be able to find them!"—varied by, "Well, if you do find them, they will
be a proof of their own existence!"—were two of the most encouraging
remarks of those early days.
From the beginning of this work, as stated before, we have tried to
collect facts about the traffic and the customs connected with it. Notes were
kept of conversations with Hindus and others, and these notes were
compared with what evidence we were able to gather from trustworthy
sources. These brief notes of various kinds we offer in their simplicity. We
have made no attempt to tabulate or put into shape the information thus
acquired, believing that the notes of conversations taken down at the time,
and the quotations from letters copied as they stand, will do their work
more directly than anything more elaborate would. Where there is a
difference of detail it is because the customs differ slightly in different
places. No names are given, for obvious reasons; but the letters were
written by men of standing, living in widely scattered districts in the South.
The evidence contained in them was carefully sifted, and in many cases
corroborated by personal investigation, before being considered evidence:
so that we believe these chapters may be accepted as fact. Dated quotations
from the Madras Mail are sufficient to prove that we are not writing ancient
history:—
January 2, 1909.—"The following resolution was put from the chair and
carried unanimously: 'The Conference (consisting of Hindu Social
Reformers) cordially supports the movement started to better the condition
of unprotected children in general, and appreciates particularly the agitation
started to protect girls and young women from being dedicated to
Temples.'"
May 8, 1909.—"Once more we have an illustration from
Mysore of the fact that the Government of a Native State are Mysore
able to tread boldly on ground which the British
Government in India are unable to approach. At various times, in these
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servants of the gods in Hindu Temples been uttered; but, as far as the
Government are concerned, it has fallen, if not on deaf ears, on ears stopped
to appeals of this kind, which demand action that can be interpreted as a
breach of that religious neutrality which is one of the cardinal principles of
British rule in India. The agitation against it is not the agitation of the
European whose susceptibility is offended at a state of things that he finds
hard to reconcile with the reverence and purity of Divine worship; but it is
the outcry of the reverent Hindu against one of the corrupt and degrading
practices that, in the course of centuries, have crept into his religion. In this
particular instance the Mysore Government cannot be accused of acting
hastily. As long ago as February, 1892, they issued a circular order
describing the legitimate services to be performed in Temples by Temple
women. In 1899, the Muzrai Superintendent, Rai Bahadur A. Sreenivasa
Charlu, directed that the Temple women borne on the Nanjangud Temple
establishment should not be allowed to perform tafe (or dancing) service in
the Temple; but that the allowances payable to them should be continued for
their lifetime, and that at their death the vacancies should not be filled up.
Against this order the Temple women concerned memorialised H.H. the
Maharajah as long ago as 1905, and the order disposing of it has only just
been issued. In the course of the latter the Government say:—
"'From the Shastraic authorities quoted by the two Agamiks employed in
the Muzrai Secretariat, it is observed that the services to be performed by
Temple women form part and parcel of the worship of the god in Hindu
Temples, and that singing and dancing in the presence of the deity are also
prescribed. It is, however, observed that in the case of Temple women
personal purity and rectitude of conduct and a vow of celibacy were
considered essential. But the high ideals entertained in ancient days have
now degenerated. . . . The Government now observe that whatever may
have been the original object of the institution of Temple women in
Temples, the state in which these Temple servants are now found fully
justifies the action taken by them in excluding the Temple women from
every kind of service in sacred institutions like Temples. Further, the
absence of the services of these women in certain important Temples in the
State has become established for nearly fifteen years past, and the public
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"The exclusion of Temple women from Temple services obtains in
Mysore in the case of a few large Temples whose Tasdik Pattis have been
revised. But the time has come, the Government think, for its general
application, and they therefore direct that the policy enunciated in the
abstract given above should be extended to all Muzrai Temples in the State.
It is to be hoped that the good example thus set will bear fruit elsewhere,
where the Temple women evil is more notorious than it was in Temples of
Mysore."
A copy of the Government document to which this cutting relates lies
before me. It is bravely and clearly worded, and its intention is evident. The
high-minded Hindu—and there are such, let it not be forgotten—revolts
from the degradation and pollution of this travesty of religion, and will
abolish it where he can. But let it be remembered that, good as this law is, it
does not and it cannot touch the great Secret Traffic itself. That will go on
behind the law, and behind the next that is made, and the next, unless
measures are devised to ensure its being thoroughly enforced.
Cuttings from newspapers, quotations, evidence—it is not interesting
reading, and yet we look to our friends to go through to the end with us. Let
us pause for a moment here and remember the purpose of it all; and may the
thought of some little, loved child make an atmosphere for these chapters!

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CHAPTER XXVIII
Blue Book Evidence

"The precipitous sides of difficult questions."—E. B. B.

O UR first evidence consists of abridged extracts from the Census
Report for 1901. After explaining the different names by which
Temple women are known in different parts of the Madras Presidency, the
Report continues: "The servants of the gods, who subsist by dancing and
music and the practice of 'the oldest profession in the world,' are partly
recruited by admissions and even purchases from other classes. . . . The rise
of the Caste and its euphemistic name seem to date from the ninth and tenth
centuries, during which much activity prevailed in South India in the matter
of building Temples and elaborating the services held in them. . . . The
duties then, as now, were to fan the idol with Tibetan ox-tails, to carry the
sacred light, and to sing and dance before the god when he is carried in
procession. Inscriptions show that in a.d. 1004 the great Temple of the
Chola king at Tanjore had attached to it four hundred women of the Temple,
who lived in free quarters in the four streets round it, and were allowed tax-
free land out of its endowments. Other Temples had similar
arrangements. . . . At the present day they form a regular Caste, having its
own laws of inheritance, its own customs and rules of etiquette, and its own
councils to see that all these are followed, and they hold a position which is
perhaps without a parallel in any other country. . . .
"The daughters of the Caste who are brought up to follow the Caste
profession are carefully taught dancing and singing, the art of dressing well,
;. . . and their success in keeping up their clientele is largely due to the
contrast which they thus present to the ordinary Hindu housewife, whose
ideas are bounded by the day's dinners and babies."
Closely allied to this Caste is that formed by the Temple musicians, who
with the Temple woman are "now practically the sole repository of Indian
music, the system of which is probably one of the oldest in the world." In

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certain districts the Report states that a custom obtains among certain
castes, under which a family which has no sons must dedicate one of its
daughters to Temple service. The daughter selected is taken to a Temple and
married there to a god, the marriage symbol being put on her as in a real
marriage. Henceforth she belongs to the god.
Writing in 1904, a member of the Indian Civil Service says: "I heard of a
case of dedication (three girls) at A. at the beginning of this year, but I could
not get any evidence. The cases very rarely indeed come up officially, as
nearly every Hindu is interested in keeping them dark." We, too, have had
the same difficulty, and the evidence we now submit is doubly valuable
because of its source. It is very rarely that we have found it possible to get
behind the scenes sufficiently to obtain reliable information from those
most concerned in this traffic.
The head priest of one of our Temples admitted to a friend who was
watching for opportunities to get information for us that the "marriage to
the god is effected privately by the Temple priest at the Temple woman's
house, with the usual marriage-symbol ceremony. To avoid the Penal Code
(which forbids the marriage of children to gods) a nominal bridegroom is
sometimes brought for the wedding day to become the nominal husband.
This Caste is recruited by secret adoption."
A Temple woman's son, now living the ordinary life apart from his clan,
explains the very early marriage thus: "If not married, they will not be
considered worthy of honour. Before the children reach the age of ten they
must be married. . . . They become the property of the Temple priests and
worshippers who go to the Temple to chant the sacred songs."
A Temple woman herself told a friend of ours: "The child
is dressed like a bride, and taken with another girl of the "The Child
should be
same community, dressed like a boy in the garb of a about Eight"
bridegroom. They both go to the Temple and worship the
idol. This ceremony is common, and performed openly in the streets." In a
later letter from the same friend further details are given: "The child, who
should be about eight or nine years old, goes as if to worship the idol in the
Temple. There the marriage symbol is hidden in a garland, and the garland

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is put over the idol, after which it is taken to the child's home and put round
her neck." After this she is considered married to the god.
A young Temple woman in a town near Dohnavur told us she had been
given to the Temple when she was five years old. Her home was in the
north country, but she did not remember it. She had, of course, understood
nothing of the meaning of the ceremony of marriage. She only remembered
the pretty flowers and general rejoicing and pleasure. Afterwards, when she
began to understand, she was not happy, but she gradually got accustomed
to it. Her adopted relations were all the friends she had. She was fond of
them and they of her. Her "husband" was one of the Temple priests.
A Hindu woman known to us left home with her little daughter and
wandered about as an ascetic. She went to a famous Temple, where it is the
custom for such as desire to become ascetics to enter the life by conforming
to certain ceremonies ordained by the priests. She shaved her head, took off
her jewels, wore a Saivite necklet of berries, and was known as a devotee.
She had little knowledge of the life before she entered it, and only gradually
became aware of the character borne by most of her fellow-devotees. When
she knew, she fled from them and returned to her own village and the
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In telling us about it she said: "I expected whiteness, I
found blackness." She told us that she constantly came into How she is
Trained
contact with Temple women, none of whom had chosen the
life as she and her fellow-ascetics had chosen theirs. "Always the one who
is to dance before the gods is given to the life when she is very young.
Otherwise she could not be properly trained. Many babies are brought by
their parents and given to Temple women for the sake of merit. It is very
meritorious to give a child to the gods. Often the parents are poor but of
good Caste. Always suitable compensation and a 'joy gift' is given by the
Temple women to the parents. It is an understood custom, and ensures that
the child is a gift, not a loan. The amount depends upon the age and beauty
of the child. If the child is old enough to miss her mother, she is very
carefully watched until she has forgotten her. Sometimes she is shut up in
the back part of the house, and punished if she runs out into the street. The
punishment is severe enough to frighten the child. Sometimes it is branding
with a hot iron upon a place which does not show, as under the arm;
sometimes nipping with the nail till the skin breaks; sometimes a whipping.
After the child is reconciled to her new life, occasionally her people are
allowed to come if they wish; and in special circumstances she pays a visit
to her old home. But this is rare. If she has been adopted as an infant, she
knows nothing of her own relations, but thinks of her adopted mother as her
own mother. As soon as she can understand she is taught all evil and trained
to think it is good."
As to her education, the movements of the dance are taught very early,
and the flexible little limbs are rendered more flexible by a system of
massage. In all ways the natural grace of the child is cultivated and
developed, but always along lines which lead far away from the freedom
and innocence of childhood. As it is important she should learn a great deal
of poetry, she is taught to read (and with this object in view she is
sometimes sent to the mission school, if there is one near her home). The
poetry is almost entirely of a debased character; and so most insidiously, by
story and allusion, the child's mind is familiarised with sin; and before she
knows how to refuse the evil and choose the good, the instinct which would
have been her guide is tampered with and perverted, till the poor little mind,
thus bewildered and deceived, is incapable of choice.

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CHAPTER XXIX
"Very Common in those Parts"

"The dark enigma of permitted wrong."—F. R. H.

T HE mixture of secrecy and openness described by the Temple woman
is confirmed by Hindus well acquainted with Temple affairs. "All the
Temple women are married to the gods. In former times the marriages were
conducted upon a grand scale, but now they are clandestinely performed in
the Temple, with the connivance of the priest, and with freedom to deny it if
questioned. Some ceremonies are performed in the Temple, the rest at
home. Sometimes the marriage symbol is blessed by the priest, and taken
home to the child to be worn by her. In all these cases the priest himself has
to tie it round her neck. The previous arrangements for the marriage are
made by the priests with the guardians of the child who is to be initiated
into the order of Temple women.
"The ceremony of tying on the marriage symbol is never in our district
performed in public. None but intimate friends know about it. There is a
secret understanding between the priests and the Temple women concerned.
When the time arrives for the marriage symbol to be tied on, after the usual
ceremonies the priest hands over the symbol hidden in a garland of flowers.
"Of course, there is music on the occasion. When outsiders ask what all
the noise is about, the people who know do not say the real thing. They say
it is a birthday or other festival day. The symbol is tied on when the child is
between five and eleven, after which it is considered unholy to perform the
marriage ceremony. The symbol is at first hidden from the gaze of the
public. Later it is shown publicly, but not while the girl is still young."
This tallies exactly with our own experience. More than once an eager
child in her simplicity has shown me the marriage symbol, a small gold
ornament tied round her neck, or hanging on a fine gold chain; but the
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and made her cover it up under her other jewels, or under the folds of her
dress.
The reason for this secrecy, which, however, is not universal, is, as is
inferred in the evidence of the head priest, because it is known to the
Temple authorities that what they are doing is illegal; though, as a matter of
fact, as will be seen later, prosecutions are rare, and convictions rarer still.
The Caste is recruited, as the Blue Book states, by "admissions and even
purchases from other classes." On this point a Brahman says: "When the
Temple woman has no child, she adopts a girl or girls, and the children
become servants of the gods. Sometimes children are found who, on
account of a vow made by their parents, become devotees of the gods."
Another Brahman, an orthodox Hindu, writes: "In some districts people
vow that they will dedicate one of their children to the Temple if they are
blessed with a family. Temple women often adopt orphans, to whom they
bequeath their possessions. In most cases the orphans are bought."
The position of the Temple woman has been a perplexity
to many. The Census Report touches the question: "It is one Convictions
are Rare
of the many inconsistencies of the Hindu religion, that
though their profession is repeatedly vehemently condemned in the Shastras
(sacred books), it has always received the countenance of the Church."
Their duties are all religious. A well-informed Hindu correspondent thus
enumerates them: "First they are to be one of the twenty-one persons who
are in charge of the key of the outer door of the Temple; second, to open the
outer door daily; third, to burn camphor, and go round the idol when
worship is being performed; fourth, to honour public meetings with their
presence; fifth, to mount the car and stand near the god during car-
festivals." The orthodox Hindu quoted before remarks on the "high honour,"
as the Temple child is taught to consider it, the marriage to the god confers
upon her.
We have purposely confined ourselves almost entirely to official and
Hindu evidence so far, but cannot forbear to add to this last word the
confirmatory experience of our own Temple children worker: "When I try
to persuade the Hindus to let us have their little ones instead of giving them
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and merit to us for ever; to give them to you is dishonour and shame and
demerit. So why should we give them to you?'"
We have said that convictions are rare. This is because of the great
difficulty in obtaining such evidence as is required by the law as it stands at
present. One case may be quoted as typical. A few years ago, in one of our
country towns, a father gave his child in marriage to the idol "with some
pomp," as the report before us says. He was prosecuted, but the prosecution
failed, for the priest and the parents united in denying the fact of the
marriage; and the evidence for the defence was so skilfully cooked that it
was found impossible to prove an offence against the Penal Code.
Once, deeply stirred over the case of a little girl of six who was about to
be married to a god as her elder sisters had been a few months previously,
we wrote to a magistrate of wide experience and proved sympathy with the
work. His letter speaks for itself:—
"I have been waiting some little time before answering your letter,
because I wanted time to think over your problem. As far as I can make out,
there is no way in the world of preventing a woman marrying her own
daughter to the gods at any age; but you can prosecute her if she does. If
you could get her into prison for marrying the elder girls, the younger might
be safe; but I don't think you can do anything directly for her. She is not
being 'unlawfully detained'; and even if she were, all you could do would be
to get her returned to her parents and guardians, which would be worse than
useless.
"The question is whether you can hope to get a conviction in the other
case.
"I don't see how you can. You can say in court that you saw the little
girls with their marriage symbol on, and that they said they had been
married to the god. The little girls will deny it all, and say they never set
eyes on you before. Moreover, I don't think the ordinary Court would be
satisfied without some other evidence of the fact of dedication; and
considering how everyone would work against you, I think you would find
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To every man his work: it appears to us that expert knowledge is
required, and ample means and leisure, if the expenditure involved is to
result in anything worth while; and a careful study of all available
information regarding prosecutions, convictions, and, I may add, sentences,
has convinced us, at least, of the futility of such attempts from a missionary
point of view: for even if convictions were certain, as long as the law hands
the child back to its guardians after their unfitness to guard it from the
worst that can befall it has been proved, so long do we feel unable to
rejoice exceedingly over even the six months' rigorous imprisonment,
which in more than one case has been the legal interpretation of the phrase
"up to a term of ten years," which is the penalty attached to this offence in
the Indian Penal Code.
In this connection it may be well to quote a paragraph from the Indian
Social Reformer:—
"The Public Prosecutor at Madras applied for admission of a revision
petition against the order of the Sessions Judge, made in the following
circumstances:—
"One, S., a priest, was convicted by the first-class
subdivisional magistrate of having performed the ceremony Ten years—
Six Months
of dedicating a young girl in the Temple of N., and thereby
committing an offence punishable under Section 372 of the Penal Code. He
accordingly sentenced him to six months' rigorous imprisonment. On
appeal, the Sessions Judge reduced the sentence to two months, on the
ground that the rite complained against was a very common one in those
parts. The Public Prosecutor based his petition on the ground that it had
been held in a previous case 'that such a dedication was an offence, and that
it was highly desirable that the interests of minors should be properly
protected.' This protection, it was submitted, could only be vouchsafed by
making offending people understand that they would render themselves
liable to heavy punishment. The present sentence would not have a
deterrent effect, and he accordingly applied for an enhancement of the
same. His lordship admitted the petition, and directed notice to the
accused."

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It is something to know the six months' sentence was confirmed. But is
not the fact that a Sessions Judge should commute such a sentence, on the
ground that the offence was "very common," enough to suggest a doubt as
to the deterrent effect of even this punishment?

NOTE

During the last few months the Secretary of State for
India has addressed official inquiries to the Government of
India regarding the dedication of children to Hindu gods,
and the measures necessary for the protection of such
children.
If the anticipated change in the law is to result in more
than a Bill on paper—a blind, behind which things will go on
as before only more out of sight—it is, we believe, needful to
ensure:
1st. Protection for all children found to be in moral danger,
whether or not they are or may be dedicated to gods.

2nd. That, irrespective of nationality or religion, whoever
has worked for and won the deliverance of the child
should be allowed to act as guardian to it.

3rd. That such a Bill shall be most thoroughly enforced.

February, 1912.
To face p. 268.

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CHAPTER XXX
On the Side of the Oppressors there was Power

I HAVE been looking over my note-book, in which there are some
hundreds of letters, clippings from newspapers, and records of
conversations bearing upon the Temple children. It is difficult to know
which to choose to complete the picture already outlined in the preceding
chapters. A mere case record would be wearisome; and indeed the very
word "case" sounds curiously inappropriate when one thinks of the
nurseries and their little inhabitants; or looks up to see mischievous eyes
watching a chance to stop the uninteresting writing; or feels, suddenly, soft
arms round one's neck, as a baby, strayed from her own domain, climbs
unexpectedly up from behind and makes dashes at the typewriter keyboard.
Such little living interruptions are too frequent to allow of these chapters
being anything but human.
The newspaper clippings are usually concerned with public movements,
resolutions, petitions, and the like. There is one startling little paragraph
from a London paper, dated July 7, 1906; the ignorance of the subject so
flippantly dealt with is its only apology. No one could have written so had
he understood. The occasion was the memorial addressed to the Governor
in Council by workers for the children in the Bombay Presidency:—
"Society must be very select in Poona. There has been a custom there for
young ladies to be married to selected gods. You would have thought that to
be the bride of a god was a good enough marriage for anyone. But it is not
good enough for Poona." It is time that such writing became impossible for
any Englishman.
In India the feeling of the best men, whether Hindu or Christian, is
strongly against the dedication of little children to Temples, and some of the
newspapers of the land speak out and say so in unmistakable language. The
Indian Times speaks of the little ones being "steeped deep from their
childhood" in all that is most wrong. A Hindu, writing in the Epiphany, puts

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the matter clearly when he says: "Finally, one can hardly conceive of
anything more debasing than to dedicate innocent little girls to gods in the
name of religion, and then leave them with the Temple priests"; and another
writer in the same paper asks a question which those who say that Hinduism
is good enough for India might do well to ponder: "If this is not a Hindu
practice, how can it take place in a Temple and no priest stop it, though all
know? . . . In London religion makes wickedness go away; but in Bombay
religion brings wickedness, and Government has to try to make it go away."
This immense contrast of fact and of ideal contains our answer to all who
would put sin in India on a level with sin in England.
Christian writers naturally, whether in the Christian Patriot of the South
or the Bombay Guardian of the West, have no doubt about the existence of
the evil or the need for its removal. They, too, connect it distinctly with
religion, and recognise its tremendous influence.
But we turn from the printed page, and go straight to the houses where
the little children live. The witnesses now are missionaries or trusted Indian
workers.
"There were thirteen little children in the houses
connected with the Temple last time I visited them. I saw the "She Belongs
to the god"
little baby—such a dear, fat, laughing little thing. It was
impossible to get it, and I see no hope of getting any of the other children."
"When I was visiting in S. a woman came to talk to me with her three
little children. Two of them were girls, very pretty, 'fair' little children.
'What work does your husband do?' I asked; and she answered, 'I am
married to the god.' Then I knew who she was, and that her children were in
danger. I have tried since to get them, but in vain. Everyone says that
Temple women never give up their little girls. These two were dedicated at
their birth. This is only one instance. We have many Temple women reading
with us, and many of the little children attend our schools."
"There are not scores but hundreds of these children in the villages of
this district. Here certain families, living ordinary lives in their own
villages, dedicate one of their children as a matter of course to the gods.
They always choose the prettiest. It is a recognised custom, and no one
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afterwards as if nothing had happened, only she may not be married in the
real way. She belongs to the god and his priests and worshippers."
"The house was very orderly and nice. I sat on the verandah and talked
to the women, who were all well educated and so attractive with their pretty
dress and jewels. They seemed bright, but, of course, would not show me
their real feelings, and I could only hold surface conversation with them."
We are often asked if the Temple houses are inside the walls which
surround all the great Temples in this part of the country. They are usually
in the streets outside. Most of the Brahman Temples are surrounded by a
square of streets, and the houses are in the square or near it. There is
nothing to distinguish them from other houses in the street. It is only when
you go inside that you feel the difference. An hour on the shady verandah of
one of these houses is very revealing. You see the children run up to
welcome a tall, fine-looking man, who pats their heads in the kindest way,
and as he passes you recognise him. Next time you see him in the glory of
his office, you wish you could forget where you saw him last.
Sometimes we are asked who the children are. How do the Temple
women get them in the first instance?
We have already answered this question by quotations from the Census
Report, and by statements of Hindus well acquainted with the subject. It
should be added that often the Temple woman having daughters of her own
dedicates them, and as a rule it is only when she has none that she adopts
other little ones. A few extracts from letters and notes from conversations
are subjoined, as they show how the system of adoption works:—
"We are in trouble over a little girl, the daughter of wealthy parents, who
have dedicated her to the gods and refuse to change their mind. The child
was ill some time ago, and they vowed then that if she recovered they
would dedicate her."
"The poor woman's husband was very ill, and the mother vowed her
little girl as an offering if he recovered. He did recover, and so the child has
been given."
"It is the custom of the Caste to dedicate the eldest girl of a certain
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in each generation."
"She is of good caste, but very poor. Her husband died two months
before the baby was born, and as it was a girl she was much troubled as to
its future, for she knew she would never have enough money to marry it
suitably. A Temple woman heard of the baby, and at once offered to adopt it.
She persuaded the mother by saying: 'You see, if it is married to the gods, it
will never be a widow like you. It will always be well cared for and have
honour, and be a sign of good fortune to our people—unlike you!' (It is
considered a sign of good omen to see a Temple woman the first thing in
the morning; but the sight of a widow at any time is a thing to be avoided.)
The poor mother could not resist this, and she has been persuaded."
"The mother is a poor, delicate widow, with several boys
as well as this baby girl. She cannot support them all "Not Wrong
because
properly, and her relatives do not seem inclined to help her. Religious"
The Temple women have heard of her, and they sent a
woman to negotiate. The mother knew that we would take the little one
rather than that she should be forced to give it up to Temple women; but she
said when we talked with her: 'It cannot be wrong to give it to the holy
gods! This is our religion; and it may be wrong to you, but it is not wrong to
us.' So she refused to give us the baby, and seems inclined to go away with
it. It is like that constantly. The thing cannot be wrong because it is
religious!"
"I heard of two little orphan girls whose guardian, an uncle, had married
again, and did not want to have the marriage expenses of his two little
nieces to see to. So at the last great festival he brought the children and
dedicated them to the Saivite Temple, and the Temple women heard about it
before I did, and at once secured them. I went as soon as I could to see if we
could not get them, but she would not listen to us. She said they were her
sister's children, and that she had adopted them out of love for her dead
sister."
A lawyer was consulted as to this case, but it was impossible to trace the
uncle or to prove that the children were not related to the Temple woman.
Above all, it was impossible to prove that she meant to do anything illegal.
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As a rule the Temple woman receives little beyond bare sustenance from
the Temple itself. In some Temples when the little child is formally
dedicated, she (or her guardian) receives two pounds, and her funeral
expenses are promised. But though there is little stated remuneration, the
Temple woman is not poor. Poverty may come. If she breaks the law of her
caste, or offends against the etiquette of that caste, she is immediately
excommunicated, and then she may become very poor. Or if she has spent
her money freely, or not invested it wisely, her old age may be cheerless
enough. But we have not found any lack of money among the Sisterhood.
No offer of compensation for all expenses connected with a child has ever
drawn them to part with her. They offer large sums for little ones who will
be useful to them. We have several times known as much as an offer of one
hundred rupees made and accepted in cases where the little child (in each
case a mere infant) was one of special promise. A letter, which incidentally
mentions the easy circumstances in which many are, may be of interest:—
"K. is a little girl in our mission school. Her mother is a favourite
Temple woman high up in the profession. She dances while the other
women sing, and sometimes she gets as much as three or four hundred
rupees for her dancing. She is well educated, can recite the 'Ramayana'
(Indian epic), and knows a little English. She spends some time in her own
house, but is often away visiting other Temples. Just now she is away, and
little K. is with her. . . . Humanly speaking, she will never let her go."
The education of the mission school is appreciated
because it makes the bright little child still brighter; and we, The Pressure
Tells
who know the home life of these children, are glad when
they are given one brief opportunity to learn what may help them in the
difficult days to come. We have known of some little ones who, influenced
by outside teaching, tried to escape the life they began to feel was wrong,
but in each case they were overborne, for on the side of the oppressors there
was power. I was in a Temple house lately, and noticed the doors—the
massive iron-bossed doors are a feature of all well-built Hindu houses of
the South. How could a little child shut up in such a room, with its door
shut, if need be, to the outside inquisitive world—how could she resist the
strength that would force the garland round her neck? She might tear it off
if she dared, but the little golden symbol had been hidden under the flowers,
and the priest had blessed it; the deed was done—she was married to the

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god. And only those who have seen the effect of a few weeks of such a life
upon a child, who has struggled in vain against it, can understand how
cowed she may become, how completely every particle of courage and
independence of spirit may be caused to disappear; and how what we had
known as a bright, sparkling child, full of the fearless, confiding ways of a
child, may become distrustful and constrained, quite incapable of taking a
stand on her own account, or of responding to any effort we might be able
to make from outside. It is as if the child's spirit were broken, and those
who know what she has gone through cannot wonder if it is.
And then comes something we dread more: the life begins to attract. The
sense of revolt passes as the will weakens; the persistent, steady pressure
tells. And when we see her next, perhaps only three months later, the child
has passed the boundary, and belongs to us no more.

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CHAPTER XXXI
And there was None to Save

Thou canst conceive our highest and our
lowest
Pulses of nobleness and aches of shame.
Frederic W. H. Myers.

I N speaking of these matters I have tried to keep far from that which is
only sentiment, and have resolutely banished all imagination. I would
that the writing could be as cold in tone as the criticism of those who
consider everything other than polished ice almost amusing—to judge by
the way they handle it, dismissing it with an airy grace and a hurting
adjective. Would they be quite so cool, we wonder, if the little wronged girl
were their own? But we do not write for such as these. The thought of the
cold eyes would freeze the thoughts before they formed. We write for the
earnest-hearted, who are not ashamed to confess they care. And yet we
write with reserve even though we write for them, because nothing else is
possible. And this crushing back of the full tide makes its fulness almost
oppressive. It is as though a flame leaped from the page and scorched the
brain that searched for words quite commonplace and quiet.
The finished product of the Temple system of education is something so
distorted that it cannot be described. But it should never be forgotten that
the thing from which we recoil did not choose to be fashioned so. It was as
wax—a little, tender, innocent child—in the hands of a wicked power when
the fashioning process began. Let us deal gently with those who least
deserve our blame, and reserve our condemnation for those responsible for
the creation of the Temple woman. Is it fair that a helpless child, who has
never once been given the choice of any other life, should be held
responsible afterwards for living the life to which alone she has been
trained? Is it fair to call her by a name which belongs by right to one who is
different, in that her life is self-chosen? No word can cut too keenly at the

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root of this iniquity; but let us deal gently with the mishandled flower. Let
hard words be restrained where the woman is concerned. Let it be
remembered she is not responsible for being what she is.
In a Canadian book of songs there is a powerful little poem about an
artist who painted one who was beautiful but not good. He hid all trace of
what was; he painted a babe at her breast.
I painted her as she might have been
If the Worst had been the Best.
And a connoisseur came and looked at the picture. To him it spoke of
holiest things; he thought it a Madonna:—
So I painted a halo round her hair,
And I sold her and took my fee;
And she hangs in the church of St. Hilaire,
Where you and all may see.
Sometimes as we have looked at the face of one whose "It Crowns
training was not complete we have seen as the artist saw: we with the
Golden
have seen her "as she might have been if the worst had been Crown"
the best." There was no halo round her hair, only its travesty
—something that told of crowned and glorified sin; and yet we could catch
more than a glimpse of the perfect "might have been." So we say, let blame
fall lightly on the one who least deserves it. Perhaps if our ears were not so
full of the sounds of the world, we should hear a tenderer judgment
pronounced than man's is likely to be: "Unto the damsel thou shalt do
nothing. . . . For there was none to save her."
Our work at Dohnavur is entirely among the little children who are
innocent of wrong. We rarely touch these lives which have been stained and
spoiled; but we could not forbear to write a word of clear explanation about
them, lest any should mistake the matter and confuse things that differ.

We leave the subject with relief. Few who have followed us so far know
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would make much of any personal cost; but that we would have it known
that nothing save a pressure which could not be resisted could force us to
touch pitch. And yet why should we shrink from it when the purpose which
compels is the saving of the children? Brave words written by a brave
woman come and help us to do it:—
"This I say emphatically, that the evil which we have grappled with to
save one of our own dear ones does not sully. It is the evil that we read
about in novels and newspapers for our own amusement; it is the evil we
weakly give way to in our lives; above all, it is the destroying evil that we
have refused so much as to know about in our absorbing care for our own
alabaster skin; it is that evil which defiles a woman. But the evil that we
have grappled with in a life and death struggle to save a soul for whom
Christ died does not sully; it clothes from head to foot with the white robe,
it crowns with the golden crown."

There remains only one thing more to show. It was evening in an Indian
town at a time of festival. The great pillared courts of the Temple were
filled with worshippers and pilgrims from all over the Tamil country and
from as far north as Benares. Men who eagerly grasped at anything printed
in Sanscrit and knew nothing of our vernacular were scattered in little
groups among the crowd, and we had freedom to go to them and give them
what we could, and talk to the many others who would listen. Outside the
moonlight was shining on the dark pile of the Temple tower, and upon the
palms planted along the wall, which rises in its solid strength 30 feet high
and encloses the whole Temple precincts. There were very few people out
in the moonlight. It was too quiet there for them, too pure in its silvery
whiteness. Inside the hall, with its great-doored rooms and recesses, there
were earth-lights in abundance, flaring torches, smoking lamps and
lanterns. And there was noise—the noise of words and of wailing Indian
music. For up near the closed doors which open on the shrine within which
the idol sat surrounded by a thousand lights, there was a band of musicians
playing upon stringed instruments; sometimes they broke out excitedly and
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Suddenly there was a tumultuous rush of every produceable sound; tom-
tom, conch-shell, cymbal, flute, stringed instruments and bells burst into
chorus together. The idol was going to be carried out from his innermost
shrine behind the lights; and as the great doors moved slowly, the
excitement became intense, the thrill of it quivered through all the hall and
sent a tremor through the crowd out to the street. But we passed out and
away, and turned into a quiet courtyard known to us and talked to the
women there.
There were three, one the grandmother of the house, one
her daughter, and another a friend. The grandmother and her The Harebell
Child
daughter were Temple women, the eldest grandchild had
been dedicated only a few months before. There were three more children,
one Mungie, a lovable child of six, one a pretty three-year-old with a mop
of beautiful curls, the youngest a baby just then asleep in its hammock; a
little foot dangled out of the hammock, which was hung from a rafter in the
verandah roof. We had come to talk to the grandmother and mother about
the dear little six-year-old child, and hoped to find their heart.
But we seemed to talk to stone, hard as the stone of the Temple tower
that rose above the roofs, black against the purity of the moonlit sky. It was
a bitter half-hour. Some hours are like stabs to remember, or like the pitiless
pressing down of an iron on living flesh. At last we could bear it no longer,
and rose to go. As we left we heard the grandmother turn to her daughter's
friend and say: "Though she heap gold on the floor as high as Mungie's
neck, I would never let her go to those degraded Christians!"
Once again it was festival in the white light of the full moon, and once
again we went to the same old Hindu town; for moonlight nights are times
of opportunity, and the cool of evening brings strength for more than can be
attempted in the heat of the day. And this time an adopted mother spoke
words that ate like acid into steel as we listened.
Her adopted child is a slip of a girl, slim and light, with the ways of a
shy thing of the woods. She made me think of a harebell growing all by
itself in a rocky place, with stubbly grass about and a wide sky overhead.
She was small and very sweet, and she slid on to my knee and whispered
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for nearly a year, and liked to tell me all she knew. "Do you go to school
now?" I asked her. She hung her head and did not answer. "Don't you go?" I
repeated. She just breathed "No," and the little head dropped lower. "Why
not?" I whispered as softly. The child hesitated. Some dim apprehension
that the reason would not seem good to me troubled her, perhaps, for she
would not answer. "Tell the Ammal, silly child!" said her foster-mother,
who was standing near. "Tell her you are learning to dance and sing and get
ready for the gods!" "I am learning to dance and sing and get ready for the
gods," repeated the child obediently, lifting large, clear eyes to my face for a
moment as if to read what was written there. A group of men stood near us.
I turned to them. "Is it right to give this little child to a life like that?" I
asked them then. They smiled a tolerant, kindly smile. "Certainly no one
would call it right, but it is our custom," and they passed on. There was no
sense of the pity of it:—
Poor little life that toddles half an hour,
Crowned with a flower or two, and then an
end!
We had come to the town an hour or two earlier, and had seen, walking
through the throng round the Temple, two bright young girls in white. No
girls of their age, except Temple girls, would have been out at that hour of
the evening, and we followed them home. They stopped when they reached
the house where little Mungie lived, and then, turning, saw us and
salaamed. One of the two was Mungie's elder sister. Little Mungie ran out
to meet her sister, and, seeing us, eagerly asked for a book. So we stood in
the open moonlight, and the little one tried to spell out the words of a text to
show us she had not forgotten all she had learned, even though she, too, had
been taken from school, and had to learn pages of poetry and the Temple
dances and songs.
The girls were jewelled and crowned with flowers, and they looked like
flowers themselves; flowers in moonlight have a mystery about them not
perceived in common day, but the mystery here was something wholly
sorrowful. Everything about the children—they were hardly more than
children—showed care and refinement of taste. There was no violent clash
of colour; the only vivid colour note was the rich red of a silk underskirt
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were draped a little at the side. The effect was very dainty, and the girls'
manners were modest and gentle. No one who did not know what the pretty
dress meant that night would have dreamed it was but the mesh of a net
made of white and gold.
But with all their pleasant manners it was evident the two girls looked
upon us with a distinct aloofness. They glanced at us much as a brilliant
bird of the air might be supposed to regard poultry, fowls of the cooped-up
yard. Then they melted into the shadow of an archway behind the moonlit
space, and we went on to another street and came upon little Sellamal, the
harebell child; and, sitting down on the verandah which opens off the street,
we heard her lessons as we have told, and got into conversation with her
adopted mother.
We found her interested in listening to what we had to say about
dedicating children to the service of the gods. She was extremely
intelligent, and spoke Tamil such as one reads in books set for examination.
It was easy to talk with her, for she saw the point of everything at once, and
did not need to have truth broken up small and crumbled down and
illustrated in half a dozen different ways before it could be understood. But
the half-amused smile on the clever face told us how she regarded all we
were saying. What was life and death earnestness to us was a game of
words to her; a play the more to be enjoyed because, drawn by the sight of
two Missie Ammals sitting together on the verandah, quite a little crowd
had gathered, and were listening appreciatively.
"That is your way of looking at it; now listen to my way.
Each land in all the world has its own customs and religion. "Now Listen
to my Way"
Each has that which is best for it. Change, and you invite
confusion and much unpleasantness. Also by changing you express your
ignorance and pride. Why should the child presume to greater wisdom than
its father? And now listen to me! I will show you the matter from our side!"
("Yes, venerable mother, continue!" interposed the crowd encouragingly.)
"You seem to feel it a sad thing that little Sellamal should be trained as we
are training her. You seem to feel it wrong, and almost, perhaps, disgrace.
But if you could see my eldest daughter the centre of a thousand Brahmans
and high-caste Hindus! If you could see every eye in that ring fixed upon
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breathe lest they should miss a point of her beauty! Ah, you would know,
could you see it all, upon whose side the glory lies and upon whose the
shame! Compare that moment of exaltation with the grovelling life of your
Christians! Low-minded, flesh-devouring, Christians, discerning not the
difference between clean and unclean! Bah! And you would have my little
Sellamal leave all this for that!"
"But afterwards? What comes afterwards?"
"What know I? What care I? That is a matter for the gods."
The child Sellamal listened to this, glancing from face to face with
wistful, wondering eyes; and as I looked down upon her she looked up at
me, and I looked deep into those eyes—such innocent eyes. Then
something seemed to move the child, and she held up her face for a kiss.
This is only one Temple town. There are many such in the South. These
things are not easy to look at for long. We turn away with burning eyes, and
only for the children's sake could we ever look again. For their sake look
again.
It was early evening in a home of rest on the hills. A
medical missionary, a woman of wide experience, was The World
turned Black
talking to a younger woman about the Temple children. She
had lived for some time, unknowingly, next door to a Temple house in an
Indian city. Night after night she said she was wakened by the cries of
children—frightened cries, indignant cries, sometimes sharp cries as of
pain. She inquired in the morning, but was always told the children had
been punished for some naughtiness. "They were only being beaten." She
was not satisfied, and tried to find out more through the police. But she
feared the police were bribed to tell nothing, for she found out nothing
through them. Later, by means of her medical work, she came full upon the
truth. . . . "Why leave spaces with dotted lines? Why not write the whole
fact?" wrote one who did not know what she asked. Once more we repeat it,
to write the whole fact is impossible.
It is true this is not universal; in our part of the country it is not general,
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But it is true beyond a doubt that inhumanity which may not be described is
possible at any time in any Temple house.
Out in the garden little groups of missionaries walked together and
talked. From a room near came the sound of a hymn. It was peaceful and
beautiful everywhere, and the gold of sunset filled the air, and made the
garden a glory land of radiant wonderful colour. But for one woman at least
the world turned black. Only the thought of the children nerved her to go
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CHAPTER XXXII
The Power behind the Work

"To Him difficulties are as nothing, and improbabilities of
less than no account."—Story of the China Inland Mission.

T HE Power behind the work is the interposition of God in answer to
prayer.
Recently—so recently that it would be unwise to go into detail—we
were in trouble about a little girl of ten or eleven, who, though not a Temple
child, was exposed to imminent danger, and sorely needed deliverance. I
happened to be alone at Dohnavur at the time, and did not know what to
answer to the child's urgent message: "If I can escape to you" (this meant if
she braved capture and its consequences, and fled across the fields alone at
night), "can you protect me from my people?" To say "Yes" might have had
fatal results. To say "No" seemed too impossible. The circumstances were
such that great care was needed to avoid being entangled in legal
complications; and as the Collector (Chief Magistrate) for our part of the
district happened just then to be in our neighbourhood, I wrote asking for an
appointment. Early next morning we met by the roadside. I had been up
most of the night, and was tired and anxious; and I shall never forget the
comfort that came through the quiet sympathy with which one who was
quite a stranger to us all listened to the story, not as if it were a mere
missionary trifle, but something worthy his attention. But nothing could be
done. It was not a case where we had any ground for appeal to the law; and
any attempt upon our part to help the child could only have resulted in more
trouble afterwards, for we should certainly have had to give her up if she
came to us.
As the inevitableness of this conclusion became more and more evident
to me, it seemed as if a great strong wall were rising foot by foot between
me and that little girl—a wall like the walls that enclose the Temples here,
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see any door in this wall. Nothing could bring that child to us but a Power
enthroned above the wall, which could stoop and lift her over it. I do not
remember what led to the question about what we expected would happen;
but I remember that with that wall full in view I could only answer, "The
interposition of God." Nothing else, nothing less, could do anything for that
child.
Her case was complicated, if I may express it so, by the
fact that though she knew very little—she had only had a Voices Blown
few weeks' teaching and could not read—she had believed on the Winds
all we told her most simply and literally, and witnessed to her own people,
whose reply to her had been: "You will see who is stronger, your God or
ours! Do you think your Lord Jesus can deliver you from our hand, or
prevent us from doing as we choose with you? We shall see!" And the case
of an older girl who had been, as those who knew her best believed,
drugged and then bent to her people's will, was quoted: "Did your Lord
Jesus deliver her? Where is she to-day? And you think He will deliver you!"
"But He will not let you hurt me," the child had answered fearlessly, though
her strength was weakened even then by thirty hours without food; and,
remembering one of the Bible stories she had heard during those weeks, she
added, "I am Daniel, and you are the lions"—and she told them how the
angel was sent to shut the lions' mouths. But she knew so little after all, and
the bravest can be overborne, and she was only a little girl; so our hearts
ached for her as we sent her the message: "You must not try to come to us.
We cannot protect you. But Jesus is with you. He will not fail you. He says,
'Fear thou not, for I am with thee.'" That night they shut her up with a
demon-possessed woman, that the terror of it might shake her faith in
Christ. Next day they hinted that worse would happen soon. Our fear was
lest her faith should fail before deliverance came.
Three and a half months of such tension as we have rarely known passed
over us. Often during that time, when one thing after another happened
contrariwise, as it appeared, and each event as it occurred seemed to add
another foot to the wall that still grew higher, help to faith came to us
through unexpected sources like voices blown on the winds.
Once it was something Lieut. Shackleton is reported to have said to
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and over again there were times when no mortal leadership could have
availed us. It was during those times that we learned that some Power
beyond our own guided our footsteps." And the illustrations which followed
of Divine interposition were such that one at least who read, took courage;
for the God of the great Ice-fields is the God of the Tropics.
Once it was a passage opened by chance in a friend's book—Pastor
Agnorum. The subject of the paragraph is the schoolboy's attitude towards
games: "Glimpses of his mind are sometimes given us, as on that day at
Risingham when you refused to play in your boys' house-match, unless the
other house excluded from their team a half-back who was under attainder
through a recent row. They declined, and you stood out of it. The hush in
the field when your orphaned team, in defiance of the odds, scored and
again scored! Their supporters, in chaste awe at the marvel, could hardly
shout: it was more like a sob: a judgment had so manifestly defended the
right. The cricket professional, a man naturally devout, looked at me with
eyes that confessed an interposition, and all came away quiet as a crowd
from a cemetery. It was not a game of football we had looked at, it was a
Mystery Play: we had been edified, and we hid it in our hearts."
And once, on the darkest day of all, it was the brave old family motto, on
a letter which came by post: "Dieu défend le droit." It was something to be
reminded that, in spite of appearances to the contrary, the kingdom is the
Lord's, and He is Governor among the people.
"Eyes that confessed an interposition." The phrase was illuminated for us
when God in very truth interposed in such fashion that every one saw it was
His Hand, for no other hand could have done it. Then we, too, looked at
each other with eyes that confessed an interposition. We had seen that
which we should never forget; and until the time comes when it may be
more fully told to the glory of our God, we have hid it in our hearts.
The reason we have outlined the story is to lead to a word we want to
write very earnestly; it is this: Friends who care for the children, and
believe this work on their behalf is something God intends should be done,
"pray as if on that alone hung the issue of the day." More than we know
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All through those months there was prayer for that child in India and in
England. The matter was so urgent that we made it widely known, and
some at least of those who heard gave themselves up to prayer; not to the
mere easy prayer which costs little and does less, but to that waiting upon
God which does not rest till it knows it has obtained access, knows that it
has the petition that it desires of Him. This sort of prayer costs.
But to us down in the thick of the battle, it was strength
to think of that prayer. We were very weary with hope "I Should
utterly have
deferred; for it was as if all the human hope in us were torn fainted but—"
out of us, and tossed and buffeted every way till there was
nothing left of it but an aching place where it had been. God works by
means, as we all admit; and so every fresh development in a Court case in
which the child was involved, every turn of affairs, where her relatives were
concerned (and these turns were frequent), every little movement which
seemed to promise something, was eagerly watched in the expectation that
in it lay the interposition for which we waited. But it seemed as if our hopes
were raised only to be dashed lower than ever, till we were cast upon the
bare word of our God. It was given to us then as perhaps never before to
penetrate to the innermost spring of consolation contained in those very old
words: "I should utterly have fainted, but that I believe verily to see the
goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Oh, tarry thou the Lord's
leisure: be strong, and He shall comfort thine heart; and put thou thy trust in
the Lord."
This Divine Interposition has been very inspiring. We feel afresh the
force of the question: "Is anything too hard for the Lord?" And we ask those
whose hearts are with us to pray for more such manifestations of the Power
that has not passed with the ages. Lord, teach us to pray!
For it has never been with us, "Come, see, and conquer," as if victory
were an easy thing and a common. We have known what it is to toil for the
salvation of some little life, and we have known the bitterness of defeat. We
have had to stand on the shore of a dark and boundless sea, and watch that
little white life swept off as by a great black wave. We have watched it drift
further and further out on those desolate waters, till suddenly something
from underneath caught it and sucked it down. And our very soul has gone
out in the cry, "Would God I had died for thee!" and we too have gone "to

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the chamber over the gate" where we could be alone with our grief and our
God—O little child, loved and lost, would God I had died for thee!
Should we forget these things? Should we bury them away lest they hurt
some sensitive soul? Rather, could we forget them if we would, and dare we
hide away the knowledge lest somewhere someone should be hurt? For it is
not as if that black wave's work were a thing of the past: it has gone on for
centuries unchecked: it is going on to-day.
Several months have passed since the chapters which precede this were
written. We are now, with some of our converts who needed rest and
change, in a place under the mountains a day's journey from Dohnavur. It is
one of the holy places of the South; for the northern tributary of the chief
river of this district falls over the cliffs at this point in a double leap of one
hundred and eighty feet, and the waters are so disposed over a great
rounded shoulder of rock that many people can bathe below in a long single
file. To this fall thousands of pilgrims come from all parts of India,
believing that such bathing is meritorious and cleanses away all sin. And as
they are far from their own homes, and in measure out on holiday, we find
them more than usually accessible and friendly. This morning I was on my
way home after talk with the women, and was turning for a moment to look
back upon the beautiful sorrowful scene—the flashing waterfall, the passing
crowd of pilgrims, the radiance of sunshine on water, wood, and rock, when
a Brahman, fresh from bathing, followed my look, and glancing at the New
Testament and bag of Gospels in my hand, smiled indulgently and asked if
we seriously thought these books and their teaching would ever materially
influence India. "Look at that crowd," and he pointed to the people, his own
caste people chiefly. "Have we been influenced?"
Then he told me the story of the Falls, how ages ago a
god, pitying the sins and the sufferings of the people, bathed Deep Calleth
unto Deep
on the ledge where the waters leap, and thereafter those
waters were efficacious to the cleansing of sin from the one who believingly
bathes. To the one who believes not, nothing happens beyond the cleansing
of his body and its invigoration. "Even to you," he added, in his
friendliness, "virtue of a sort is allowed; for do you not experience a certain
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obtainable elsewhere [which is perfectly true]? This is due to the
benevolence of our god, whose merits extend even to you."
He was an educated man; he had studied in a mission school, and
afterwards in a Government college. He had read English books, and parts
of our Bible were familiar to him. He assured me he found no more
difficulty in accepting this legend than we did in accepting the story of our
Saviour's incarnation. And then, standing in the Temple porch with its
carved stone pillars, almost within touch of the great door that opens behind
into the shrine, he led the way into the Higher Hinduism—that mysterious
land which lies all around us in India, but is so seldom shown to us. And I
listened till in turn he was persuaded to listen, and we read together from
the Gospel which transcends in its simplicity the profoundest reach of
Hindu thought: "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with
God, and the Word was God." We did not pause till we came to the end of
the paragraph. I could see how it appealed, for deep calleth unto deep; but
he rose again up and up, and that unknown part of one's being which is
more akin to the East than to the West, followed him and understood—
when the door behind us creaked, and a sudden blast of turbulent music
sprang out upon us, deafening us for a moment, and he said, "It is the
morning worship. The priests and the Servants of the gods are worshipping
within." It was like a fall from far-away heights to the very floor of things.
Then he told me how in the town three miles distant, the Benares of the
South, the service of the gods was conducted with more elaborate
ceremonial. "I could arrange for you to see it if you wished." I explained
why I could not wish to see it, and asked him about the Servants of the
gods, and about the little children. "Certainly there are little children. The
Servants of the gods adopt them to continue the succession. How else could
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CHAPTER XXXIII
If this were All

A N hour earlier three of us had stood together by the pool at the foot
of the Falls, and watched the people bathe. At the edge of the rock an
old grandmother had dealt valiantly with an indignant baby of two, whom,
despite its struggles, she bathed after prolonged preparation of divers
anointings, by holding it grimly, kicking and slippery though it was, under
what must have seemed to it a terrible hurrying horror. When at last that
baby emerged, it was too crushed in spirit to cry.
Beyond this little domestic scene was a group of half-reluctant women,
longing and yet fearing to venture under the plunging waters; and beyond
them again were the bathers, crowding but never jostling each other, on the
narrow ledge upon and over which the Falls descend. Some were standing
upright, with bowed heads, under the strong chastisement of the nearer
heavier fall; some bent under it, as if overwhelmed with the thundering thud
of its waters. Some were further on, where the white furies lash like living
whips, and scourge and sting and scurry; and there the pilgrims were hardly
visible, for the waters swept over them like a veil, and they looked in their
weirdness and muteness like martyr ghosts. Further still some were
carefully climbing the steps cut into the cliff, or standing as high as they
could go upon an unguarded projection of rock, with eyes shut and folded
hands, entirely oblivious apparently to the fact that showers of spray
enveloped them, and the deep pool lay below.
I had never seen anything quite like this: it was such a strange
commingling of the beautiful and sorrowful. The women—"fair"-skinned
Brahman women they chanced to be—were in their usual graceful raiment
of silk or cotton, all shades of soft reds, crimson, purple, blue, lightened
with yellow and orange, which in the water looked like dull fire. Their
golden and silver jewels gleamed in the sunlight, and their long black hair
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ordinary white, and the ascetics the salmon-tinted saffron of their
profession.
Then, as if to add an ethereal touch to it all, a rainbow
spanned the Falls at that moment, and we saw the pilgrims Under the
Waterfall
through it or arched by it as they stood, some at either end of
the bow where the colours painted the rock and the spray, and some in the
space between. The sun struck the forest hanging on the steeps above, and it
became a vivid thing in quick delight of greenness. It was something which,
once seen, could hardly be forgotten. The triumphant stream of white set
deep in the heart of a great horseshoe of rock and woods; the delicate,
exquisite pleasure of colour; and the people in their un-self-consciousness,
bathing and worshipping just as they wished, with for background rock and
spray, and for a halo rainbow. To one who looked with sympathy the picture
was a parable. You could not but see visions: you could not but dream
dreams.
Then from the quiet heights crept a colony of monkeys, their chatter
drowned in the roar of the Falls. On they came, wise and quaint, like the
half-heard whispers of old-time jokes. And they bathed in the mimic pools
above, as it seemed in imitation of the pilgrims, holding comical little heads
under the light trickles.
And below the scene changed as a company of widows came and
entered the Falls. They were all Brahmans and all old, and they shivered in
their poor scanty garments of coarse white. Most of them were frail with
long fasting and penance, and they prayed as they stood in the water or
crouched under its weight. Such a one had sat on the stone under the special
fall which, as the friend who had taken me observed with more forcefulness
than sentiment, "comes down like a sack of potatoes." I had tried to stand it
for a minute, but it pelted and pounded me so that less than a minute was
enough, and I moved to make room for a Brahman widow who was bathing
with me. And then she sat down on the stone, and the waters beat very
heavily on the old grey head; but she sat on in her patience, her hands
covering her face, and she prayed without one moment's intermission. How
little she knew of the other prayer that rose beside hers through the rushing
water—it was the first time I at least had ever prayed in a waterfall—"Oh,
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last and caught my hand; then, steadying herself with an effort, she felt for
the iron rod that protects the ledge, and blinded by the driving spray and
benumbed by the beat of the water, she stumbled slowly out. But the wistful
face had a look of content upon it, and her only concern was to finish the
ceremonial out in the sunshine—she had brought her little offerings of a
few flowers with her—and so, much as I longed to follow her and tell her of
the cleansing of which this was only a type, it could not have been then. Oh,
the rest it is at such a time to remember that the Lord is good to all, and His
tender mercies are over all His works.
Below the pool, in the broad bed of the stream and on its banks, all was
animation and happy simple life. Here the women were drying their
garments, without taking them off, in a clever fashion of their own. There
some were washing them in the stream. Children played about as they
willed. But in and among the throng, anywhere, everywhere, we saw
worshippers, standing or sitting facing the east, alone or in company,
chanting names for the deity, or adoring and meditating in silence.
Doubtless some were formal enough, but some were certainly sincere; and
we felt if this were all there is to know in Hinduism, the time must soon
come when a people so prepared would recognise in the Saviour and Lover
of their souls, Him for whom they had been seeking so long, "if haply they
might feel after Him and find Him."
But this is not all there is to know. Back out of sight behind the simple
joyousness of life, to which the wholesome waters and the sparkling air and
the beauty everywhere so graciously ministered, behind that wonderful
wealth of thought as revealed in the Higher Hinduism which is born surely
of nothing less than a longing after God—behind all this what do we find?
Glory of mountain and waterfall, charm and delight of rainbow in spray; but
what lies behind the coloured veil? What symbols are carved into the cliff?
Whose name and power do they represent?
This book touches one of the hidden things; would that we could forget
it! Sometimes, through these days as we sat on the rocks by the waterside,
in the unobtrusive fashion of the Indian religious teacher, who makes no
noise but waits for those who care to come, we have almost forgotten in the
happiness of human touch with the people, the lovable women and children
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And then, suddenly as we have told, we have been reminded of it. We may
not forgot it if we would. It is true that the thing we mean is disowned by
the spiritual few, but to the multitude it is part of their religion. "Of course,
Temple women must adopt young children; and they must be carefully
trained, or they will not be meet for the service of the gods." So said the
Brahman who only a moment before had led me into the mystic land, deep
within which he loves to dwell: what does the training mean?
A fortnight ago the friend to whom the child is dear took
me to see the little girl described in a letter from an Indian To-morrow,
How will it
sister as "a little dove in a cage." I did not find that she Be?
minded her cage. The bars have been gilded, the golden
glitter has dazzled the child. She thinks her cage a pretty place, and she
does not beat against its bars as she did in the earlier days of her captivity.
As we talked with her we understood the change. When first she was taken
from school the woman to whose training her mother has committed her
gave her polluting poetry to read and learn, and she shrank from it, and
would slip her Bible over the open page and read it instead. But gradually
the poetry seemed less impossible; the atmosphere in which those vile
stories grew and flourished was all about her; as she breathed it day by day
she became accustomed to it; the sense of being stifled passed. The process
of mental acclimatisation is not yet completed, the lovely little face is still
pure and strangely innocent in its expression; but there is a change, and it
breaks the heart of the friend who loves her to see it. "I must learn my
poetry. They will be angry if I do not learn it. What can I do?" And again,
"Oh, the stories do not mean anything," said with a downward glance, as if
the child-conscience still protested. But this was a fortnight ago. It is worse
with that little girl to-day; there is less inward revolt; and to-morrow how
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CHAPTER XXXIV
"To Continue the Succession"

F OR to-morrow holds no hope for these children so far as our power to
save them to-day is concerned. It will be remembered that we felt we
could do more for them by working quietly on our own lines than by
appealing to the law; but lately, fearing lest we were possibly doing the law
an injustice by taking it for granted that it was powerless to help us, we
carefully gathered all the evidence we could about three typical children:
one a child in moral danger, though not in actual Temple danger; another
the adopted child of a Temple woman; the third a Temple woman's own
child: and we submitted this evidence to a keen Indian Christian barrister,
and asked for his advice.
L., the first child he deals with, the little "dove in the cage," is in charge
of a woman of bad character, by the consent and arrangement of her mother.
The mother speaks English as well as an Englishwoman, and her eldest son
is studying for his degree in a Government college. Although Temple
service is not intended, the proposed life is such that a similar course of
training as that to which the Temple child is subjected, is now being carried
on. This is the barrister's reply to my letter:—
"I have carefully perused the statements of the probable witnesses. L.'s
mother is not a Temple woman, and the foster-mother also is not a Temple
woman. The law of adoption relating to Temple women does not apply to
them. The foster-mother, therefore, can have no legal claim to the child. But
the mother has absolute control over the bringing-up of the child, and it
would not be possible in the present state of the law to do anything for the
child now."
S. This is the little one who whispered her texts to me in the moonlight,
and whose foster-mother told her to tell me she was being trained for the
Service of the gods. She is evidently destined to be a Temple woman. "The
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is the adopted mother, or if she could successfully plead adoption of the
child, the Civil Courts will be powerless to help. If we can get some reliable
evidence that the child has not been adopted" (this is impossible) "we may
be able to induce the British Courts to interfere on her behalf and say she
shall not be devoted to Temple service until she attains her majority; but it
would not be possible to induce the Courts to hand the child over to the
Mission."
K., the little girl whose own mother is a Temple woman. She has been
taught dancing, which to our mind was conclusive proof of her mother's
intentions. To make sure we asked the question, to which the following is
the reply: "No children of [good] Hindu parents are taught dancing. Even
the lowest caste woman thinks it beneath her dignity to dance, excepting
professional devil-dancers, who are generally old women, mostly widows,
of an hysterical temperament. When young children of women of doubtful
character are taught dancing, it means they are going to be married to the
idol. When children of Temple women are taught dancing the presumption
is all the greater. But the difficulty in the case of K. is to get one who has
higher claims to guardianship than the mother. In the case of a Temple
woman's child there is no one.
"It is this which makes it impossible for the well-wishers of the children
to interfere. . . . The law punishes only the offence committed and not the
intent to commit, or even the preparation, unless it amounts to an attempt
under the Penal Code."
. . . . .
Bluebeards are not an institution in England; but if they "We have no
were, and if one of the order were known to possess a Right to
Interfere"
cupboardful of pendent heads, would Englishmen sit quiet
while he whetted his butcher's knife quite calmly on his doorstep? Would
they say as he sat there in untroubled assurance of safety, feeling the edge
of the blade with his thumb, and muttering almost audibly the name of his
intended victim, "We have no right to interfere, he is only sharpening his
knife; an intent to commit, or even the preparation for crime, is not
punishable by law, unless it amounts to an attempt, and he has not
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would be. It would be found possible—who can doubt it?—to frame a new
law, or amend the old one, so as to deal with Bluebeards. And a Committee
of Vigilance would be appointed to ensure its effectual working.
Of course, the simile is absurdly inadequate, and breaks down at several
important points, and the circumstances are vastly more difficult in India
than they ever could be in England, just because India is India; but will it
not at least be admitted that the law meant in kindness to the innocent is
fatal to our purpose?—which is to save the children while they are still
innocent.
. . . . .
We do not want to ask for anything unreasonable, but it seems to us that
the law concerning adoption requires revision. In Mayne's Hindu Law and
Usage it is stated that among Temple women it is customary in Madras and
Pondicherry and in Western India to adopt girls to follow their adopted
mother's profession: and the girls so adopted succeed to their property; no
particular ceremonies are necessary, recognition alone being sufficient. In
Calcutta and Bombay such adoptions have been held illegal, but in the
Madras Presidency they are held to be legal. In a case where the validity of
such adoption was questioned, the Madras High Court affirmed it, and it has
now, "by a series of decisions, adopted the rule ;. . . which limits the
illegality of adoption to cases where they involve the commission of an
offence under the Criminal Code." This, as we have said, makes it entirely
impossible to save the child through the law before her training is complete;
and after it is complete it is too late to save her. Train a child from infancy
to look upon a certain line of life as the one and only line for her, make the
prospect attractive, and surround her with every possible unholy influence;
in short, bend the twig and keep it bent for the greater part of sixteen years,
or even only six—is there much room for doubt as to how it will grow? An
heir to the property may be required; but with the facts of life before us, can
we be content to allow the adoption of a child by a Temple woman to be so
legalised that even if it can be proved to a moral certainty that her intention
is to "continue the succession," nothing can be done?
Then as to the guardianship: again we do not want to ask
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moved to save the child (which argues that no one else has cared much
about her salvation) we should not be disqualified for guardianship on the
sole ground that we are not related? In such a case the relatives are the last
people with whom she would be safe. An order may go forth from that
nebulous and distant Impersonality, the British Government, to the effect
that a certain child is not to be dedicated to gods during her minority. But
far away in their villages the people smile at a simplicity which can imagine
that commands can eventually affect purposes. They may delay the
fulfilment of such purpose; but India can afford to wait.
We would have the law so amended, that whoever has been in earnest
enough about the matter to try to save the child from destruction, should be
given the right to protect her, if in spite of the odds against him he has
honestly fought through a case and won.
"Is it not a sad thing," writes the Indian barrister—we quote his words
because they seem to us worthy of notice at home—"that a Christian
Government is unable to legislate to save the children of Temple women? I
am sorry my opinion has made you sad. Giving my opinion as a lawyer, I
could not take an optimistic view of the matter. The law as it stands at
present is against reform in matters of this kind. Even should a good judge
take a strong view of the matter, the High Court will stick to the very letter
of the law."
So that, as things are, it comes to this: We must stand aside and watch
the cup of poison being prepared—so openly prepared that everyone knows
for which child it is being mixed. We must stand and wait and do nothing.
We must see the little girl led up to the cup and persuaded to taste it. We
must watch her gradually growing to like it, for it is flavoured and sweet.
We must not beckon to her before she has drunk of it and say, "Come to us
and we will tell you what is in that cup, and keep you safely from those who
would make you drink it"; for "any attempt to induce the child to come to
you, or any assistance given to help her to escape to you, would render you
liable to prosecution for kidnapping—a criminal offence under the Penal
Code." Any one of us would gladly go to prison if it would save the child;
but the trouble is, it would not: for the law could only return her to her
lawful guardians from whose hold we unlawfully detached her. We, not
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the cup. Does someone say that we put the case unfairly—that the law does
not forbid us to warn the child, it only forbids us to snatch her away when
the cup is merely being offered her? But remember, in our part of India at
least, these cups are not given in public. The preparation is public enough,
the bare tasting is public too; but the cup in its fulness is given in private,
and once given, the poison works with stealthy but startling rapidity. Warn
the child before she has drunk of it, and she does not understand you. Warn
her after she has drunk, and the poison holds her from heeding.
Besides, to be very practical, what is the use of warning if we may only
warn? Suppose our one isolated word weighs with the child against the
word of mother or adopted mother, and all who stand for home to her;
suppose she says (she would very rarely have the courage for any such
proposal, but suppose she does say it): "May I come to you? and will you
show me the way, for it is such a long way and I do not know how to find
it? I should be so frightened, alone in the night" (the only time escape
would be possible), "for I know they would run after me, and they can run
faster than I!" What may we say to her? What may I say to the Harebell
supposing she asks me this question? She is only six, and there are six long
miles over broken country between her home and ours. We could not find it
ourselves in the dark. But supposing she dared it all, and an angel were sent
to guide her, have we any right to protect her? None whatever. If there are
parents, or a parent, they or she have the right of parentage; if an adopted
mother, the right of adoption.[F]
We know that the law is framed to protect the good, and the rights of
parentage cannot be too carefully guarded; but to one who has not a legal
mind, but only sees a little girl in danger of her life, and has to stand with
hands tied by a law intended to deal with totally different matters, it seems
strange that things should be so. This is not the moment (if ever there is
such a moment) to choose, for deliberate lawlessness; but there are times
when the temptation is strong to break the law in the hope that, once
broken, it may be amended. Only those who have had to go through it know
what it is to stand and see that cup of poison being prepared for an
unsuspicious child.
The last sentence in the barrister's letter begins with "I
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candour to copy into a book which may come back to India: Thee we Turn
"I despair": then unto Thee we turn, O Lord our God; for
now, Lord, what is our hope? truly our hope is even in Thee: oh, help us
against the enemy; for vain is the help of man. Hath God forgotten to be
gracious? Will the Lord absent Himself for ever? O God, wherefore art
Thou absent from us for so long? Look upon the Covenant, for all the earth
is full of darkness and cruel habitations. Surely Thou hast seen it, for Thou
beholdest ungodliness and wrong. The wicked boasteth of his heart's desire.
He sitteth in the lurking-places of the villages: in the secret places doth he
murder the innocent. He saith in his heart, "God hath forgotten: He hideth
His face; He will never see it." Arise, O Lord God, lift up Thine hand! Up,
Lord, disappoint him, and cast him down; deliver the children! Show Thy
marvellous lovingkindness, Thou that art the Saviour of them which put
their trust in Thee, from such as resist Thy right hand. Thy voice is mighty
in operation: the voice of the Lord is a glorious voice. We wait for Thy
lovingkindness, O God: be merciful unto the children: O God, be merciful
unto the children, for our soul trusteth in Thee, and we call unto the Most
High God, even unto the God that shall perform the cause which we have in
hand. For Thou hast looked down from Thy sanctuary; out of heaven did
the Lord behold the earth, that He might hear the mournings of such as are
in captivity, and deliver the children appointed to death. Arise, O God,
maintain Thine own cause! Our hope is in Thee, Who helpeth them to right
that suffer wrong. The Lord looseth the prisoners. God is unto us a God of
deliverances. Power belongeth unto Thee. Our soul hangeth upon Thee:
Thou shalt show us wonderful things in Thy righteousness, O God of our
salvation, Thou that art the hope of all the ends of the earth. And all men
that see it shall say, This hath God done; for they shall perceive that it is His
work. He shall deliver the children's souls from falsehood and wrong; for
God is our King of old; the help that is done upon earth He doeth it
Himself. Sure I am, the Lord will avenge the poor, and maintain the cause
of the helpless. Why art thou so heavy, O my soul, and why art thou
disquieted within me? Oh, put thy trust in God; for I will yet praise Him
which is the help of my countenance and my God!
Are there any prayers like the old psalms in their intense sincerity? In
the times when our heart is wounded within us we turn to these ancient
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Let us pray for the children of this generation being trained now "to
continue the succession," whom nothing less than a Divine interposition can
save. The hunters on these mountains dig pits to ensnare the poor wild
beasts, and they cover them warily with leaves and grass: this sentence
about the succession is just such a pit, with words for leaves and grass. Let
us pray for miracles to happen where individual children are concerned, that
the little feet in their ignorance may be hindered from running across those
pits, for the fall is into miry clay, and the sides of the pit are slippery and
very steep.
More and more as we go on, and learn our utter inability
to move a single pebble by ourselves, and the mighty power Let us Pray
of God to upturn mountains with a touch, we realise how
infinitely important it is to know how to pray. There is the restful prayer of
committal to which the immediate answer is peace. We could not live
without this sort of prayer; we should be crushed and overborne, and give
up broken-hearted if it were not for that peace. But the Apostle speaks of
another prayer that is wrestle, conflict, "agony." And if these little children
are to be delivered and protected after their deliverance, and trained that if
the Lord tarry and life's fierce battle has to be fought—and for them it may
be very fierce—all that will be attempted against them shall fall harmless at
their feet like arrows turned to feather-down; then some of us must be
strong to meet the powers that will combat every inch of the field with us,
and some of us must learn deeper things than we know yet about the solemn
secret of prevailing prayer.

FOOTNOTES:
[F] To-day (February 16, 1912) as I go through proofs of the second edition, I
hear by post of a young girl in a distant city who lately escaped to a missionary,
and asked for what he could not give her—protection. She had to return to her
own home. In her despair, she drowned herself.

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CHAPTER XXXV
What if she misses her Chance?

"Who would be planted chooseth not the soil
Or here or there, ;. . .
Lord even so
I ask one prayer,
The which if it be granted
It skills not where
Thou plantest me, only I would be planted."
T. E. Brown.

T WO pictures of two evenings rise as I write. One is of an English
fireside in a country house. The lamps have been lighted, and the
curtains drawn. The air is full of the undefined scent of chrysanthemums,
and the stronger sweetness of hyacinths comes from a stand in the window.
Curled up in a roomy arm-chair by the fire sits a girl with a kitten asleep on
her lap. She is reading a missionary book.
The other this: a white carved cupola in the centre of a piece of water
enclosed by white walls. People are sitting on the walls and pressing close
about them in their thousands. A gorgeous barge is floating slowly round
the shrine. There is very little moon, but the whole place is alight;
sometimes the water is ablaze with ruby and amber; this fades, and a weird
blue-green shimmers across the barge, and electric lamps at the corners of
the square lend brilliancy to the scene. The barge is covered with crimson
trappings, and hundreds of wreaths of white oleander hang curtain-wise
round what is within—the god and goddess decked with jewels and
smothered in flowers. Round and round the barge is poled, and in the
coloured light all that is gaudy and tawdry is toned, and becomes only
oriental and impressive; and the white shrine in the centre reflected in the
calm coloured water appears in its alternating dimness, and shining more
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We who were at the festival, three of us laden with packets of marked
Gospels, met sometimes as we wandered about unobserved, losing
ourselves in the crowd, that we might the more quietly continue that for
which we were there; and in one such chance meeting we spoke of the
English girl by the fireside, and longed to show her what we saw; and to
show it with such earnestness that she would be drawn to inquire where her
Master had most need of her. But no earnestness of writing can do much
after all. It is true the eye affects the heart, and we would show what we
have seen in the hope that even the second-hand sight might do something;
but words are clumsy, and cannot discover to another that poignant thing
the eye has power to transmit to the heart. And it is well that it is so, for
something stronger and more consuming than human emotion can ever be
must operate upon the heart if the life is to be moved to purpose. "A moving
story" is worth little if it only moves the feelings. How far out of its selfish
track does it move the life into ways of sacrifice? That is the question that
matters. What if it cost? Did not Calvary cost? Away with the cold,
calculating love that talks to itself about cost! God give us a pure passion of
love that knows nothing of hesitation and grudging, and measuring, nothing
of compromise! What if it seem impossible to face all that surrender may
mean? Is there not provision for the impossible? "In the Old Testament we
find that in almost every case of people being clothed with the Spirit it was
for things which were impossible to them. To be filled with the Spirit means
readiness for Him to take us out of our present sphere and put us anywhere
away from our own choice into His choice for us." These words hold a
message alike for us as we meet and pass in that Indian crowd, and for the
girl by the fireside at home who wants to know her Lord's will that she may
do it, and whose heart's prayer is: "May Thy grace, O Lord, make that
possible to me which is impossible by nature."
Let us have done with limitations, let us be simply
sincere. How ashamed we shall be by and by of our "All the Way"
insincerities:—
Thy vows are on me, oh to serve Thee truly,
Pants, pants my soul to perfectly obey!
Burn, burn, O Fire, O Wind, now winnow
throughly!
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Oh that in me
Thou, my Lord, may see
Of the travail of Thy soul,
And be satisfied.
We had only a few hours to spend in the town of the Floating Festival;
and being anxious to discover how things were among the Temple
community, I spent the first hour in their quarter, a block of substantial
buildings each in its own compound, near the Temple. I saw the house from
which two of our dearest children came, delivered by a miracle; it looked
like a fortress with its wall all round, and upstairs balcony barred by a
trellis. The street door was locked as the women were at the Festival. In
another of less dignified appearance I saw a pretty woman of about twenty,
dressed in pale blue and gold, evidently just ready to go out. One of those
abandoned beings whose function it is to secure little children "to continue
the succession" was in the house, and so nothing could be attempted but the
most casual conversation. All the other houses in the block were locked as
the women were out; but I saw a new house outside, built in best Indian
style, and finely finished. It had been built for, and given as a free gift, to a
noted Temple woman.
These houses would open, in the missionary sense of the word, but not
in an afternoon. It would take time and careful endeavour to win an
entrance. Such a worker would need to be one whom no disappointment
could discourage, a woman to whom the word had been spoken, "Go, love,
;. . . according to the love of the Lord." When will such a worker come?
As I left the Temple quarter, I met my two companions who had been at
work elsewhere, and we walked together to the place of festival. Tripping
gaily along in front was a little maid with flowers in her hair. It was easy to
know who she was, there was something in the very step that marked the
light-footed Temple child. Poor little all-unconscious illustration of India's
need of God!
Later on we saw the same illustration again, lighted up like a great
transparency, the focus for a thousand eyes. For on the daïs of the barge, in
the place of honour nearest the idols, stood three women and a child. The
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with tinsel and gold; they were crowned with white flowers, wreathed
round a golden ornament like a full moon set in their dark hair; and the
effect of the whole, seen in the luminous flush of colour thrown upon them
from the shore, was as if the night sky sparkling with stars had come down
and robed them where they stood. Then when it paled, and sheet-lightning
played, as it seemed, across water and barge and shrine, the effect was
wholly mysterious. The three swaying forms—for they swayed keeping
time to the music that never ceased—resembled one's idea of goddesses
rather than familiar womenkind. To the Indian mind it was beautiful,
bewilderingly beautiful; and the simple country-folk around drew deep
breaths of admiration as they passed.
The little girl looked more human. She too was in violet silk and
spangles and gold, and her little head was wreathed with flowers. It may
have been her first Floating Festival, for she gazed about her with eyes full
of guileless wonder, and the woman beside whom she stood laid a light,
protecting hand upon her shoulder.
That little child! How the sight of her held us in pity as
the barge sailed slowly round. She was so near to us at times That Little
Child!
that we could almost have touched her when the barge came
near the wall; and yet she was utterly remote, miles of space might have
lain between; it was as if we and she belonged to different planets. And yet
our little ones who might have been as she, were so close—we could almost
feel their loving little arms round our necks at that moment—this child, how
far away she was! Had one of us set foot on the place where she stood, the
friendly thousands about us would have changed in a second into indignant
furies, and so long as the memory of such impiety remained no white face
would have been welcome at the Floating Festival.
We stood by the wall awhile and watched; the sorrow of it all sank into
us. There in the holiest place of all, according to their thinking, close to the
emblems of deity, they had set this grievous perversion of the holy and the
pure. Right on the topmost pinnacle of everything known as religious there
they had enthroned it, and robed it in starlight and crowned it as queens are
crowned. "Oh, worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness!" "One thing have
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words open chasms of contrast. God pity them; like those of old, they know
not what they do.
We came away, our books all sold and our strength of voice spent out,
for everywhere people had listened; and as we came home, strong
thanksgiving filled our hearts, thanks and praise unspeakable for the little
lives safe in our nursery, for the two especially who but for God's
interposition might have been on that barge—and oh, from the ground of
our heart we were grateful that He had not let us miss His will concerning
these little children. We thought of those special two with their dear little
innocent ways. We could not think of them on the barge. We could not bear
to think of it—again and again we thanked God, with humble adoring
thanksgiving, that He kept us from missing our chance.
But the mere thinking of that intolerable thought brought us back upon
another thought. What of that girl by the fireside? What if she misses her
chance? We know, for letters confess it, that many a life has missed its
chance. What of the woman, strong and keen, with pent-up energies waiting
for she knows not what? What of the girl by the fireside crushing down the
sense of an Under-call that will not let her rest? The work to which that Call
would lead her will not be anything great: it will only mean little humble
everyday doings wherever she is sent. But if the Call is a true Call from
heaven, it will change to a song as she obeys; and through all the afterward
of life, through all the loneliness that may come, through all the disillusions
when her "dreams of fair romance which no day brings" slip away from her
—and the usual and commonplace are all about her—then and for ever that
song of the Lord will sing itself through the quiet places of her soul, and she
will be sure—with the sureness that is just pure peace—that she is where
her Master meant her to be.
Not that we would write as if obedience must always
mean service in the foreign field. We know it is not so: we "This I wish to
do, this I
know it may be quite the opposite; but shall we not be Desire"
forgiven if we sometimes wonder how it is that with so
much earnest Church life at home, with so many evangelistic campaigns,
and conventions, there is so poor an output so far as these lands abroad are
concerned? Can it be that so many are meant to stay at home? We would
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numbers, however great the need; we would only say this: Will the girl by
the fireside, if such a one reads this book, lay the book aside, and spend an
hour alone with her Lord? Will she, if she is in doubt about His will, wait
upon Him to show it to her? Will she ask Him to fit her to obey? "And this I
wish to do, this I desire; whatsoever is wanting in me, do Thou, I beseech
Thee, vouchsafe to supply."
Forgive if we seem to intrude upon holy ground, but sometimes we see
in imagination some great gathering of God's people, and we hear them
singing hymns; and sometimes the beautiful words change into others not
beautiful, but only insistent:—
The Lord our God arouse us! We are
sleeping,
Dreaming we wake, while through the
heavy night
Hardly perceived, the foe moves on
unchallenged,
Glad of the dream that doth delay the fight.
O Christ our Captain, lead us out to battle!
Shame on the sloth of soldiers of the light!
. . . . .
Good Shepherd, Jesus, pitiful and tender,
To whom the least of straying lambs is
known,
Grant us Thy love that wearieth not, nor
faileth;
Grant us to seek Thy wayward sheep that
roam
Far on the fell, until we find and fold them
Safe in the love of Thee, their own true
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CHAPTER XXXVI
"Thy Sweet Original Joy"

Beacons of hope, ye appear!
Languor is not in your heart,
Weakness is not in your word,
Weariness not on your brow.

W ITHIN the last few months a friend, a lover of books, sent me The
Trial and Death of Socrates, translated into English by F. J.
Church. Opening it for the first time, I came upon this passage:—
Socrates: "Does a man who is in training, and who is in earnest about it,
attend to the praise and blame of all men, or of the one man who is doctor
or trainer?"
Crito: "He attends only to the opinion of the one man."
Socrates: "Then he ought to fear the blame and welcome the praise of
the one man, not the many?"
Crito: "Clearly."
And Socrates sums the argument thus: "To be brief; is it not the same in
everything?"
Surely the wise man spoke the truth: it is the same in everything. The
one thing that matters is the opinion of the One. If He is satisfied, all is
well. If He is dissatisfied, the commendation of the many is as froth.
"Blessed are the single-hearted, for they shall have much peace."
But Nature is full of pictures of bright companionship in service; the
very stars shine in constellations. This book of the skies has been opening
up to us of late. Who, to whom the experience is new, will forget the first
evenings spent with even a small telescope, but powerful enough to
distinguish double stars and unveil nebulæ? You look and see a single point

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of light, and you look again and twin suns float like globes of fire on a
midnight sea; and sometimes one flashes golden yellow and the other blue,
each the complement of the other, like two perfectly responsive friends. You
look and see a little lonely cloud, a breath of transparent mist; you look and
see spaces sprinkled with diamond dust, or something even more awesome,
reaches of radiance that seem to lie on the borderland of Eternity.
And the shining glory lingers and lights up the common day, for the
story of the sky is the story of life.
Far was the Call, and farther as I followed
Grew there a silence round my Lord and me
—
is for ever the inner story, as for ever the stars must move alone, however
close they are set in constellations or strewn in clusters; but in another sense
is it not true that there is the joy of companionship and the pure inspiration
of comradeship? God fits twin souls together like twin suns; and
sometimes, with delicate thought for even the sensitive pleasure of colour, it
is as if He arranged them so that the gold and the blue coalesce.
And we think of the places which were once blank, mere misty nothings
to us. They sparkle now with friends. Some of them are familiar friends
known through the wear and tear of life; some we shall never see till we
meet above the stars. And there the nebula speaks its word of mystery
beyond mystery, but all illuminated by the light from the other side.
In the work of which these chapters have told there has
been the wonderful comfort of sympathy and help from Another
Compelling
fellow-missionaries of our own and sister missions; and, as Influence
all who have read, understand, nothing could have been
done without the loyal co-operation of our Indian fellow-workers whose
tenderness and patience can never be described. We think of the friends in
the mission houses along the route of our long journeyings; we remember
how no hour was too inconvenient to receive us and our tired baby
travellers; we think of those who in weariness and painfulness have sought
for the little children; and we think of those who have made the work
possible by being God's good Ravens to us. We think of them all, and we
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name least worthy to be there. And now latest and nearest comfort and
blessing, there are the two new "Sitties," whose first day with us made them
one of us. What shall I render unto the Lord for all His benefits towards
me?
The future is full of problems. Even now in these Nursery days questions
are asked that are more easily asked than answered. We should be afraid if
we looked too far ahead, so we do not look. We spend our strength on the
day's work, the nearest "next thing" to our hands. But we would be blind
and heedless if we made no provision for the future. We want to gather and
lay up in store against that difficult time (should it ever come) a band of
friends for the children, who will stand by them in prayer.
There has been another compelling influence. We recognise something
in the Temple-children question which touches a wider issue than the
personal or missionary. Those who have read Queen Victoria's Letters must
have become conscious of a certain enlargement. Questions become great
or dwindle into nothingness according as they affect the honour and the
good of the Empire. We find ourselves instinctively "thinking Imperially,"
regarding things from the Throne side—from above instead of from below.
We fear exaggerated language. We would not exaggerate
the importance of these little children or their cause. We But
have said that we realise, as we did not when first this work
began, how very delicate and difficult a matter it would be for Government
to take any really effective action, and less than effective action is useless.
We recognise the value of our pledge of neutrality in religious matters, and
we know what might happen if Government moved in a line which to India
might appear to be contrary to the spirit of that pledge. It would be far
better if India herself led the way and declared, as England declared when
she passed the Industrial Schools Amendment Act of 1880, that she will not
have her little children demoralised in either Temple houses recognised as
such, or in any similar houses, such as those which abound in areas where
the Temple child nominally is non-existent. But must we wait till India
leads the way? Scattered all over the land there are men who are against this
iniquity, and would surely be in favour of such legislation as would make
for its destruction. But few would assert that the people as a whole are even
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towards Him, would, we know, sweep the iniquity out of the land as the
waters of the Alpheus swept the stable-valley clean, in the old classic story.
Oh for such a sudden flow of the River of God, which is full of water! But
must we wait until it comes? Did we wait until India herself asked for the
abolition of suttee? Surely what is needed is such legislation as has been
found necessary at home, which empowers the magistrate to remove a child
from a dangerous house, and deprives parents of all parental rights who are
found responsible for its being forced into wrong. Surely such action would
be Imperially right; and can a thing right in itself and carried out with a
wise earnestness, ever eventually do harm? Must it not do good in the end,
however agitating the immediate result may appear? Surely the one calm
answer, "It is Right," will eventually silence all protest and still all
turbulence!
Such a law, it is well to understand at the outset, will always be infinitely
more difficult to enforce in India than in England, because of the
immensely greater difficulty here in getting true evidence; and because—
unless that River of God flow through the land—there will be for many a
year the force of public opinion as a whole against us, or if not actively
against, then inert and valueless. Caste feeling will come in and shield and
circumvent and get behind the law. The Indian sensitiveness concerning
Custom will be all awake and tingling with a hidden but intense vitality;
and this, which is inevitable because natural, will have to be taken into
account in every attempt made to enforce the law. The whole situation
bristles with difficulties; but are difficulties an argument for doing nothing?
"Whoever buys hires or otherwise obtains possession of, whoever sells
lets to hire or otherwise disposes of any minor under sixteen with the intent
that such minor shall be employed or used for ;. . . any unlawful purpose or
knowing it likely that such minor will be employed or used for any such
purpose shall be liable to imprisonment up to a term of ten years and is also
liable to a fine."
But where it appeared that certain minor girls were being taught singing
and dancing and were being made to accompany their grandmother and
Temple woman to the Temple with a view to qualify them as Temple
women, it was held that this did not amount to a disposal of the minors
within the meaning of the section.

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Ought this interpretation of the Indian Penal Code to be possible? The
proof the law requires at present, proof of the sale of the child or its definite
dedication to the idol, is rarely obtainable. The fact that it is being taught
singing and dancing (although it is well known, as the barrister's letter
proves, that among orthodox Hindus such arts are never taught to little
children except when the intention is bad) is not considered sufficient
evidence upon which to base a conviction. To us it seems that the presence
of the child in such a house, or in any house of known bad character, is
sufficient proof that it is in danger of the worst wrong that can be inflicted
upon a defenceless child—the demoralisation of its soul, the spoiling of its
whole future life, before it has ever had a chance to know and choose the
good.

From the Rock, Dohnavur.

And so we write it finally as our solemn conviction that there is need for
a law like our own English law, and we add—and those who know India
know how true this sentence is—such legislation, however carefully
framed, will be a delusion, a blind, a dead letter, unless men of no ordinary
insight and courage and character are appointed to see that it is carried
out.

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God grant that these chapters, written in weakness, may yet do
something towards moving the Church to such prayer that the answer will
be, as once before, that an angel will be sent to open the doors of the prison-
house!
The frontispiece shows the rock to which we go sometimes when we feel
the need of a climb and a blow. It is associated in our minds with a story:
—"Between the passages by which Jonathan sought to go over unto the
Philistines' garrison there was a sharp rock on the one side and a sharp rock
on the other side. . . . And Jonathan said to the young man that bare his
armour: 'Come and let us go over unto the garrison of these uncircumcised:
it may be that the Lord will work for us: for there is no restraint to the Lord
to save by many or by few.' And his armour-bearer said unto him: 'Do all
that is in thine heart: turn thee, behold I am with thee according to thy
heart.'"
We have a rock to climb, and there is nothing the least romantic about it.
We shall have to climb it "upon our hands and upon our feet." It is all grim
earnest. "We make our way wrapped in glamour to the Supreme Good, the
summit," writes Guido Rey, the mountaineer, in the joy of his heart. But
later it is: "One precipice fell away at my feet, and another rose above
me. . . . It was no place for singing." Friends, we shall come to such places
on the Matterhorn of life. As we follow the Gleam wherever it leads, may
we count upon the upholding of those for whom we have written—the
lovers of little children?
And now, in conclusion, all I would say has already been
so perfectly said, that I cannot do better than copy from the "So God
maketh His
writings of two who fought a good fight and have been Precious Opal"
crowned—Miss Ellice Hopkins, brave, sensitive, soldier-
soul on the hardest of life's battlefields; and George Herbert, courtier, poet,
and saint. "Often in that nameless discouragement," wrote Miss Hopkins, as
she lay slowly dying, "before unfinished tasks, unfulfilled aims and broken
efforts, I have thought of how the creative Word has fashioned the opal,
made it of the same stuff as desert sands, mere silica—not a crystallised
stone like the diamond, but rather a stone with a broken heart, traversed by
hundreds of small fissures which let in the air, the breath, as the Spirit is
called in the Greek of our Testament; and through those two transparent

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mediums of such different density it is enabled to refract the light, and
reflect every lovely hue of heaven, while at its heart burns a mysterious spot
of fire. When we feel, therefore, as I have often done, nothing but cracks
and desert dust, we can say: So God maketh His precious opal!"
We would never willingly disguise one fraction of the truth in our desire
to win sympathy and true co-operation. There will be hours of nameless
discouragement for all who climb the rock. For some there will be the
"broken heart."
And yet there is a joy that is worth it all a thousand times—well worth it
all. Who that has known it will doubt it? This reach of water recalls it. The
palms, as we look at them, seem to lift their heads in solemn consciousness
of it. For the water-side—where we stand with those for whom we have
travailed in soul, when for the first time they publicly confess their faith in
Christ—is a sacred place to us.

THE PLACE OF BAPTISM.

Has our story wandered sometimes into sorrowful ways? To be true it
has to be sorrowful sometimes. We look back to the day of its beginning,
the day that our first little Temple child came and opened a new door to us.

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Since that time many a bitter storm
My soul hath felt, e'en able to destroy,
Had the malicious and ill-meaning harm
His swing and sway;
But still Thy sweet original joy
Sprung from Thine eye did work within my
soul,
And surging griefs when they grew bold
control,
And got the day.
It is true. Many a bitter storm has come; there have been the shock and the
darkness of new knowledge of evil, and grief beside which all other pain
pales, the grief of helplessness in the face of unspeakable wrong. But still,
above and within, and around, like an atmosphere, like a fountain, there has
been something bright, even that "sweet original joy" which nothing can
darken or quench.
If Thy first glance so powerful be
A mirth but opened and sealed up again,
What wonders shall we feel when we shall
see
Thy full-orbed love!
When Thou shalt look us out of pain,
And one aspect of Thine spend in delight,
More than a thousand worlds' disburse in
light
In heaven above!
And not alone, oh, not alone, shall we see Him as He is! There will be the
little children too.

Those who care to know how the Temple Children's work began will find
the story in "Things As They Are." Preface by Eugene Stock; 320 pp. and
Thirty-two Illustrations from Photographs taken specially for this work.

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needful now when so many are deceived, and are being deceived, as to the
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told plainly that what Paul wrote about idolaters in Rome and Corinth is
still true of idolaters in India."
"The account of native life, of the customs of the people, of the few
pleasures they enjoy, and the many sorrows that oppress them, is as
accurate as it is lucid and entertaining. It will be well to give this book
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from a soul that feels intensely the cost of the Cross. A book, indeed, for
every Christian home."—The Churchman.
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